I am so sorry to hear that Mary. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
:bigarmhug: Mary, I'm so sorry you're going through this
Danielle that is great news!!! Congrats on TWINS!
Thanks Mandy - Well, we got to see HB flickers but didn't get to hear HB on doppler. And my hunch was right, there are TWO...TWINS....I'm shaking. I'm so excited, scared, nervous...WOW it's a little overwhelming.
Danielle, that is so awesome!!! I am so happy for you! Yay for getting to see the heartbeats!
LOL....I hear you on the overwhelming part....when I was told I was having identical twins last pregnancy, I just about screamed out loud! Twins are such an amazing blessing, though and I just *know* everything will turn out perfectly for you! Congrats again!!
OMG, CONGRATS!!! I have been lurking you. I am so happy for you.
I hate to cloud this board with bad news but this morning I woke to bleeding and cramping. Went in and it wasn't good news. I am just devestated. I had a dream last night that I lost the baby. I will keep you all in my prayers and thank you so much each of you for the emotional support you have all given.
I'm really sorry to hear this....:( Please know that we are all here to support you....((HUGS))
So sorry, Mary
Congrats again, Danielle!
I am so very sorry for your loss Mary. :bigarmhug:
Is it bad that I have created an excel spreadsheet that counts down to my u/s tomorrow? Only 19 hours 53 minutes and 47 more seconds....just in case you were wondering.
Mandy - that is hilarious. I had a spreadsheet that predicted my HCG levels at my next test....when the results were WAY higher than expected, I deleted it....
Ladies I got my first beta back - 4258. I didn't make it past 400 with my chem. They're setting me up with an appt (a real one) and then an ultrasound. I'm so scared... all I can think is this discharge for this long (its been a week) can't be good. But the nurse says its fine. Omg. I don't know whether to be happy or what. Plus, my stomach hurts all the time ANYWAY and since I've been pregnant, it hasn't hurt and I know I'm supposed to be getting nausea.
My fingers will be crossed for good news. I'm not sure far along you are now but that looks like a good beta number. Some women have AF even after getting pregnant, everyone is different and our bodies don't always behave as we expect.
That is wonderful! Not everyone gets nausea while pg. Everyone and every pg is different. I never had nausea while pg. I think it would be a good idea to ask them to test your progesterone with a prior loss just in case. CONGRATULATIONS! I know this is a very nerve wracking time.
This whirlwind of emotions is crazy. I woke up today with bleeding and cramping. The blood isn't really red, definitely more than pink. Called the doc.. the receptionist transferred me to the nurse who didn't answer her phone so I left a voicemail. I don't understand why they are so stingy with the ultrasounds. I'd be right at 7 weeks so they'd definitely be able to see something. Everyone at that doc office is acting like there's nothing wrong with me and there's nothing wrong with this pregnancy. I'm worried sick that something is going to happen. The discharge that I've had for three weeks is driving me nuts. Some days it's there, some days its not - and sometimes (twice now) it's been new blood instead of old blood. I just want an ultrasound. That's it. Just show me what's going on so I can relax a little.
Is there any option to call a different office and make an appointment? At this point, I'de be so frustrated with my doctor I don't think I would be comfortable with them going forward.
The first office I went too (In sept) the doctor was HORRIBLE. They saw me on short notice when I said something was wrong, but she was a straight *****. That's the only ob/gyn near me. So I'm traveling a little bit to get to the other one. A friend recommended them. The nurse has been great with my questions - she does call back usually. But I don't understand why I can't get an ultrasound. The other office gave me an ultrasound right away when I said I was bleeding. I hate having to cold call different ob/gyn offices and say something to the tune of.. I want an ultrasound and my doctor won't give me one. Plus there's not a whole lot to choose from around here. I wish they'd listen to me.. I knew something was wrong last time and no one wanted to pay me any attention.
I just got back from my u/s and it was good news. There was a cute little bean in there and I got to see the heart flickering. It was such a relief to see that everything is progressing like it should. The tech put my due date at 9/21/2012 which would make me only 5 weeks 5 days today. I go back in 2 weeks for my physical exam. Unfortunately it will be too soon to hear the heartbeat with the doppler.
The only negative thing, which explains a lot, was that I have a hematoma, I think at my c-section scar, that will probably cause some spotting until it is gone. I am thinking that is the reason I have had the spotting so far.
I am just so excited and relieved right now. I wish I could tell the world, but that will come in about 6 more weeks. Here is a pic of my little bean.
YAY! I'm so happy for you! I've been thinking about your ultrasound for awhile now, really really hoping it was good news. Fantastic to see that it IS good news!
Talked with the nurse, she said to stop worrying (again). She did move my prenatal work up to tomorrow which leaves Friday as my ultrasound. She's soooooo sweet! I told her thank you for being so patient with me and she laughed...said no problem.
So Friday is the magic date. Fingers crossed for a good u/s.
:bigarmhug: I hope you get your answers this week
babywings-- ((((hugs)))) I really really hope someone shows you some compassion. Nothing like being scared out of your mind and not getting the help/care you need
Mandy what a gorgeous little baby congratulations!
Congrats on seeing your bean Mandy! I hope everything continues to go well!
Yippee Mandy! What a cutie :). I am so excited not only that you got to see your LO but you have an explanation for the bleeding. I'm doing my giddy dance for ya.
So... I had a papsmear and DTD on Thursday. The doctor TOLD me that I will have pink/red spotting because of the papsmear. I wake up today and there's pink/red discharge-y stuff. Could that still be from Thursday? I didn't have anything yesterday. I allow myself to have some optimism and then I start to spot red and I freak out again. However, I bled...like...a lot on last Saturday and my little bean made it through that. So anyway, can I assume this is from all the action Thursday? I hope so...
I would think if they warned you about spotting then it is normal. I wouldn't worry unless you had red heavy bleeding.
Sick and scared today. Been sick all weekend, diarrhea and vomiting. Forcing myself to eat anyway. But today my back and hamstrings started hurting. Those who know right before my last MC I got severe back pain, ended up in ER with hemmoraghic cysts that had to be removed. This is not thesame pain YET but I had this back cramping last time just prior. I have talked to dr, said rest in bed till appt tomorrow but I keep thinking maybe my body doesn't want to be pregnant which is why its taken years and medical help and I just didn't get the clue last time after the nearly 2 weeks in and out of hospitals.
I am sorry that you aren't feeling well Danielle. I hope that it is just some fluke thing. I know when I was preggo with DS I got super sick (I didn't know whether to sit on the toilet or puke in it). After about 12 hours of that I was fine. I hope that you get over whatever is bothering you and you don't have anymore issues.
Hugs Danielle. I'll be thinking of you, and waiting for your post appointment update.
So cold + severe M/S + dehydrayion = cramps
RE did US and beans are growing well with strong HBs. He prescribed nausea medicine and told me if I don't stop dropping weight he was going to hospitalize me with IV nutrition. He said once I get my MS under control he thinks Ill be fine but I have to drink as many fluids as I can tolerate. Already feeling better I think because I understand the crampin and limited today to thingsI could hold down even if it isn't much. Thanks for the comfort yesterday, I was one sick girl.
Danielle (((hugs))) I am so glad that the ultrasound went well and I hope you start feeling some relief from the ms!!
Well, I had an appointment today to check growth of my cyst or to see if it was gone now which he expected. I am beyond utterly confused. He thinks he saw a flutter but that I looked more like 6 weeks pregnant which just is not possible. I told him my o date and intercourse dates and he said he was perplexed and that I was an inigma/medical mystery. I am to go back in next wednesday but he said not to expect much since I shouldn't look only 6 weeks he doesn't feel anything good is to be expected...... just as the sting was starting to subside now I am supposed to get my hopes up to be crushed again. I am so confused. Anyone heard of anything crazy like this before?
Wow - don't know what to say Mary. I have heard of women believing they had miscarriages but the baby surviving before but with your dates off, this is truly odd. I will be thinking of you as you wait for your next appt.
I know it is personal, but do you mind sharing the dates you are talking about? Some babies just grow at different rates. :bigarmhug: I am sure this must be very stressful.
Alyssa, not too personal at all! 16/17th december were our only special "dates" and I ovulated the 21st of December so when I got the positive I was shocked because I thought I was too late! As soon as I got the positive that was it I put myself on pelvic rest till I made it past 12 weeks. I am still just totally confused and not sure why if he "thought" he saw something why he didn't look longer. I didn't see any flicker or flutter. So I am just not sure what would be going on but I guess next week we will have answers hopefully!
:bigarmhug: I hope you find answers soon.
Danielle - hope the m/s eases up! How are you feeling?
Mary - You might just have a slow-grower! KUP, I pray everything turns out okay :bigarmhug:
Danielle - I really hope that you are feeling better. I have been thinking about you.
Mary - You said earlier that you had slow growing babies, so maybe this one is too. I really hope that you find some answers soon.
AFM - Well this weekend is the weekend...this is when I would have started spotting with my m/c. I really hope that I can get through this next week with no issues. I have an appt. on Wednesday but it will be too soon to hear the heartbeat on the doppler. Hopefully I don't have to wait another month after that for my next appointment, that just seems so far away.
Also, a friend of mine who knows about the m/c told me yesterday that she is 14 weeks preggo...due 10 days after I would have been due. I am so glad that I am preggo again otherwise I don't know what I would have done. But she was super sweet and pulled me aside and told me before she made the big announcement. She was so relieved to hear that I was preggo again. Also found out there is someone else preggo at work who is about as far along as I am (I just don't know who it is yet). I hate having people the same amount pregnant as me cause then people are always comparing sizes. I am short (only 5'4" on a good day) and so my belly gets huge. Plus this is kiddo #3. If it is the person I think it is this is her first. I just don't want to hear "she is so much smaller than you" or "you must be having twins cause you are so much bigger than her". Oh yeah, I have already heard them all.
Mandy I hope more than anything you had an uneventful weekend. I know last weekend for me was the scariest one and it was such a relief to make it through.
AFM I feel like all I do is sleep, take pills and force myself to eat. The medicine has helped with the constant indigestion and gagging but still nothing smells or sounds good. I have been walking some everyday too but just so tired. At least I am putting weight on. I really didn't want my RE to IV feed me! Been reading about twin nutrition and it is very important I don't drop weight, glad my RE was so stern! Hope I feel more myself soon but I know I need to listen to my tired body and rest.
I love being on this road after a m/c...paranoia! With Alex I was just able to see/hear the HB on the first US and never would have beleived for whatever reason it can stop beating/living and took everyhing in stride, now after a mc you know something can happen, although after seeing the hb the percentage of miscarriage drastically drops...so after having somewhat of a bad dream on Fri night, I went in this morning to see the hb. Still there, teeny tiny baby. Awww. so happy though. I wish we just knew everything was ok ya know! Now dr said to come in every week so I can be put at ease i DO love my dr and nurses though. They dont care if i call them up and say i have to know and see if everything is ok. My dream wasnt even that bad but it got me thinking, it was I went in for my apt and she went to see the hb on the dinosaur of a machine all she could see were my ovaries and so i was going to go to peggy for the ultrasound on their good machine but she was gone for the day then i woke up..so it wasnt even bad but thats all it took!! and then when i went to roll over the other night i must have done it wrong and got some pain...which w my previous m/c i got that sort of pain all the time, no matter what i was doing...so anyway-alls still good....hope it stays that way!!!!
Kate - I am so glad your office is being so wonderful to you. It's hard to find doctors who are that supportive. I believe I'm lucky because my RE is a specialist and deals with alot of previous M/C patients and had an extremely kind heart but I keep hearing stories about those who are not nearly as sympathetic and supportive.
Here's to another great week for you! I can't believe you are 8 1/2 weeks already YIPPEE!
Yay Kate, I am so glad that your appointment went well today. I definitely understand how hard it is to not freak out about every little thing. I had some gas cramps this morning that had me just about doubled over (I always get these when preggo), but now after a m/c I think that something is wrong. But I am glad that your doctors are being so great to you and are helping put your mind at ease.
Yep gotta love stuff that messes with your head, you just have to try to believe everything is fine! Oy...both the dr and head nurse have been through it so they are well understanding and didnt seem inconvinienced at all when I called this a.m. and said I have to see it! They are seriously the best.
Good luck at your appointment today Mary!! I really hope that you can finally get some answers. My fingers are crossed for you.
Well, I just wanted to update with what I already knew. Now I just also believe the doc is maybe not the best doc around. There was nothing but mangled tissue just still hanging around. He said he has seen some losses take 3 weeks to complete I have mixed feelings about what to do. I feel like a d/c would for me be saying I don't want you get out. But carrying around the leftovers of what made up my little baby just isn't fun either. I don't really know what to do I just wish my body would process that things need to finish so I can think about trying again. Just feels wrong to be thinking of the next baby. I am sorry my thoughts are all over the place. Thank you for the continued support I wish you all the best and happiest pregnancies (((hugs)))
Mary - I am so very sorry for the news and hate this doctor has made this go on for so long. I hope you find peace with the decision you have to make. I personally didn't look at a D&C as not wanting to carry around the baby but as a way to complete the process so I could complete grieving for my loss.
I am so very, very sorry you are going through this. Please feel free to vent whatever you want to here. :bigarmhug::bigarmhug::bigarmhug:
So sorry, Mary :bighug:
Mary Im so sorry. i do agree with Danielle that I view it as a way to complete it and start the healing process. I also hate that the dr has made you go on so long
I am so sorry Mary. I hope that you can figure out what is best for you so that you can move on and get the closure that you need.