Hey everyone, haven't really posted here in a while, I hope that you're all doing well.
I sat down at work today and was trying to book some random days off between now and the end of summer. DH is still new at his job, and wants to take on a part-time job on top of his full-time job and therefore will not be taking vacation until it's cold again, so I figured that there isn't much sense in booking off a whole week to hang out by myself. I tried to tack an extra day on to long weekends, or took some Mondays or Fridays to make long weekends, and then I realized that the date that would have been my EDD is coming up.
April 18th falls on a Thursday, but I decided to take the day off anyways. I booked myself in for a massage, and might add something even more selfish like a facial or something. One thing I'm not prepared for though, is what should I say to DH? Should I just let the day pass like any other if he doesn't remember? I assume that he probably won't.. Should I say something now about the date coming up? I got pretty bummed out today just thinking about it, I still can't believe that if everything had gone well, that I'd be holding a baby in less than a month. I also can't believe that it's almost been a year since we started trying. I just assumed that it was going to be easy, and that I would never deal with any complications.
Ahhhhh. I was also crossing everything in hopes that we'd be pregnant again by the time the EDD came around. I wonder if it'd be easier to deal with. So far, no luck, despite impeccable timing and ideal conditions.
Sorry for the pity party.. My emotions kind of caught me off guard today.