CD 14. Was out of town last week. We did get to BD on CD 7, 12, and 13. I think we're doing better this month that we have in the past! DH and I have a calendar and I've labeled it when the most fertile week/s is/are so he has some warning about when I'll be most interested in BDing. It's working well so far!
Got news last night that 2 friends are pregnant!!! This will be #2 for one couple. It was so funny (and mildly discouraging) to hear their story. This pregnancy was completely unexpected. She wasn't on bc, but they had been "suiting up". Well, this was right after her period and they didn't have anything, but she thought it was early enough to not matter. Plus, he even "finished" elsewhere, lol! But, God obviously had a plan for them! I'm really happy for them. Maybe we can join their club soon.
Well, after a good start I flopped. We didn't bd the night of CD 14, which was fine. We didn't last night either though b/c by the time DH finished his project that was due the next day, it was 11pm. I think we were both willing, but neither wanted to make the effort. Basically, we were both really sleepy. Now I feel kind of guilty, although we've bd'd on CD 15 many times with no results. I'm hoping that the CD 7, 12, and 13 might be one of the good days for us. Although, my hopes aren't set really high. A baby now would come at a horrible time for work, so if it doesn't happen this month or next month I'll be okay emotionally. I'll save the freaking out until Nov and Dec! I may go see my doc again by Dec....
CD 22. I'd update this journal more, but I don't have a lot to say. I'm in the 2ww right now... out of town for work. We started off strong this cycle, then dwindled down. I know we can do better on our end. I did borrow my SIL's digital fertility monitor. I *may* start using that next month to confirm when I think I'm ovulating.
So, I totally forgot I was in the 2ww and had a small amaretto sour the other night. I guess it's easy to forget b/c I haven't gotten a BFP before... it's not been an issue!
ALTHOUGH, after reading someone's JE about getting a BFP after noticing her light brown spotting hadn't occurred, I checked to see if it was time for my light brown spotting. Last cycle is started by CD 23. It's CD 25 for me now... and no spotting! I'll have to make an extra effort to remember to check later... I have noticed that my boobs feel slightly tender. I don't think they always feel like this, but it's light enough that I would've brushed it off before and not remembered. So, who knows... I'm just glad to hear someone else w/ brown spotting got a bfp!
CD 26. I'm not sure if this will be my 149th post or 150th- when I get a pencil I think! I was thinking that if this cycle is THE cycle, that I'd wait and make a BFP my 150th post. We'll see what # this is when I hit submit though...
Still no signs of spotting. I'm not testing until I'm late though. The last time I tested (months ago), I was certain we were pregnant. I'll have to reread my journal to remember why I thought that. Anyway, it was a big, unnecessary let down when it wasn't positive. I've found it's better for me to not test until I'm late. No need for the added stress.
I haven't told anyone that I'm not having the light brown spotting this time. DH has been gone all weekend so far. I'll probably mention it tonight, although I hate to get our hopes up....
Tuesday is CD 28. I normally have a 28-30 day cycle, so we'll see!
Boy am I forgetful. I posted a reply to someone on another board for my 150th message. At least I finally earned a pencil!! Woot woot! So, does this open any new doors for me here at pregnancy.org??
Well, nothing new here really. I have noticed that my appetite seems unquenchable, which typically happens during AF (thank goodness my metabolism is good). Of course, I've been bored lately too b/c dh was out of town. Tomorrow's cd 28. I started on CD 28 last cycle. I'll consider testing on Wednesday, CD 30 if no AF... I told DH. We're praying this is it!
Still waiting... not so patiently though! No sign at all of AF, except for possibly my appetite. But the appetite normally gets bigger during AF, not before. I don't think that's a good indicator anyway though. I do have some CM, but it's white. I have had more than normal (i think) lately. Not sure if that means anything.
A part of me wants to test tomorrow. But, I'm going on a business trip w/ a colleague and I don't know how I could keep it a secret without being completely silent! Lol... I guess that'll be my motivation to wait until at least Wednesday. It's not like I haven't had a 30 day cycle before anyway. Hmm, Wednesday isn't good either b/c DH is away that night so we couldn't celebrate... Eh, one day at a time!
So, the last pregnancy test I had at home expires this month (yep, bought it a year ago when we started trying)... So, I figured why not use it. In the process I noticed a hint of AF coming, but if it was going to expire there was no waste involved. At least I'll know for certain in 3 minutes instead of 12 hours, which is probably when AF will arrive if she's coming.
No AF yet, but she's trying to come. I think she'll come tonight. I'm surprised she hasn't shown up today. BFN disappointment is kind of tough. I have to shrug it off quickly so I don't get emotional. I told DH that I didn't understand what the problem was... He said we need to BD more. I was happy he making a suggestion. As of right now I'm not traveling much in October, so maybe we can BD more.
CD 32, what the heck?!?
AF is not here, but she's coming, I can tell. Just get here already! This is going to tie for my longest cycle. I'm not complaining b/c 32 days isn't long, but it's been around 9 months since the last time it was this long.
I have nothing interesting to say... so bye for now!
CD 11. Nothing to report. We're not taking this month off, but we're not trying either. Too much outside stress going on (that will be gone Nov 2), and 9 months from now is bad planning... If it happens by accident, we'll be 100% happy though!
Yep, we officially skipped this month. It was hard for me around O time, but fortunately our lives were so busy that it worked out. I can't wait- our lives should calm down a little once October is done. I did just find out I'll be traveling some for work in November. I'm really hoping it's not during the time I need to be home. I think we may be okay. We both really want to do everything right next cycle. We're tired of waiting and wondering if we could've done something better. The extra bonus is knowing before Christmas! If it happened in December, we might be able to test on Christmas and find out... We'll see. I'm putting all I've got into Nov and Dec!
I tried to see what I was writing last year at this time, then realized I hadn't started a journal on pregnancy.org yet.
Signs of AF coming. LB (some red) CM starting CD 26 I think. I'm going to be traveling 11/6 - 11/8... I'm concerned that we might miss some important BD time as a result. If AF can wait to arrive until tomorrow or Sunday, that would be much better. I'd hate to think our chances declined because of work again!
Hopefully our vacation to Rome in Dec. will be around my fertile time (if we haven't gotten a BFP by then). What a cool souvenier that would be!
Yeah! Time to start trying again! I'm so excited! It's so difficult to take a month off. That really toyed with my emotions around ovulation time. But, we got through it!
Exam is over! My gut feeling says I won't get enough points to pass... part of the feeling is because I ran out of time!! Oh well... life must go on.
I'm using my SIL's fertility monitor. The sticks were expensive, so if the monitor confirms what I already *know* about my cycle, then I won't purchase more.
I'm so glad it's the weekend!
Ummmm..... I just got a phone call from my little brother saying I'm going to be an Aunt!! I was NOT expecting that to be why he called. Apparently DH knew that he and my SIL weren't preventing, but didn't tell me. That was probably smart of him, because I probably would've used it to put more pressure on us... I'm definitely happy for them. It'll be awesome having a baby in the family! The selfish part of me was wanting to have the first baby on my side, since I am the oldest. But, I realize that after trying for over a year I will need to just be happy to have a baby. DH and I are blessed to be in a position to help my brother and SIL if they need it, and spoil the new bundle of joy!
Pre-trip BD on CD 8. I'm coming home tonight, just in time! No ovulation sign yet on the fertility monitor. I expect it will show up around CD 14.
It still hasn't completely hit me that my little brother will be a dad! My SIL had only been off of BC for 2 months. She said she thought it would take a long time... I guess knowing DH and I had been trying for over a year skewed her information! I always knew my bro would have no trouble when that day came. Of course, I never thought I would have trouble either... I'm definitely excited about being an aunt again. I just became an aunt through my DH's side of the family this year. It's just raining babies now!
My family has been sweet to me about it. The new baby has nothing to do with me, but everyone knew we were trying and no one was expecting any news from my bro. A few people have said, "Oh, wouldn't it be nice if you guys had babies around the same time!" You know, it would be nice. I appreciate that everyone is sympathetic. We've been trying over a year, so no one can say "just be patient" or "the doctors won't start doing tests until after a year". The truth is, God is going to give us a baby when the timing is perfect. I never thought it would be God's plan for my little bro to have a baby first, but who cares! I just hope it's in God's plan that we have a baby. I want the perfect plan, so I'll accept God's timing.
The ClearblueEasy FM gave me an ovulation sign this morning- After we bd'd last night!!
Had a great weekend at the in-laws place. We celebrated DH's birthday just the two of us Friday, then with the family the rest of the weekend. It was nice!
We BD CD 8, 11, and 13. CD 14 the FM went from peak to high. Today it changed to low. If I really did ovulate on CD 12 or 13, then we should've covered our bases. Now we just wait and see!
CD 16 2WW!
CD 17. This is the first cycle in 2 or 3 months that we've had a chance. I can tell that I'm starting to mildly get my hopes up. DH is pretty involved too (for a guy). He helped me remember to use the FM. And when I told him the monitor said we were at low fertility, he said, "We did good then, right?" Then he asked approximately when we would have an idea if we were successful. I know he has always cared, but it helps me to not go insane when I feel like we're in the boat together. He's my best friend, and I wouldn't want to be in this boat with anyone else!
CD 20 already... time is just flying by! I suppose I would be about 10 dpo around CD 24. I won't be testing then though. I'll wait until I'm late. DH and I said, if it happens, we'd like to get a doctors visit in and make the announcement at Christmas. We may miss out on baby Christmas gifts, but being 6-8 weeks along is a little early to get gifts! It'd be an inexpensive Christmas if we let our announcement be everyone's gift, lol! We won't do that though... It'd be a wonderful gift to us to be able to make the announcement
I've had some more of the light brown cm the last 2 days. I wish I knew why. I wish I didn't feel like it's too small an issue to go to the doctor to find out why.
DH asked the other night what day I was on and when we would know something. I know it's silly, but it made me so happy!
My SIL is spotting and having some cramps. I hope she gets into the doctor today!
You can tell from the frequency of my posting this cycle that my hopes are a little up. I have no symptoms. I'm just excited because I feel we gave it a good shot.
Talked to the doctor yesterday about my weird spotting pre-AF. He didn't seem too concerned, but did say that if we wanted to do some preliminary checks that he would give DH a reference for an SA. DH "loved" me for trying to get that started. It was funny. DH said, "I wouldn't really say we've been *trying* for a full year yet..." haha... He's partially correct. I told him we didn't have to do this yet, but he should starting thinking about it. Maybe we give it 3 more months.
Although, there is a side of me that doesn't want to have it done. (I hope my comments don't offend anyone b/c they aren't meant to). DH is the last name bearer in his family. His grandmother is constantly teasing us by saying we need to have two boys to carry on the name b/c there's only been one boy for many generations now. Well, we'd love to have 2 or more boys, so no big deal there. But what if we found out DH couldn't have children? I'd hate for him to know that his family tree stopped b/c of his inability to produce viable sperm. I just wonder what good it would do us to know...
I got home from work today to something not so pleasant. My dog had a tumor removed a few days ago, so he had quite a few stitches on his side. Well, the crazy dog had gotten 3 or 4 of the stitches out! The cut where those stitches were was wide open! He was absolutely fine though. I took him to the vet who stapled the opening back together. I'm sure my dog loved that!
So, now I have the e-collar on him. I can tell he hates it and has no idea what to do. I'm just testing it out now b/c he's got to wear it while I'm at work tomorrow. Why can't he just leave well enough alone! (he does look really funny!)
CD 1. How crummy of AF to visit! And making the last cycle a 26 day cycle no less! I think that's my shortest cycle ever. I am thankful that it was over quickly though. Now we can focus on making this baby happen in Rome!!
CD 4. Almost time to use the FM again. When I get some free time I'm going to count how many cycles I've had since being on preg.org.
CD 5. Cycle 10 since I've been posting here. I had around 5 or 6 cycles before I upgraded my lurker status.
The next week or two look to be low on the stress-o-meter, except for packing for our trip! It's time for 2 weeks of bding soon!
CD 9 High Fertility on the FM! Let the bding begin
CD 11 - still high fertility on the FM. I believe last cycle I got the ovulation sign on CD 12. DH and I got a bd session in last night. It wasn't terribly romantic though. By the time I get in from visiting family, we were both tired and it was late. But, it was obvious to me that we were on the same page. Neither of us wanted to be lazy and potentially lose this cycle too.
My grandmother gave me a hug last night before I left and whispered, "Be safe in Rome and come back pregnant!" We're going to keep praying that it happens!
CD 12 - still 2 lines!! That works out great b/c we didn't bd last night (dh was writing a paper- fun), but we most likely will tonight! Just think how freaking awesome it would be if I ovulated around day 15 or 16, so we would really have a chance of conceiving in Rome! The baby would definitely implant there- how awesome!
CD 13 - peak on the fertility monitor!! Yippie! We BD'd last night DH is really going above and beyond. He had a lot of stuff he was trying to finish last night for class tonight. At 9 he came in and said (knowing I told him earlier that day I was fertile, hehe), "I'll let the dog out, then I can spend some time with you before getting back to my work." I know it doesn't sound romantic, but it was really sweet. He gave me 45 minutes He's been working too hard lately and was so tired, but made time for us. I'm not sure how late he stayed up working last night. I suspect it was 1 or 2 am. I admire how hard he works. I can honestly say I don't work that hard!
Oh and TMI- I had good ewcm yesterday!
CD 14 - peak again I hope we can get a BD session in between when we get home from work and meeting some friends around 8pm. I'm pretty sure we'll be too tired if we wait until we get back home. I wonder why we normally wait until we're in bed... we've sometimes broken out of the norm and BD'd mid day or right after work, but rarely... Oh, I know.. There are many times we're not both home until around bedtime! Fortunately, the last week and a half hasn't been that way. Maybe today will make for good timing too!!
We leave for Rome in 2 days!!!
CD 15 back to high fertility, so on the way down. I'm pretty down. I've been trying to keep us on an every other day schedule. That way DH isn't too pressured and we cover our bases. Well, CD 13 and 14 were peak fertility days. We missed both. DH got home really late on CD 13, so I didn't expect any action then. But, we had time to yesterday! He said he had a headache and just didn't feel frisky. I was so disappointed, but tried to give him a break and said, "Okay, but when we get back from hanging out tonight, be frisky!" Arriving home at midnight didn't help. So, today the fertility monitor removes my peak. We did great last cycle and it didn't work. I wanted to have another "perfect" bd cycle. Plus, the memory of the baby being conceived around our big trip... I mean, come on! DH said he'd rather wait on testing b/c he doesn't think we've given it a good shot for a year. Well, no, we've taken breaks b/c of stuff, but it has been over a year! And, I was willing to give us 2 or 3 months of really TTC before testing. I can't do any more than I'm already doing. DH knows how this works now. Just turning the TV off might help his friskiness!! I just feel kind of screwed and discouraged. I'm going to tell DH sometime this week that we've got to at least start some form of testing next month. I'm just going to get more and more discouraged. (It doesn't help when I go to get my hair cut and find out my hair stylist is 4 weeks along... and just got married this summer). Ohhh well. I'm kind of throwing a pity party and should stop. This pity will bring nothing positive to our vacation together.
CD 25 - back from Rome! It was a wonderful time. We definitely want to travel overseas again, but we might wait 2 or 3 years.
I suppose I'm in the 2ww. I've been staying positive and praying. I noticed a very tiny spot of red yesterday. I have my hopes up that it was an implantation spot!
Oh, in Rome- we got to be in the Papal Audience and the Pope touched DH's hand!!!
CD 26 - no symptoms either way. i have a sore throat and a cold, which i'm guessing would mess up my symptoms if i was having them.
i'm really excited about christmas. i love being with our families. i can imagine no great gift than that of a new family member. i'd love to be holding a new baby in my arms next year!
CD 27. My cold is still around. Lots of sneezing, blowing my nose, and some coughing. I think I had some lbcm, but not really sure. This cold could be throwing stuff off. I would say I've had no symptoms though. I'm keeping my hopes up though. Many here have had no symptoms (that they've noticed) and still gotten a BFP. For that matter, some have had "symptoms" and not had a BFP! Christmas miracles do happen....
So, I just officially decided- I want twins! My aunt has told me for years that she thought I would be the one to have them (after the two sets in my great-grandfather's family). She's never changed her suspicion, nor said it about anyone else. I've always been intrigued by the thought, but now I know, I would love to have twins.
(I'm sure this post sounds kind of silly from someone who's been ttc for over a year- yes, I'd be just as happy with one baby!)
CD 28... "No newssssssssssssssssssssssss!"
I keep hearing lots of baby references I'm sure they have nothing to do with the "reason for the season" and are all signs from God. lol....
Looks like AF is knocking. Tomorrow will become CD 1 on my Fertility Monitor. It's the last cycle's worth of sticks. I do not plan to spent another $50 on another set. So far the FM's confirmed what I already thought.
I've been wondering, after so many cycles with no bfp, maybe God has a different plan for me and dh right now. Maybe He plans to bless us with children further down the road. Maybe He has something else special right now that we (I) can't see or realize because I'm so focused on ttc. Maybe I'm spending all my focus trying to push down this door when God's already opened a door right next to it. Maybe I'm begging and begging for a "bike" when God's trying to give me a "car".... I just wish I knew how to get past the expectation of having a child now. And not just me, but society. People start wondering after a while why a professional couple married for over 4 years doesn't have a kid. And then some start judging you for not having one. I do feel like a failure sometimes even though I know that's not how this works. I just need to find a way to focus on finding what God has for DH and me right now and not focusing on ttc. We won't prevent of course, but maybe I can let it not consume me as much... This is going to take a lot of prayer.
CD 6. Typically the first day the FM asks me to use a stick. Well, the result came back with two lines... high fertility on day 6??? I'm anxious to see what it says tomorrow. We've been doing some renovating, so no bding yet. We should have some relaxing time tomorrow night though.
CD 7. 2 lines on the FM again. I really thought it was just a fluke and would've displayed only one line today. Interesting....
We Bd'd just incase this monitor isn't wacky But also b/c it was Friday night and we were home alone!
CD 9. 2 line still! Weird... I hope we have time to have an end of the year bd session, and a bd session to welcome the New Year! Which reminds me, I need to buy some cabbage and black eyed peas!
CD 10 2 lines again. Looks like I'll ovulate at approximately the same time as usual. No idea why the FM has shown 2 lines for 5 days now.
CD 12 - Peak Fertility on the FM! I was wondering when this was going to pop up! We BD'd last night too, so that's great. I haven't told DH yet about the peak. I want to see if my luck's better by not saying anything We should be okay tonight, but need to BD tomorrow night. I'll play that card then if I need to.
On another topic, life's pretty good. Making lots of progress paying off the first 20% of our house. I want to boost our retirement savings after that. Oh, and the nintendo wii is pretty fun. I think we're going to buy one, when they come back in stock, as a belated Christmas present!
CD 13 - peak again. Gotta BD tonight! We bought a Nintendo Wii last night. We had a lot of fun playing with our friend's Wii on New Years, so we decided to buy one as our Christmas present. We've gotta find a place that has one other controller in stock though! I made DH promise that the Wii wouldn't interfere with BDing and other projects around the house. Basically, it can only take up our time previously spent playing or watching tv. We'll see how that goes!
CD 14 - back to high fertility. We BD'd last night, although I felt like it all fell out before I could get my hips up. You know, the evening of CD 12 I had some weird feelings in my belly area. At first I just thought it was gas or something I ate. Later on I wondered if it could've been ovulation pains. I did get peak fertility the next day (13) on the FM. We BD'd on 11 and 13, so hopefully we covered our bases. Since tonight is Friday I may be able to catch DH and have a little fun again