Posted this on the Power Ladies thread, but wanted to post it here also.
I also wanted to add (WARNING- MAJOR TMI!!!!) that during all the cramps and stuff, I had to pee... so I went to the bathroom and as I was getting ready to wipe I heard a "plop"... I looked down and there was a huge piece of tissue. I'm wondering if this was the last of the fetal tissue and that's why the cramps were so bad.
So I had a bit of a scare... I had been feeling sooo good all day today, no meds... until 5pm hit. Oh man!! I was in so much pain. I took my tylenol 3 and by 8, it still was not working. I was actually in tears because I just couldn't get comfortable. My back was sore and I had some soreness on the right side (which ended up being a small attack of my blood disorder... cause it got a bit worse when we were in the ER, but it's ok now). I was doubled over in pain... couldn't eat dinner cause I was so sick to my stomach. Corey was worried and asked me to call my doctor. So, I did... he recommended I go to the ER. He said it's unusual to be in so much pain after a couple days... he was concerned about a possible ectopic. So, we went to the ER.
I was annoyed at having to wait, but once I actually got in (after triage and registration and everything) my nurse (Jen) was AWESOME!!! She was so good. Gave me warm blankets and everything. The doctor was really great, too. He did an exam, they drew some blood. He said everything looks normal, blood work came back normal (hcg was 11! gone down from 26 on Monday!!). With the hcg going down and because of what he saw with the pelvic exam (cervix was open, uterus was enlarged like it should be) he said it is not an ectopic. He thinks my severe cramps tonight were just because of trying to pass the tissue (TMI, I know... sorry).
He also thinks Tylenol 3 is a waste cause it's not strong enough... he was too funny.... I could barely understand him. Gave me a script for vicodyn (spelling??). I don't think I will fill it because, quite frankly, as I was there waiting and waiting the cramps started getting better... doesn't it just figure!
I was so scared because I was in so much pain and the meds didn't even take the edge off ... I just didn't know what was wrong. I'm so glad I went, even though now, I feel like a pansy-*** hypochondriac *sigh*
Anyway, I did find out that I'm B+, which is good... no need to worry about Rh stuff *phew* My potassium was also a bit low, but I think that's because I didn't have much water today (dehydrated).
Okay, this is really long.... sorry to babble. I just feel so relieved to know that everything looks as it should and my numbers are returning to normal!
I'm really feeling sorry for myself today *sigh* I hate feeling so down... I've been doing pretty well and then today it just hit me. I think it's partly because my SIL had an ultrasound today and they saw the baby's heartbeat and actually saw the baby moving...
I'm excited for her, don't get me wrong... I'm glad that I'm going to be an auntie again :-)
It just hurts... so badly... I just don't get why it has to be so hard to have a baby. I haven't even had to go through a whole heck of a lot (like some of you ladies)... I mean, I did get a BFP on my first medicated cycle... that should make me happy, right???? *Sigh* I guess I'm just feeling a little sorry for myself and wondering "why me"... why does everything in my life have to be such a struggle?? UGH!
Anyway... enough crying and feeling sorry for myself!!! I'm ordering myself to get back to work and focus on other things!
I'm sooo frustrated I just want to cry. I'm about to ovulate and I can't have sex until this weekend!!! UGH! My doctor wanted me to wait 3 weeks before DTD again after my m/c... *sigh* I'm having all the signs and even got a dark (not as dark as the control line) line on an OPT :-( I've never gotten that dark of a line on an OPT!! *sigh* This waiting is KILLING ME!!!
I wish I didn't have to wait... I know there are some ladies out there who don't and end up pregnant right after their m/c... I'm just torn. I want a baby so badly so I really don't want to wait, but... I also want to wait so I know that I'm totally healed and will be able to get and stay pregnant, you know? *sigh*
I HATE TTC!!!! It's so frustrating!
Thanks for the vent!
So DH is letting me get some things to remodel the bathroom!!! I think he's trying to get my mind off of TTC and the m/c! He cracks me up!! We picked up new bathroom accessories on Monday. Then last night we went and picked up our new vanity. Looked at some light fixtures. Picked up our new flooring. Looked at tiles and actually bought the tiles we are going to use as a border on the wall! Now we just need to get a new tub (trying to convince DH!!!!), buy our light fixture and finishing buying all the tile for the walls!
I'm sooo excited! I've already taken down the icky 1970's or 80's shower doors!! YESSSSSS!!! That felt so good!
Still no AF... where oh where is she??? *sigh*
I hope she comes in the next week... Well, then again... I will be out of town from Fri - Sun so maybe she should wait until Sunday or Monday to come if she doesn't show tomorrow. I will need to have CD3 workup and can't do that if I'm out of town!!!
I'm actually making my friend Jenny's wedding cake... EEK! I'm always a little nervous when I do a wedding cake. I don't want to be the cause of them having a bad day, you know???
Anyway, I need to get going... bed is calling me :-)
So, went for u/s and blood work at RE's on Thursday... he saw the beginnings of some follies!!! He prescribed Clomid (he really wanted me to do injectibles, but...). I took my first pill this morning! I did not get AF, just a week of spotting... started Monday lasted until Friday. RE said to take Clomid on Mon. regardless even if I don't get AF because of my levels and everything :-)
YEAH!!! let the craziness begin!!!
My Jenny Renny prediction:
Your reading reveals that your BFP news comes the month of October 2007 from a cycle that begins the first half of September 2007. The baby shows as a girl and her EDD/birthdate is referenced the middle of June 2008.
My updated Cheri prediction:
Actually, going to upgrade your month to be SEPT now, and as you know, either birth month, concieve month or hte month you find out in. I do not believe it will take you long at all to get pregnant again when your ready.
pics of the cake I did this past Saturday:
Anyway, I have 3 more Clomid pills left!!! YEAH!!! I take one in the am and one in the pm so I will be done tomorrow night!!! YEAH! I go for bloodwork in the morning.
I'm so hoping Cheri and Jenny are right :-)
Man my chart is SCREWY!!!! I think I O'd yesterday.... but who knows. I have an ultrasound scheduled for tomorrow morning to check the progress. We'll see what the RE says.
I just can't wait for tomorrow!
I should have stayed in bed today and not gotten up at 5am for my 6am appt!!! UGH!
I had follies, but they were small... only about 9mm :-(
I had one larger one but it was elongated... double :-(
Guess I have to wait to see what the bloodwork says this afternoon.
RE wants me to do injectibles next cycle... I don't even want to think about next cycle. This sucks!