Oki doki... after about 2 years of trying... I'm ready to vent my frustrations and keep all my obsessions in one central place My story:
I am 30 years old and have a rare blood disorder called Acute Intermittent Pophyria. This should not affect my chances for conceiving naturally, however, it does come with a lack of menses That's good and bad...
DH is 30 also... he had an SA done and all was normal *YEAH* Very happy about that!!!
So... all the cousins on my mom's side of the family have kids, except for one cousin. My maternal grandmother had a child when she was 42!!! I should not have a problem TTC, right??? *sigh* Well, I've been charting my BBT and well, my cycles are realy screwy... I don't even know if I'm really ovulating or anything.
I'm 5 ft 2 inches and REALLY need to lose some weight... so this is also my weight loss journal I'm starting at 188 lbs!!! EEEEEWWWWW! Can we say FAT?!?!?!?! I wonder how many languages I can learn the word fat in....
Anyway, I really want to have a baby!!! DH and I are finally in a good place emotionally and financially. We both have full-time jobs and we just bought our first house at the end of January. We did some renovations and we moved in president's day weekend! It is sooo nice to have my own space. We were living my with in-laws for 14mos. while DH studied/passed the bar and looked for a full-time job. They were amazing letting us stay there for so long, but we really needed to start our own life, you know?
So, I'm giving this whole TTC thing until the end of the year...if no BFP by then... I'm consulting an RE. Last year my dr. stated he could recommend an RE for us, but we just weren't ready then... I mean we were trying and would've been ecstatic if we did conceive, but we weren't ready for the "do anything to have a baby" stuff, IYKWIM????
So, here we are... TTC and trying to lose weight
So last night was a pretty good night... anyone who reads this will probably think I need my head examined, but whatever.
I had some MAJORLY heavy spotting which means AF should be here any minute!!! I was crampy and still am today... woo hoo!
Let me explain why I'm so excited... after we moved in with my in-laws, AF has been just weird... it's been super duper light. It makes me wonder if it was really AF, IYKWIM?? AF before moving into in-laws was always med/heavy... only lasted 3 days or so, but still a lot heavier than it has been. I mean can you consider it AF when you only had to wear a pantiliner??? Hmm....
So, I'm just hoping that my hormones/body are now figuring out (after a month of living in our own house) that hey, we are back to having our own space and wait... she's not as stressed anymore, so let's give her a nice good AF so she can build up a good lining for her impending BFP this cycle!!!
Okay, so that's how I'm thinking right now anyway... hee hee... we'll wait to see if AF shows in all her glory.
I'm praying so hard right now that she shows!!!
Hello to all who are reading this
And yes, I'm crazy!
So... AF has been heavier than what is has been but still not where I want it to be... oh well... I'll keep trying to lose the weight and see where that gets me
I got a prediction from Cheri:
I am seeing AUGUST and GIRL.. so that is either birht month conceive month or the motnh youf ind out in.
When it comes to your daughte,r would tell you that I see her with lighter colored hair, she also has more of a "hazel" eye colorng, possible like a blue/green coloring? Its more "two toned". I think that you will find that she is someone who is always very athletic, loves to run around, and seems to be very fast. Always having races with people in class, and usuallyc oming out first. People admire her strength, someone who seems to be a good shoulder to lean on, yet seems to gently guide people to the right conclusion on their own.
She is someone who loves to be active, seems to always be in good health and has a great metabolism. I think tha tyou will find that she also prefers to not eat alot of meat, and will be chosey about what she does. Prefers fruits and vegetables anytime hands down!
Shes a kind person, friendly, and easy going. More of a relaxed personality and rarely gets mad. It hink that you will find that when she looses her compusure and does get mad, its usually over something "serious" and is something that she should be mad about, other times, shes understanding (does not let people walk all over her)
When it comes to career paths, I see her as a maternity dr. She will be someone who is well used, enjoyed and seems to have a way with people. I would conisder her a specialist in her field.
When it ccomes to marriage I see her closer to 26 theyw ill have two girls of thei rown
GIRL- NOVEMBER - so either birth month, cocnieve month or the month you find out in.
When it comes to your second daughter, shes very much like her sister, I think tha tyou will find that they are LESS than two years apart. They are very close in age, and even closer with relationship. They have so much fun together and ask growing up, usually do everything together. best of friends.
It hink that you will find that your second daughter is even more laid back, someone who takes things as they come, and then deals with it. Never seems to worry or stress about things that she can not control and seems to be the one who deals with her own problems and not get wrapped up in anyone elses.
Shes honest, easy going, and a very likeable person. Usually has her hair back in a low pony tail, and just past her shoulders. I believe that her eyes are a darker shade than her sisters, and that they both have the same nose and smile. I think that you will find that alot of people will ask if they are twins as they will look very similar, and be practically the same height when they are done growing.
I think that you will find that shes a bit more "technical" with her wording, likes to say it like it is, and sometimes uses bigger words based on her knowledge. Shes very intelligent and verbal and just loves to read books. You will see that the level of her reading is advanced, and the things she is interested in is beyond what most kids her age like. Always loved science.
When it comes to career paths, I see her heading into the same field as her sister, but one more "step" up, and deals directly with c-sections and the like. I do believe that they work within the same office.
When it comes to marriage I see her closer to 28, they will have two girls of thei rown.
So then I asked if she saw more than 2 kids and asked about finances and stuff:
They are showing me the two children, this does not mean that there wont be more, just means that this is all they are willing to share with me at this time( I have a feeling you were aiming for DOUBLE that (4)
In regards to finances, I think that you and your husbande have differehnt ideas about finances and goals. That you both are not really huge savers, that you have money, but also have "debt" at the moment. I see this continueing for awhile, as there is not something that has "changed" as of yet, to get you guys to "alter" The way that you spend. I see you as "middle class" for the next 6 years, before something "significant" happens,a nd this relates to your husband. I do believe that he will come into some money, and will possibly be related to a "death" in the family. This is a "Siginficant" amount, that allows for some repayment of debt, and savings to "invest" I do believe that this is when your husband "shifts" in regards to the financial picture and starts looking towards the future and making sure that you guys are "set". I do see you being able to live "comfortably" when your older, and not really having to worry about it, but still making sure to stick to the "plan".
So, this is pretty exciting I've always LOVED this kind of thing!!! August here I come!!!!
If anyone is interested... her site:
Okay... so we are in the midst of flooding... AGAIN! This is the 2nd time in like 100 years that the Merrimack river has flooded... last year was the first.. it's nuts!
Anyway...I'm really hoping that I O soon... we've had some really good BD-ing!!! YEAH!
I was having some major cramping and I was talking to my mom and she said she gets that when she O's... so... hopefully.... The past couple days I have had such trouble sleeping! I don't know if it's because of the stress from work or what, but I keep waking up or I can't fall asleep to begin with... it sucks... I need my sleep!
I just want to O already... I'm hoping Cheri is right and August is my month, but I'm also kind of hoping she's wrong cause I really don't want to wait until August!!!!
-Soggy in Lowell
Okay, so I just found this on my GG site and wanted to post it here so I remember:
Size Newborn (0-2wks) Changes per day 12-16 = 196 diapers/2wks
Size 1 (2wk-3mo) Changes per day 10-12 = 825 diapers/2.5mo
Size 2 (3mo-6mo) Changes per day 10-12 = 990 diapers/ 3mo
Size 3 (6mo-9mo) Changes per day 8-10 = 810 diapers/3mo
Size 4 (9mo-12mo) Changes per day 8 = 720 diapers/3mo
Size 5 (12mo-18mo) Changes per day 6-8 = 1,260/ 6mo
Size 6 (12mo-30mo) Changes per day 6-8 = 2,548 /364 days
That's a LOT of diapers!!!
Oh! and DH said to me last night "I just want to get you pregnant so I can have a rest" WHAT?!?!?!? You mean men actually need a break from all te BDing??? Since when??? Hee hee
I think I O'd yesterday!!! I'm keeping my fingers crossed... If I O'd we have super duper timing! I hope to jump DH tonight so we can one more BD in before it's too late... well, and if I didn't O, then it will be good to get one more in
Okay... I'm so frustrated... started spotting on Thursday... nothing on Friday and a little bit yesterday... the icky brownish spotting.
Now, today.... very crampy, heavy spotting... almost like a light AF and gassy WTH is going on with my body???? Is it possible I O'd early and am now getting AF??? UGH!
Guess we are playing the waiting game now
Someone just shoot me already! *pout*
Hmmm... I think I'm on CD2 now.... my spotting got heavier yesterday and today my temps are at their usual pre-O status *sigh* This sucks!
I've been trying to stay upbeat and positive about the whole thing, but it just plain SUCKS! I'm giving it a couple more months and then... checking with my doctor to get referral for an RE
Still trying to lose weight but haven't been doing so good lately... I'm going to try harder... work has just been sooo f-ing busy lately
Anyway, that enough of my venting/B*tching
Off to do some work... UGH!
Okay.... really not taking this well Not feeling so good, my stomach is sooo upset so that could be part of the reason I'm not dealing well, but....
one of the girls at work had her 2nd baby on Friday and well, I'm very happy for her, but it just sucks that I'm not pg yet I'm just sitting here crying being a big baby about the whole damn thing... I just want to curl into a ball *sigh* but I can't... work is soooo freaking busy and my boss is out of town for 3 days.
I HATE this... I just want to have a baby... why does it have to be this hard???
So I have no idea what is going on... I'm spottinig, but my temp is still pretty high.... who knows. DH thinks my boobs feel heavier *sigh*
I've been STARVING the past couple of days... nothing seems to taste right, though