Thread: Amanda's TTC Journal (m/c 7/22)

I'm so frustrated... I'm 13DPO and got a BFN This sucks... I doubt I'm pregnant. My temps are high, but... *sigh* I wish if you weren't pregnant that your temps would be lower, you know? Then you wouldn't be playing guessing games. I'm going to go tonight and pick up from FRER's to test with tomorrow... I've been using the internet cheapies and getting nothing but snow white tests

Guess we'll wait and see what happens.

I thought I saw faint lines on my IC's yesterday... so I posted them on the "Do you see a line" board... it looks like there is something there.

I tested today with an IC and a FRER. Nothing... snow white tests! I'm hoping it's because my urine was pretty light/diluted. *sigh* My temp is still pretty up there which is great, but I'm 14DPO today and not holding out hope. I had some major cramping this morning when I woke up to pee... felt like AF was knocking on my door

Guess we shall see...

So... still getting BFN's on tests. No cramping except for a little bit on Tues and Weds. mornings. Felt like AF cramps, but lasted about 20 mins. then nothing. No cramps, no spotting.. just really sore boobs, fatigue and a feeling I'm going insane I finally had enough and called RE to get b/w done. Went for b/w today... I should have the results by afternoon. The office closes at 11:30, so I have to call then to see if they have the results. If not then Erin (the nurse, she's awesome!) will call me later on today. They are doing hcg and progesterone check. If no hcg and high progesterone, they will draw blood in a few days to test again. If low progesterone and no hcg then I can stop my prog. suppositories and get on with my life. We all know the 3rd option, but I'm not even letting myself THINK about that right now...

At least I will know today one way or the other!!!! YEAH!

I posted this on the "do you see a line board":

OMG I'm so frustrated. I just missed my doctor's call and they left a message. All they said was that the beta was negative and they want me to continue with the progesterone and if I don't get my period by Weds (the 11th) to call back and they will do another blood test. I just have one question...

WTF?!?!?!?!?!?!
*sigh* don't you think if my progesterone was lower, they'd tell me to stop my progesterone and then let AF come? They didn't leave any numbers so I have no idea if there was any hcg in my system (negative to the lab is under 25) or what my progesterone level is. I'm so frustrated... the stupid office is closed now so I can't get any answers! I left a message on the answering maching... I'm hoping someone will pick it up and give me a jingle because I have MAJOR questions.

Why would they have me continue with the progesterone suppositories?????

Thank God for left over Halloween candy!!!!
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I'm totally stress eating and I can't stop myself... this whole not knowing thing SUCKS!

Found out my numbers (thanks to my MIL who works in medical records!!!)

hcg- less than 1 (which I assumed was the case)
progesterone- 9.46... still a bit high, but much lower than at 7DPO

AF is on her way! I'm just thankful I don't have to go through the entire weekend not knowing. I just wish I knew why RE wants me to continue with prog. suppositories... strange.

At least I'm a bit calmer now Not looking forward to AF, but looking forward to another cycle!!!! woo hoo!

So... AF arrived on Monday. What a way to start a day. Monday was crazy because we also found out at work that we are being forced to take vacation from Dec. 28- Jan 1... not that I mind having time off, but come on!!!! It would be nice to take my vacation days when I WANT to take them... oh well! At least I still have a job!

Had CD3 u/s and b/w today. U/s looked good. Blood work:
E2- 33.9
Lh- 3.4
progesterone- 1.26

*sigh* I wish the numbers were better... this cycle is not starting off so good I go back on the 20th for u/s and b/w.

Today, doc talked to me about laparascopy... not sure I really want to go there, but it's something to think about. I DO have time off in December so that might be a good time to do it. Who knows... it just sucks. I get to start taking Clomid on my birthday... how fun is that??? LOL!

Hope everyone is having a great day!

Went for b/w and u/s today. U/s was good... 3 follies at 13mm and 1 at 8mm. My lining is still a bit thin, only at 4. So now I wait for the blood work. Thank GOD the office is closing early today so I'll have my b/w results by lunch time!!!

So things are looking good so far... let's hope the numbers look good too!

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Got my numbers back:

E2- 104.2
Lh- 9.0
FSH- 7.1
don't know progesterone level... they had to re-do everyone's progesterone

I'm happy with these numbers. Last cycle at this time, my E2 was 98, so that's promising

I go back on Monday for another u/s and b/w... YEAH!!! I can't wait for Monday!!!

Progesterone from Friday- 0.56... not great, but oh well.

Today I had u/s and b/w- 1 follie on left at 15mm, lining is at 5mm. I have some smaller follies, but not sure if they will turn into anything.

We will be staying home for Turkey day... I'm going to miss my mom and the rest of my family, but staying home gives us more options.

Bloodwork results to come

B/w from Monday (CD15):
E2- 176
Lh- 4.6
progesterone- 1.17

I had another u/s and b/w today (CD17)... it was good... my lining is at 8mm! woo hoo! AND the follie on the left is now at 21mm!!!!!!!!!!! I can't wait to get my blood work results today. Possible that I'm going for IUI tomorrow... how fun would that be? Then I can call my little bean "Turkey"... LOL. I know, I'm crazy TTC will do that to you!!!!

I'll update when I get my b/w results this afternoon!

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E2- 277.2
Lh- 8.6
progesterone- 0.34

So I had an IUI on Friday (CD19).. don't have my b/w results. Doc said he'd call if things didn't look good... I didn't get a call, so I'm assuming things were fine

DH's count was 60 million! doc was happy as he said anything over 20 million is good! Go DH!!!! YEAH!

Last night my boobs started hurting, so that's a good sign I start progesterone tonight... fun fun fun! I just want this TWW to get over with... QUICK!!!!