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Amanda's TTC Journal (m/c 7/22)

Oki doki... after about 2 years of trying... I'm ready to vent my frustrations and keep all my obsessions in one central place Smile My story:

I am 30 years old and have a rare blood disorder called Acute Intermittent Pophyria. This should not affect my chances for conceiving naturally, however, it does come with a lack of menses Sad That's good and bad...

DH is 30 also... he had an SA done and all was normal *YEAH* Very happy about that!!!

So... all the cousins on my mom's side of the family have kids, except for one cousin. My maternal grandmother had a child when she was 42!!! I should not have a problem TTC, right??? *sigh* Well, I've been charting my BBT and well, my cycles are realy screwy... I don't even know if I'm really ovulating or anything.

I'm 5 ft 2 inches and REALLY need to lose some weight... so this is also my weight loss journal Smile I'm starting at 188 lbs!!! EEEEEWWWWW! Can we say FAT?!?!?!?! I wonder how many languages I can learn the word fat in....

Anyway, I really want to have a baby!!! DH and I are finally in a good place emotionally and financially. We both have full-time jobs and we just bought our first house at the end of January. We did some renovations and we moved in president's day weekend! It is sooo nice to have my own space. We were living my with in-laws for 14mos. while DH studied/passed the bar and looked for a full-time job. They were amazing letting us stay there for so long, but we really needed to start our own life, you know?

So, I'm giving this whole TTC thing until the end of the year...if no BFP by then... I'm consulting an RE. Last year my dr. stated he could recommend an RE for us, but we just weren't ready then... I mean we were trying and would've been ecstatic if we did conceive, but we weren't ready for the "do anything to have a baby" stuff, IYKWIM????

So, here we are... TTC and trying to lose weight Smile

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Okay, I think I finally got my darn blinkie figured out and linked okay....

YEAH!

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So last night was a pretty good night... anyone who reads this will probably think I need my head examined, but whatever.

I had some MAJORLY heavy spotting which means AF should be here any minute!!! I was crampy and still am today... woo hoo!

Let me explain why I'm so excited... after we moved in with my in-laws, AF has been just weird... it's been super duper light. It makes me wonder if it was really AF, IYKWIM?? AF before moving into in-laws was always med/heavy... only lasted 3 days or so, but still a lot heavier than it has been. I mean can you consider it AF when you only had to wear a pantiliner??? Hmm....

So, I'm just hoping that my hormones/body are now figuring out (after a month of living in our own house) that hey, we are back to having our own space and wait... she's not as stressed anymore, so let's give her a nice good AF so she can build up a good lining for her impending BFP this cycle!!!

Okay, so that's how I'm thinking right now anyway... hee hee... we'll wait to see if AF shows in all her glory.

I'm praying so hard right now that she shows!!!

Hello to all who are reading this Smile

And yes, I'm crazy!

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So... AF has been heavier than what is has been but still not where I want it to be... oh well... I'll keep trying to lose the weight and see where that gets me Smile

I got a prediction from Cheri:

I am seeing AUGUST and GIRL.. so that is either birht month conceive month or the motnh youf ind out in.

When it comes to your daughte,r would tell you that I see her with lighter colored hair, she also has more of a "hazel" eye colorng, possible like a blue/green coloring? Its more "two toned". I think that you will find that she is someone who is always very athletic, loves to run around, and seems to be very fast. Always having races with people in class, and usuallyc oming out first. People admire her strength, someone who seems to be a good shoulder to lean on, yet seems to gently guide people to the right conclusion on their own.

She is someone who loves to be active, seems to always be in good health and has a great metabolism. I think tha tyou will find that she also prefers to not eat alot of meat, and will be chosey about what she does. Prefers fruits and vegetables anytime hands down!

Shes a kind person, friendly, and easy going. More of a relaxed personality and rarely gets mad. It hink that you will find that when she looses her compusure and does get mad, its usually over something "serious" and is something that she should be mad about, other times, shes understanding (does not let people walk all over her)

When it comes to career paths, I see her as a maternity dr. She will be someone who is well used, enjoyed and seems to have a way with people. I would conisder her a specialist in her field.

When it ccomes to marriage I see her closer to 26 theyw ill have two girls of thei rown

GIRL- NOVEMBER - so either birth month, cocnieve month or the month you find out in.
When it comes to your second daughter, shes very much like her sister, I think tha tyou will find that they are LESS than two years apart. They are very close in age, and even closer with relationship. They have so much fun together and ask growing up, usually do everything together. best of friends.

It hink that you will find that your second daughter is even more laid back, someone who takes things as they come, and then deals with it. Never seems to worry or stress about things that she can not control and seems to be the one who deals with her own problems and not get wrapped up in anyone elses.

Shes honest, easy going, and a very likeable person. Usually has her hair back in a low pony tail, and just past her shoulders. I believe that her eyes are a darker shade than her sisters, and that they both have the same nose and smile. I think that you will find that alot of people will ask if they are twins as they will look very similar, and be practically the same height when they are done growing.

I think that you will find that shes a bit more "technical" with her wording, likes to say it like it is, and sometimes uses bigger words based on her knowledge. Shes very intelligent and verbal and just loves to read books. You will see that the level of her reading is advanced, and the things she is interested in is beyond what most kids her age like. Always loved science.

When it comes to career paths, I see her heading into the same field as her sister, but one more "step" up, and deals directly with c-sections and the like. I do believe that they work within the same office.

When it comes to marriage I see her closer to 28, they will have two girls of thei rown.

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So then I asked if she saw more than 2 kids and asked about finances and stuff:

They are showing me the two children, this does not mean that there wont be more, just means that this is all they are willing to share with me at this time( I have a feeling you were aiming for DOUBLE that (4)

In regards to finances, I think that you and your husbande have differehnt ideas about finances and goals. That you both are not really huge savers, that you have money, but also have "debt" at the moment. I see this continueing for awhile, as there is not something that has "changed" as of yet, to get you guys to "alter" The way that you spend. I see you as "middle class" for the next 6 years, before something "significant" happens,a nd this relates to your husband. I do believe that he will come into some money, and will possibly be related to a "death" in the family. This is a "Siginficant" amount, that allows for some repayment of debt, and savings to "invest" I do believe that this is when your husband "shifts" in regards to the financial picture and starts looking towards the future and making sure that you guys are "set". I do see you being able to live "comfortably" when your older, and not really having to worry about it, but still making sure to stick to the "plan".
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So, this is pretty exciting Smile I've always LOVED this kind of thing!!! August here I come!!!!

If anyone is interested... her site:
http://www.angelfire.com/magic2/predictions/otherforumpredictions.html

-Amanda

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Okay... so we are in the midst of flooding... AGAIN! This is the 2nd time in like 100 years that the Merrimack river has flooded... last year was the first.. it's nuts!

Anyway...I'm really hoping that I O soon... we've had some really good BD-ing!!! YEAH!

I was having some major cramping and I was talking to my mom and she said she gets that when she O's... so... hopefully.... The past couple days I have had such trouble sleeping! I don't know if it's because of the stress from work or what, but I keep waking up or I can't fall asleep to begin with... it sucks... I need my sleep!

I just want to O already... I'm hoping Cheri is right and August is my month, but I'm also kind of hoping she's wrong cause I really don't want to wait until August!!!!

-Soggy in Lowell

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Okay, so I just found this on my GG site and wanted to post it here so I remember:

Size Newborn (0-2wks) Changes per day 12-16 = 196 diapers/2wks
Size 1 (2wk-3mo) Changes per day 10-12 = 825 diapers/2.5mo
Size 2 (3mo-6mo) Changes per day 10-12 = 990 diapers/ 3mo
Size 3 (6mo-9mo) Changes per day 8-10 = 810 diapers/3mo
Size 4 (9mo-12mo) Changes per day 8 = 720 diapers/3mo
Size 5 (12mo-18mo) Changes per day 6-8 = 1,260/ 6mo
Size 6 (12mo-30mo) Changes per day 6-8 = 2,548 /364 days

That's a LOT of diapers!!!

Oh! and DH said to me last night "I just want to get you pregnant so I can have a rest" WHAT?!?!?!? You mean men actually need a break from all te BDing??? Since when??? Hee hee

I think I O'd yesterday!!! I'm keeping my fingers crossed... If I O'd we have super duper timing! I hope to jump DH tonight so we can one more BD in before it's too late... well, and if I didn't O, then it will be good to get one more in Smile

-Amanda

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Okay... I'm so frustrated... started spotting on Thursday... nothing on Friday and a little bit yesterday... the icky brownish spotting.

Now, today.... very crampy, heavy spotting... almost like a light AF and gassy Sad WTH is going on with my body???? Is it possible I O'd early and am now getting AF??? UGH!

Guess we are playing the waiting game now Sad
Someone just shoot me already! *pout*

-Amanda

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Hmmm... I think I'm on CD2 now.... my spotting got heavier yesterday and today my temps are at their usual pre-O status *sigh* This sucks!

I've been trying to stay upbeat and positive about the whole thing, but it just plain SUCKS! I'm giving it a couple more months and then... checking with my doctor to get referral for an RE Sad

Still trying to lose weight but haven't been doing so good lately... I'm going to try harder... work has just been sooo f-ing busy lately Sad

Anyway, that enough of my venting/B*tching Sad

Off to do some work... UGH!
-A

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Okay.... really not taking this well Sad Not feeling so good, my stomach is sooo upset so that could be part of the reason I'm not dealing well, but....

one of the girls at work had her 2nd baby on Friday and well, I'm very happy for her, but it just sucks that I'm not pg yet Sad I'm just sitting here crying being a big baby about the whole damn thing... I just want to curl into a ball *sigh* but I can't... work is soooo freaking busy and my boss is out of town for 3 days.

I HATE this... I just want to have a baby... why does it have to be this hard???

-A

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So I have no idea what is going on... I'm spottinig, but my temp is still pretty high.... who knows. DH thinks my boobs feel heavier *sigh*

I've been STARVING the past couple of days... nothing seems to taste right, though Sad

-A

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Well, I'm on CD 11 and hopefully will be O'ing soon... the only problem is:

DH is in ARIZONA until Friday! UGH!! We BD on Sunday and Monday (he left early Tuesday) and we will BD when he gets back until I can confirm either no O or O... hopefully O!!

I had a rough weekend...my SIL told me on Friday and that her and her DBF were going to start trying *sigh* I just know she will get her BFP before me, but, after a long talk with DH and a long talk with myself... I'm okay now Smile I'm very happy for her and I know she will be a great mom! I will just be happy that I will have another niece/nephew to spoil rotten Smile

I guess the good thing to come of all this at DH is really on board now with the whole baby thing... he was only half-heartedly into it the past year or so... I mean we haven't been preventing for about 2 years and I've only been charting for about a year, but I mean how did he expect to get pregnant when we'd only BD like once around the time I was supposed to be O'ing!! But now he is sooo on the bandwagon Smile This past month was great with the BDing- just wish my body would cooperate!!!

I'm gonna give it another couple months and then I will go to the Doc to see what the next step is... possible Clomid.. hopefully I can take that... or go to see an RE. In the meantime I'm still trying to lose some weight, which hasn't gone so well so far, but I'm still trying Smile

So, I guess I'm really only on Cycle 2 of super duper trying, right??? That should make me feel better... hee hee, yeah right!

Hopefully I will get that BFP before August Smile
-Amanda

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Okay it's CD16 and no O yet Sad I think I might be O'ing today which is GREAT, but we shall see what happens.

I also called my Doctor to see about what I need to do to get a prescription for Clomid as it seems I am not ovulating correctly. I checked the American Porphyria Foundation and it is okay for me to take Smile YEAH! I was sooo afraid I wouldn't be able to take it because of the porphyria. Now I'm just waiting for the call to see what needs to be done.

I'm EXHAUSTED today... my eyes are all droopy and I totally can't keep them open! UGH! I'm also incredibly thirsty. I've had 2 bottles of water so far and about ready to start my 3rd... and I'm still soooo thirsty!

I'm praying for O today... we have great timing if I O today Smile woo hoo!

I'm also going to start checking my cervical position... I figure it can't hurt to have one more fertility sign being charted, right?? Also, going to talk to Corey about getting some Ovulation tests and possibly some Pre-seed. *sigh* we'll see... I told him to do some research on Clomid and make sure he'll be able to put up with me... ha ha ha ha!!! I don't care... I want a BABY!!!!

-A

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Okay, just heard from nurse... they can't prescribe Clomid... I would need to see an RE. She's talking with doctor and will call me back with information... ie- do I need to come in for a physical or whatever.

Will update when I get more information.

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Okay, got the call from the nurse... have RE name and number, need to call tomorrow and make an appt.

Called insurance: YEAH! they will pretty much pay for everything and I just pay co-pays Smile woo hoo!

So, wish me luck Smile
-Amanda

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Okay so I have an appt. with Dr. Hughes at Lowell General (yeah for being like 2 mins down the road) for May 31st at 6:30am... yes, I said 6:30 am! He only sees fertility patients between 6-7am!!! UGH! Good thing it's not far! I'm so not a morning person!

They are sending me information that I have to read/fill-out by the appt. I also have printed my FF charts so I can bring them with me Smile

So, I was talking to my brother today and told him what was going on... he thinks I'm crazy to want a child so badly. He's just in a different place because he has a daughter!! *sigh* Oh, and yesterday I was talking to my mom and told her about how I was going to make an appt... she flat out told me that I should not be thinking about having a baby until I lose some weight... WTF?!?!?!?! I'm freaking 30 years old, yes, I'm a little fat, but there are women out there chunkier than me (my mother included when she had my brother and I) that have kids *sigh* Seriously... I'm not going to wait any longer to have a kid! Especially because I want more than 1... after 35, I mean, well, we all know the odds and statistics *sigh* Aggravating...

Okay, enough venting already. I'm just excited I have the appointment and I didn't have to wait MONTHS for it Smile Just a few short weeks... yeah, who am I kidding... it's gonna be torture waiting that long Smile

My MIL says Dr. Hughes is the man to see re: fertility, so I guess that's a good thing Smile

I guess I have to go get some work done now. I can't wait for DH to get home so I can jump him... even though I think I already ovulated, but whatever Smile

-Amanda

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so I'm really liking my chart this month Smile I actually O'd and my temps are somewhat stable and going up Smile

No symptoms...my boobs usually hurt after O until I get AF, but the hurt disappeared on Saturday and it's been gone ever since!!! I'm soooo tire today, but that could be because I worked until 11pm last night Sad Still went to bed at my normal time, but.... well, I guess we shall wait and see!!!

-A

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Still liking my temps Smile they are doing a funky stair stepping pattern!! woo hoo... every 2 days it goes up! I'm hoping it goes up again tomorrow!!

I think I might test this afternoon... I know, I know... it's really early, but I have such a POAS addiction... if I do it today, then I should be able to hold out until the weekend or early next week.

-A

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So... temp down yesterday and today it's back up there!!! woo hoo!!!! I'm doing a happy dance!!!

I tested today, but BFN... I think I "might" see a line, but who am I kidding... I always see lines Smile hee hee!!

If I just implanted yesterday then it is a bit early to be testing... but I'll be testing for the next couple of days... oh sugar, Corey is home on the weekends though... hmm... well, I think he's working Sunday so I can test then!!! One day wait won't kill me, right??

My day time temps have been really good too! Normally they are high 97's... this week they've been mid 98!!! Today it was 98.7!! I know I shouldn't get too excited, but I am!!

Even if it's not a BFP this month, I still have my appt. at the end of the month to look forward to!!

Okay, I'm off to work... I've been such a procrastinator today!

-A

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sooo... yesterday I tested and had faint positives on a Dollar Tree test and on a FRER. Tested today- NADA on FRER and a big fat NOT PREGNANT on a digital! AND... the witch showed about 15 minutes ago!! fun fun.

But, I'm actually in a really good/positive mood! I had a 26 day cycle last cycle and this cycle it was 30... I think my cycles are finally straightening out after 1.5 years... I think a lot of it had to do with living with the in-laws (ie- living under someone else's roof and living in the basement 24/7). But since we moved to our own place, my cycles have been better Smile YEAH YEAH YEAH!!!

And... I have my appt. next Thursday with the fertility specialist Smile I'm still hoping Cheri is right and August is it for conceive month... really don't want it to be the birth month cause then I'd have to wait until like Dec/January to conceive... YIKES! I don't want to wait that long!!!!

-A

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Okay, what I thought was the witch... wasn't. It just happened once when I went to the bathroom... a gob of creamy CM with some red Sad

But I'm pretty sure she is on the way as she always starts with some spotting!! I just want her to get here already!!!!

Today I woke up with heartburn really bad.. UGH! sucky!

-A

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So here I am at 24 DPO and got a HUGE temp spike today... wondering now if FF has the O date wrong... quite possibly I O'd yesterday??? But no fertile CM in sight and no sex drive what so ever!!! UGH! Tested... BFN!

Well, I have my appt tomorrow so, we'll see what he says! I'm nervous and excited about tomorrow... I want to know what's going on, but yet I don't, KWIM??? UGH!

Is it tomorrow yet????

-A

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So, I had my appt with Dr. Hughes this morning... Had an internal and physical. He said everything looks healthy. He is concerned about possible endometriosis and/or PCOS. He sent me for some bloodwork and depending on what my levels are, that will point out the best treatment option. So, I have to call back at 3-ish today.

He did say that I should try to get some of this weight gone... so now that the Dr has said it... I've got to get focused!!!! I know I need to lose some weight.

There were so many options for "what ifs" that I'm not going to name them all... I'm gonna wait to see what the bloodwork comes back and what they say the options are and go from there.

I'm praying for somewhat normal levels!!!
-A

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Forgot to add that he thinks I'm not ovulating correctly or at all! I had a feeling.. I've had the feeling since I started charting... some of my charts do show a temp. shift though so I don't know....

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So used my first progesterone suppository last night Smile No ill effects so far!! woo hoo!!

I'm keeping my fingers crossed that this darn stuff works and doesn't make me have an attack!!!

-A

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So, the progesterone worked really well!!!! By the 4th day, near late afternoon I started some red spotting... same thing happened on the 5th day (I actually had some tissue come out) so the 6th day when it happened, I called the doc. They told me to stop taking the Progesterone (this was on a Thurs). They scheduled me to come in on Tues. morning for blood work and ultrasound to see what's going on... I don't think they expected me to get my period!

Well, Friday morning... HORRID cramps! Friday afternoon.... AF!!!! woo hoooo!! It was late so I didn't call the doc's office, figured I call on Monday morning.... so... fast forward to Monday morning.

Call the doc at a little after 7am... told them what was going on and they said they wanted me in their ASAP for bloodwork. Well, I got there and they ended up doing an trans-vaginal ultrasound, too. Fun fun when you have your period and it's heavy... ICK!!!!

So... he said I have 2 options. Clomid (he originally said 150mg) and injectibles (FSH). I wanted to check with the insurance company- they said everything would be covered but just wanted to double check... Thank God I did!!!! Stupid insurance... it's ONLY covered if the meds are given at the Dr's office... they would be 100% covered. If I get them through a pharmacy (which I'd have to do b/c my Dr's office doesn't hand out meds) I'd have to pay 100%, not just my copay Sad UGH! So after fighting with the insurance company.... (I wanted to do the injectibles b/c doc said he thinks that is my best option)

So... 1 round of Clomid (paid out of pocket) and then go to the injectibles next cycle. Hopefully, I won't need the injectibles, but.... we shall see.

I found a nice person at the insurance company who found a way to possibly get me the injectibles without having to pay, so I'm waiting to see if that goes through!

I started my Clomid yesterday morning... so far no ill-effects.. I do feel O pain so that's kind of weird... didn't think that would happen for a couple days yet. OH! And when I picked up my script at CVS, I was only charged my copay of $10... hmm.... makes me wonder if I'll be getting a bill for the rest!

So, anyway... I take the Clomid until Saturday night... CD5-9. Saturday morning, I go to Lowell General for bloodwork and Monday I call the docs office for the results. I'm praying to God everything works out okay and I actually O!!! My temps are wicked high already so I'm really wondering if it will show a shift when I O... *sigh* Guess it's just the waiting game now!!!!

Can't wait for the BD marathon!!! AND I hope my freaking OPKs that I ordered last Sunday get here SOON!!! They said 5-10 business days so 10 would be Friday.... Just in time for the party!!!

-Amanda

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So I got my OPK's on Saturday Smile YEAH!

Went for my bloodwork Saturday, called on Monday... they scheduled me to come in this morning. So, I went this morning... thinking the worst.

BUT.... they did the ultrasound and I have follies!!!! YEAH!!!! One on my left (the biggest) is about 12mm... he said he would like to see 18-20 because of the Clomid (normal 16-18), but it's a little early. Follies grow 1-2 mm a day, so I'm assuming sometime over the weekend I'll be O'ing!!!! YEAH YEAH YEAH!!!! I'm so freaking excited! He did say that it could really happen any time... sometimes your body just decides your ready and grows the follie by like 4mm in one day!!!

So, I have to call at 2:30 for bloodwork...if my levels are not too high, I will be going for another ultrasound this weekend!!! I'm so freaking excited!

I was dreading going there today... I actually had nightmares! I didn't wan to hear him say "sorry, the drugs don't seem to be working".

*phew* I really just think my body needed a kick in the pants!

OH! We found out that Ashley is expecting! I'm sooo happy for her, but a little sad at the same time. I wish it was me!!! I really can't wait to be an auntie again, though!!! She's due at the end of February!!! YEAH!!! I think it's a girl!

Smile
-A

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So I have another ultrasound scheduled for Monday morning and some more blood work. DH and I have a BD marathon coming this weekend... starting tonight Smile YEAH!!!!

My O pains are getting more painful...I guess that's a good thing... it's not excruciating or all the time... it's just a little cramp every now and again, but it's increasing in intensity. woo hoo!!!

Grow follies grow! I want you to be at 18-20 on Monday if I don't O before then!!!

I'm going to Babies R Us with Ashley tonight Smile YEAH! She's so excited and I'm so excited for her! I really hope I get pg soon so her and I have babies close in age Smile

-A

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So... ultrasound this morning.... doc said previously that we won't do the hcg trigger until the follie is 18-20... well, WE ARE DOING THE TRIGGER TODAY!!!! wooo hooooo!!!! I'm so freaking excited!!! When he was doing the ultrasound he said "now this is what we like to see" Smile So, they did some bloodwork, I have to call at 2:30 for the results. If I'm O'ing on my own, no hcg trigger and insemination tomorrow morning.... if not O'ing then I get the hcg trigger shot today between 4-6 pm and then insemination on Weds. morning!!! Oh man am I so excited!

It's finally happening!!! I thought today would NEVER get here!

I kind of hope I get the trigger shot cause then I can POAS to see what a pos pregnancy test looks like Lol too funny! I really don't want the shot though... I want my body to do what it is supposed to do!!!!

YEAH!!!! I'll be back to update as soon as I get my results!

-A

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So, I did end up having to get the trigger shot Smile God bless my MIL!!! She was great!

So, now the waiting begins... I have the IUI scheduled for Weds. morning... DH and I will BD tonight and then nothing until after the IUI on Weds.

EEEEEK!!! It's finally happening!

-Amanda

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Okay, had IUI on Weds and bloodwork. The IUI wasn't bad... a little uncomfortable and some cramping for a couple hours, but not bad. DH and I were bad though... we played hooky and went to the beach! We really needed a day to relax, regroup and just enjoy each other. It was soo nice... hot and sweaty (like 97 degrees plus humidity!!!) I felt like I was in Florida!!!

So, we get home and there is a message from the docs office. I called... they recommended another IUI. Today I went for my 2nd IUI... it made me soooo crampy I was almost in tears! UGH! Also went for bloodwork but they were having trouble finding my vein Sad I feel like a pincushion!!! I'm sooo emotional today and everything just makes me want to cry... got to LOVE the hcg trigger!!! UGH!

So.... just called the doctor's office for my bloodwork results. YEAH! Everything looks good! I've been ordered to DTD with DH tonight Smile I start the Progesterone suppositories on Saturday and I go for blood work on July 5th between 7:30 and 8 am.

YEAH! Finally, it's happening!!! Wish me luck Smile
-A

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Okay.... so... I realized today that this is going to be the LONGEST 2 weeks of my life!!! UGH!!! I'm only 2 DPO and I'm totally wishing I was 12DPO!!!! At least next week had a Holiday in it so it's a 4 day work week... then I'm off to NY for my brother and step-sister's graduation parties.

I really hope the time goes by quick!!!
-A

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Okay, so 6DPO... really sore nips! It started on Friday or Saturday but started getting worse on Sunday and they've continued to be ouchie! I was cramping on Sunday and yesterday... not so much today. Very tired yesterday and today. Since Sunday things have been tasting strange... this sometimes happens to me anyway so I'm not counting it as a symptom!! HAHAHAHA, yeah right!!! My mouth just feels dry.

OH!!! My HPT today was just barely positive, so that means the hcg is pretty much out of my system so I can start testing for real!!! woo hoo! I'm going to start on Friday, I think. I'll only be 9DPO, but that's okay. If I get a BFN, well, I know it's too early! I will be out of town this weekend so I really want to test before I leave... then I will test again on Monday and everyday until either AF or BFP!!! YEAH!

I'm soooo bored... I want today to be over so Corey and I can spend teh 4th together... then I have one day of work and then off on Friday to go to NY!!!

-Amanda

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UGH... got my progesterone results. Only 9.8... I know it's not horrible, but all the info on the net says they like to see 15 for a medicated cycle!

At least I know I ovulated... that's a good thing Smile

Wish my prog was higher though!!!!
-Amanda

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So I posted this on the March 08 board... I edited it so I only have the most important info Smile

so... 12DPO, tested this morning, BFN but my temps are still pretty good.

Cramps: everyone talks about getting AF type cramps.. well, my cramps started shortly after O and they felt like AF cramps, but now they are different. Can anyone describe what their cramps feel like? My AF cramps kind of feel like a burning, like an irritation on your skin but inside... does that make any sense?? As of probably last Weds. my cramps kind of feel like bad gas pains They are a little bit stonger than AF cramps and don't last as long.. just a couple throughout the day, usually a little bit worse at night.

Boobs: my nipples were soresensitive after hcg trigger and everything... now they are not sore/sensitive, but my boobs are sore underneath... progressively getting a little more sore each day (this started around 7DPO). Nothing else though, no veins or color change or anything. Anyone else have this??

Tastebuds: I haven't had any food aversions or anything like that... I just can't seem to taste anything unless it's really strong (ie- today I just HAD to have French onion dip) and things taste overly salty to me. It's just weird... has anyone ever had this??

Cotton mouth: starting a few days after O, I've had a really really dry mouth...Even with tons of water it was still wicked dry... well up until today. Today feels normal (YEAH! I was really not liking that feeling)

I just really don't know if it's a combination of things that is making my body act strange or what I haven't really had any other things I would consider "symptoms"... I get kind of brain foggy anyway so I can't say its preggo brain. I've gotten dizzy a couple times in the past few days, but again, this is kind of normal My mom says I was born dizzy!!!

Any thoughts? I know it's early and I could still get a BFP, but I just don't feel like this is the cycle so I'm looking for rational explanations of why these things are happening Could it be the drugs???

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And to top it off, since yesterday I've been CRAVING fried chicken!!!! We actually went to KFC last night for supper so DH wouldn't have to listen to me complain... nothing else sounds good right now except for fried chicken!!! I haven't eaten fried chicken in a LONG LONG time!!! Craziness! And then today I was craving french onion dip... again, something I haven't had in a long time!

Tonight I'm boiling... I seriously feel like I'm gonna keel over cause I'm so hot. My temp (1/2 hour ago) was 99.4!!! WTF?!?!?!?! If I'm not pregnant I'm seriously going to be sooo mad! I mean why does your body have to play tricks??

I had a horrible night sleep last night... I kept waking up Sad then was up at like 6:30 and couldn't fall back to sleep! I ended up taking a 2 hour nap today... yup, you read that right, 2 hours!!!! I feel like I could sleep more, but I know as soon as I try to fall asleep, I won't be able to Sad OR I will wake up constantly throughout the night! UGH!

I will be testing again tomorrow... and Weds. and well, everyday until I get a BFP or the darn witch shows her ugly unwanted fat face!!!

Night all!
-Amanda

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so.... I think I'm pregnant Smile

Taken this morning:

Taken just about 15min. ago... scan was done at 2 minutes:

Faint on the 2nd one, but there...woo hoo!

-Amanda

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Took many tests yesterday and they all have a faint positive Smile Called doc and went for bloodwork this morning.

OF COURSE, I took a couple more tests today Smile Line is a teensy bit darker... here's the pic

Still very faint though....Not sure if you all can even see it, but it's there! The scans were done at about 2 minutes. I'm anxiously awaiting my bloodwork results... is it 2:30 yet???? huh huh huh?!?!?!?!?!?! God, this day is going by soooo slowly!

On a good note: WE ARE GOING TO SEE HARRY POTTER TODAY!!!!!

Yes, I'm an addict Smile
-A

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Blood work confims its a BFP!!!

I have to go in on Monday for more blood work! I hope the numbers go WAY WAY up!!!

-A

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I'm such a POAS addict... I think this will be my last entry here until I TTC again Smile Check this baby out:

YEAH!!! Seeing those words pop up was PRICELESS!

Baby dust to all those TTC! Miracles DO happen!!!

-Amanda

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Well, my time away was short lived *sigh* My hcg levels on 7/16 were good... they doubled like the should have but 7/17 I started spotting... went for bloodwork and well, numbers didn't look so good.

7/11 -hcg 18 (14DPO)
7/16 -hcg 119, Progesterone 12.7
7/17 -hcg 127, Progesterone 7.11

So, I knew it was coming... The m/c started on Sunday... well, technically Sat. is when the MAJOR cramps hit but I didn't start bleeding until Sunday. Went for bloodwork yesterday morning and was okay... then WHAM! I could barely function the cramps were so bad! I called the doctor and they prescribed Tylenol 3! Thank God!! I was able to get some sleep. DH worked from home so he could take care of me Smile

Doc wants me to wait a whole month before trying again Sad WAH! I don't want to wait a whole month!!! Anyway... I should go and get some work done!

-Amanda

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So, I'm just sitting here... I should be working, but I needed a break. We have our house warming party next weekend and we have SOOOO much to do, I'm beginning to freak out a little bit!! EEEK!!!

This time has flown by so quickly! I probably need another month of non-stop work to get everything done for the party and I only have a week... well technically a week and a half, but my brother is arriving next Weds so really just a week!

At least this will keep my mind off of other things... like not being able to TTC for a whole month!! UGH!

-Amanda

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Posted this on the Power Ladies thread, but wanted to post it here also.

I also wanted to add (WARNING- MAJOR TMI!!!!) that during all the cramps and stuff, I had to pee... so I went to the bathroom and as I was getting ready to wipe I heard a "plop"... I looked down and there was a huge piece of tissue. I'm wondering if this was the last of the fetal tissue and that's why the cramps were so bad.

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So I had a bit of a scare... I had been feeling sooo good all day today, no meds... until 5pm hit. Oh man!! I was in so much pain. I took my tylenol 3 and by 8, it still was not working. I was actually in tears because I just couldn't get comfortable. My back was sore and I had some soreness on the right side (which ended up being a small attack of my blood disorder... cause it got a bit worse when we were in the ER, but it's ok now). I was doubled over in pain... couldn't eat dinner cause I was so sick to my stomach. Corey was worried and asked me to call my doctor. So, I did... he recommended I go to the ER. He said it's unusual to be in so much pain after a couple days... he was concerned about a possible ectopic. So, we went to the ER.

I was annoyed at having to wait, but once I actually got in (after triage and registration and everything) my nurse (Jen) was AWESOME!!! She was so good. Gave me warm blankets and everything. The doctor was really great, too. He did an exam, they drew some blood. He said everything looks normal, blood work came back normal (hcg was 11! gone down from 26 on Monday!!). With the hcg going down and because of what he saw with the pelvic exam (cervix was open, uterus was enlarged like it should be) he said it is not an ectopic. He thinks my severe cramps tonight were just because of trying to pass the tissue (TMI, I know... sorry).

He also thinks Tylenol 3 is a waste cause it's not strong enough... he was too funny.... I could barely understand him. Gave me a script for vicodyn (spelling??). I don't think I will fill it because, quite frankly, as I was there waiting and waiting the cramps started getting better... doesn't it just figure!

I was so scared because I was in so much pain and the meds didn't even take the edge off ... I just didn't know what was wrong. I'm so glad I went, even though now, I feel like a pansy-ass hypochondriac *sigh*

Anyway, I did find out that I'm B+, which is good... no need to worry about Rh stuff *phew* My potassium was also a bit low, but I think that's because I didn't have much water today (dehydrated).

Okay, this is really long.... sorry to babble. I just feel so relieved to know that everything looks as it should and my numbers are returning to normal!

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I'm really feeling sorry for myself today *sigh* I hate feeling so down... I've been doing pretty well and then today it just hit me. I think it's partly because my SIL had an ultrasound today and they saw the baby's heartbeat and actually saw the baby moving...

I'm excited for her, don't get me wrong... I'm glad that I'm going to be an auntie again Smile

It just hurts... so badly... I just don't get why it has to be so hard to have a baby. I haven't even had to go through a whole heck of a lot (like some of you ladies)... I mean, I did get a BFP on my first medicated cycle... that should make me happy, right???? *Sigh* I guess I'm just feeling a little sorry for myself and wondering "why me"... why does everything in my life have to be such a struggle?? UGH!

Anyway... enough crying and feeling sorry for myself!!! I'm ordering myself to get back to work and focus on other things!

-A

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I'm sooo frustrated I just want to cry. I'm about to ovulate and I can't have sex until this weekend!!! UGH! My doctor wanted me to wait 3 weeks before DTD again after my m/c... *sigh* I'm having all the signs and even got a dark (not as dark as the control line) line on an OPT Sad I've never gotten that dark of a line on an OPT!! *sigh* This waiting is KILLING ME!!!

I wish I didn't have to wait... I know there are some ladies out there who don't and end up pregnant right after their m/c... I'm just torn. I want a baby so badly so I really don't want to wait, but... I also want to wait so I know that I'm totally healed and will be able to get and stay pregnant, you know? *sigh*

I HATE TTC!!!! It's so frustrating!

Thanks for the vent!

-Amanda

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So DH is letting me get some things to remodel the bathroom!!! I think he's trying to get my mind off of TTC and the m/c! He cracks me up!! We picked up new bathroom accessories on Monday. Then last night we went and picked up our new vanity. Looked at some light fixtures. Picked up our new flooring. Looked at tiles and actually bought the tiles we are going to use as a border on the wall! Now we just need to get a new tub (trying to convince DH!!!!), buy our light fixture and finishing buying all the tile for the walls!

I'm sooo excited! I've already taken down the icky 1970's or 80's shower doors!! YESSSSSS!!! That felt so good!

-A

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testing...

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Still no AF... where oh where is she??? *sigh*
I hope she comes in the next week... Well, then again... I will be out of town from Fri - Sun so maybe she should wait until Sunday or Monday to come if she doesn't show tomorrow. I will need to have CD3 workup and can't do that if I'm out of town!!!

I'm actually making my friend Jenny's wedding cake... EEK! I'm always a little nervous when I do a wedding cake. I don't want to be the cause of them having a bad day, you know???

Anyway, I need to get going... bed is calling me Smile

-A

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So, went for u/s and blood work at RE's on Thursday... he saw the beginnings of some follies!!! He prescribed Clomid (he really wanted me to do injectibles, but...). I took my first pill this morning! I did not get AF, just a week of spotting... started Monday lasted until Friday. RE said to take Clomid on Mon. regardless even if I don't get AF because of my levels and everything Smile

YEAH!!! let the craziness begin!!!
-Amanda

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My Jenny Renny prediction:

Your reading reveals that your BFP news comes the month of October 2007 from a cycle that begins the first half of September 2007. The baby shows as a girl and her EDD/birthdate is referenced the middle of June 2008.

My updated Cheri prediction:
Actually, going to upgrade your month to be SEPT now, and as you know, either birth month, concieve month or hte month you find out in. I do not believe it will take you long at all to get pregnant again when your ready.

pics of the cake I did this past Saturday:

Anyway, I have 3 more Clomid pills left!!! YEAH!!! I take one in the am and one in the pm so I will be done tomorrow night!!! YEAH! I go for bloodwork in the morning.

I'm so hoping Cheri and Jenny are right Smile
-Amanda

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Man my chart is SCREWY!!!! I think I O'd yesterday.... but who knows. I have an ultrasound scheduled for tomorrow morning to check the progress. We'll see what the RE says.

I just can't wait for tomorrow!
-Amanda

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I should have stayed in bed today and not gotten up at 5am for my 6am appt!!! UGH!

I had follies, but they were small... only about 9mm Sad
I had one larger one but it was elongated... double Sad

Guess I have to wait to see what the bloodwork says this afternoon.

RE wants me to do injectibles next cycle... I don't even want to think about next cycle. This sucks!

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Looks like I'll be starting Progesterone tonight *sigh* My levels kind of flat lined since the last blood draw Sad How depressing!

Well, hopefully AF will be here on the 17 or 18th... how convenient... that's when I would've hit the end of 1st trimester if I didn't m/c.

I'm really not looking forward to injectibles Sad

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