Its Friday Its Friday YEAH its Friday!
There is nothing better then Friday -- except Saturday of course. Good news is that I think I have caught up with enough of the trial prepration I don't have to work ALL weekend -- maybe one day but not two. That means I get time with DH. YEAH.
I am here at CD 7 now, after 4 days of Clomid. We were supposed to do the IUI this month but I don't think that is going to happen. DH was supposed to get into HIS doc for the blood tests before my doc can do anything and DH has NOT yet done that, or called for an appointment, or even picked his doctor through insurance. Sigh.
But the Clomid could be good too. The first three months I was on it really had no side effects except my cycle was longer. Now, I do seem to have some side effects. Typcially, my AF lasts about 3-4 days. Even today, 7 days later, I am spotting a little and DEFINATELY cramping, almost like AF is here! Sucks.
O days should be coming up soon, mid of next week, so this weekend we get some fun!
I got a clear blue easy battery tester and have been turning it on every am (except I forgot this morning due to a 6:30 am meeting Grrr) but I never got the strips for it. I need to stop tonight cause I bet it will start asking for them soon.
So thats my day. Except for the cramping, feeling pretty good.
Oh yeah, have been trying to join Curves for Women this week. They avhe somethign that through tomorrow if you bring a bag of food, membership fee is waived. I was too lazy most nights this week, last night I did get dressed and go but they closed early. :x I am going to try tonight or tomorrow night!
I am not overweight but I have gained about 25 lbs in the last two years after injuring my back in a car accident and then quittting smoking. I would like to get back in shape to where I was before. Just gotta get off my lazy butt and get to work. LOL Wish me luck to actually get there tonigh. :roll:
Monday mornings. I hate Mondays. Especailly when I know I have so much to do- which of course is why I am typing here instead of GETTING the stuff done. LOL
My TTC quandry of the day -- time change.
So I finally bought one of those ClearBlue fertility monitors and the strips -- nice but expensive. When you first start each cycle, you turn it on and set it whenever you want. That operates a testing window of 3 hours before and 3 hours after. Me being the bum I am, set it around 10:00 a.m. the first time cause it was Saturday and I LOVE to sleep in on Saturdays. That made the testing window for work days at around 7:00 a.m. That is usually when I get up if not traveling to LA or Court or something. Not a big deal.
So I get up today, pee on the darn stick, go to put it in and it doesn't want it! Now I know that it wants a stick since the last two days it wanted a stick. What gives. I look at it weird, shake it a bit and get really perplexed until the light bulb comes on. TIME CHANGE.
Now, for the rest of this cycle, it is going to want a stick after 8 am, after I am supposed to be at work! So, I am trying to figure this out, do I wait and take this to work and hope NONE of my associates notice. This has to be with the first morning pee and there is NO way I can wait that long in the morning. Maybe pee in a cup and take that to work -- yeah right like that wouldn't be ridiculous.
Hmm. In addition to losing an hour sleep, getting up even earlier, this time change would have to mess with this.
Okay, gotta get to work. Lots of stuff to finalize today, happy happy joy joy!
So it is CD 11 and my neat little fertility monitor has not changed or done anything yet. Course I am not ENTIRELY sure I am using it correctly though. Today, when I got up I went searching for a cup. Dipped the stick in the cup right before I left for work and then spent the entire drive in turning the monitor on to see if it was ready for the stick yet. Finally, at 8:07 it accepted teh stick-- but nothing. Not even slightly elevated.
Hmm, given my cycles are only 24 days, I am half way through and nothing yet. Don't know if I should worry about that or not.
On the good side, I did finally get off my bum and got to Curves last night. (I went Sat and signed up but got there too late to do anything. It was fun. I am not overweight but I have gained about 20 lbs in the last two years since the accident and quitting smoking. I also hope if I get some strength training in it will help my back not ache so much if it gets stronger. Maybe someday I can even get back into Kayaking!
DH and I made an amazing dinner last night and just sat outside where it was soooo beautiful and ate. He grilled shrimp on the bbq with olive oil and spices and I made linquini (SP?) and put some squash and Zucchini on teh bbq wiht butter and olive oil. Put taht all together and grabbed a bottle of wine. We sat out there for almost 2 hours just talking and laughing. Was really nice. I love getting to spend time with him like that. Don't usually get too much during the week.
Okay, gotta go, my work load for this week just increased cause we got served 12 motions i have seven days to write the oppos to. sigh.
So I am not sure about this Clear Blue thing. Here I am at CD 12 and not a jump. Not even to the second of three. Maybe that doesn't mean a lot but again when you have 24 day cycles 12 is pretty far into it. Usually, I thought that I oed before this. Or atleast started up a little. This machine is "supposed" to tell me as O gets close, like within 3 days but if nothing yet, should I worry?
One of the reasons I got this machine is to make sure that I am Oing. The internet cheepies always looked like I was close but I wasn't sure they were always right. I like digital things so that is important.
Of course, now i am stressing, maybe I don't ovulate. Maybe there is somethign wrong with me, maybe I am screwing with my own head and I need to shut myself up LOL. Gee wonder why DH always calls me a worry wart.
But then, there is the real problem that I am not even sure I am using this thing right, especially with the time change and screwing aroudn with it in the car. This I will have to change next month. Today, didn't sleep really good last night so had to get up to pee at 4 am. Since that was the first morning pee, used a cup since I cannot test now until 8:10. (yesturday it was 8:07, this thing is really screwing with my mind. SO maybe the lack of positive has more to do with user error than body error. I don't know.
Day 15 and still nothing. I wasn't stressing over it too much after I figured maybe the Clomid is delaying O but now I am getting a little more nervous. This monitor is supposed to dectect somethign almost 4-5 days before! It has not detected anything. That is just weird. But hey, maybe normal?
But hey it is Friday again, my second favorite day of the week. I was supposed to be in a deposition in Boston today adn DH and I were going to fly out on teh red eye Tuesday night and play around for the week but that got off my calender with this trial coming up. DH had already taken the time off work though so he is hoem, sleeping in, being a bum and building things. We decdied we needed like a bakers rack in the kitchen, hey I can build that. He is pretty good but sometimes it is scary. so he is home building to day.
I have a bunch of stuff due Monday. I have been obsessive about the fertiity montior this week though so I have been constantly looking up stuff etc. so I have not got my work done yet. Hopefully today I can focus so I don't have to work too much this weekend.
Have a great day!
Yeah Yeah Yeah. CD 16 and the clear blue fertility monitor went to straight peak fertility. I have or am FINALLY ovulating.
After all this, I was resigned to the idea that maybe I really was not ovulating, maybe something was wrong. I mean after all with such short cycles then it would be too late -- course the Clomid probably will lengthen them somewhat.
Course it doesn't help that I feel like crap and its my own fault. We had a wonderful day yesturday, biked all around Balboa Park and stopped for several beers along the way.
Hit Kellys for corned beef and cabbage (YUM) and then the piano bar where I had actually had enough beers to sing kareoke. sadly problably very off key. DH had fun laughing at me though.
Came home to a flooded house. some valve thing in the toliet went weird and our downstairs was flooded. Cleaned that up and we went to bed.
Told DH wanted to BD and he asked what the monitor said today. I told him that was not the ONLY reason I want to BD. Had fun though LOL
Then this morning, woke up and tried the monitor, just like I have for awhile. Certain again to see the one bar for low fertility.
NOPE PEAK-- called DH said check this out. He said what does that mean? Said it means get your butt back to bed. LOL
Feel better now too. Yesturday biking I told DH this was one of the times I felt bad we didnt have a little one yet, cause days like taht would be great to share with a child.
Maybe that is still possible!
On to the dreaded 2WW but maybe, just maybe we caught this egg and this month really will be the one!
So I survived Monday. That was a miracle. Had HUGE deadlines and just major issues concentrating. That is the hard thing about TTC is sometimes it gets distracting.
So too early to tell anything but still. I guess I just wonder what is going on inside me. Did the spermies swim fast enough and catch the egg? Is life growing? or is this just another month where AF comes and life goes on.
I do know we can't TTC next month so it will be a break time. I will be stuck in a trial for the entire time I would be Oing--- getting to work at 6 am getting home at 10 pm -- not much time for TTC.
But then the next month will be here and things might work then. Guess I am a little more positive. For now.
Okay I really need to get back to work now.
The topic of the day is insomnia.
No, I have no illusions this is some sorta symptom, I am only 4dpo so it would be too early.
Several years ago, when DH and I first were together, he had issues sleeping. He would wake up and be awake for hours. I thought that was really weird. I always had trouble falling asleep but once I was out-- I was out. He said he thought it had something to do with getting older.
A couple of years ago, I started having issues. Not just not falling asleep for a long time -- but not falling asleep at all. One day I had a mental breakdown, crying fit at work, but I had not sleep for four days straight.
After that, I got more agressive. I take a melatonin the first ngiht after hte night I don't sleep and then a sleeping pill the next night if necessary. I still have so many issues, waking up at 4 and staying awake.
So last night was one of those nights-- I just layed there and didn't sleep. all night long! So now I will have a completely exhausting day and have no sleep. Great.
And to make matters worse, I got up this morning and made coffee and all we had was decaf -- what a cruel world!
The question I have, is when (if) I get pregnant -- then what do I do? I can't take medicine then so will I be looking at weeks with no sleep? How long can an ordinary person go without sleep? I know I have done four days or more but that was not pretty. I think I can do without the allergy meds and the other stuff but sleeping could be an issue -- and that is before hte kid is born! LOL
Its Friday again. I am at 5 dpo. The weird part with TTC is the "symptoms" you get that I can obsess over. Get to the "I just know I am pregnant" each month cause something feels different or something. Only to look back once AF is here and realize I am making something outta nothing.
But you know, this month I do feel positive. According to the fertility monitor, I o'ed pretty far after what I thought I did. I don't temp or anything so use king the online charts to figure when I should o. Now, this month could have been really late cause of hte Clomid or maybe I do ovulate much later then the chart though. In which case, we probably wouldn't have been Bding enough to catch an egg. This month I know we BD at the right time, once the night before the monitor said fertile, once that day. SOOOO if everything worked right, could have a chance.
I know that 5 dpo is way to early to feel any symptoms -- but of course I do. that whole part of my stomach feels really heavy and crampy. Has for day or two. If I push on my tummy, it doesn't really like that. I don't know, maybe I am reading too much into it but still.
So this weekend. I think I am taking tomorrow off, maybe DH and I can go for a bike ride. I need to spend some serious tmie in our house. After the flood last week, our downstairs is in complete disaray.
Then Sunday I do have to work, I have the mock trial/focus group for my upcoming trial in April. I know I mentioned that it will be pretty intense for the next month -- should be kinda cool too though. Huge copyright/trademark case in federal court.
Okay, enough for today. Talk to you later.
Thought I would share LOL
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