so im 8dpo today....still hardly any tender breasts. There is a slight tenderness there but nowhere near as much as before.
Im really going to try not to test.....i will wait for af and if she is 2 days late then i will test........gonna make sure i do it when bf is around though and at a convenient time so if its bfp i can show him straight away!
I have had another couple of bfp dreams . . . . how disappointing when waking up.
I cant believe its been 19months since we started ttc!!
More breast tenderness today so a good sign i hope. I just read my old pregnancy journal and it made me quite sad . . . . . feels like it was so long ago i was pregnant.
I have a doctors appointment, going to ask if she will do a blood test to see if all my hormones have returned to normal and confirm i am definately ovulating.
Had my appointment today with the doctor, as normal she was very nice, helpful and willing. I explained my concern of not o'ing since the m/c, and my loss of tender breasts post o (althought they arent doing too bad this cycle!!!) and she has aggreed to do a blood test. Going to have one done tomo, it will be a day 25 progesterone, levels may not come back high enough though as it may be too late in my cycle and may have missed it. If is does come back low then she said we will retest next cycle on day 21.
Today i felt my cervix, it feels more medium than closed, i was hopi ng for it to be closed as i remember it was really really tightly closed when i got my last bfp - i think the increase in progesterone makes it stay shut. So im not convinced im pg this cycle........2 days to go til af may show........stay away pleeeeeeease!!!!!!!
I cant believe it. My friend who has had 3 previous micarriages and has been trying for a baby for 10 years + told me today she was 8 weeks pregnant and miscarried again 2 weeks ago. I feel absolutely terrible for her, for it to happen the 4th time must be unimaginable. I know she has alot of health probs, diabetes and another condition sticky blood which she has daily injections for. So now they are going to look at the baby's chromosomes. I hope they find an answer for her. Her and her dh are now goint to sell all their nursery stuff as she cant bear to look at it all. Why does this happen to us???
Af arrived for me 4 days ago so my thoughts on cp was right. I got my blood work back today, progesterone was 10. Dont think that is very good, im sure they like to see a leve; of 13 and in comparison to my last progesterone last year which was 59, 10 is rubbish. I started spotting the next day after taking blood so im sure we done it wayyy to late. Im seeing doc again tomo so will confirm with her we can do another progesterone earlier this cycle.
My thoughts are with my friend, i cant stop feeling upset for her.
CD 19, think im 1 dpo......timing this cycle worked out good as it turns out bf has 5 days hol which is great or he would have been earlies and i think it would have been a bit of a struggle. My friend who is now 14 weeks pg is starting to show, i dont feel so bad with this pg of hers as this time round she knows i am ttc so we talk about that too....i guess my frustration isnt so bottled up. She was looking at my previous charts for me and thinks i should bd more at o and after o. Her theory is perhaps my eggs waft very SLOWLY down my fallopian tubes and perhaps bf sperms arent lasting in there long enough to survive by the time the egg is there. Looking at my prevous charts, 9 times out of 10 i stop bd on day of o so will try once more today and see what happens. Its been nearly 7 months since my periods returned so im hoping it wont be long now.
Im on CD 28 today, 10dpo. I tested negative yesterday and today, but may bee too early so will test again tomo with fmu.
My 2nd progesterone blood test came back from the doctors, 40.9 so thats good, im definately o'ing. Im keeping a real good eye out for any spotting as am wondering about a LP defect?? Perhaps my progesterone levels dont stay high enough to allow a pg.
I will start my Vitex again if im not pg this cycle. My breasts are definately tender after o but still not as much as they used to be before the m/c.
I cant stop thinking about getting my bfp this cycle, it will be such a relief to stop worrying about not falling pg!!!!
Horrid nasty af arrived today!!! I knew it was on its way as i started spotting on the evening of 11dpo - poss unlikely LP defect......i do wonder if my levels tail off too early though.
Anyway, i was going to start the vitex but have taken another course of action for now. I went to see a chinese doctor, decided to give the acupuncture a go again, except this time i will stick to it. I have already paid for a 5 week course. The doctor was very thorough, i had my session -the needles didnt hurt much, the only thing i really didnt like was when he put the needles into my hands, it felt like it touched a nerve. It ached and make me feel a bit sicky. Amazingly, when he put 3 or 4 (cant remember exactly how many) into my tummy area, i felt my whole womb cramping, like period pain!!! When he fiddled with those needles, the aching did feel uncomfortabl.
The 2 that were put in the back of my neck, i felt my body relax and my vision went blurry for a split second.....i could feel it working!!
I laid there for about 40mins in a relaxing dimmed blue-lit room with music. After, the doctor then gave me a massage down my spine legs and neck..that was very relaxing. I have herbs i have to take twice a day, granules i add boiling water to and drink, and they taste absolutely foul it makes me gag drinking it!!! But everytime i just remind myself what im doing this for. I may also start the reflexology when the doc says its time, for now he wants me to concentrate on the acupuncture.
I told bf about it and he has also decided to sign up for a 5 week course which has pleased me so so much. We are going for his appointment tomorrow. He has also promised me he will completely give up the saunas (which he actually hasnt used that much at all) until i fall pregnant. It feels really reassuring having his full support!!!
My friend has just recommended a hypnotherapist who does fertility treatment so that is another option, i think that may stop me stressing and being so tense about the whole thing.
It feels good to have a plan!!
So bf had his first acupuncture session today!!
The doctor also picked up on the fact he suffers from lower back pain so bf was impressed with that!! He had his needles insterted in the back of the neck, 8 across lower back, one on each mid-leg region and one on each ankle area. A heat lamp was placed over his back. This was followed by a massage!! He said at first how much one of them on his back hurt. Afterwards though he said he felt very good!!! Lol i felt sorry for him when he took his first dose of herbs though, he was sick!! Managed to get them down in the end though!!!
So i got a text from a friend yesterday who i havent heard from for a few weeks, she was the one who also had a missed m/c a few months before me. She has never wanted children until dec 2006 (same time we started ttc!) her and her husband decided to try. She is 42, suffers from pcos and isnt in the best of health. So im wondering whether she has text me to tell me she is pg again. In her message it said 'i have something to show you'......i hope this is it for her as i think she is very aware of how time is running out.
CD 3 for me, continuing to drink my nasty herbs, so is bf. I hate this part of the cycle....it feels like such a long wait until i O!!
I had my second session of acupuncture a couple of days ago, that went well, got a few bruises though!! Bf goes for his second one tomo.
So i met my friend for lunch today, she showed me what she wanted to show me - a new car!! Her af arrived a yesterday or today (cant remember) so she is out the game too, bloody af!!
I have a stinking horrible cold so im going to have a hot shower then me and bf are getting snuggled in bed to watch a film!!