CD 15, 2dpo.
Looks like the timing has been very good this cycle, we bd'd on the 3 days leading up to O and on the day of O. If that doesnt work this cycle then i dont know what will!!!!
I got my referral appointment through, 17th November - not long to go!! I hope they dont try to fob me off and just tell me to keep trying for a bit longer.
I cant believe this time a year ago i was pregnant, its so unfair. Thats all i kept thinking of in 5th Nov as it was a year ago to that day i got my bfp - i was so so so happy.
When i first started ttc 2 years ago, there was one of my colleague trying and another of my colleagues wife.....they both fell pg before me, they both now have there 1 year old (or therabouts) baby. The first colleague is now 6-7 months pg again and the others wife is ttc again. I know its not a race but i cant help but think it should be me falling pg before her this time.....if i hear she is pg again i will be so upset.
Just got back from my appointment, and it was a successful one too!! The consultant was very nice and thorough. She felt my abdomen and done an internal exam, said everything there felt normal. She had a chat with me about my history, cycles etc and has decided the first things to do will be cycle day 1 or 2 hormone profile (LH, FSH, Testosterone, Sex hormone-binding globulin (SHBG) and prolactin, a cycle day 21 progesterone and a pelvic ultrasound. She said i could possibly have pcos but she thinks its unlikely as i am of normal weight. If all those results come back normal then we will look at having bf do a SA. If it looks like i have pcos then onto the clomid. If (phew!) im normal and bf is normal then i dont know, she didnt say....i guess they may start looking into HSG's and that kind of thing. Either way i am very happy we are doing something,it may even take the pressure off.
As far as this cycle goes, i tested (10dpo today) and its a bfn. I dont think i am pg this cycle. My breasts are more temder than normal but judging by the bfn's and my cervix im not convinced at all.
CD3 - Yes af arrived as i was suspecting.
I had my first set of blood tests taken yesterday and my ultrasound was this morning. Everything on the u/s looked normal so thats great news, just got to wait for the blood results now.
I got my blood results back today. I know the consultant was querying pcos so am wondering if the results indicate this. Not spoken to the consultant and unlikely to do so for at least 6 weeks until my follow up appointment so its killing me not knowing if they show anything.
I understand my fsh level is good (under 10 is very good) but am concerned as when it was last measure 14 months ago it was 3, should it have declined that much that quick??? ARGHHHHH!!!!!
I wish i could speak to somone now, my head is buzzing!!!
I know she said if i come back normal then we investigate bf but i have decided he should get a SA done in the meantime. That way if all my tests are normal im not going to waste another month or so waiting for another appointment to go back with his results. This way i can go to my january appointment ready with them in hand. We go to see bf's dr next wednesday 3rd dec.
I feel so stressed with this now which isnt helping. I just want to be pg again.....i feel so sad especially now its coming closer and closer to a year since the m/c.
My follow up appointment had been moved forward to 29th December now so thats great, just over 4 weeks to go. I still havent shed any light on the blood results, well some perhaps. Apparently if your lh value is higher than your fsh value at the begining of your cycle then this is an indication of pcos, also a high prolactin and testosterone value is. From one website i found my prolactin is high (very!) but another says it isnt.....it depends on what units my result is measured in i guess.
Im going to restart my healthy eating again, i was so naughty giving it up before lol. I also stopped the acupuncture.....to be honest it was relaxing at the end of each session but i was starting to get tense up during it and not enjoy some of the needle points. So instead i am going to try reflexology, i have a number i am going to ring this afternoon or this evening.
I have also ordered a couple of books, 'the fertility diet' (to help with my eating lol) and 'getting pregnant - faster' a step by step book on all tips to improve your lifestyle and chances.
Off to work in an hour, then i have tomorrow off as my dad is going in to hospital for a huge operation, we found out about 6 weeks or so ago he has mouth cancer, of the tongue. So he is going for a major 8-10 hour surgery on the Friday. It made me so sad when he first found out he said to me 'youll have to hurry up and get me a grandchild!'. It made me feel so upset that i had had my baby taken away from me and from him. I so wanted to be able to tell him im pg again before he went in for his op too.
So my dad went in to hospital today for his operation tomorrow. It was horrible leaving him, me mum and my sister all got upset. One of the surgeons came after us to see if we were ok and briefly explained what to expect afterwards, he was very nice and very reassuring. I guess tomo will be spent mainly thinking of and hoping all goes well for my dad.
In the car on the way up to the hospital he said to me and my sister which once of you is going to make me a grandad first? I so so wish i could say me, im pg now!!!!! Well, hopefully soon.
We got the phonecall about 2 hours ago that dad is out of surgery and all went to plan....it took 12 hours! They will be keeping him sedated for the next 24 hours and he is in ICU and we are to ring in the morning to see when we can visit. Im so glad all is ok, will hopefully be able to go up tomo to see him.
I booked my reflexology appointment, im going up next week on Thursday at 3.30pm!
Dad is doing fantastic, he is now up and about walking around and has had his trachy out. He is talking, speech is a bit slurred due to the partial tongue removal but better than i expected. He did develop a high temp - 39.5! - and a chest infection a couple of days after the surgery but fought that off quite quick. Hopefully he will be home monday.
2dpo - timing was good again this cycle, so far that hasnt meant anything tho!!!! I had my reflexology appointment on thursday, it was very relaxing. Im not sure yet whether to go back tho, the journey wasnt great - 40mins each way. I guess i will think on that for a while.
I have been reading through the books i bought, wow its amazing how much toxins and rubbish you put in your body that you dont realise. There is loads of helpful advice and tips which i am fllowing. My main downfalls are caffine (not a huge amount tho), waayyy too much sugar intake and not eating home cooked meals.
CD 22 - 7dpo.
i had my post o progesterone blood taken today, hopefully ill get the results back in the next couple of days. No spectacular symptoms to report, i had a slight temp dip this morning though so that could be a good sign!!
I am doing very well with my healthy eating, those books have really given me the motivation to stick to it. I havent ate hardly ANY rubbish over the last week - and im actually starting to enjoy trying all the new health foods and feel better in myself. Well.....not completely.....i got a nasty cold in the last couple of days with the most unbareable sore throat!! I blame bf, he gave it to me. He was meant to go for a SA yesterday but was too ill with the cold so i let him off.
I have decided not to go back to the reflexologist i saw, she was very good, but i cant see me sticking to it with that long drive. There is a lady about 10mins from me so i will look her up after christmas.
Its coming up to the 1 year mark since the m/c - thats going to be hard.....i just keep thinking how this should be the most fantastic time ever for babys first christmas.
Im so peeved now. I went to the toilet earlier and i am spotting. At 10dpo. ARGGHHH!!
I looked at my chart and doubt very much that i could have o'ed earlier, not judging by the temps and monitor. It will be interesting to see what my 7dpo progesterone comes back at. My one relief is that my appointment is not long, only 2 weeks.
I am more upset than ever about not being pg this cycle than any other, i would never have thought that a year on after the m/c there would still be no baby or pregnancy.