Me and bf decided to ttc #1 in dec 06. I thought it would be so easy, in fact i was worried it would happen too quick! HA! If only i had of known! I came off bcp after 10 years though so i suppose it will take time. My cycles seem to be regular now give or take a couple of days so thats something i suppose. I was sure this month would be the month. Let me explain why. It turns out that evry month i O, that bf is on night shifts. And he is not good without sleep! TTC was something we decided then didnt really talk about - must be a bloke thing. Dont get me wrong though its something we both couldnt wait to happen! So i never told him when i was o'ing and i got really frustrated as every month we never really got into the full swing of bd'ing lol what with him being on horrible working hours. I felt like i was dealing with the whole thing on my own. Last month came to a head when af arrived - i was so upset. I decided we should talk about this. I explained to him that every time i o he is on night, that we have only a few days every month to get pg (he was shocked lol) and i showed him my fertility monitor i bought. He was quite interested in it all lol, even read the info booklet haha! Anyways, this month he aggreed that no matter how tired he would be, we would really go for it. I calculated my o date and guess what. I would be on a work course arghhhh! Luckily the travelling must have delayed O as i came home and had a high reading for a couple of days first! So we really did make the effort, we bd every day over my fertile window. Thats why i was so sure this month would work. I was really positive until a few days ago. I tested on Thurs, Fri and today and all BFN. I am usually quite good and dont test but i had to this month, my bbs hurt like crazy - and it is an af kind of pain. So there it is, another bfn thismorning. If my cycle remains the same, AF should arrive tomorrow. I am so disappointed. I am glad i tested though as i have some warning that AF is coming, i think i would have been evn more upset had she just arrived - i have gotten used to the idea that this month hasn't worked.
Just got back from shopping, was nice to get out the house except all i could see was babies everywhere! Then i saw all the tiny baby clothes and i made me feel really down. Was looking on the 2ww website and saw that a couple of people got bfn's in the morning then they got their bfp's by evening. I tested again, mine is still a bfn. On the plus side i have ordered myself some preseed and my bbt thermometer arrived so i am starting bbt charting also so i have hope for the next cycle!
Woke up this morning, and there was no witch wahey!! Took another pg test and prayed for a BFP. It was negative. THEN SHE DECIDED TO SHOW UP!!! Why does she have to torment us so much??? Its only spotting at the mo but guaranteed by this evening she will be in full evil action. I HATE HER!!!!!
AF really played tricks with me yesterday. The spotting stopped completely and started again twice. That really got my hopes up as i though perhaps its implantation bleeding. Nope. She is in full swing today! I was feeling ok thismorning, ready to start ttc on this new cycle, then my colleague told me his wife is pg. Dont get me wrong im pleased for them but i cant help feeling envious. Then i saw the mum of an old friend in town who decided to get out the baby photos of my friends baby.
Im sure i wrote on here again a few days ago but my entry isnt here??? Oh well, perhaps computer was playing up! I have had a few days away from the boards and of not obsessing - i actually wasnt thinking of ttc'ing all the time lol! Bu now as mid-cycle approaches im back doing what i love - obsessing haha!! Thought that this month would be similar to last month - that i wouldnt o until day 18, but no. I got my first high fertility day yesterday so it must be only a few days away. Good in some respects as it means i havent got such a long wait, but its a bit of a pain as bf was off work next week which would have made things much easier. Nevermind though, i am still pleased!
GRRRRRR my body is really annoying me! So far i have had 5 days of high on my monitor - the most i have ever had is 3!! The reason this is so annoying is that poor bf is so knackered after doing 12 hour night shifts then having to bd and its all for nothing if the high days continue! I have been using OPK in the evening to make sure i dont miss that surge but there is no sign. We didnt bd last night and we wont have time tonight as he starts work earlier. I guess now i just have to keep my fingers crossed that i dont o until monday/tuesday when he is off and we can really go for it!
well i had an appointment at the doctors earlier so it be known im ttc! The doc was really nice, she had a look at the scan report from when i had cysts and said it shouldnt cause me a problem as it was only a single cyst (as opposed to pcos)and it disappeared quickly. She said if it was a problem i probably wouldnt be having normal periods so that put my mind at ease. She told me (which i knew) that they dont consider doing anything until you have been trying for a year, which is fine as i was expecting this. The good thing is though, she said to go back to her in september if nothing has happened and she will do a blood test. Otherwise, she looked at my chart and said all looks good, some of them she thought were inaccurate (in regards to the home OPK's i used), i guess thats why i may not have concieved yet. She said it may be worth me stopping using all my fm and temping as she doesnt think these methods are very reliable. I do aggree with her that i am obsessing and she is probably right that if i stop doing it all i will become pg straight away. I think personally i would like to continue with my monitor and temping for a little longer but i will try to not get too fixated on it! So all in all, it was a good appointment and i felt she was very supportive!
I have had 2 possibly positive opk today so will definately get bd'ing tonight and hope i get a peak on my fm tomorrow morning as confirmation.
Wahey!!!! I got my peak sign on the monitor this morning! I have also had another 2 really really definate positives on the OPK's. Am very pleased about this as have never had a true positive before. I changes brands, i usually buy internet cheapies, this new set are still cheap but are midstream tests insted and are much better. I will stick with these from now on, or at least i will if i have to!
We bd last night, so im going to see if i can pursade bf to tonight aswell. I got a serious temp dip this morning which can be an O sign so its all good! Just got to hope it will be a bfp!!!
All seems to be good at the moment. I definately had O pain from yesterday late morning onwards so am sure i O'ed yesterday which is a good thing as we bd the night before. We also bd'd last night just in case. I done another OPK which is now negative. So, now i enter the 2ww - i hope it goes quick! I find the last 2 days the hardest, i just end up feeling so lost and not knowing what to do with myself! Im not sure if im going to test early this cycle or wait to see if af shows. Im waiting to see if my boobs start hurting now as i have noticed they usually start getting sore from about 2 dpo onwards til af, so this will be interesting to see.
Its great! I got solid crosshairs on my FF chart! FF said i O'ed on day 19 so i guess those o pains i was having could have been before the egg was released (at least thats what ff says!).
Yesterday and today i feel like i have the fattest stomache ever and the hugest bbs lol!! Im sure thats its more to do with post O hormones as it would prob be too early for pg symptoms. Im hoping my horoscope is right, it says:
"If you think all lifes prizes and plaudits seem to be going to other people you will be aggreeably surprised over the days to come. This week the good things are starting to come your way too. This is particularly true where a special goal or dream is concerned. It will be almost as if you have willed this to come true. These next few weeks could see many of your hopes become reality."
Thats so exciting!! And then i read bf's horoscope and his says:
"An unexpectedly quick success takes you by surprise because you had expected it to take longer to reach this goal."
Heres hoping!!! So i should only have 6 days or so before i can test - im still indecisive about when i will start testing, i guess ill keep an eye on my chart and if my temps continue to rise i may test earlier. Ohhhh its so exciting!!!!!