Day 22, 3 dpo - here i go again into another 2ww! I think i have managed to stay fairly calm whilst trying this cycle, i made sure i didnt obsess too much with bd'ing and just told myself all is ok as long as i do the deed every other day. I felt much less under pressure. It also helps that im going through this with my friend, she also got a bfn last time. She is about 10-14 days behind me i think on this cycle! Its great comparing silly things we both do and all the pg 'symptoms ' we get haha!
Me and bf are off on hols next week, i have worked out if i get my bfp then i wont know until towards the end as af will arrive (hopefully not!) on roughly 8th Sept. So im going to try and relax and forget about it all and have a good time. I have decided im not taking any pg tests with me as i dont want to test too early. And if af is late i will then buy one whilst im there. I think i will take the little booties i bought as that is bfs present if i get my bfp thats how i will tell him with the stick!!
So i had the worst day on Wednesday, i nipped out of work quickly to post a letter and got knocked down by a cyclist!! He was going way too fast and he ran a red light. I was left on the ground for 20 mins or so before the ambulance arrived and they are only stationed around the corner!! My uniform is full of holes, i lost a stone out of my nans ring and you cant even see the name on my badge its that scratched up!!
They gave me Etonox gas (sp?) when they arrived as it was sooo painful to move me. By the time i got to the hosp the pain wasnt so bad but they wanted to x-ray, obviously i refused this as im in the 2ww. Thankfully nothing is broken but i have some lovely cuts and beautifully coloured bruises everywhere!!! I have been so stiff for the last few days but am much better today.
Im just hoping the stress and injury hasnt affected my chances of concieving this month.
Well i dont really have much to add, just wanted to check in once more before we go away! Bf now wants to travel up there tomorrow evening as it will prob be a 6 hour drive or so, that way we will arrive in the arly hours of Tuesday morning and we havent wasted a day. Im looking forward to relaxing and hoping i will get my bfp at the end of it. Especially as looking at the calender for next months cycle bf will be on night shifts Grrrrrrrr!!!
Af arrived whilst i was away! Onto cycle 10 now. I cant believe it, it feels like its never going to happen. I went back to the docs this morning as she said if i wasnt pg by Sept then it may be time to do some blood tests.
I have to have them all on day 21 and she is testing TFT, FSH, LH, Testosterone, Prolactin, Oestradiol, Progesterone.
Im a little worried as i usually dont O until day 19 and i said to her that wont testing on day 21 be too early to check for ovulation. She said she didnt think it would be a problem but if levels come back low then we will test agin the following month a bit later. I would have thought it would make sense to test a week after day 19 surely?
Anyway, she also said its worth getting bf to do a sperm count if i come back ok, so im gonna talk to him tonight and see if he would mind just having it done anyway.
She said to me dont buy any OPK's as "they dont really work and arent that reliable" which im not too sure about as surely if they werent that reliable there wouldnt be such a big market for them? I use the clearblue monitor and that cant be unreliable due to the price etc i would have thought.
Anyway, im going to use my monitor as normal this month, but im stopping temping again as its stressing me out again, more so the scrutenising of it in the 2ww, at least if i dont have a chart i cant worry if it looks like its going to be a bfn chart! And as bf is on night shifts when i O so thats gonna add extra stress i dont need. Grrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!
Well it looks like i have O early this month! I got my first peak reading yesterday so i may have O'ed within these 2 days which is great as it means we have avoided bf's night shifts. Our timing has been very good this cycle, i have made sure we bd every other day throughout my high days and we have also on the peak days so great! I am going to make sure we bd a couple more times just incase im O'ing later than what i think just to be on the safe side!
So i go in for my blood tests on day 21, im on day 17 today. This is the cycle where i should get my bfp if mt Cheri prediction is right! My edd would be about 17 june, how exciting! Anyway, i must continue to try and keep stress-free and not convince myself im getting every symptom there is!
I had my blood taken a couple of days ago so will get the results on Wednesday. I still think my progesterone numbers will come back low, i was pro only about 3 or 4 dpo and your meant to be a week past to show a sufficient rise. I will be surprised if its any different. One of my colleagues gave birth to her baby boy last Wednesday, she sent some pics to me and it has made me even more broody now, i just hope more than anything this will be my month. I have been feeling nauseous for the last 4 days which is prob completely in my head, its amazing how much your body and mind can trick you. I had dreams last night where i poas and got my bfp, in my dream i was dreaming (if that makes sense lol) and when i woke up (in my dream!!) i was afraid my bfp wasnt real, so i poas again twice and i got bfp's! I was telling all my friends and soo happy, i was in complete disbelief and soooooo pleased. And then i really woke up, how disappointing.
I have suddenly decided what i would like the nursery to be, i think i would like it to be the old style winnie the pooh or bears, something along them lines. Ok im going to stop now as im getting too excited and stressed which wont be good as im building my hopes up too much again!
So my resolve to not obsess has completely broken and i have gone waayyy over the top!! I was doing great until i heard my colleague gave birth to her very cute baby boy, then wham!! Im obsessing!! I am convincing myself this is it, what with the bfp dreams - and because of this I even tested yesterday at 6dpo - rediculous i know as there is no way a test would come back positive that early! Another reason for my completely unbalanced behaviour is this is the cycle where my Cheri prediction comes in, she said June will be my EDD date - so i should be pg if she is correct! I have been scouring through ebay bidding on baby items as i have decided on a theme for the nursery. OMG make me stop!!
This is not good as im going to be sooooooooo let down if this isnt my month. I cant cope with the 3 pg colleagues at work and the new born talk, im gonna be so upset if this isnt my month. I dont understand why its taking so long. I get my blood results wednesday, part of me hopes they will be fine, part of me hopes there will be something minor wrong which we can correct so i know my bfp will hurry up! PHEW!!!!
Well, i had my doctors appointment today to discuss my blood results. She said they were all great, all at very healthy levels so thats good news. The next step is to definately book bf in for a SA, going to try and get his appointment for tomo or Friday. If he comes back all normal then she will refer us to a fertility specialist who will then investigate me further. It feels good to have a plan but scary at the same time as i never thought it would come to this. Im sure i am out for this cycle as i tested again and got a bfn, im 10dpo so im pretty sure if it was a positive then i would have even just the faintest of lines.
Wow its been so long since i posted on here! Yes, i decided after the last cycle that it was all becoming a bit too stressful. So i took a break from the boards, from FF and i only used my monitor. I decided that it was too early to get bf to do a SA also, and we forgot about that idea. We got a puppy about 2 weeks ago so that kept us real busy and i didnt think about bd'ing the whole time in my high days (on my fm). When my peak days came, we bd only twice and i think this was prob a couple of days b4 i O'ed. I then forgot all about it and didnt obsess one little bit in the tww! Last night i has this really wierd feeling. I knew af was due today but my abdoment felt 'full' and i had mild twinges. I though, im going to test tomo with fmu, as i have nothing to lose, ill only be disappointed when af arrives at least this will give me some warning. Anyway, i couldnt believe it when this morning i got the cross for a positive sign on the clearblue hpt!! I could almost see the line appear instantly - i didnt want to stare too hard at first incase i was imagining it like i do every month haha! Bf was just leaving for work so i didnt tell him as he was rushing, even though i wanted to jump for joy!! I waited another couple of hours and done a clearblue digital which again confirmed it!! So i cant get it out of my head, i want to announce it to the world but i know i cant! I have 2 gorgeous little baby winnie the pooh outfits im going to wrap with a positive test and give it to bf tonight!!
BFP WOOOO HOOOO!!!!!! 10 Months later and we have done it!!!!!!!
So i guess this will be my last entry in my ttc journal as im no longer ttc (woo hoo!).
Bf was very pleased when i told him, he liked the outfits too!
I have since poas on about 6 different pg tests just to make sure its real lol, its great seeing that line getting darker! Anyway, im going over to the pregnancy journals now, what a long journey its been. Now im looking forward to this new life we have created!