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Me and bf decided to ttc #1 in dec 06. I thought it would be so easy, in fact i was worried it would happen too quick! HA! If only i had of known! I came off bcp after 10 years though so i suppose it will take time. My cycles seem to be regular now give or take a couple of days so thats something i suppose. I was sure this month would be the month. Let me explain why. It turns out that evry month i O, that bf is on night shifts. And he is not good without sleep! TTC was something we decided then didnt really talk about - must be a bloke thing. Dont get me wrong though its something we both couldnt wait to happen! So i never told him when i was o'ing and i got really frustrated as every month we never really got into the full swing of bd'ing lol what with him being on horrible working hours. I felt like i was dealing with the whole thing on my own. Last month came to a head when af arrived - i was so upset. I decided we should talk about this. I explained to him that every time i o he is on night, that we have only a few days every month to get pg (he was shocked lol) and i showed him my fertility monitor i bought. He was quite interested in it all lol, even read the info booklet haha! Anyways, this month he aggreed that no matter how tired he would be, we would really go for it. I calculated my o date and guess what. I would be on a work course arghhhh! Luckily the travelling must have delayed O as i came home and had a high reading for a couple of days first! So we really did make the effort, we bd every day over my fertile window. Thats why i was so sure this month would work. I was really positive until a few days ago. I tested on Thurs, Fri and today and all BFN. I am usually quite good and dont test but i had to this month, my bbs hurt like crazy - and it is an af kind of pain. So there it is, another bfn thismorning. If my cycle remains the same, AF should arrive tomorrow. I am so disappointed. I am glad i tested though as i have some warning that AF is coming, i think i would have been evn more upset had she just arrived - i have gotten used to the idea that this month hasn't worked. :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry:

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Just got back from shopping, was nice to get out the house except all i could see was babies everywhere! Then i saw all the tiny baby clothes and i made me feel really down. Was looking on the 2ww website and saw that a couple of people got bfn's in the morning then they got their bfp's by evening. I tested again, mine is still a bfn. On the plus side i have ordered myself some preseed and my bbt thermometer arrived so i am starting bbt charting also so i have hope for the next cycle!

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Woke up this morning, and there was no witch wahey!! Took another pg test and prayed for a BFP. It was negative. THEN SHE DECIDED TO SHOW UP!!! Why does she have to torment us so much??? Its only spotting at the mo but guaranteed by this evening she will be in full evil action. I HATE HER!!!!!

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AF really played tricks with me yesterday. The spotting stopped completely and started again twice. That really got my hopes up as i though perhaps its implantation bleeding. Nope. She is in full swing today! I was feeling ok thismorning, ready to start ttc on this new cycle, then my colleague told me his wife is pg. Dont get me wrong im pleased for them but i cant help feeling envious. Then i saw the mum of an old friend in town who decided to get out the baby photos of my friends baby.

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Im sure i wrote on here again a few days ago but my entry isnt here??? Oh well, perhaps computer was playing up! I have had a few days away from the boards and of not obsessing - i actually wasnt thinking of ttc'ing all the time lol! Bu now as mid-cycle approaches im back doing what i love - obsessing haha!! Thought that this month would be similar to last month - that i wouldnt o until day 18, but no. I got my first high fertility day yesterday so it must be only a few days away. Good in some respects as it means i havent got such a long wait, but its a bit of a pain as bf was off work next week which would have made things much easier. Nevermind though, i am still pleased!

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GRRRRRR my body is really annoying me! So far i have had 5 days of high on my monitor - the most i have ever had is 3!! The reason this is so annoying is that poor bf is so knackered after doing 12 hour night shifts then having to bd and its all for nothing if the high days continue! I have been using OPK in the evening to make sure i dont miss that surge but there is no sign. We didnt bd last night and we wont have time tonight as he starts work earlier. I guess now i just have to keep my fingers crossed that i dont o until monday/tuesday when he is off and we can really go for it!

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well i had an appointment at the doctors earlier so it be known im ttc! The doc was really nice, she had a look at the scan report from when i had cysts and said it shouldnt cause me a problem as it was only a single cyst (as opposed to pcos)and it disappeared quickly. She said if it was a problem i probably wouldnt be having normal periods so that put my mind at ease. She told me (which i knew) that they dont consider doing anything until you have been trying for a year, which is fine as i was expecting this. The good thing is though, she said to go back to her in september if nothing has happened and she will do a blood test. Otherwise, she looked at my chart and said all looks good, some of them she thought were inaccurate (in regards to the home OPK's i used), i guess thats why i may not have concieved yet. She said it may be worth me stopping using all my fm and temping as she doesnt think these methods are very reliable. I do aggree with her that i am obsessing and she is probably right that if i stop doing it all i will become pg straight away. I think personally i would like to continue with my monitor and temping for a little longer but i will try to not get too fixated on it! So all in all, it was a good appointment and i felt she was very supportive!
I have had 2 possibly positive opk today so will definately get bd'ing tonight and hope i get a peak on my fm tomorrow morning as confirmation.

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Wahey!!!! I got my peak sign on the monitor this morning! I have also had another 2 really really definate positives on the OPK's. Am very pleased about this as have never had a true positive before. I changes brands, i usually buy internet cheapies, this new set are still cheap but are midstream tests insted and are much better. I will stick with these from now on, or at least i will if i have to!
We bd last night, so im going to see if i can pursade bf to tonight aswell. I got a serious temp dip this morning which can be an O sign so its all good! Just got to hope it will be a bfp!!!

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All seems to be good at the moment. I definately had O pain from yesterday late morning onwards so am sure i O'ed yesterday which is a good thing as we bd the night before. We also bd'd last night just in case. I done another OPK which is now negative. So, now i enter the 2ww - i hope it goes quick! I find the last 2 days the hardest, i just end up feeling so lost and not knowing what to do with myself! Im not sure if im going to test early this cycle or wait to see if af shows. Im waiting to see if my boobs start hurting now as i have noticed they usually start getting sore from about 2 dpo onwards til af, so this will be interesting to see.

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Its great! I got solid crosshairs on my FF chart! FF said i O'ed on day 19 so i guess those o pains i was having could have been before the egg was released (at least thats what ff says!).
Yesterday and today i feel like i have the fattest stomache ever and the hugest bbs lol!! Im sure thats its more to do with post O hormones as it would prob be too early for pg symptoms. Im hoping my horoscope is right, it says:

"If you think all lifes prizes and plaudits seem to be going to other people you will be aggreeably surprised over the days to come. This week the good things are starting to come your way too. This is particularly true where a special goal or dream is concerned. It will be almost as if you have willed this to come true. These next few weeks could see many of your hopes become reality."

Thats so exciting!! And then i read bf's horoscope and his says:

"An unexpectedly quick success takes you by surprise because you had expected it to take longer to reach this goal."

Heres hoping!!! So i should only have 6 days or so before i can test - im still indecisive about when i will start testing, i guess ill keep an eye on my chart and if my temps continue to rise i may test earlier. Ohhhh its so exciting!!!!!

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This morning im having mixed feelings again - am i pg? Yes i am this time! No im not it hasnt worked!! And i dont know why as i know for a fact there is no way to tell until the end of this dreaded 2ww!! And the worst thing is, i keep thinking this isnt going to happen to me, i cant even imagine myself pg and then with a baby. Its not fair as i want it so much. Ive always dreamed of this day when i was 'allowed' (ie in stable relationship etc) to get pg, i thought it will happen so easily!!! And now it terrifies me that it may take months and months and months. Im a very impatient person anyway so this really doesnt help.
i havent had any other major symptoms. So im trying to tell myself that its good as normally i get O pain every day post O when i have O'ed from my lhs. Well, this time i O'ed from my Rhs and apart from a couple of days i havent had the same pain. And this is the first time i can remember that i have O'ed from my right side so thats another positive. See, im convincing myself already!!!
Only 4 days to go.

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Well i dont think im gonna be getting my BFP this cycle. Af hasnt arrived but my temps are slowly dropping and im getting BFN's!!! I feel so deflated now, i was really hoping this was the month.

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Well i dont think im gonna be getting my BFP this cycle. Af hasnt arrived but my temps are slowly dropping and im getting BFN's!!! I feel so deflated now, i was really hoping this was the month.

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tested this morning and a BFN again! I have started having af cramps now so i think af is hours around the corner.
I was so upset last night when i spoke to bf as he said to me are you pg? I said no i dont think its happened this month, why do you ask (he never usually asks, just waits as he knows ill tell him when im ready). He said he had a dream the night before, he was holding our new born baby and when he woke up he felt sick. When i asked him why he felt sick, he said it was because he realised it was a dream and he missed his baby!! He said he was so happy and then all disappointed when he woke. Ahhhhhhhh that was so sweet - all i wish is that i would have been able to say "YES!! IM PG!"
9.41pm - So iaf still isnt here, day 32!!!! How cruel with all the bfn's!!

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Just a very quick entry - Af showed up this morning. Yes im very disappointed but now i am feeling more positive and gearing up for a new cycle. And, the good thing is, where my cycles have changed so much, bf wont be on nights when i O - Yayyyy!!!!

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CD 4
Well, i got a prediction from Cheri
"I am seeing GIRL and JUNE, so that is either birth month, concieve month or the month you find out in. I am leaning towards this being EDD, as I feel its closer to 8 months ttc.......

When it comes to your daughter, I see a girl who has a good attitude about life. Shes someone who has a good sense of humor, someone who is very happy to just be, and is always looking on the bright side. Would tell you that shes fairly "small" for her size, shes going to always be on the petitie size, but has a big heart., I think that you will find that she has more of a lighter color hair and has more than one tone to it. I think that its naturally highlighted. Shes very good with just going with the flow. I think that you will find that she is able to comprimise and just go with what the majority suggests. I think that shes very versatile, and is always willing to try and make things wrok so that everyone is happy.

I think that you will find that shes very polite, well spoken and has a softer voice. Shes not very demanding or arguementative.

When it comes to career paths, i see her as a medical office assitant.

When it comes to marriage I see her closer to 26 (he is going to be about 3 years older) and they will have two girls of their own. "

How exciting!!

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I cant believe it! Perhaps its a sign or something. My fertility monitor broke a couple of days ago - i rely on it so much. Perhaps this is a signal to say i should stop testing and just 'let it happen'. So, thats what im going to do. Im not going to stop temping or visiting pg.org lol but i will obviously not be using the monitor every day and i wont start using the OPKs (even though i have some in my drawer). I admitedly used one a day or so ago but no more! You never know, it might actually work.

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Mon 18th June 07 - Well i had a bit of a falling out with bf last night. And i will put my hands up and admit it was mainly my fault.
My o day is any day now, and knowing this, i planned to make sure we bd'ed every night. So last night i approach bf (in bed lol) and he says he is too tired and he is going to sleep. Immediately this gets me so angry and upset, i cant even bear to be the same room as him. He is on early shifts and had just done two 12 hour days so he probably was knackered. This was at 10pm and he had to be up by 5am. I knew it wasnt his fault and that i was being quite demanding but was so upset. All i keep thinking is that everytime its O time, there is such that small chance to catch that egg and we miss it.
So, i took my pillow and my quilt and went to the sofa. I didnt exactly tell him why i was doing this, i just stormed off. He knew what was wrong but wanted to hear me say it but i just couldnt find the words. I then realised after my dramatic exit i had left my BBT thermometer in the bedroom! I went back in and bf grabbed me and hugged my, he kept asking what was wrong and why am i crying. I cant explain it, but i just couldnt find any words to tell him im fed up with being so obsessed with the whole ttc thing and am getting so annoyed that he cant just 'do it' for the sake of getting our bfp. I wanted to scream he doesnt want this as much as me!! He said i know whats wrong but i want to hear you say it. I still couldnt! In the end he must have got fed up with asking me over and over again with no response so he got a little annoyed agin, and was like how can i help if you cant even talk to me!!! I know he is right but again it comes down to a man just doesnt understand the complete emotional turmoil this leaves us feeling. I went back out to the living room and waited for him to go to sleep. And i had a long think and took a hard look at whats happening. Im so obsessed with this im loosing sight of what really matters, me and him. Its causing tension and arguments as every time he cant bd im panicking we will miss our window and i end up getting annoyed with him. We have this every month and its not fair on him. So, whilst im not stopping ttc, i am giving up temping, opk's, my fertilitymonitor and everything that i use for ttc. Yes i will still keep taking my pre-natals as that is the sensible thing to do, and i will still be visiting pg.org as there are alot of lovely ladies here ive come to know. You never know, it may just happen. I dont have any illusions that im suddenly going to be non-obsessive, but im going to try and be less-obsessive!! I guess i need to be a little more understanding of bf - i dont want to ruin what we have in my quest for a bfp.

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Still feeling really low about the whole ttc thing. Giving up all the fm, opks, temping etc was meant to make me relax but i just feel worse!! I feel like i have given up. I know this isnt the case but im so lost at the moment. I have 3 ppl at work who are pg now and i cant even forget about it there - i ended up in tears yesterday to my friend who knows im ttc.

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Its not fair!!!!! My body is telling me im o'ing today i think, im sure i have o pains! And my ewcm is just great - it has been the last couple of days!! AND I CANT BD!! Grrrrrr!!
Bf is on still too tired cos of work commitments. Im still finding this so hard, ignoring the perfect time!

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WE BD LAST NIGHT WOOOOO!!!!
Lol what an announcement to make!!!!!!!!

Yes, last night, i though bf would still be too tired, but instead he pounced on me!!! I guess he cant handle a few days without it lol!!

Anyways this means we may actually have a chance this cycle after all as i had quite sever O pains yesterday. Last cycle when i had O pains, FF confirmed i O'ed the following day so fingers crossed.
I usually O at about day 19 so im wonering if its been delayed due to my horrible stressful week i have had??

What a difference a bit of bd'ing makes, i feel and woke up so much more positive!!!! And its the weekend!! Yayyy!!

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Well i still havent got sore bbs yet, and i usually get that around 2 dpo so am waiting for that as confirmation of O!

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I didnt get sore boobs until about 6 or 7dpo! Im not sure what this means? Perhaps its just a different cycle, perhaps it is because i stopped the ovulex or maybe i could be getting my bfp! I hope so, im not sure if i can cope seeing af again! I have a real good feeling this cycle, almost like i know this is going to be the bfp. But then again, is it just my mind playing tricks and telling my i am because thats what i want to hear. I guess we will find out in a few days! Im going to try and not test until af is late, this may be a little difficult though as im not even 100% sure on my O date. So, i may cave in and test in 3 or 4 days. I'm just finding it so difficult with all the pg talk at work!!! I wish it was me!!

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I caved in and started testing only to keep getting bfn's. Anyway, af arrived today so i guess its on to cycle #7 now. Im reading to start temping again, and i had a brand new monitor arrive in the post from the manufacturer so thats good. I just need to remember not to let it take over mine and bf's relationship this month as i dont want him to suffer with my craving for a bfp. Meanwhile, i feel so sad for one of my colleagues, she went for a 2nd scan (at 9 wekks roughly) and was told it was dead. I cant even begin to imagine what she is going through.

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Day 16 of my 7th cycle! Wow i cant beive it!!! Anyway i got my first high day today so hopefully o is around the corner. I started temping again this cycle as i had a good break from it. So far we have bd every other night and im trying not to get obsessive to bf over it like last month. I havent even told him it is the right time and its easier that way, at least then he wont feel the pressure so much. Found out another colleagues wife is pg - thats 4 in my work place so far, hey who knows, i could be the 5th!!

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So im 100% sure i o'ed on day 19. I had a pos opk on cd18 and peak reading on cd19 with definate o pains Rhs on day 19. We bd'd 3 days before my high day and also on my o day so timing was quite good i think. I have been speaking to one of my friends at work who is also ttc, she has had 3m/c and been trying for 10 years so i really feel for her. Its given me some wonderful support talking to someone who is doing all the same things as me and i think it has helped her talking to me also. We have both said how wonderful it will be if we get pg together this month. I think she is only about 5-10 days o behind me so we are keeping our fingers crossed. Im going to try not to analyze every symptom this cycle as i really felt pg last cycle and i wasnt so i guess it just goes to show you can never be truly sure until you get that bfp result.

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Yes, i got solid crosshairs on FF confirming that i O'ed on cd 19. Im now 5dpo and doing very well not to obsess over this 2ww. If it has happened then greeeaaattttttttt!!!!! but i need to refrain from convincing myself it has worked or i end up facing more disappointment than i can bear.

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Yep i tested as af due tomorrow and got another bfn. My temps are still up but i think thats because it has been soooooo hot the last couple of nights. I just cant stand the thought of worrying about bd timing etc etc for another cycle, my heart sinks when i think about it, its so frustrating!! And to top it all of at work today, a ladycame in with 2 gorgeous 7 week old baby twins. They werent hers, she was fostering them. Apparently the mum who already has 2 other kids 'cant cope' with them so gave them up. I know i shouldnt judge but it made me so mad when all i want is my first baby with all my heart!!!

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So im spotting now and my temp dropped below the coverline and got a bfn so af is definately on the way Sad
With a new cycle in mind i bought some zinc tablets and omega 3,6 and 9 capsules for bf as its meant to be very good in helping those swimmers (which bf thought was rather funny lol) and makes their tails curly haha!!
Cycle 8 - OMG!!

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Im on day 5 now - yes af did arrived. I was so disappointed and upset, probably more so than i have ever been. I think now im onto cycle #8 im just going to get more and more upset the more bfn's i get.
I had my first session of acupuncture yesterday, it was better than i thought - didnt hurt just kind of scratchy. The only thing i didnt like was the woman left me for 30mins with the needles in (which is normal) but she left me in a cold, bright lit, not-very-relaxing room!! So i may try someone else for another session next week!!

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Day 22, 3 dpo - here i go again into another 2ww! I think i have managed to stay fairly calm whilst trying this cycle, i made sure i didnt obsess too much with bd'ing and just told myself all is ok as long as i do the deed every other day. I felt much less under pressure. It also helps that im going through this with my friend, she also got a bfn last time. She is about 10-14 days behind me i think on this cycle! Its great comparing silly things we both do and all the pg 'symptoms ' we get haha!
Me and bf are off on hols next week, i have worked out if i get my bfp then i wont know until towards the end as af will arrive (hopefully not!) on roughly 8th Sept. So im going to try and relax and forget about it all and have a good time. I have decided im not taking any pg tests with me as i dont want to test too early. And if af is late i will then buy one whilst im there. I think i will take the little booties i bought as that is bfs present if i get my bfp thats how i will tell him with the stick!!

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So i had the worst day on Wednesday, i nipped out of work quickly to post a letter and got knocked down by a cyclist!! He was going way too fast and he ran a red light. I was left on the ground for 20 mins or so before the ambulance arrived and they are only stationed around the corner!! My uniform is full of holes, i lost a stone out of my nans ring and you cant even see the name on my badge its that scratched up!!
They gave me Etonox gas (sp?) when they arrived as it was sooo painful to move me. By the time i got to the hosp the pain wasnt so bad but they wanted to x-ray, obviously i refused this as im in the 2ww. Thankfully nothing is broken but i have some lovely cuts and beautifully coloured bruises everywhere!!! I have been so stiff for the last few days but am much better today.
Im just hoping the stress and injury hasnt affected my chances of concieving this month.
Well i dont really have much to add, just wanted to check in once more before we go away! Bf now wants to travel up there tomorrow evening as it will prob be a 6 hour drive or so, that way we will arrive in the arly hours of Tuesday morning and we havent wasted a day. Im looking forward to relaxing and hoping i will get my bfp at the end of it. Especially as looking at the calender for next months cycle bf will be on night shifts Grrrrrrrr!!!

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Af arrived whilst i was away! Onto cycle 10 now. I cant believe it, it feels like its never going to happen. I went back to the docs this morning as she said if i wasnt pg by Sept then it may be time to do some blood tests.
I have to have them all on day 21 and she is testing TFT, FSH, LH, Testosterone, Prolactin, Oestradiol, Progesterone.
Im a little worried as i usually dont O until day 19 and i said to her that wont testing on day 21 be too early to check for ovulation. She said she didnt think it would be a problem but if levels come back low then we will test agin the following month a bit later. I would have thought it would make sense to test a week after day 19 surely?
Anyway, she also said its worth getting bf to do a sperm count if i come back ok, so im gonna talk to him tonight and see if he would mind just having it done anyway.
She said to me dont buy any OPK's as "they dont really work and arent that reliable" which im not too sure about as surely if they werent that reliable there wouldnt be such a big market for them? I use the clearblue monitor and that cant be unreliable due to the price etc i would have thought.
Anyway, im going to use my monitor as normal this month, but im stopping temping again as its stressing me out again, more so the scrutenising of it in the 2ww, at least if i dont have a chart i cant worry if it looks like its going to be a bfn chart! And as bf is on night shifts when i O so thats gonna add extra stress i dont need. Grrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!

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Well it looks like i have O early this month! I got my first peak reading yesterday so i may have O'ed within these 2 days which is great as it means we have avoided bf's night shifts. Our timing has been very good this cycle, i have made sure we bd every other day throughout my high days and we have also on the peak days so great! I am going to make sure we bd a couple more times just incase im O'ing later than what i think just to be on the safe side!
So i go in for my blood tests on day 21, im on day 17 today. This is the cycle where i should get my bfp if mt Cheri prediction is right! My edd would be about 17 june, how exciting! Anyway, i must continue to try and keep stress-free and not convince myself im getting every symptom there is!

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I had my blood taken a couple of days ago so will get the results on Wednesday. I still think my progesterone numbers will come back low, i was pro only about 3 or 4 dpo and your meant to be a week past to show a sufficient rise. I will be surprised if its any different. One of my colleagues gave birth to her baby boy last Wednesday, she sent some pics to me and it has made me even more broody now, i just hope more than anything this will be my month. I have been feeling nauseous for the last 4 days which is prob completely in my head, its amazing how much your body and mind can trick you. I had dreams last night where i poas and got my bfp, in my dream i was dreaming (if that makes sense lol) and when i woke up (in my dream!!) i was afraid my bfp wasnt real, so i poas again twice and i got bfp's! I was telling all my friends and soo happy, i was in complete disbelief and soooooo pleased. And then i really woke up, how disappointing.
I have suddenly decided what i would like the nursery to be, i think i would like it to be the old style winnie the pooh or bears, something along them lines. Ok im going to stop now as im getting too excited and stressed which wont be good as im building my hopes up too much again!

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So my resolve to not obsess has completely broken and i have gone waayyy over the top!! I was doing great until i heard my colleague gave birth to her very cute baby boy, then wham!! Im obsessing!! I am convincing myself this is it, what with the bfp dreams - and because of this I even tested yesterday at 6dpo - rediculous i know as there is no way a test would come back positive that early! Another reason for my completely unbalanced behaviour is this is the cycle where my Cheri prediction comes in, she said June will be my EDD date - so i should be pg if she is correct! I have been scouring through ebay bidding on baby items as i have decided on a theme for the nursery. OMG make me stop!!
This is not good as im going to be sooooooooo let down if this isnt my month. I cant cope with the 3 pg colleagues at work and the new born talk, im gonna be so upset if this isnt my month. I dont understand why its taking so long. I get my blood results wednesday, part of me hopes they will be fine, part of me hopes there will be something minor wrong which we can correct so i know my bfp will hurry up! PHEW!!!!

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Well, i had my doctors appointment today to discuss my blood results. She said they were all great, all at very healthy levels so thats good news. The next step is to definately book bf in for a SA, going to try and get his appointment for tomo or Friday. If he comes back all normal then she will refer us to a fertility specialist who will then investigate me further. It feels good to have a plan but scary at the same time as i never thought it would come to this. Im sure i am out for this cycle as i tested again and got a bfn, im 10dpo so im pretty sure if it was a positive then i would have even just the faintest of lines.

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Wow its been so long since i posted on here! Yes, i decided after the last cycle that it was all becoming a bit too stressful. So i took a break from the boards, from FF and i only used my monitor. I decided that it was too early to get bf to do a SA also, and we forgot about that idea. We got a puppy about 2 weeks ago so that kept us real busy and i didnt think about bd'ing the whole time in my high days (on my fm). When my peak days came, we bd only twice and i think this was prob a couple of days b4 i O'ed. I then forgot all about it and didnt obsess one little bit in the tww! Last night i has this really wierd feeling. I knew af was due today but my abdoment felt 'full' and i had mild twinges. I though, im going to test tomo with fmu, as i have nothing to lose, ill only be disappointed when af arrives at least this will give me some warning. Anyway, i couldnt believe it when this morning i got the cross for a positive sign on the clearblue hpt!! I could almost see the line appear instantly - i didnt want to stare too hard at first incase i was imagining it like i do every month haha! Bf was just leaving for work so i didnt tell him as he was rushing, even though i wanted to jump for joy!! I waited another couple of hours and done a clearblue digital which again confirmed it!! So i cant get it out of my head, i want to announce it to the world but i know i cant! I have 2 gorgeous little baby winnie the pooh outfits im going to wrap with a positive test and give it to bf tonight!!
BFP WOOOO HOOOO!!!!!! 10 Months later and we have done it!!!!!!!

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So i guess this will be my last entry in my ttc journal as im no longer ttc (woo hoo!).
Bf was very pleased when i told him, he liked the outfits too!
I have since poas on about 6 different pg tests just to make sure its real lol, its great seeing that line getting darker! Anyway, im going over to the pregnancy journals now, what a long journey its been. Now im looking forward to this new life we have created!