Susan, I'm not going back in for anymore ultrasounds. I'm monitoring myself with ovulation tests. So, the next time I go in will be for the IUI!
Ok, so I dyed my hair....it started out lighter but I hated it- think Pamela Anderson bleached blonde- so I dyed it dark. Steven really likes it:
Oh I love your hair. Very sexy. I've told you this before, I think you could pull off just about any hair color.
I think the dark color suits you. Did you do it yourself?
Melinda, I did it myself after some blonde highlights went wrong. I happened to have a box and just put it on. It was shocking at first- the really dark- and Steven even did a double-take when he saw me. But he likes it now- and he really liked it last night.
No positive OPK yet, but I'm taking some to town with me so that I can test later this morning- don't want to miss my first surge! I'll use them in the Target bathroom or something. LOL.
Oooh! Nice! I agree with Susan, you could pull off any hair color. I know Steven prefers dark over light anyway. I really looks beautiful and in the pic, pairs well with your eyes.
That ought to be interesting juggling a toddler and a test in the Target bathroom! May want the big stall! LOL!
Your hair looks great Angela! Hope you get that positive OPK soon!
I agree...you're one of those lucky girls that can go either light or dark.
Hey, there's nothing wrong with using an OPK in Target's bathroom! Gotta do what you gotta do
Thanks for the compliments, girls. I know it will fade out fast, so I'll apply another bottle in a few weeks- unless I'm pregnant.
I am so uncomfortable. I mentioned a couple of days ago that I was happy my ovaries weren't feeling swollen like last month. Well, I spoke too soon. I am really feeling some pressure- it almost feels like my boobs did when my milk came in and I desperately needed to empty them. Right now I've got the heating pad going. Still no positive OPK, but I'm thinking it will be tomorrow.
I also love it and I agree that you are beutiful no matter what color your hair is.
I just checked out your chart, is today the day???
Susan- tomorrow is the day. I had my first positive OPK this morning. My temperature rise this morning is only from waking up about 4 times in the night- twice right before I took my temp.
So yep- tomorrow morning at 11 am. We have to drop the sample off at 8...so we'll have to burn 3 hours somehow. My Mom is coming over to watch Erin for me...so Steven and I will go to breakfast and burn some time doing something else.
I was wondering if today or tomorrow. I'll be thinking of you two. Hope you are able to enjoy each other on your morning 'date' with not a lot of stress. Get a good night's sleep.
Good luck today!!! I'm thinking of you!
So, we had the IUI this morning...I cramped more than last time and I'm still feeling a little bit off, but that's normal. Steven had 60 million sperm with 52% motility. They like to see 10 million motile sperm, so he had 6 times the amount. Last month, he had 96.4 million with 70% motility, but I'm pretty sure we did the IUI one day late last month.
Anyway, the waiting game begins!!
I just said a prayer for you and Steven. I hope you know that all your Blossom sisters are behind you all the way and cannot wait until you share that wonderful BFP picture with us!!
isn't that the truth Kim!
Thanks Kim and Emily.
I ovulated yesterday-I had a temp hike this morning. Woo-hoo for timing it right! We also managed to BD last night, but I didn't get any enjoyment out of it. I was so swollen and my ovaries felt like they were going to burst. Hm. Maybe that is when I ovulated.
I meant to post yesterday that Steven told me to take a pamphlet on IVF before we left yesterday. They're hosting a class in July, and he told me to take it in case we have to go that route. We'll try a few more IUI's, but the fact that he wants us to be prepared shows me that he is willing to go that far if we have to in order to have another child. I was worried that he'd balk at the price of IVF and decide not to do it, but he kind of put those fears to rest yesterday.
I'm trying to think of things that I can do to keep my mind off of the 2ww! Maybe I should finally organize some of Erin's pictures...
Great to hear of the large school of swimmers. Consistently maintaining good #s compared to where you started.
Is it the clomid that are making your ovaries so sore? Is it b/c of increased fluid or just a side effect (pain) from the med?
Sorry to hear you are so uncomfortable. I hope you find some relief soon. Are you allowed to take anything to ease the discomfort?
You two were on my mind all day yesterday. I peeked to see how it went, but only now able to comment.
It sounds like you guys have great timing for this month. You're in my thoughts!
Great timing! So glad Steven's on board w/ IVF should you need it.
Hmm, things to occupy you during the 2ww....
You could come over and clean my kitchen cabinets? Or mow the lawn. It's in desperate need. I also would like you to clean my closets, you know, since you'll be here and all.
I am so glad to read that the timing was right. And, a little BD'ing ain't bad either.
Kamila- I would totally come help you if I was up there. We'd have to have a lot of french fries with malt vinegar to keep my energy up, though.
I did think of some things to keep me occupied, though....I'm going to make some valances for our bathroom. Right now we have the curtains from our house in Montana in our bathroom. I cut them to the right length and then pinned them, and that was a year ago. They finally started to bother me enough that I decided to get some faux wood blinds and some material to do the valances. I'll have to post pictures of that. I also have some new flowers to plant and a ton of pictures to organize.
I so, so hope the IUI worked this month.
Ugh...and the awful sadness begins. I had this last month and was hoping to miss it this month. Nope. I'm feeling hopeless right now. I'll never be pregnant again...etc. I don't "feel" pregnant, and I know I'm only 2 DPO....but still.
I'm so tired and hormonal and one part of me knows it, but the other part is not being rational and is very emotional right now.
Huugs Angela!!!! Sending lots of time flying vibes!!!
Thinking of you!!!
The good news is, I don't really think it's possible to feel pg 2 dpo. So, don't let that get you down!
Have you ever tried to count how many hairs you have on your shin? Now *that* is what I call time consuming.
I agree w/ Susan - 2dpo is early. Try and stay positive!
I just saw this blinky and thought it was hysterical:
I can so relate to that...
that's about how I felt whenever someone said that to me!
Not good again this morning. I'm actually considering calling my doctor....I think I posted about how I read that giving clomid to people with depression can be a bad thing. Well, it is for me right now. I just cried on the phone with my Mom about how I'll never be pregnant again and I'll never have another baby. My mood is totally in the shitter- sorry for the swearing.
I know this happened last month, but it seems like it's earlier and more persistent this month.
You know how you are feeling - high or low. There is nothing wrong with contacting your doctor with concerns. I encourage you to make that call. They need to know how you are responding as part of your complete care picture/plan. I hope their staff is sensitive and proactive and can give you some good information.
Hang in there! You don't have to 'relax' if you don't want to! LOL! This will happen for you two. Any extra endorphins hanging around?
I'm sorry you're feeling down I agree...I'd call your doctor and see what they say. I'm sure many of their patients go through the same thing as you're going through :bigarmhug:
:bigarmhug: Thinking of you!
So how ya feeling, any better? I've been thinking about you!
I'm kind of sad again this morning. I'm pretty sure I'm not pregnant this month. It's just a feeling I have....
I did get some good news- my brother is coming home next weekend. He has been on a Navy deployment and will be home for 4th of July. I can't wait to see him.
Sorry to hear you are feeling down right now.:bigarmhug: Let me say that I am hoping, and praying that you are 100% wrong, and this is your month!!
How exciting about your brother coming home though!!!
Well, here I am, 7 DPO. My PMS symptoms started today. All the same ones, too- irritability, tired, sore boobs, and craving tons of pepperoncini's. This happens each month at this time. Needless to say, I'm not too hopeful.
Today, we discussed attending the IVF meeting on July 7th. I think we're going to it....we're slowly heading that way.
Right now I'm trying to remember to be thankful for the baby that I do have and all of the other blessings that we've been given. I'm doing well with it and then not so well other moments.
I'm glad to hear that your brother is coming home for the holiday
I'm sorry that it seems that AF is on her way If you go to the IVF meeting, is that something that you would do pretty soon? Or would you do another month of IUI?
I'm sending lots of :bigarmhug: your way!
Hi Angela! It's Heather! I stumbled upon your journal and decided to say hi
What it be shameful of me to ask for Erin pics???LOL I haven't seen a pic of her in sooo long!
That's awesome that your brother is coming home in a few days! How long will he get to stay? Something I don't miss about the military is how they give orders that drastically affect ppl's lives and expect them to be followed w/in a few days/hours. When it's someone coming home it's great, a wonderful surprise, but when it's someone deploying - what a load of crap to deal with. Ugh.
On another note, sending hugs your way. Definitely call the dr and let them know how you're doing emotionally.
Just wanted to send some hugs your way and let you know I'm thinking about you. I so hope this is your month!
Just came over to check on you...
Thinking about you and sending positive thoughts!!!!
....And there goes my temp. I'm so disappointed.
I just saw the temp on your chart. Hang in there, sweetie!
Enjoy your brother's visit.
Sending lots of hugs and love.
Oh crap. I'm sorry.
Just stalked your chart
Thinking of you
My temp is very low this morning and I'm sure AF will be here today or tomorrow, true to form.
Steven is going with me to my baseline ultrasound appointment this week. We have some questions to ask the doctor. We both kind of want to know what the hell happened this cycle. I mean, it just doesn't make sense- you put so many sperm up there to meet the egg and it doesn't happen. I'm sure she'll just say that happens sometimes, but we at least want to ask.
I think we might also request the egg hatching test- they put sperm in a petrie dish with mouse eggs to see if they can fertilize the egg...and if they can, then that's a good indicator of an IUI being a possible success. If not, then you know you have to do ICSI- intra-cellular sperm injection....where they put the sperm directly into the egg to basically fertilize it manually.
We might also see if there is anything we can do differently this cycle- bump up the clomid, try a different medication, etc. The Clomid side-effects do have my concerned a little bit- you know, the depression and such. I can't do anther 2ww like the last one- the tiredness, depression, etc. It's not fair to my daughter, my husband, or myself. I'm going to do a little research on the Clomid and depression.
I've got to go order some more vitamins for Steven and some OPK's. Fun stuff, man.
Crap. I need to make a list of all of this!
So get this:
On 7/7/05, I got my period. I got pregnant with Erin that cycle.
Today is 7/7/08, and my period came.
Maybe it will be my lucky month.