I have my ultrasound this morning, yes. I also started my period. I swear, I've done nothing but bleed for the last 2 months with tiny little breaks in between.
So, this whole IVF thing hasn't really phased me much-I've been fairly calm about it. That is, until I got my progesterone in oil shots 2 days ago. I knew that the needle was supposed to be big. I wasn't planning on it being the size of a nail, however.
Sweet Jesus. This is supposed to go into my butt, and not just once. Nope- one time each day for about 6 weeks. My butt cheeks are quivering from fear.
The smaller shot is the one I'm doing right now- it's for Lupron and the stims shot is about the same. So compare that to the progesterone shot on top.
Look at the hole in the needle:
I'm seriously freaking out. I've been watching videos on youtube of how to do it and googling hints on how to make it go easier.
I showed Steven last night and he went pale just looking at the needle. He then proceeded to tell me that he's not sure he can do it. Greeeeaaat.
My ultrasound today went well- I got the go ahead to start my stims on Sunday. I also bump down the Lupron from 10 to 5.... when she put the wand in, I was kind of sore on the left side. She said she really wasn't sure why, because I don't have any cysts or anything. Oh, I also have a seriously retrograded uterus. It almost tips back to a 90 degree angle. That causes no problems in getting pregnant the normal way (not that we're doing the normal way, but whatever), but when they put the embryos in, they may have to tip the catheter a little bit.
We also had to pay today- that was a big chunk of change. No turning back now!
Oh, and we had to sign all of our consent forms today. The one that gave us both a little bit of pause is what would we do if we got divorced. Ouch, icky subject. We couldn't decide who would get them and be responsible for them- the other option was to discard them, which is not something we wanted. So, we flipped a coin. I called heads and it landed on heads, so I won that. Such a lovely little contest to win. The IVF nurse told us that some people sit there and debate for a while- she said one couple even switched it three times. We were the first ones to flip a coin though, lol.
My allergies are acting up big time. I just took two Benadryl and I'm feeling loopy. I'm going to bed soon.
My butt cheeks are quivering from fear.
He then proceeded to tell me that he's not sure he can do it.
He then proceeded to tell me that he's not sure he can do it.
I don't blame your butt cheeks!
Steven's comment cracks me up. You're sticking a nail in your behind and he's not sure he can do it! At least you guys still have a sense of humor even though you're having to go through all this stuff.
I had been wondering how you're doing and then I noticed the link to your journal in your siggy. I hope things are still going well.
OMG that is a big ol' needle. But it will be worth it.
That would be a tough decision to make. I hate when those "well if you got a divorce" subjects come up. Because of course, you never EVER want to think that way. But sometimes you have to make provisions for even the absolutly unlikely.
Ouch - I'm quivering just looking at that needle! I hope that everything works out for you guys.
My butt cheeks are also quivering with fear :help: You'll take it like a champ though You didn't even flinch when you stuck yourself with the little one. The 28th is only 8 days away!!!
I had my first ultrasound yesterday after 3 days of stims. I had 9 follies, with the biggest measuring 7 and 8...so I've got a little ways to go. My estradiol level was 214. She did bump my dosage down from 225/225/150 to 187.5/150/150.
I go back on Saturday for another ultrasound and more bloodwork.
I'm starting to feel the effects of the hormones. I'm really tired and kind of irritable. Poor Steven. I can feel my ovaries working, too. All in all, I'm doing ok, though.
We're putting up our Christmas tree this weekend. It's such a big tree that it takes me 2 days to do, and I don't want to do it next weekend after they remove my eggs. My understanding is that I'll be a little out of it from the sedation and cramping a little....I hate to put the tree up before Thanksgiving- I feel like Thanksgiving gets looked over by society as it is- but I know that waiting until next weekend might not be a smart idea.
My Dad's Mom died yesterday. The doctor said that I could go to the funeral if I wanted to, but that I needed to hurry home just in case something happened with my ovaries. Erin is sick again right now with a really high fever, so we're going to skip it.
Anyway, that's all here...
I had to leave early to have my blood drawn before 8:30. Got to St. David's hospital in downtown Austin at about 8- their lab is the only draw station open on Saturdays, and my doctors office contracts out with them....the lady told me that its obvious I have scar tissue and that my blood doesn't even want to come out of my veins. Nice, huh?
Anyway, onto the ultrasound- I have 11 follicles. About 4 of them are small- 6 and 7's..some are 10 and 12's, and there is one 15. She wants the 6's and 7's to grow some more but does't want the bigger ones to get too big, so it's a balancing act right now. My meds are going up tonight and tomorrow to 225/187.5; the last two nights, I've been at 150. She still estimates the trigger shot will be on Wednesday night and ER on Friday morning. I go back for more bloodwork and ultrasound on Monday. Yipee! We're getting close now!
Oh, and my ovaries looked like chocolate chips today. Seriously- you could see my round ovary, and then it was full of these tiny black circles, which are the follices. Pretty crazy.
It looked very similar to this, but with way more chocolate chips:
Angela I love reading all your updates. You are one strong woman!
Ok, so my ER is scheduled for tomorrow, Saturday, at 8:30. I took the trigger shot last night...looks like we'll be getting about 10 eggs. That's a good number in our opinions- not too many, not too low to work with. After that, they'll mix Steven's sperm with my eggs, or they'll directly inject a sperm into my eggs- that is called ICSI and is what they do when men have poor sperm quality (morphology). They'll either do a 3 or a 5 day transfer. The nurse thinks it will be a 5 day, which is good- that means by then, we'll have embryos. So, Tuesday or Thursday is the transfer day. I have to be on bed rest the day of the transfer and the day after. My MIL is coming down for about 5 days to help me out.
The only thing is, my doctor is worried that I'm heading towards OHSS. That's Ovarian Hyper Stimulation Syndrome, and when the ovaries realease an egg, they start leaking fluid into the abdomen and the blood stream. It causes extremem bloating, abdominal pain, nausea, diarrhea, etc. I'm supposed to start weighing myself each morning and drink lots of salty drinks- V-8 juice, chicken broth, gatorade, etc. For some reason, salty stuff is better than non-salty.
That's all that is going on for now...I'll have to update more tomorrow after they retrieve my eggs. I'll be out of it for much of the day because it's IV sedation...
I haven't checked your journal out in a while, but just read up and wanted to wish you all the luck in the world for tomorrow and the week ahead!! Hoping and praying for you!!!!!
Ok, so my ER is scheduled for tomorrow, Saturday, at 8:30.
Wishing you the best!!!
That's really interesting they want you to drink salty drinks for something that could potentially bloat you! Strange, LOL.
Good luck tomorrow!!!! Strong egg and sperm vibes! LOL
Good luck tomorrow!!!
On my way to the ER...I'll post later about how many eggs we get. Right now I'm hungry- couldn't eat past 8 last night- and I really have to pee, but your bladder has to be full. So I'm a big uncomfortable because my ovaries are huge and pressing on my bladder. I'm not going to complain too much, though- this is worth it!
Steven and I left this morning at about 7:30 to make it for my appointment at 8:30. I couldn't eat or drink since last night, and I also thought that I couldn't pee because you're usually supposed to have a full bladder for this kind of stuff. Turns out that was for the embryo transfer only, so I finally went to the bathroom after we did all of the admissions paperwork. After that, they did my IV- she numbed me first, so that was nice.
Going in, we knew that I had about 8 or 9 mature follicles- meaning anything meausring over 14. I also had about 8 or 9 follicles that were measuring less than that- 8, 9, 10, 11 and 12's. RE's figure that follicles grow at a rate of 2 mm a day, so we were planning on getting about 11 or 12 eggs.
I remember being wheeled into the OR and my doctor and the nurses all talking to me about shopping yesterday, asking me if Erin was an IVF baby, etc. They all seemed surprised to find out she wasn't- except my doctor, of course. Next thing I remember is waking up to Steven and my doctor and nurse talking about various things. I had been warned before they gave me the anesthesia that a lot of women ask numerous times how many eggs they had, but I only asked once, and I remembered the answer-7 from the left side! The right side had the bigger follicles, and the embryologist was still counting them.
The embryologist came into our room, and we had 20[SIZE=3] [SIZE=2]eggs. I didn't even have that many measurable follicles! Most likely, some of them are from the smaller follicles, less than 14, and won't be mature, which means you can't do much with them. But a lot of them will be mature, so we should have a lot to work with.
The embryologist also told us that Steven's sample from today was good enough that they don't have to do ICSI (where they inject his sperm into my egg via needle). His morphology was 22% today- that is so odd because just two weeks ago, it was 8%. The andrologist that usually does Steven's samples is named Angela, and apparently she is really tough on the grading of the sperm. I was really hoping they would do ICSI, because I didn't want a bad sperm to get into an egg, but with the wash they do on the sperm, the dead are weeded out. It's more like natural selection with just regular IVF.
I'll call tomorrow after 2 pm for our fertilization report....and I'll update then. We'll most likely be putting the embryo's back in on Thursday, but Tuesday is an option. My MIL is coming down for about a week to help me out so that I can rest and let them snuggle into my uterine lining.
[SIZE=3][SIZE=2]So, out of the 20 we had, 10 fertilized normally. 2 of them did not fertilize and were called 1 pro-nuclei....6 of them allowed more than 1 sperm in, which means they aren't viable embryo's- that's a sign of an immature egg. 2 of them shriveled up and died, and they most likely were post- mature. So we've got 10 going right now- we'll have a better idea tomorrow if we're going to have a 3 or 5 day transfer.[/SIZE][/SIZE]
You have 10 little Angela's and Steven's out there! LOL
How many will they put in you max??? I bet you end up with triplets
They will put in two, max.
Okay twins than LOL
Unless one splits. Or both. Then we'd have quads. :eek::)
Wow! 10 little eggies are ready to be put into you huh? Just kidding. Can you imagine? :eek: I'm so proud of you, you're so brave. Good luck the next couple of days!! :kissy:
I've been thinking about you this last week, Angela. Please tell me what kind of vibes you need - sticky? I don't want to send the wrong ones. Are you going in tomorrow? Good luck!!
I definitely need snuggle in, and stick embryo vibes!
We are transferring 2 8 celled, grade 2 embryo's at 12:30. Wish me luck!
Come home and rest up mama!
:vibes: Snuggle in a stick you little beans!
Ok, so I got it wrong- one is an 8 celled, grade 2, almost grade 1...and the other is a 7-celled grade 2. The 8 celled is already compacting, which is good.
So I went in and they gave me a valium. After that, they had me change clothes- they gave me these really cute purple shaggy booties. I was very excited about them when I found out I got to take them home. Anyway, I laid there for about 30 minutes relaxing and trying not to move because my bladder was so full. Finally, they took us back. They laid me on a warm table and covered me up with warm blankets, and then all of a sudden they tipped the bed so far back that I thought I was going to fall backwards. My doctor then put in a massive speculum- not comfortable. She did some cleaning of the cervix with q-tips and then told us to look at this huge plasma screen tv on the wall. The embryologist put a picture of our embryos on the TV, and then we watched as she sucked them up into the pipet. It went so quickly that my reaction was "Hey, watch it- be gentle with them, they are so fragile!"
My doctor had a little bit of a hard time getting the catheter into my cervix. I guess I have a little bit of a curve to it, so she had to take it out and shape it a little differently. They had to do that with our last IUI, too. Anyway, we watched as the cather went into my cervix, and then that was the end of it. My bladder was hugely full, so she emptied it with a
catheter. I filled up 1.5 water-bottle sized receptacles with urine. After that they all moved me back to my bed and I laid there for 45 minutes.
Here is a picture of the little embryos- the black swirled part is where they had our name printed, but I swirled it out for privacy:
Awww so cute!!!! I would have wanted them to be gentle too, they look so fragile!
Welcome to the 2WW!!! When do they want you back for a blood test?
Wow! That's soooooo cool!!! So now do you just wait and take a pee test or what?
Haven't checked in for a while due to family staying at our house for the holiday.
Wow! :eek: How exciting to read about the transfer!!! Praying for you and the little beans!!! Glad MIL is there to help. :bigarmhug:
Steph, I'm due for a blood test on Saturday the 13th, but the doctor said that I could go on the 12th. I'm sure on POAS before then though.
That's only ten days from now!!! I hope you're resting well and MIL and Steven (and Erin) are taking good care of you and your snugglebuns.
Wow..you are such a strong woman. I will be praying for you over the next few days!!
Thinking about you! Hope you're feeling well.
Thinking of you Angela! Are you keeping busy, or are the days dragging by for you?
I'll be in Vegas then! I'll have to check your journal as soon as I get home!
The days seem to be going by fairly quickly, but it does seem like Friday is a long way away!
We got word yesterday that we had no embryo's left to freeze. None of them made it to the blastocyst stage. I was surprisingly upset about that. I don't know why- I guess I was rooting for them. I mean, I didn't want to have a lot to freeze, but I also felt a little bit of an attachment to them. I mean, they were our little embryo's. I can't really explain it, I guess.
Then I started worrying about what that meant for the ones they put in me. So many people have assured me that it's ok- the ones they put back were the best. But still, I'm a worrier by nature. I'm trying just to stay calm, though. That's hard for my Type-A personality self.
I also felt a little bit of an attachment to them. I mean, they were our little embryo's.
Of course you were attached to them - it makes total sense, no need for explanation. Sorry they didn't make it, that sucks.
So I've been wondering, have you caved in and tested yet? It's getting close to testing time now! I can't wait to hear! I'm keeping everything crossed and praying for you!
Blood test is Friday. I'm 11 DPO, and 8DP3DT (8 days past 3 day transfer). I wonder how many are in there?
I said it over on April, and I'll say it again.
My goodness girl. Those are some dark lines for how many DPO you are!!! I bet there are 2
Oh, Angela! :bouncey::huggles:
CONGRATS Lov-ah! I hope there is no more than 2!
OMG!! So exciting! That's really wonderful to see. CONGRATULATIONS.
Hugs and kisses to you both!
So today was your first Beta, right? When do you know the numbers, and when do you go back for your second draw?
Susan, you are on top of things! I did have my first beta. It was at 94, and they like to see 50-100 for 4 weeks. I was 3 weeks 6 days yesterday, so that is good. My progesterone was only at 18, and they like to see it at 20 when on supplements, so they bumped up my dosage of the PIO shot. It took Steven forever to get all of that oil into me last night!
I go back on Monday for another beta.
I'm really scared about another miscarriage. I swear, miscarriages take all of the joy out of any future pregnancies because you're freaking out the whole time.
Except for the exhaustion, I feel pretty good. I hope I get really, really sick soon. I would feel better if I did.
I wish you days and nights of endless puking! (you asked for it! LOL)
Glad everything is looking so good. Since the Beta is so high so early, are they thinking multiples?