Ugh... two posts in one day, obsess much?
So yeah, I must admit I'm insanely obsessing here... I always try and be nonchalant, but I swear it's like a addiction... it just won't get out of my mind. Every little bout of nausea, gas, or a twinge here and I'm like is that AF coming? Or is it pregnancy pains?
We bd'd tonight, and I had some cramping beforehand, and I'm like is AF coming?
Seriously, considering we weren't even trying this month, and were initially gonna try and not bd around o time, this is ridiculous. I can imagine me next month... I have a feeling even though I said "let it happpen" that I'm going to be charting, temping, and cm checking like nobody's business. I have a feeling that's going to be a bit difficult due to time changes.
I wanna make sure I take my temp tommorow properly just to see where it's sitting. In all honesty I usually have a low temp anyways, so I have a feeling that 98/99 would be odd for me. We'll see though... I just need to get back on the bandwagon with that one.
So still no AF.... which is good I suppose.. However another BFN, actually done in the morning this time. Still hope I suppose, considering I don't know when I ovulated, it's always possible that I o'd sometime last week, and this would still be way to early to test. However... I don't know why I'd start having symptoms already if that were to be the case.
So the symptoms remain remotely the same. A big wave of nausea this morning, slept like a rock, and pretty tired/foggy feeling. Although I did notice something new maybe...
The veins in my boobs seem darker, like seriously I never noticed one running right down the front left side of my left boob. However to be honest I've never really looked that close either. The only times I do pay some attention is when I remember to do a self breast exam.
So I'm still hopeful. I have one test left, that I figure I'll try and save til maybe saturday, or monday. We'll see... I figure I'll mention something to DH on friday too. Just so I don't have to explain why I'm not drinking on saturday's bbq.
Well my temp dropped down to 97.5..... however still no AF. Quite honestly at this point, I wish something would happen. I'm making myself miserable, trying to figure out if I'm pg or not. I'm thinking not and that it's been the hormonal changes from BCP. If AF is coming, I wish she'd so.... because that means we'll officially be TTC.
I'm actually feeling in a somewhat better mood about it all today, so we'll see how it all goes.
So still no AF.... (big surprise huh)
Temp went back up to 97.9. I am up an hour earlier than usual, so if I do the temp corrector it's 98.8.... so we'll see. I should be able to get up at the proper time tommorow. My schedule has just been screwy this week. I'm sure that doesn't help with this whole bit.
Still no af, and my temp went up to 98.3...
So who knows. I figure I'll tell DH today that my period's late, but I don't think I'll test til monday unless he insists. I feel sorta weird telling him that considering we weren't trying, but I suppose he should understand the mechanics of things regardless.
So I've pretty much owned up to the fact that I'm probaly not pregnant.... I tested yesterday and it was still negative. Not to mention temp dropped a lot today, so I'm hoping AF will come tommorow. It's odd to say I'm hoping for AF, but I really wanna move on to the next month. Because we'll be officially trying, and I want to be a lot better with my charting so I have a better idea of what's going on.
I'm still waiting.... my temp dropped down to around 97.7 and has been in that general area for the past three days, however still no AF... No real cramps or anything yet either. While most of my cramps come my 1st day of AF, I still normally get a few the day before it starts. I figure I'll tell DH tonight that my period is late, but I highly doubt I'm pregnant.
I can't say this is my longest cycle ever.... I did have one last July that was six weeks long. I'm just so ready to officially TTC, that I just wanna get it started. However if it doesn't start til the end of the week, and I O on the 14 day average, it would be perfect timing.... however I just want my period damnit.
*bangs head on door*
I was so determined that AF was coming... I had cramping, and all that fun stuff... temp was going down. Til today, it jumped up to 98.3. So now I'm totally and utterly confused.... I'm partially wondering if that cramping wasn't AF cramping, and it was actually me O'ing.
If so that probaly means I'm out this month, because I really wasn't prepared for that happening so we didn't really bd around that time at all. I suppose it's somewhat possible, but very unlikely in my opinion.
Also means my period will be due to start when we leave. That's gonna be tons of fun 10 hours on a plane while on my period. Hopefully it stops by the wedding day.
Rollercoaster ride anyone? So today was 97.5.... I'm totally annoyed and frustrated which isn't helping I'm sure.
And still no AF.... mind you most of my AF's start in the evening.... I'm just so ready to be normal. I hate this. I should of gone off of it in June apparently.
So the anno cycle continues.... day 40 now, and so not enjoying it. I can't believe I'm actually upset about not having a period. I keep on feeling like AF is on it's way, but nothing happens. I have cramping, sore boobs, the whole kit n' kaboodle and yeah here I am without even some spotting. Overall not making me feel too hot because if AF doesn't come soon, and I do manage to ovulate next cycle.... we'll be out of the time range while we're in hawaii. So that's totally depressing me.
Other than that just gotta get through the next three days of work and I should be a fairly happy person regardless. That'll leave just about a week til we leave, so I'm totally excited about that.