So it's looking pretty good temp wise. We didn't really manage to BD again last night.... so we'll see what happens. I'm gonna take another OPK today to see if I'm still fertile. Although I'm really thinking it was mostly yesterday due to the large amount of CM I had. Either way sunday night was pretty good timing anyways.
So now comes the 2ww.... never been in one of these so we'll see how I do. I have a feeling I'm going to be totally obsessing and testing way too early. I'm trying to remain positive, even if I don't get a BFP this cycle I'd be okay with it. We didn't really get to time it properly because I wasn't expecting such an early O. I'm still pretty hopeful, and I know it only takes once, but I wish we had gotten a few more chances in there.
So I hate fighting... especially when your husband is the type who's silent. Now we've had this discussion before when we were both calm and he does it because he doesn't wanna say something he'll regret. However that gets to me ten times worse than if he did say something mean. Primarily because it leaves me to my own thoughts... I probaly made things worse because I basically kept on bugging him to tell me, and stormed off and came back a few times.
I understand now that I've calmed down a bit why what I said offended him. He's a very how do I put it, almost stand up person. He believes what he believes and stands by it. Well he was teasing me about something and first he said it's against my religion, and I said he didn't have one. Well then he said it's against his beliefs, and I said he didn't have any of this and he gets pissed.
I think part of why I got so upset was the whole TTC thing. I mean I finally ovulated, and part of me feels like he doesn't care like it's an inconvience to him. To me it should be loving and romantic, not just let's get it over with. I realize he may be joking a bit, but it kinda hurts my feelings. This is something I really want badly, I don't appreciate it being made fun of. That's like telling someone you wanna be a doctor and then them yelling at you and telling you how stupid it is.
So overall... even though i had another positive opk it's looking like it's all up to that one night.... so I'm not very hopeful.
TTC Stuff - Overall I'm thinking good signs. Had a nice temp spike today, also been having some mild cramping & nausea. Overall I know the nausea could just be from the prenatals, but hey it's my first real 2ww I wanna obsess. Quite honestly I'm really thinking this is it. It feels very similar to when I had my ectopic, except without the constant bleeding lol. I'm a bit nervous about saying that due to the fact I don't wanna sound like a hopeful idiot when AF shows up.
Life Stuff - Got the new bedroom set today. I must say it looks really good. now I just need a nice comforter and all is good. Other than that, gotta work the weekend, but at least I get to sleep in.
So quite a temp dip today. Still above coverline, but I'm wonder if it's relating to how cold it was upstairs last night to. The thermometer was quite cold when I picked it up. It could also be implantation dip, or it could just be nothing. I suppose I shouldn't stress it, if it is, it is I can't change it now.
So slept on the new bed last night, and not sure what I think yet. My muscles feel pretty good this morning, but it almost feels like I'm going to fall off the bed. Had a bunch of weird dreams. One of them involved TTC... AF came early, so hopefully that's not the case.
Mmm... temps going back up, so I suppose that's good. Work was blehish last night, much too busy near the end and I was just way too tired. I also noticed some food aversions.... I really wanted some fries, but once I got them.... they really didn't taste that good to me. Although I still ate them, so I don't know if that's really a food aversion.
A coworker told me she's pregnant, so of course now I'm totally wanting it even more. She just found out, so if I manage a BFP this cycle we'd be due only 2 weeks apart. I partially wanna start testing on 8dpo even though I know it's rare to get a BFP that early.... I was originally gonna start testing on wednesday (10dpo)... I may just splurge and test anyways.
Other than that gotta work the next two days, bleh. Not really looking forward to that at all. It only took me two weeks to realize why I don't like my job again.
Well work wasn't as horrendous as yesterday. Overall it was rather nice. Not much changed on the TTC front. Had some sticky CM, and some mild nausea. However honestly I don't think much of the nausea considering I take prenatals as well. I did put my stats into TCOYF, and they give me an ovulation date of the 10th. Overall I'm more feeling the 8th just based on how I felt.
Not to mention TCOYF totally ignores the fact that I had 3 periods last month. They just continue on like nothings happened, so they have my cycle starting a day later than normal.
I realize I probaly shouldn't be obsessing this much. I guess I never realized how bad I would be about it. I think about it quite a lot during the day and I'm definately a chart stalker lol. Oh well, either way it goes, I'm just happy to have finally ovulated.
Yay, off tommorow! Never been so glad for a day off. Work wasn't so bad, I just really would like a day off. Planning on going to visit my mother, and show her the professional pictures. Then having dinner with a friend. Overall sounding like a good day.
On the TTC front, still trying to remain hopeful. So far no implantation dip, which I realize isn't necessary and some women never experience any signs. However it would of been nice to see. Overall an odd day, but I really think I'm reading way to into it. Had a mild headache for a bit, some cramping/pulling sensations, and a bit of nausea later on. Of course all can classify as PMS symptoms, however I normally don't experience symptoms until usually 2-3 days before. However I suppose it's possible to have an early AF. Oh well, I'll know by the end of the week.
Other than that, was gonna go to bed, but DH threw miny hissy fit because I was in the bathroom and turned the fan on and it woke him up. He didn't really say much just came downstairs and shut it off and then stormed back upstairs. *sighs* So does that mean the next time his snoring wakes me up I can kick him?
So... odd day. I felt like crap for most of it. It started off with some mild diarrhea, which made me think AF is on her way. My digestive track used to always get screwed up when my period was due, however that's normally on the first/second day of it all now that I think about it. Still having cramping, later on realized I really didn't feel good. Didn't want anything to eat, was pretty tired, & quite a bit of nausea. Overall... I figure it means one of three things. AF is coming with a vengence. I'm getting sick. Or I'm pregnant. I'll be 9dpo tommorow, so I think I'm gonna test. I won't be surprised if I get a BFN due to it being incredibly early, but heck... it's my first testing cycle I might as well enjoy poas.
Overall feeling a bit better than yesterday, although we'll see how the day goes. I didn't really feel bad til the evening yesterday. Still having something cramping, nausea. Also it feels like I'm a bit jittery this morning as well. Of course I gave in and poas, and of course it was negative. Really don't know what I was thinking, but oh well. It doesn't upset me because I know it's really way too early.
In other news did have a dream about poas last night with the exact same tests I'm using and it was positive, so maybe it's a sign ^^.