So another BFN.... not surprised there either, although I'll admit I was a bit hopeful. However I'm only 10dpo, so I probaly shouldn't be surprised. Feeling pretty decent so far today as well. Had a bit of nausea this morning, and the cramping seems to have died down a bit. So maybe it was implantation cramping? *shrugs* I am having pain where my ectopic was, and that happened the day my period started last time. Temps still up there though...
Another BFN. My chart looks great though, I know it can still be too early. However I'm beginning to loose hope just a bit.... I really feel like I'm pregnant, but I'm beginning to think that my body is just playing a huge *** trick on me and that I've talked myself into the symptoms.
I think I might try and not test this weekend and wait til monday. Then I'd officially be late if AF doesn't show up. I'd really like to find out before DH goes on his work trip for a few days.
Well no signs of AF yet, so here's to hoping temps stay up. Not sure if I'm gonna test or not tommorow. I'm still debating it... I'd have to test before I temp, or just not pee all night, which would be hard. I may just wait til monday.
Been having minor cramping, but it's the same cramping I've had the whole time. So who knows... we'll find out eventually right?
So I'll admit part of me was scared to test. I figure it's just going to be another BFN, so I really didn't want to see it. I'll be honest, I'm expecting AF sometime today. I think that's just me being negative, I really don't have any technical signs. My temp is still up, but I didn't really sleep very good, so it's hard to tell there. No spotting, but I'm having some cramps, but honestly there the same cramps I've had the whole time.
I will be testing tommorow if AF doesn't visit by then. Primarily because I want to know before DH leaves for his trip. He won't be back til thursday. I know some ladies don't get their BFP til really late, it all depends on implantation. However I fear that if tommorow is a negative then well, it probaly isn't happening this cycle. I think AF showing up would make me feel better than another negative....
I do know I will not be temping my LP next cycle, it's just too much stress. It's all I can focus on right now, and that it just not the way I wanna do this.
Well, she didn't show yet. So I suppose that's a good thing.... temped a little while ago and it was still above 98 so that's good as well. Did see what I think is some minimal, I'm talking more like not even spotting. I'm thinking however that was from Bd'ing and checking cervix. I think I may of scratched myself. I'll definately know in the morning.
Currently getting a headache.... so I'm thinking I'll be going to bed soon. And then we'll see what happens in the am. DH was so cute earlier.
Him - Did you get your period yet?
Me - No
Him - Yay she's pregnant.
Lol, I wish it was that easy. I really wish I knew my LP, at least then I'd be able to tell if this was normal or not. There's been lots of BFP's recently, and while I'm really excited for those people I'm kinda sad I haven't been able to say the same. My Cheri prediction said June & Girl.... Although June was either birth, conception, or month I find out in.... If she's correct and I don't end up pregnant this cycle, that means a 2009 baby. Not sure how I'll do waiting that long. I know I shouldn't give up hope this cycle, but I'm just so confused. I keep on asking myself am I pregnant? And honestly I can't tell. It'll most likely all come down to tommorow, and it's very nervewracking.
Well... depending on opinion I'm 15dpo.... and yup, another stark white BFN. I thought maybe I saw something, but on later thought I've decided it's just my mind playing games.
However no sign of AF either, no spotting, no temp drop, nothing. So I asked advice from a FF advisor, and she said it's possible that FF got my O date wrong, and possibly I O'd a few days later on CD 13. Not so sure about CD 13 due to the fact that I have a negative OPK that day... then if you use a different setting it's CD 11, and another it's CD 17. CD 17 is out due to cervix position.... so thus basically I have no clue.
CD 11 isn't too bad for BD timing, not great though. And CD 13 is a long shot. So pretty much I don't know what will be happening. I think I'm just going to temp and see what happens.
Hmmm... spoke too soon. 99% positive AF is on her way. Overall, to a point it's a relief. It means that I finally know hey this month didn't hit it, so it's time to move on. I really wanna make sure we BD as much as possible this month. Not to mention I think I'm gonna try and focus on other things this month as well. I think maybe starting tommorow I'm gonna go back to the gym. Nothing too strenous, but I think it will make me feel a lot better. I realize loosing weight before getting pregnant, might be pointless, however my life shouldn't stop just because we're TTC.
Also gonna sit down focus on getting things ready for school. I also need to sit down and go through my stuff for the wedding scrapbook. I need to pick out which images I'm going to use...
So overall gonna try and stay positive, and just focus on more than just temping and try to keep myself positive over the anniversary.
Overall in a odd mood. I wouldn't necessarily say I'm one way or the other.. I think I've accepted obviously it's on to the next cycle. Guess I kinda just hoped it would happen right away, however I do have some odds against me. Our BD timing wasn't great, not to mention I'm pretty sure I o'd from the tubeless side. While I believe I read somewhere before that you can still get eggs from that side, not sure how accurate that is. So I suppose all I can do this month is work on the schedule some, and I think I'll order some cheapies, so I'm not wasting 50buck a month on HPTs.
Other than that, just trying to get through the day. Very crampy, and just overall wanting to curl up with a nice book or watch TV. Definately not feeling the working day. I miss DH too, I realized last night, that it was the first night in almost 2 years since I've been by myself for a night. It was kinda fun for like two hours, then it got pretty boring. Also need to pick up after myself when I get home, because I tend to be messier when I'm by myself.
Also need to decide what I wanna do exercise wise. I really need to get back into the mode, but I'm not sure how that's going to affect my cycles. I don't wanna loose a lot of weight, just maybe 10lbs or so, and I think I'd be content. So at the least I can start going for 45 minutes again. However the membership expires in December, I'm not sure if I'm willing to pay 700 again to keep it. I used it, but definately not faithfully. However if I don't, I wont' have any option for exercise this winter. It's definately something to think about.
CD 2 - Didn't temp this morning. And don't plan on it. Yep, the BBT is being locked up this cycle.
Overall, had a pretty crappy day. I'm pretty hormonal right now, and just not dealing with a few things well. Sunday will mark one year since I found that I was pregnant. I really didn't think that this would be as hard for me, as it seems to be. I found myself at various times to keep from crying. Also learned another girl is pregnant. I should be happy for her, however all I can think about is 1 month. She tried once and bam. It just makes me miserable and I feel like such an awful person for being upset about it.
Overall not a bad day. Had the day off, so that was nice. I originally intended on going to the college and then to my mother's. Well, bed was quite comfy this morning, so I only made my mothers. It was somewhat sentimental going through all my old toys.
After that headed home, had some McDonalds (Something I need to cut out). Then went and picked up our costumes for Halloween & then headed to Michael's to get some scrapbooking supplies. Started out on the 2nd page, not sure how I feel about it at the moment.... I may change a few things.
DH is home, picked him up at the airport. Sad thing is I really won't get to see him too much until Sunday due to our work schedules. So I doubt that we'll sit down and have any life discussions soon. However it definately needs to be done.
Other than that, feeling moody again. I'm beginning to wonder if it's due to AF. It's never really been an issue before, however maybe it's becoming one? I just spent a lot of time talking with my mother today, and I just can't get past how miserable my job makes me. And how much I hate it, I can't believe that I'm exactly where I was a year ago. I moved to a different hospital thinking it was that place that I hated, it turns out that was the job itself. I'm really not sure how I'm supposed to deal with it.
In other news, I think my mother may not be as against us having children as I thought. I originally thought she'd not be for it. However I think her views have changed some. I'm really impressed with the 360 she's done. It also makes me realize that I can't leave her. I thought I'd be okay with it, but I don't want to be that far from her. I like being able to drive over there when need be.