Well apparently a lack of PMS symptoms was a sign that I probaly wasn't making any progesterone. Needless to say I had a 9 day luteal phase and am not happy about it.
So I believe that going to the Dr wouldn't be helpful at this point, so I'm going to wait until it happens more than once.
In the mean time I'm taking matters into my own hands and working on a few things. I'm going to stop using TTC as an excuse not to try and loose weight. So I'm going to do some home work outs and be better with my food choices. I throughly believe that my binging last month during AF caused some issues during my O time.
Also going to invest in some herbal remedies (Vitex, Rasberry, B6) on top of my prenatals. I'm considering trying preseed as well. I'll continue with opks and temping. DH has been so much better with all of this. He talks about children, names, etc. Also he's a lot more in tune with my cycles. He doesn't grumble when I say it's time. Overall it just really helps with everything. It makes me feel like we're in this together.
Christmas was a bit hard this year. Especially with AF's unexpected visit yesterday. I literally went to the bathroom saw it and started bawling. I'm not sure if was the lack of hormones/stress or whatever, it was just so upsetting. I'm still sad about it, but I can't change it. So I'm just gonna do what I can and keep on rolling.
In the meantime there's a lot going on in January. We have our reception, we're gonna on a weekend holiday. Also gonna be putting in my apps for school. Obviously if I do get pregnant, I can't attend in the fall. However on the chance it doesn't happen anytime soon, I'd rather be able to do something. I don't want my life to be on hold for TTC.
So I'm finding the longer this goes on, the harder it gets. I've tried taking breaks before, but they never seem to work. But honestly part of me wonders if I should slack on the temping some this month, however I feel better when I temp. I'd rather know if I ovulated late instead of wasting tests.
I think I'll feel better once AF entirely leaves the building. Hormones have just been not nice this month. I ordered my herbs, not sure if they'll get here soon enough so I may see what they have at target tommorow. I also wanna talk with DH and see about bd'ing more. I still wanna stick with every other day, but make sure I don't get so impatient and give up before O. I honestly dont' expect the late O again, but just incase I don't wanna miss a chance.
I really wanna be pg when we go on holiday next month.
I'm such a post addict that I need two blogs, lol.
So I think I have a yeast infection. So not enthuzed about that one, I need to go to the store and get something, but am currently too lazy, so obviously it's not that bad. Although it did keep me up to 2am last night.
Hoping my vitamins comes soon, also need to buy some more opks considering I only have two left and who knows when O is gonna come this time. Also need to get off my lazy *** and start temping again. I've sorta been procrastinating with that. It's a bit liberating, but I know I'll hate myself in the 2ww if I'm not sure of when I o'd.
So it's been a few days. It turns out I was right, and had to deal with a nasty yeast infection. Can't remember the last time I had one that bad. Apparently I'm o'ing, although I'm surprised that it's this early. I haven't had much in terms of EWCM, a small dab yesterday and that was it. Bd'ing is looking like crap this month as well... and honestly I'm just not feeling it right now.
I feel like, that TTC is all that matters and it shouldn't be that way. There's so many other exciting things going on right now, and all I can think about is why the hell can't I get pregnant. So I'm thinking that I'll temp til I see the rise and be done with it for this month. I just don't care, as awful as it sounds I don't. I'm tired of temping, tired of doing opks, tired of pushing for bd'ing. It's taken all the fun out of it.
I'm so tired of trying to get pregnant. I either get in an argument with DH, push for sex when neither of us really want it, and he does it just to oblige me and because we feel like we have to try.
I wanna loose some weight, I wanna go to college in the fall. I mean yeah I want a baby, but I don't wanna fell like that's all I'm good for, all I want. Maybe I'll feel differently next cycle, but for this month I'm done.
I'm feeling better now, not sure when I o'd. Had some fertile cm today so we dtd just to be safe. Overall I'm happy with our timing. Been working on getting all my app's done for school and just dealing with all that.
Classes start monday, so I'm a bit nervous. It's been a while since I've taken a class, much less a math class. I'm worried I won't do well.
So I've spent most of the week questioning my O date. However I've settled with the fact that it probaly happened somewhere between thursday-tuesday. Really narrowing it down huh? Without temps it's hard to tell. FF says CD 11, Ovulsoft says CD 12.
I do feel different this month, but I'm leery to chalk it up to pregnancy symptoms. It wouldn't be the first time I talked myself into stuff.
Lots of CM. Mostly creamy, did have two globs of EWCM on tuesday. Main reason why I question O. However it was only once.
Nausea on thursday and friday. A bit today after dinner, but nothing huge. Could be due to stress or at something bad. Seemed eased by eating small amounts of food.
Cramping started yesterday and has been pretty promiment today, but again this could be chalked up to digestive stuff or just preparing for AF.
Heartburn last two days. I do remember this was quite prominent when I had my ectopic, but again could be from all my vitamins.
I figure I've spent a good chunk of money applying for colleges, that this would be the month I get my bfp, because then I can't start in the fall.
So it's been a while since I posted in here. I've been using the blog in my signature a lot more, just because I like the look.
So last cycle was a bust, didn't actually ovulate til day 22. So not sure what's going on there. Looks like the same thing could be happening this month, but I won't know til tommorow morning when I can temp and see where my temp lies.
I find I get really wishy washy on the whole thing. Some moments I'm all for relaxing, and the next I'm ready to run off to the doctor. However I know I'd feel like an idiot going to the doctor after only 7 months. So I will wait til July, I'll feel better knowing I waited the proper amount of time. As far as I can tell I'm ovulating, so just gotta keep at it.
I ordered a monitor as well, and I must say I love it. No interpretating lines for me. I also love the fact that I can use it throughout the month and not feel like I'm wasting as much money. This way I'll know for sure if I really do get two LH surgest in one cycle.
So same thing that happened last month, happened again this month. I peaked on CD 9/10, but as far as I can tell I didn't ovulate until possibly today. I'm hoping that I'm wrong and it was in the past couple days, but it's hard to tell because my temps have been wacky.
I had EWCM today, but it was only a small amount. I really think we need to BD more, but I'm not so sure DH would be up for that. It's odd thinking a guy wouldn't want to have sex, but he grumbles a lot. So I have a feeling if I tell him we need to have sex every other day for like a week, he's probaly freak. However I think that's what needs to happen.
I'm thinking of going to the doctor though about the whole getting positives when I'm not o'ing. What worries me is it could mean PCOS.... which makes me really nervous. Because DH is not really a big fan of fertility treatments, so this could be quite the issue... it's definately something I'm going to start researching. I think I'll make my appointment tommorow. Even if he simply tells me to keep trying, I'll at least have some answers.
So if in fact I did ovulate today, we're looking at pretty slim chances. We're just barely at 3 days.... I did have EWCM and we did use preseed, but still. I don't hold much hope. If my temp jumps tommorow, I'm done with temping and all that jazz. I just don't want to waste the energy.
So onto another cycle. It's been about a week since I saw my OB. He said 8 months really wasn't a long time considering my age, however considering my previous history he wanted to do some testing. So off for bloodwork I went. She took 8 viles! He tested for prolactin, progesterone, rubella, and a few other things that I can't remember anyone. He also gave a script for DH for a SA. Needless to say DH was not happy about that, but he's getting it done. He's supposed to go tuesday before work.
The doctor originally told me to come in two weeks from when DH goes, but I can't imagine it would take two weeks for the results to come back. So I kept my original appointment for the 19th, however I'm still gonna have DH ask if they will be there in time.
He also said that he thinks my other tube is blocked, I'm hoping this isn't the case. From what I can tell that means I'll probaly have to have surgery to repair it. Something I'm not looking forward to. So we'll what happens.
Otherwise I'm trying to take a pretty relaxed approach to this cycle. We're going to work on just bd'ing more, taking my vitamins. I'm considering trying out the monitor, but I'm not sure I even want to do that. I just feel like I need a relaxed approach, especially if it looks like I'm going to need to do treatments. I need to be rested and have a fresh approach to everything.
So test results first. My bloodwork came back relatively clear. SA was a different story. Low morphology, and motility is a bit low, nothing huge though. Sooo.... my OB pretty much wouldn't do anything until DH sees a urologist. Which DH doesn't understan why he needs to, needless to say that's a work in progress.
Other than that, it's CD 2. I should be really happy with last cycle, and I am to a point. It was a 29 day cycle, which is awesome, no false LH surges, we had good bd timing. So it just wasn't meant to be this month. Which whle I was pretty upset with a couple days ago, I'm okay with it now because I wasn't overly keen on a december baby to begin with.
So onto January. Gonna go with pretty much the same approach, vitamins, bding more, and my monitor. Hopefully we'll get there one day.