Baby Fever. The obsession that seems to strick many a women off guard. It comes out of no where. One minute you're living it up in the couple life, next thing you know, you're banging like rabbits because you have to be a trio damnit.
Welcome to my journal. My name's Kati, my future husband's name is David. We will be trying for our first child in September. We're hoping for a honeymoon baby.
I suppose a little bit of background history is in order. We did suffer an ectopic pregnancy back in November, that resulted in the loss of my right tube, and overall a highly stressful month or so. The pregnancy was not planned, but was a blessing none the less. Ever since that time, I've been experiencing 'bouts of baby fever.
I was always one of those girls who swore she wouldn't have a child right after getting married. I wanted to wait til I was at least 28. Cause yes, you get to do things by yourselves again when you retire, but heck you're body retires too! However time, and love has changed that. I have a bit of an age difference with David, so if we're going to have children now is the time. Overall it really doesn't bother me to start sooner, at this rate I don't think I could wait 5.5 years.
So far the babyfever comes and goes, it can be provoked by almost anything. A baby story on TLC, or those adorably cute commericials that pop up all over the TV, someone walking with a stroller. It's a consuming fire that no tylenol is ever going to cool off.
I recently went off the pill. And I swear, knowing that I have less than a month before I can try, is killing me. I mean it's like wow! We're really going to do this, I'm really going to be a human incubator for nine months. Then there's the fears, what if I have another ectopic, what if something's wrong with the child, hell what if I can't even have kids.
All of these are unanswered questions that only time will tell. Til then however I remain happily addicted, and counting down the days. I originally swore to myself that I'd just let it happen. I wouldn't be attacking my husband on the days of ovulation. However as soon as he tried showing me an ovulation calendar all bets were out the window. So yeah, now I'm charting, obsessing, resisting going into Babies R'Us, (Horribly addicting store mind you) looking for various pregnancy communities to go to, and gosh knows what else. When I'm online, my mind is seldom elsewhere.
So I invite those who'd like to read, to come along with me on my journey. I'll try and keep you entertained.