I feel like I am going crazy. I really don't know how some people can do this month after month. I just pray that we all get our BFP's soon.
I bought a cheap 2 pack of tests today, but so far I have resisited temptation. I may test in the morning, as I will be 10dpo and have a normal LP of 12 days. I feel sick at the thought that I may get a BFN, but I have to face up to the fact that this may not be our month afterall.
I went back to work today after our holiday, and unfortunately I have to do a full week this week (i normally wotk part-time, 3 days a week). Me and about 8 other ladies are doing an 8 day training course for a new social security benefit that is overtaking an old one, so it will probably be pretty boring as there doesn't seem to be too many differences at the moment.
I was suppossed to take Connor for his hib booster today, but decided against it to let him recovery fully from his illness, plus I need to get myself booked in for a flu jab, but will obviously wait to see what happens at the end of the week.
Theresa: Happy belated birthday!!! I'm so glad to hear that you had a good time. The card James sent sounds wonderful, I guess that you are both very lucky to have one another.
Dayna: Sorry to hear that your team didn't play too good. Caving hey? It sounds like fun!! Can't find so much as a pothole here, never mind a cave!!
Lisa: I hope that you manage to get some practice in before your dh goes away. Also, incase I don't get chance to post closer to the time, GOOD LUCK with your dog show!!!
Nicky: Good luck with the temping this cycle. I didn't temp at all while I was away and it took me a few days to remeber to get back into it (I had to make up my FF chart though because I knew when I o'd, just didn't have temps!) It sounds like you had a great weekend, I just did loads of laundry!! I also love bowling, but am also terrible at it!!
Kelly: Lets hope that you O'd early. I don't blame you for taking a break, may be just what you need, plus, the minute you stop trying......! I hope that your progesterone results are what they should be. Good luck.
Anyway, I'm really tired, so may go have a nice bath and then go to bed (and try not to think about testing!!!)
I'm trying not to get too excited, but it is so hard not to. I did at test this morning as I said that I would and got a BFN. I was so bummed, I can't tell you how I felt. But the more that I thought about it the more it bothered me, so at lunch time I went out and bought a first response test, and went back and did it in the toilet at work (I am sooooo impatient!!)
I didn't have to even wait a minute before I saw my BFP!!!
I am so thrilled and so scared but I am determined to make the most of this pg, how ever it may end. I just wish that I could take all the lovely ladies who also post their journals here with me. I love checking in to see how everyone is doing and hope that you all get to follow me to another board very soon.
I'ver really got myself into gear this time. Last time I didn't see my gp till I was gone 6 weeks, but I have an appointment to see him on Friday so that I can get my early scan arranged. I feel fairly confident about this pg (unlike last time), so lets just hope that's a good sticky vibe sign!!
Wow, my horoscopes actually came true, I guess that means that I should carry on reading them!
Nicky: Sorry to hear that AF isn't quite gone, the same thing happened to me last month and it is so annoying, I hope you weren't on the bus, like I was!!
Teresa: I'm glad to hear that you had a good birthday. I am sorry to hear about your Mom though, I hope that here appointment goes well.
Kelly: That's fantastic news about you O'ing and only having to wait a week. Wishing all the best of luck.
Dayna: I hope that you Mom's test results were good.
Anyway, have to go and feed my boy (if I can get down off cloud nine for long enough!!)
Ok, here's the deal, with today being infant and pregnancy loss day, I have wrote a letter to my little angel but have nowhere else to put it. I know that it has nothing to do with TTC, but I neede to write it.
To my darling baby "Boo"
Mummy feels compelled to write to you today as it is pregnancy and infant loss rememberance day, and I could not let this day pass without telling you a few things.
Firstly, Mummy and Daddy miss you very much. We would have been nearly half way to getting to see you for the first time, as I would have been 19 weeks today, but I don't need to have seen your face. I know that you would have been beautiful, just as your big brother was when he was born. Mummy has made up a memory box and filled it with things that remind me of you. Not that I need much reminding, as I still have the tiny little footprints that you left imprinted upon my heart. We also plan on getting a plant of somelind that flowers in either March or August. I am going to put in a pot and have it on display in the garden. Mummy also has an idea of getting an ornament of your own for the christmas tree. This family tradition was started by your Nanny and Grandad Morgon in Calafornia. Before Connor was born, Mummy and Daddy recieved an ornament for the tree that read "parents-to-be 2000" and we have recieved an ornament for him every year since. As you are as much my child as Connor is, I want to have an ornament on the tree to commemorate your lovely, albeit short exsistence in our lives.
Secondly, Mummy and Daddy have just recieved some astounding news, yesterday in fact. It seems that we are expecting another little bundle of joy. Mummy is very anxious about what may happen, but I feel safer in the knowledge that you are watching over me and baby "pootle!"
Well my love, Mummy is going to close for now, but I plan on lighting a candle for you tonight, afterall, you still remain to be a shining light in my life. I will wait until your Daddy gets home from work and Connor goes to be. Until tonight my angel. I love you. Mummy x