I know I haven't written here in a while but I've been really trying to NOT focus on TTC at all.
Until...just found out DH's sister is pregnant. 3 months along and she didn't even know!!! She's not married, but at least she's been with the same guy for 5+ years. He has 2 kids with an ex-gf though already. He doesn't work, she's part time at a coffee shop. Fun huh?? His family is always bugging us for money, guess what will probably happen now?
On a side note, this seems to have "woken up" DH with the fertility clinic process. I'm making an appointment for him on Friday for a new SA. Then we just need to book a followup to start with the IUI process. I think he was somehow shaken that his younger sister is pregnant by accident and he can't get me pregnant. lol
On a side note - AF was due yesterday but whenever I say anything about her, she shows up. I'm totally jinxing it, but who cares. I'm pretty sure AF will be here before the day is out...
Well, it's been a while again. Not pregnant yet!
I have an appointment this Thursday (January 13) with the RE. Finally going ahead with the IUI and Clomid, assuming our second round of testing was normal. This time we did some genetic testing which hopefully is ok!!
I think I'm more scared of it not working that I am of it working. I'm not scared about twins or even being pregnant. It's been so long that I've gotten over that worry. I just don't know how to go through this without being let down. How can I keep a positive attitude and be hopeful and not risk the huge crash if it doesn't work?
I've got three new things to discuss with the RE though. 1) Possible allergy to semen because when it gets on my skin, I get itchy red hives. 2) Temperature - I'm always cold and when I did do my BBT that 1-2 months, my temps were lower than I expected. 3) Laparoscopy - my flow seems to be getting heavier each month. Just yesterday I had to change super tampons hourly for 6 hours!!
At least noting this info here I won't forget. :)
I'm thinking that if all the testing was normal (no new problems) then we will try one round of IUI/Clomid. If that doesn't work, then I will go for the lap.
Oh! I thought of a 4th thing! 4) CM - or lack thereof. I really don't think I have any CM and when I do it's pasty and flakey! Ewww!
So now I wait. 3 more work days. I also got a new car. Well, not new - used. But new to us. 2008 Ford Escape. Lots of room for camping and travel. I figure, if kids aren't coming soon, might as well have fun with life, right?
I thought of a 5th thing - 5) Iron!! Can't believe I forgot that one!
Good luck!!! I hope you figure out what's going on with your body soon. It must be soooooo frustrating not knowing-sounds like you'll be asking some good questions though.
Well, the doctor doesn't think it's any of the issues I mentioned above however is willing to do more investigations if I wish.
We decided to go with the IUI and Clomid, which I started on CD 1 this cycle. It's moving fast and it's kinda scary. I really REALLY want it to work, but I'm still very scared of it finally happening at the same time. EEEEk!
So far the only side effect I got on Clomid was a headache that was pretty bad last night. I'm still feeling foggy and tired today from the headache and it's a dull ache now. Hopefully it doesn't get worse tonight!
I meant to update this last cycle but it was such a whirlwind that I'm not sure where to start.
Clomid was HELL! Headaches for a solid week and all I got was one folly.
DH's count for the IUI was awesome - 125 mill before washing, 63 mill after washing! Apparently 10X the average count for men!
And....it was successfull. I got my first questionable BFP a week ago on March 1 with a more definite one on March 2. My blood test on March 4 had an HCG of 22.
Unfortunately my blood test on March 6 the HCG went down to 6.7 and todays (March 8) it went down to 2.5.
I started bleeding today. :(
Dh says we'll try again but we had only agreed on doing one IUI. Now I don't know what to do. I want to try again but what are the chances it would work a second time?? That's a lot of money we don't have too.
I think I'm just going to cry for a few days while this all passes.
Many, many, many, MANY hugs. I wish there was a way for a community to will their members pregnant - you'd be the next Kate + 8 (only with a better John) if that was the case. Everyone is rooting for you, even people you've never met. Take care. :bighug:
I couldn't have said it better myslef. You are thought of and we are all rooting for you and on your side. Please don't give up. Huge hugs your way. Take all the time you need for yourself, we'll be here ready with open arms for you.
Awww! Thanks girls!!
I should really update this more often!
Well, I don't think I O'ed last cycle since the CP, but that's ok. I got insane sick right in the middle so that could be why. AF showed today and I was worried she might be late because I had NO AF symptoms at all! My usualy boob soreness was MIA!
Tonight I have to go to the pharmacy and get my prescription for 75mg Clomid this round. They really want me to have 2 follies instead of just 1 so hopefully this does it!!
Last cycle I said (before I started) that I only wanted to try it once, and if it worked they YAY and if it did not then maybe it wasn't meant to be. What I didn't account for would be if it worked then I had a loss. I think that's why I decided to go back and try again. If it had not worked I think I would have given up but I think the fact that it didn't was a sign.
Speaking of signs - I've always felt two things very strongly from a young age: 1) That I would suffer from infertility and 2) That I would have twins. I know - contradictory eh? I really have this sinking feeling this cycle that the latter will come true. I don't know why, I just have this feeling!!
I also have to tell my manager today. I don't really want to because then she will know if it works or not in a few weeks. But I have to tell her as I have to change my schedule around for a few days to accomodate my attendance at the clinic for monitoring. *sigh* I always get so embarrased talking about these things with people. I hope she is ok with it!!!
Well, Clomid is done and I managed to avoid most of the side effects. I took it around dinner time/8PM every night and slept through any headaches I might have got!! BEST ADVICE EVAR!! (thanks Clomid board!)
I start monitoring and blood work tomorrow. Can't wait (insert sarcasm here<-----)! I really don't like the idea of having to drop my pants daily for vaginal ultrasounds or to be jabbed by needles to have blood taken - all well half asleep at 7AM in the morning.