About 5.5 hours to go until this ultrasound. I'm so nervous about it! I woke up early thinking about it and couldn't go back to sleep. I'm worried about multiples, about it being nothing, about something being wrong, about them not finding a heartbeat. Ugh. I hate worrying - it makes no sense to worry since worrying doesn't change a thing about what is happening in my body right now, and worrying makes me feel so crappy. It's weird... I was so worried about Noelle's second set of numbers (for good reason, because of the prior ectopic), but then when they checked out, I was just excited about the u/s and didn't really think twice about the possibility that something might be wrong. I think that was partially being naive and partially because I was already feeling plenty of pregnancy symptoms. Since my numbers are much higher this time and yet I still have almost no symptoms, it's just all so different from last time that I wonder what's going on. Is it going to end up a m/c or are there twins? It seems impossible that everything could be just normal, you know?

I'm such a basket case. I hate it!

We had friends over last night and didn't do the dishes after they left, so maybe I'll do the dishes and attempt to take my mind off things....