Oh! I forgot to mention that I hope it's okay for me to stick around here for a while. I'm thinking positive thoughts, but I know that it's possible for me to be out of the TTC game for only a short while...
I'm so excited!! I've had at least 10+ u/s (because of the ectopic) but this was the first time I've actually seen something in my uterus!!! Everything is great. The baby is measuring right on track and we got to see the heartbeat, which brought tears to my eyes. After several attempts, the technician was even able to track it (which she said is iffy this early) and it was 105 bpm. I think the baby is 3/8 of an inch right now. Amazing.
I'm just so relieved and excited I can't even describe it.
Also, I get to go back for another one in two weeks because she wants to make sure there isn't an ectopic hiding behind the corpus luteum (which is HUGE). She said the odds are really slim, but she doesn't want to take any chances.
TGIF! I go back for a second u/s on Tuesday, so I'm getting a little anxious, hoping everything will be okay. But I feel optimistic this time. I've had some pretty yucky m/s, but the past few days have actually been pretty good. I just try to keep some food in my system all the time and maybe it's helping. I'm really tired and have most of the usual early pg symptoms, but I'm NOT complaining! We've waited so long for this - I'm just thankful.
I hope I'm not jinxing myself, but I did start a pg journal. Here's the link: thankful
I'll move over there permanently if this u/s comes out okay on Tuesday. Fingers crossed!
It's been more than two years since I last posted, but we're back on the TTC bandwagon again and since I've found it really helpful to read back through my experiences before, I think I'm going to post again for a bit.
So we had a beautiful daughter in April 2008 and decided to start TTC #2 shortly after she turned one. No luck whatsoever, so we turned back to my RE in January 2010. It was odd to be back there, especially with a little one in tow, but at least I know what to expect, right? Thankfully, she only wanted a little bloodwork and we agreed to just go down the same route that led to Noelle.
So I waited one cycle and then took the clomid on CD 5-9. I went in for a follie check u/s on CD 12 and it looked like my left ovary was going to be dominant for once! There were two on the left and three on the right, but the big one on the left was bigger by at least 6 mm. I fully expected them to tell me to do the trigger that night (it was a Saturday) or the next night and then come in for the IUI on either Monday or Tuesday... but they surprised me by saying that I should come in for another u/s on Monday. I was really frustrated by this all weekend, but dutifully went in on Monday and the dominant follie on the left was 26 mm and about to pop. The others had all reached a mature size, as well. I guess I could theoretically have released four eggs, but I kind of doubt it.
Long story short, I did the trigger that night, BUT went in the next morning (instead of Tuesday morning) for the IUI. My temp shot up Tuesday morning, so I was at first thinking we had missed the egg entirely, but knowing that the eggs had all been there 24 hours prior, they hopefully were still alive and kicking by the time we did the IUI.
DH's swimmers were 72.5 million. Not as high as last time, but still fine.
So right now I'm 6 dpo and my right ovary/side keeps getting this random sharp pain. It must have something to do with the clomid, because I've felt something kind of like this now all three times I've taken clomid. I know last time, I had a humongous corpus luteum cyst that took ages to go away, but it didn't bother me that much. I'm about to google that kind of cyst and see if the symptoms match up with what I'm experiencing right now.
This 2ww is really dragging. It feels so much slower than the last two, which is odd because I have a toddler to chase after and I'm teaching every night until 9pm. I keep flip-flopping between thinking that it didn't work at all and I'm not pregnant, being scared that it's another ectopic, or twins keep popping into my head, too. I hope it's none of those and that we have another healthy, singleton pregnancy!
I go in on Tuesday to get my progesterone checked and hopefully the next week will pass by quicker than the first one has!
8 dpo and waiting and waiting and waiting waiting waiting.....
I did have my progesterone checked and the nurse left a message on my voice mail that the number was very good. They don't give exact numbers (for whatever reason - it's the only bloodwork that they have never given me the exact number), just that it was above 20 - but she sounded very optimistic.
Still feeling pretty normal. My temps are very high, but that's probably the influence of the clomid (I guess). I just want so much for this to work.
11 dpo.... I'm glad I mentioned that the 2ww with my last IUI went by quickly, because this one sure hasn't!
I guess a combination of being cheap and having lots and lots of failed cycles and a predictable LP and a strong loathing of seeing BFNs (they make me feel like such a failure!) has made me a non-tester. Anti-POAS, if you will. But this 2ww has really taken forever, so I found myself driving past the dollar store and then found myself in the parking lot and then found myself buying a few dollar tests. And then went home and took the first test on the afternoon of 9 dpo. Crazy. Even if there was still some HCG in my system, it didn't show up - nothing did. And then I was stupid and tested yesterday morning, too. Another BFN. And then I remembered exactly why I hate seeing BFNs. My temp fell a little yesterday, too.
I'm thinking it didn't work this time. I've been extremely emotional, crying or tearing up over every little thing. It must be the clomid increasing my body's hormone levels. But I have no symptoms. None. I didn't test today, but I think I will tomorrow. I do think AF will be here by Monday, though.
It's a really faint line, but it's definitely there and very pink. My only symptoms are sore nipps, very crampy and emotional. But that's pretty much it. Of course I'm worried that it's another ectopic or that it won't take, but I'll test tomorrow and hopefully it will be darker. I'm trying to remember what dpo I tested the last two times... off to check!
I have an ultrasound on Monday and hope that there is ONE healthy little one in there, and then I guess I'll do another pregnancy journal. It was really helpful last time and is a good resource for me now. It's amazing how much is quickly forgotten (but it's probably a good thing, too ).
I still have just about nothing in the way of symptoms, aside from being over a week late from AF. If I didn't know I was pregnant, I'd never believe it. There are subtle things, though, but they're very subtle. Since being pregnant last time consisted of being sick and then being huge, it's weird to not feel anything.
Here are the extremely subtle symptoms:
a little tired/low energy
peeing a bit more frequently
slightly tender nipps
sometimes a little crampy
sometimes a bit moody
I'm not naive enough to think I'll be able to escape morning sickness, but that would be awesome! Oh, one other thing - as I'm sitting here, I am feeling my heart beating harder than it normally does. I forgot that it has to work harder during pregnancy. Every single time I stood up this morning, I would 'black' out - not pass out or anything, just get that feeling you sometimes get when you stand up too fast. I forget what it's called.