Well, I am finally starting a journal! I've been thinking of starting one for a long time, but have been hesitant. I don't really want to go into all the gory details, but here are the basics:
I'm 24, TTC for 6 months officially, but I've been off the pill since August 2005. DH is 25 and we've been married for 3 years. We dated for 2 years before getting married. He's my college sweetheart, and I couldn't make it without him. In our wedding vows he said, "I'll be a rock for you to lean on." And he is. I don't know what I would do without him. I had my annual in October and talked then with my doctor about how my cycles were getting longer and longer. He said he thought everything was ok but if I was still having long periods after a few months to come back for some blood work. So, in March I went back. Blood work showed I wasn't Oing, so the doc gave me a script for 50mgs of Clomid. First month on clomid, I still didn't O...so this month I took 100mgs. I'm waiting to O, but today is only CD 11 so I still have plenty of time.
I've been thinking lately, after reading TCOYF that I might be Oing later. That would explain my cycles getting longer and blood work still might not have showed O since it was done on CD 21. This is only my second cycle charting and last month after my progesterone test on CD 21 my doctor said I didn't O that month, so I thought I was out of the game. I stopped charting after that and only started up again right before my period was due. So, I might have even Oed late last month and not known it. So, my plan is to keep charting and checking for O using OPKs this month until very late in my cycle. (Assuming I don't O in a timely manner.) Hopefully I'll O and I won't have to worry about it!!
Right now I'm going to go on and try and get some rest, but I can already tell I'm going to LOVE keeping this journal. I used to keep a journal all through high school and college, so this is right up my alley!!
We went to my In-laws this weekend, and I forgot to bring my preseed, so I'm glad I didn't get a + on an OPK. I haven't Oed yet...still waiting. I'm not discouraged though, I still have time to O, especially if I O later than I've always thought.
I had a really bad TTC day last Thursday. I kept thinking to myself that I might have to give up. I'm disappointed because I didn't O at all last cycle on 50mgs of Clomid, and there is no guarantee I'll O this time either. I'm just not sure if I want to go on 150mgs. But, I have a feeling the doc will up my dosage if I don't O this month. Last month he upped it even though it was only my first month, he still gave me a higher dosage. I'm not sure about going up again...it seems silly to me for my dosage to keep being raised if nothing is happening. Of course, if I was Oing I probably wouldn't have my dosage raised. Anyway, I'm confused about it. I also just realized I'm going to be out of town on CD21 for the blood test. I guess I'll have to call the doc tomorrow and see what I should do about that.
I'm trying really hard not to be too exciting...but I think I might be Oing or on the verge of!!!!! I took an OPK right before dinner and at first glance I thought it was negative. Well, all through dinner I was feeling a little "wet" (sorry...TMI) so after dinner I went and checked. I DEFINITY had watery, EWCM!!!!!!!!!!! It was right there. I could FELL IT! So, I checked out my OPK again (I was still within the time limit) and half the line was darker. So, I'm thinking I might be Oing soon if not right now. I went to poas.com and it said that it might be a +, that would depend on the brand. So, no real answer from there. We're going to BD tonight and use Pre~Seed. I'm so excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hope this is it!!!!!!!!!!!!
So tonight DH and I compared my EWCM to the picture insert in our copy of TCOYF. It looked the same. Not quite as long as the picture of the lady holding hers up on the TP and the cute little boy who was conceived using that EWCM right next to it...but it was the same no doubt. It was a little opaque, but maybe some of it was clear. So it should still be EWCM. Hopefully I'll O soon. I still haven't gotten an absolute positive on an OPK, but I have read that every once in a while there is a women who dosen't have enough of a surge to detect it on the OPK....just watch...I'll be that one woman!!! I'm BDing and covering all my basis. Hopefully I will see a temp shift soon and know I Oed...OPK or not!!!
So this weekend we're going to my parents house in KY. July 4th is my mom's birthday so we're going up to surprise her. I'm excited about it. We're going to meet them for lunch and DH and I are just going to show up!!!! I'm off (teacher) and DH is going to take Monday off so we can stay the entire weekend. We haven't been for more than a weekend since Christmas, so hopefully it should be fun. My brother is also coming, and they are also surprising her. I'm excited.
I love my mom. She's been so wonderful to me throughout all of this TTC stuff. It took my parents 5 years to conceive. She had endometritis though, which I don't have. After she got pg with my brother, they said she could keep trying but would probably not be able to have any more children. But....2 1/2 years later I came along!!!!!!!!! She was thrilled. So she knows exactly what I'm going through...all the tests and charting and all that. Her doctor had her charting her temps and all that. She was going to a specialist. Anyway, I'm hoping I will have Oed before I get to her house so I can share the good news with her. Right now we're just hoping for an O this month. A BFP would be FABULOUS too, but I can't get there without Oing!!!
Well, it looks as though I Oed!!!!! I'm thrilled! I'm nervous though, because the half dark line was the closest thing I got to a + OPK so we only BDed the day of O! Which isn't good. FF said my chances of conception were good, but I don't feel too good about only BDing on O day. The week before was a rough one for DH and I, and we only BDed once during that week. We were busy and had a bunch of stuff going on and just kinda fell into bed, dead tired every night. Mornings aren't good for us either...we are almost always running late in the mornings. Oh well, at least I Oed. Thats more than I can say for last month on 50mgs of Clomid.
Since we're going to KY this weekend, and Sunday is my CD21 and then it's a holiday, I'm not going to get my blood drawn until Wednesday. So that will be CD24. But, I called and spoke with the on call nurse, who spoke with the doc, who said to come in then. Hopefully my progesterone #s will be good. If not though, I'll get on a suppliment to make sure I can hold onto a little bean...if I have one!!!
I'm going to make this entry look flashy with colored font. Enjoy!
We had fun in KY. My mom is a firecracker baby so we surprised her for her birthday and she LOVED it. My brother and SIL came down from St. Louis also so the whole family was together! Which is unusual unless its a holiday!
My temps have been a little weird this weekend and I've had some watery CM today so I'm not sure what is going on. I think I might take an OPK just in case. I'm going tomorrow to have my blood drawn. FF has moved my O date and cross-hairs four times. It's getting a bit annoying actually. Especially if I find out I didn't actually O! That is my fear right now...finding out that FF was wrong and my temps are higher than normal for some other reason. ICK. Hopefully not. We'll see!!!