Thread: CRAZY ADVENTURES ON THE VERGE OF PARENTHOOD

November 1, 2005

I have baby daddy blues and it is not what you think. I want us to find the father of this baby that my cousin is carrying so he can give permission for us to adopt this baby or choose to raise the child himself or his mother choose to raise the child himself since he is a minor.

No one wants to talk about this, but I will...I believe in birth father's rights. . . they have the right to know the mother is pregnant with their child and is wanting to have the child adopted.

They should get as much say and the mom.

The mom is scared and stressed out. I wish I could hug her in person everytime she goes through the stress and fear. She is worried about the what ifs of if we can't find the father, will the adoption still go through?

Bless her heart for already thinking about the baby's welfare even when being admant that she wants us to raise the baby and that she is too young and unprepared to be a mother.

Bless her heart for even doing well in school, and doing the best she can do as a pregnant teenager. I love her for that and no matter the outcome I'll always love my little cousin.

Two more days until my stitches are out!

Baby is so healthy the doctor could hear him breathing and his heartbeat is strong. The mom and I were joking that he will be a swimmer.

I began my period today like clockwork and no cramps I am comfy.

My appointment with the GYN is today at 4pm and she will take out my stitches.

November 14, 2005

I know this doesn't initially make any kind of sense to say in my TTC journal that we have been using lambskin condoms to avoid getting pregnant after my surgery.

But we are. Since we are adopting I dont want to be pregnant while caring for a newborn. I am going to wait at least 2 or 3 months before TTC again.

I will be flying across country to get this baby and fly back across country to bring him home and adopt him. It has been such a stressful time I cannot imagine being pregnant with a newborn. So I'll let some time pass, get things settled in with the baby and then throw out the lambskin condoms.

Those things smell just like lamb too. I wonder if you are supposed to refrigerate them so they don't spoil?

November 18, 2005

Today, some women threw me a cyber baby shower, after sending me packages in the mail labeled "Don't open until November 18th"

As a woman who has never carried a baby in her womb, it was so nice of them to think of me with my upcoming adoption. I may not have a pregnancy belly but my experience is that of expectancy of the baby's birth. I am so thankful that my cousin is healthy and chose us to be her child's parents.