What is with me??? Now that I'm in the 4th week of my cycle, I am starting to obsess...not this again! I think what's getting me is my chart...it's looking triphasic! Temps went up another .4 degrees or so at 6DPO and have stayed there so far. I am still sticking to my guns in regards to my test date...only 6 days to go!
I wish I was more computer savvy...I used to know how to do HTML and stuff in high school but now I can't even figure out how to put my FF ticker with a link to my FF homepage on this website. Or get an avatar, or blinkie...I feel kind of dumb. Off to the tech support boards I go!
I fixed my ticker, all by myself!! I know I sound like a 5 year old right now, but I'm proud none the less.
DH and I are back home now. On Thursday we went to Cedar Point in Ohio to celebrate DH's 23rd birthday (DH's parents live in the southern most part of Canada, about an hour east of Detroit. We are way out in western Canada). Since Canada doesn't have Dollar Tree stores, I had to stock up on tests whilst on our trip. You should have seen the look on the little old cashier lady's face when I said "10 pregnancy tests, please". I quickly explained that I couldn't get them in Canada, but she still looked a little shocked. The fact that I was wearing zero makeup and looked about 16-17 couldn't have helped either! I thought I'd have to declare them at the border, but thankfully the guy didn't ask!
I really was going to wait until Tuesday to test, but then I came in the bedroom as DH was unpacking to see one lonely little test sitting out all by itself. I couldn't just leave it there! BFN, of course. I was dissapointed, but not as much as last month. Still, it seems like when something like that happens all you see on TV are pregnant women (new Dove commercial they played about 5 times) and cute little kids.
I don't think this is our month (call it a feeling), but I still have hope; temp is still up. AF should rear her ugly head tomorrow or Wednesday. If my temp is still high tomorrow, I will test; it has never still been high 14DPO. Otherwise, you will be treated to another cranky editoral asking AF to get the heck out of here!
*Sigh*...well, cycle #2 is a bust. I knew the witch was coming today, but it was a disappointment none the less. At least now I know for sure and can look forward to trying for a March baby.
I am trying to stay really positive right now; it may sound ridiculous, but already I have my moments when I think "why is this taking so long? are we EVER going to get pregnant?". I am relying on my faith, and praying for patience and understanding. I am counting my blessings:
-my body got right back on track after getting off the pill; this seems to be the exception rather than the rule
-we have time on our side; we are only 23 years old
-we are blessed with a good income right now, and are able to save money in preparation for me becoming a SAHM
-I have a good knowledge of my body and how my cycles work; this will give me an advantage over the average TTC'er who isn't charting or checking fertility signs
I'm bleeding like a stuck pig but happy! But still....please oh please let June be our month!
Nothing to report tonight, this is a pretty boring part of my cycle. I'm hoping to O on June 14 (CD14), that way if I concieved I would be due on my mother in law's birthday!
A co-worker of mine is pregnant; around 13 weeks I think. She is just starting to pop out and wear maternity clothes...so cute! It wasn't a planned pregancy at all...her boyfriend and her were in the midst of breaking up when she found out (I'm still not sure what's going on there). She is just starting to like the idea. She knows that we are trying, and she actually said "I feel bad...this should be you." I was kind of blown away by that; I am truly, truly happy for her. I guess if places were exchanged I would feel the same way. But for now I can live vicariously through her.
Life is just sort of plodding along right now...work is pretty boring, I'm a teacher at a private company but I don't have a class right now so I'm doing a lot of paperwork stuff. I just feel kind of blah. Tomorrow I'm going to go buy a Pilates mat and start working out again, maybe that will help.
Today when I went to the bathroom and did my CM check (sorry if that's TMI...but if it is...why are you reading a TTC journal?? ) I noticed a LOT of EWCM. Hmph. I hardly ever get EWCM. Residual leftovers from last night's round of fun? (sorry, that IS TMI!!) Tried the dropping it in water trick. Sure enough, it balled up instead of dissolving as semen would. Now I'm excited!
I call James and tell him that tonight looks like the night...but I'm working a little late, and he's got a meeting, so we won't cross paths until late. A little later I start to feel an ache in my right side. I'm stuck at work with a class and my eggie is on it's way!
I go to my 6 pm class...James will be leaving for the meeting at 7. Only ONE student shows up. Could it be??? CLASS IS CANCELLED!!! Finish up a few quick odds and ends, and then I'm on the phone. James, pick me up now, we've got 15 minutes and we're going to make the best of it!
Needless to say, DH was a tad late for his meeting.
Oh please please please please let this be our month!!!
Sure enough, I did ovulate the night we had our "quickie". AND it was June 14th just like I was hoping, which would make me due on my MIL's birthday! That would be so awesome!
I am 10DPO and starting to get antsy. I am on the FF boards a lot; I really need to stop reading the posts that start out "10 DPO....BFP!". This is SO petty, but the girls who exclaim "Got PG the first try!" or get their BFP's before 12DPO really annoy me. I'm absolutely jealous and I fully admit it. How petty of me.
As far as this month goes...I'm (cautiously) optimistic. CM has been a problem for me, but this month seems to have clicked. As far as possible "symptoms" go...
-moods are OK generally, but I tend to snap and overreact at stuff
-boobs are mildly sore, at the top and sides
-I am TIRED! I went to bed at 7:30pm last night at slept until 5:30am this morning! That's 10 hours, and now I feel great and well rested, vs. feeling icky like I overslept
So, I'm either pregnant or have PMS and am super lazy.
Last month I pooped out on my resolve to wait until 14DPO...this month I am super resolved to wait until the 29th, as FF is advising. It's going to be hard but I can do it! I told myself last month that I was only going to test on 14DPO if my temp stayed up, which it didn't. This month if my temp is down before 15DPO, I am going to let time tell. I want my next test to be a BFP!
WE DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Time to end this TTC journal and start up a pregnancy one...
Yesterday, at 13DPO, I couldn't help by buy a FRER test at the drug store. Then, I couldn't even wait until I got home to take the test! (Even though I promised myself I wouldn't test until 15DPO, yeah right!) I learned I was pregnant in the stall of a mall food court washroom; so romantic and memorable!
I will never forget the walk to the bus stop from that washroom; I'm sure I was white as a sheet (which is saying something, considering I'm Nicole Kidman white normally) and my legs were like Jello. Of course, I missed my bus so I paced up and down the sidewalk like a crazy person, muttering to myself and sneaking peeks at the positive test in my purse. Then, of course, DH decided to stop and pick up a few things and put oil in the car so he was late...by the time I told him I was just about ready to lose it. He was happy but didn't seem at all surprised. Men!
Three positive tests later, I'm still in disbelief. I am going for a doctor's test to confirm tomorrow, but this looks like the real deal. I'm tired, queasy in the morning, I'm hungry all the time, smells bother me and I am craving Wendy's hamburgers like crazy!
To those of you who have kept up with my journal, good luck in your own TTC journey and I hope to see you soon in the pregnancy journal thread!