Desperately Praying for #2 Recurrent Miscarriages & PCO
Hi, Im Joyce & DH (2nd marriage) is Mario. I have a beautiful 2yr old baby girl (from my first marriage) who is a miracle and is the love of my life. I have miscarried 7 times total + 2 chemical pregnancies. I have been told i have a progesterone deficiency & that with one of the miscarriages i had a weak vaginal vault (whatever that means).
Im currently seeking out the help of an R.E. who is going to do an HSG test on me next cycle & lots of labs.. In addition to doing exploratory lap in the future for Endometriosis since i have been exhibiting signs & symptoms of Endo.
Im also currently battling Neuropathy & Anemia. My Neurologist thinks i may have MS and are running tests on me for that. I have to go through an EMG next month & I just went through an MRI & labs which discovered my Anemia.
I just had a m/c last cycle on Oct 10 i began spotting it. Although i never passed anything with my HCG going from nearly 200 and falling it was confirmed when they didnt see a fetal pole and my sac had shrank that i was losing it. They never confirmed that it was a normal pregnancy and i was told that it could have been a blighted Ovum.
Despite the fact that we were supposed to try not to get pregnant this cycle, we havent listened - but not on purpose. DH & I hate condoms and BC in general and felt it was unfair to use condoms when we are married. So we thought we'd try the withdrawel (pull-out) method. Which hasnt worked yet since DH enjoys himself so much..
We are now in the 2WW and i think we have pretty fair chances of being preggo this cycle. Whether or not it sticks is another story since we dont know what is causing our losses. I pray that if i am pregnant that this one sticks. DH has no children & loves my DD like his own but badly wants one of his own. I want so badly to give him one. I take progesterone at the end of my cycles during the 2WW to support a pregnancy until AF arrives.
Well today ive felt queezy like im going to all day. Im not sure if its a virus or if im pregnant. I POAS on an HCG strip just for the heck of it this morning and im not sure if i saw a pregnant line or an evap line.. Im not sure whats going on with my temps and everything this cycle.. Ive been under alot of stress too so im sure thats part of the blame. I just wish i new something or that AF would show so i can move on to cycle testing.
Ok so- Woohoo for another day in the TTC journey im now exhausted from charting & doctors.
Im still feeling pretty sick to my stomach not sure whats causing it.. No fever so i cant be sick with anything serious.. Ive had weird pains like sharp pains in my abdomen.. Ive been feeling tired but that could be my anemia. So i took a test and well i see a faint line, but its really faint and could be an evap line i suppose.. Ive agreed not to POAS till a few days from now. And maybe then i will get a FRED test..
So woohoo another day come and gone.. And ive been kinda crampy and pukey but so far no af though i swear she will be here anyday. globs and globs of cream CM today but thats it.. Hopeful still until AF arrives.
13DPO today according to FF crosshairs- no AF yet but i do feel like AF will show. For the most part ive felt ok all day- A bit tired & still feeling sick at my stomach but ok. Still no fever today so im not sure if im catching the flu or not. DH is buying me a box of FRED pregnancy tests tonight. I will be testing with 1 on Sunday morning if AF stays away and another on Wed morning. Then if AF still isnt here i plan on getting a blood test- which my doctor is usually fine with doing. Other than that im still in the ever so exhausting 2WW. My POAS buddy dropped outta the party today- I really feel for her. I wish AF wouldnt have bugged her. I was hoping she'd get her BFP this cycle. Other than that- thats my feelings for today.. Still hangin in the game this cycle.. Just dont know how long Sometimes i feel AF will be here anymin.. Crossing my fingers for another day in the 2WW..
I had a nice weekend.. Got a + Pregnancy test (FRED).. Though im concerned whether or not im really preg or if its just left over hormone that triggered the test? If im not preg or if this one doesnt stick DH & I are taking a break from TTC due to my health.. Not to mention needing more infertility testing.. I really hope that im going to be able to concieve successfully one day.. I have an OB appt today and ill post about it later..
Went to see my New OB today- The verdict... *UPDATE* (xp)
At this moment- Not pregnant...
I LOVE MY NEW OB!!!!!!!!! Anyways right away he wanted to do an ultrasound... The verdict on that- he didnt see a pregnancy at this point- my urine test at the office was neg.. And he said everything looked normal except............................................ .....
MY OVARIES.... HE SAID I HAVE PCO! And wanted me to start 50mg of Clomid. In addition he put on me 200 mg of Prometrium in the evet my chart shows im preg and or i get a + preg test before my "Clomid Check". He calls em Clomid checks where i call the office at the end of my cycle for them to do what they call a clomid check. They will then do labs & ultrasound to make sure my ovaries arent over stimulated and then he will decide whether or not to up the dose.
He said my Uterus appeared normal after the blighted ovum and said that he felt it was my PCO to thank for the m/cs because of my hormones being off (in the other doctors labs results) and literally wanted to know why the other doctors didnt see it.. Prob because they are idiots..
Anywho he said for me to wait for my AF and take Clomid 1 50mg pill days 5-9. He said if AF doesnt show this weekend to take another preg test.. He said if it still hasnt showed by next week to call and he would consider giving me a shot to induce AF..
At this moment he said im not preg but he said i still could be but just too early at this point and he wanted to wait it out and see. He also said that the PCO or my levels from my blighted ovum could some how have registered the faint line on the pregnancy test but he didnt see a sac or anything of any size in my utero to actually say yeap your preg.
He also said the he felt alot of the cause of my m/c was due to the PCO because of the fact it can cause bad eggs or something like that. and he also wants me to continue charting and all...
So - Im not preg as of right now- Sorry about that everyone.. Im just as confused as you are i promise...
I have Polycystic Ovaries and Now im a Clomid Chick... Ok I can handle this? (taking a deep breath) Thanks for listening everyone...
Ok well FF changed its findings to put me 13DPO today... Hoping hard for AF to show up tommarrow..
I keep thinking about the possibility of me being preg still. MY OB yesturday said it was possible i could still be preg but since the urine test at the office was neg and he didnt see anything in the ultrasound he said most likely im not. But he still wanted me to do another preg test sat and call the office monday with the results if AF hasnt showed by then. I may need a shot to bring AF on..
I cant help but think- could i still be preg and it was just too early to tell ??
Im really hoping AF shows soon so i can move on to another cycle- this one is just too confusing for me.
Im still feeling nauseated but im thinking perhaps im getting another kidney infection?
14DPO- Waiting for AF... She is due to arrive today. It appears today that im late..
My OB wants me to POAS again this weekend and call the office with the results- IF neg, i may need a shot to induce AF, or if + then i will need to come in to check for a viable preg. He did say that he thought it was very possible i could be preg- but since my urine showed neg and my ultrasound showed nothing that popped out at him, its just a waiting game.. I agree with FF findings this time on my O day. So 14DPO- Im obsessing esp since i havent seen AF yet.. Its all i can do to keep from POASing now...
Still feeling nauseated but i dont know why- perhaps just me? Or maybe my kidneys- who knows?
I was about to go to bed- and thought i would check my cervix one last time and it was soft and open like perhaps AF will be showing since its opening.. I obviously couldnt be preg if my cervix is open.. So I will be waiting for her now. On to a new cycle with a new plan I suppose.