Desperately Praying for #2 Recurrent Miscarriages & PCO

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Desperately Praying for #2 Recurrent Miscarriages & PCO

Hi, Im Joyce & DH (2nd marriage) is Mario. I have a beautiful 2yr old baby girl (from my first marriage) who is a miracle and is the love of my life. I have miscarried 7 times total + 2 chemical pregnancies. I have been told i have a progesterone deficiency & that with one of the miscarriages i had a weak vaginal vault (whatever that means).
Im currently seeking out the help of an R.E. who is going to do an HSG test on me next cycle & lots of labs.. In addition to doing exploratory lap in the future for Endometriosis since i have been exhibiting signs & symptoms of Endo.

Im also currently battling Neuropathy & Anemia. My Neurologist thinks i may have MS and are running tests on me for that. I have to go through an EMG next month & I just went through an MRI & labs which discovered my Anemia.

I just had a m/c last cycle on Oct 10 i began spotting it. Although i never passed anything with my HCG going from nearly 200 and falling it was confirmed when they didnt see a fetal pole and my sac had shrank that i was losing it. They never confirmed that it was a normal pregnancy and i was told that it could have been a blighted Ovum.

Despite the fact that we were supposed to try not to get pregnant this cycle, we havent listened - but not on purpose. DH & I hate condoms and BC in general and felt it was unfair to use condoms when we are married. So we thought we'd try the withdrawel (pull-out) method. Which hasnt worked yet since DH enjoys himself so much.. :roll:

We are now in the 2WW and i think we have pretty fair chances of being preggo this cycle. Whether or not it sticks is another story since we dont know what is causing our losses. I pray that if i am pregnant that this one sticks. DH has no children & loves my DD like his own but badly wants one of his own. I want so badly to give him one. I take progesterone at the end of my cycles during the 2WW to support a pregnancy until AF arrives.

Well i guess thats it..

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Well today ive felt queezy like im going to :puke: all day. Im not sure if its a virus or if im pregnant. I POAS on an HCG strip just for the heck of it this morning and im not sure if i saw a pregnant line or an evap line.. Im not sure whats going on with my temps and everything this cycle.. Ive been under alot of stress too so im sure thats part of the blame. I just wish i new something or that AF would show so i can move on to cycle testing.

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Ok so- Woohoo for another day in the TTC journey im now exhausted from charting & doctors.

Im still feeling pretty sick to my stomach :puke: not sure whats causing it.. No fever so i cant be sick with anything serious.. Ive had weird pains like sharp pains in my abdomen.. Ive been feeling tired but that could be my anemia. So i took a test and well i see a faint line, but its really faint and could be an evap line i suppose.. Ive agreed not to POAS till a few days from now. And maybe then i will get a FRED test..

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So woohoo another day come and gone.. And ive been kinda crampy and pukey but so far no af though i swear she will be here anyday. globs and globs of cream CM today but thats it.. Hopeful still until AF arrives.

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13DPO today according to FF crosshairs- no AF yet but i do feel like AF will show. For the most part ive felt ok all day- A bit tired & still feeling sick at my stomach :puke: but ok. Still no fever today so im not sure if im catching the flu or not. DH is buying me a box of FRED pregnancy tests tonight. I will be testing with 1 on Sunday morning if AF stays away and another on Wed morning. Then if AF still isnt here i plan on getting a blood test- which my doctor is usually fine with doing. Other than that im still in the ever so exhausting 2WW. My POAS buddy dropped outta the party today- I really feel for her. I wish AF wouldnt have bugged her. I was hoping she'd get her BFP this cycle. Other than that- thats my feelings for today.. Still hangin in the game this cycle.. Just dont know how long :dontknow: Sometimes i feel AF will be here anymin.. Crossing my fingers for another day in the 2WW..

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I had a nice weekend.. Got a + Pregnancy test (FRED).. Though im concerned whether or not im really preg or if its just left over hormone that triggered the test? If im not preg or if this one doesnt stick DH & I are taking a break from TTC due to my health.. Not to mention needing more infertility testing.. I really hope that im going to be able to concieve successfully one day.. I have an OB appt today and ill post about it later..

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Went to see my New OB today- The verdict... *UPDATE* (xp)

At this moment- Not pregnant...

I LOVE MY NEW OB!!!!!!!!! Anyways right away he wanted to do an ultrasound... The verdict on that- he didnt see a pregnancy at this point- my urine test at the office was neg.. And he said everything looked normal except.................................................

MY OVARIES.... HE SAID I HAVE PCO! And wanted me to start 50mg of Clomid. In addition he put on me 200 mg of Prometrium in the evet my chart shows im preg and or i get a + preg test before my "Clomid Check". He calls em Clomid checks where i call the office at the end of my cycle for them to do what they call a clomid check. They will then do labs & ultrasound to make sure my ovaries arent over stimulated and then he will decide whether or not to up the dose.

He said my Uterus appeared normal after the blighted ovum and said that he felt it was my PCO to thank for the m/cs because of my hormones being off (in the other doctors labs results) and literally wanted to know why the other doctors didnt see it.. :dontknow: Prob because they are idiots..

Anywho he said for me to wait for my AF and take Clomid 1 50mg pill days 5-9. He said if AF doesnt show this weekend to take another preg test.. He said if it still hasnt showed by next week to call and he would consider giving me a shot to induce AF..

At this moment he said im not preg but he said i still could be but just too early at this point and he wanted to wait it out and see. He also said that the PCO or my levels from my blighted ovum could some how have registered the faint line on the pregnancy test but he didnt see a sac or anything of any size in my utero to actually say yeap your preg.

He also said the he felt alot of the cause of my m/c was due to the PCO because of the fact it can cause bad eggs or something like that. and he also wants me to continue charting and all...

So - Im not preg as of right now- Sorry about that everyone.. Im just as confused as you are i promise...

I have Polycystic Ovaries and Now im a Clomid Chick... Ok I can handle this? (taking a deep breath) Thanks for listening everyone...

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Ok well FF changed its findings to put me 13DPO today... Hoping hard for AF to show up tommarrow..

I keep thinking about the possibility of me being preg still. MY OB yesturday said it was possible i could still be preg but since the urine test at the office was neg and he didnt see anything in the ultrasound he said most likely im not. But he still wanted me to do another preg test sat and call the office monday with the results if AF hasnt showed by then. I may need a shot to bring AF on..

I cant help but think- could i still be preg and it was just too early to tell ??

Im really hoping AF shows soon so i can move on to another cycle- this one is just too confusing for me.

Im still feeling nauseated but im thinking perhaps im getting another kidney infection?

Im tired- im going to go take a nap

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14DPO- Waiting for AF... She is due to arrive today. It appears today that im late.. :dontknow:

My OB wants me to POAS again this weekend and call the office with the results- IF neg, i may need a shot to induce AF, or if + then i will need to come in to check for a viable preg. He did say that he thought it was very possible i could be preg- but since my urine showed neg and my ultrasound showed nothing that popped out at him, its just a waiting game.. I agree with FF findings this time on my O day. So 14DPO- Im obsessing esp since i havent seen AF yet.. Its all i can do to keep from POASing now...

WAITING FOR AF

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A Late night post before bed..

Still feeling nauseated but i dont know why- perhaps just me? Or maybe my kidneys- who knows?

I was about to go to bed- and thought i would check my cervix one last time and it was soft and open like perhaps AF will be showing since its opening.. I obviously couldnt be preg if my cervix is open.. So I will be waiting for her now. On to a new cycle with a new plan I suppose.

I hope the Clomid does the trick this cycle..

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15DPO NO SIGN OF AF

OK NOW IM LATE & I THINK I SPOKE TOO SOON LAST NIGHT...

I woke up and temped- 98.5 high same as yesturday.. CP- HMC... CM-Sticky...

I guess that my little medium-open i detected last night- perhaps i was off?? Maybe thats why they tell u to check your cervix same time each day because it changes.. I really thought it felt a bit open last night- not much but a little.. I dont feel pregnant.. I dont know whats going on.. Now its very obviously high, medium firm and closed. I still dont want to waste a test and test early. I want to wait and see. Well thats it for now. Im still tired so im going to lay back down for a bit.

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Final thought of the day- NAUSEA IS GETTING WORSE.. If this keeps up one more week im going to see my family doctor. Something is making me very sick to my stomach and isnt getting better. Prob another kidney infection- but i hope not..

Still No sign of AF.. (insert deep breath here)

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16DPO Still no sign of AF..

Temp rise this morning so im off to buy a cheapo testo.. Wish me luck.. Be Back in a min with the results.

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Ok so i went out and bought an equate test..
Heres a picture of the results.

http://i18.photobucket.com/albums/b125/JoyPruitt/Test20051118.jpg

I will POAS again Sunday Morning If AF hasnt arrived.. :dontknow:

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Ok so- My temps are still high.... But when i went to enter them in my chart this morning it said i was 17DPO... By all reasoning that couldnt be true because AF would have shown or Id be preg with a BFP by now. So i took away the iffy OPK on CD 20. And low and behold i recieve bold crosshairs for an O date of CD 25.. That not totally normal for me but i was also under alot of stress.. I do remember that CD25 my FM read high until CD29 when i read low again. So this is possible.

At the moment with my new crosshairs im 12DPO.

Who knows what my bodys doing now? 3 different O dates. Im kinda getting sick and tired of this cycle and i just want a deffinate answer soon.

:director: AUNTIE FLOW!!!! AUNTIE FLOW!!!!!!! WHERE R U????

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*MY VENT FOR THE DAY*

:pissed: OOOOOOO :pissed:

3 different O dates.. And now im 12 DPO.. Ive been 12 DPO 3 freacking times! :pissed:

I dont want to Poas again only to waste the test on a BFN and FF change my O date again.. UGH :roll:

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11:00PM 12DPO (for the 3rd dang time)

Ive decided that in the AM i will POAS.

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13 DPO
POAS this morning. BFN.. I dont get it? Whats going on with my body. I really hope AF shows soon because im getting pretty agravated! I will call my OB in the morning to see about getting a shot of provera. I thought my cycles were finally regulating but this cycle is showing me waay different.. Im so angry right now and frustrated that im literally :pissed: Thank goodness im getting ready for church. Maybe God will put me back into a nice good mood. Because right now i want to cry because the stupid witch wont show up!

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14DPO (for the 3rd time) my temp dropped this morning- YAY! Maybe AF is on her way so i can move on from this frustrating cycle.

But then again i also didnt get much sleep last night. I took my temp at the consistant time i always do, but I had a bad dream last night and woke up on top of Sydney also waking up twice. So im not very sure if my temperature is credible this morning. I hope so. I hope i start spotting today and AF comes to visit.

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Its now 8pm 14DPO CD 39.. Im now cramping pretty hard. I swear AF will show soon. Hopefully anyways. Im ready for her so i can move on to a new cycle. Lets hope i dont have to wait much longer for something more definate.

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THANKYOU GOD!!!! YES!!!!!!!!!!! YES!!!!!!!!!!!!! AMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FINALLY AN END TO A HORRIBLE CYCLE!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its now 9pm 1 hour after my last post. And finally AF came! Light Flow so no guess work involved! AMEN!!!!!!!!

Now i can move on to a new cycle. Starting Clomid CD5-9 50mg. Im glad that frustrating cycle is over with! Here's to a new plan and new cycle!

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CD2

Heavy AF.. Other than that.. everything is good. Going to pick up my Clomid today.

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CD3

Light AF, Feeling a bit PMSy, but over all ok..

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CD4- Light to spotting AF... Happy Turkey Day!!! I start Clomid In the AM... 50mg.

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CD 5 Very Light Spotting, took Clomid 50mg This morning. Feeling hopeful this cycle.

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Cycle #6 CD6
Im supposed to take my 2nd dose of Clomid- but at the moment im just trying to stop puking. Im going to the E.R. because i cant hold anything down, not even pepto.