I've given up on this cycle. I really just had a feeling that I would O on this cycle with no clomid. I've heard of so many people who do get pregnant when they come off the meds. Oh well. I guess it's not His time yet. The doctor is going to let me do two more cycles of clomid at 150 mg. I think I'm going to wait several months though. If I got pregnant anytime soon, the timing just wouldn't be good for us. We already have Thanksgiving, our birthdays, Christmas, and our anniversary all within a few months of each other. If I got pregnant soon, we'd have another special event with all our others. Plus, with my husband being in the retail jewelry business, if I got pregnant soon, we have a baby right at his busiest time of the year. I think I'll just let everything go right now as far as ttc. I'm not going to do any more opks or tests with my fertility monitor and I'm going to save my clomid treatments for the spring or summer. I will go ahead and keep temping so I can see if I happen to O out of the blue. Otherwise, I'm just going to try to keep my mind off of ttc so much. I've joined Curves recently, so maybe I can get some of this weight off before we really try some more. I would love to get pregnant in July because I'd deliver just when I could take maternity leave and not have to go back to school (I'm a teacher). I'd also really love to go on a cruise before we have a baby! I've been on one and loved it, but my DH has never been on one. That would be hard to do once we have a child or if I was pregnant. We've got to save up the money for that though. At least we're debt free! Well, I guess that's all I need to say right now. I'm not sure how much I'll be posting on here since we won't be actively ttc. Of course, in my position with my PCOS, I'm not going to be preventing pregnancy either! Until next time....blessing and baby dust to everyone!
My birthday was Friday, Feb. 23rd. God gave me a great birthday present--I ovulated on my own with no meds!!! FF confirmed it today. I won't be pregnant unless God performs a miracle because I had sex 6 days before O and no sooner, so I doubt any spermies were still alive! Oh well. I think that was God letting me know that He would allow my body to work, but it's just not His time yet. I'm very excited though! It was funny because my DH told me yesterday that he thought he was giving me a birthday present by not bding on my birthday but then it turns out if we had of done the bd, I might have gotten pregnant!
I'm excited to say that my chart still shows ovulation!! I have some low temps, so I bet my progesterone is low. Not good if I happen to be preggers. I know the odds are against me being preggers since it was six days before O when we had sex and 2 days after, but a part of me is hoping that God is sending a miracle! I think I will test tomorrow because it is my sister's birthday. If I got a bfp, she would go nuts! Tomorrow is 11 dpo, so it could show up if I'm preggers.
I've felt some very mild cramping going on down there--not exactly like af cramps though. Could it be a sign?!?
A few days ago, FF took away my O because I'd had some low temps. Today, they showed O again--still on my birthday. I tested again yesterday and got a bfn, but I'm going to test again in a day or two. I was really sick to my stomach last night and my nipples were a little sore. I dreamed last night that I had twins and that I was trying breastfeed them. It was crazy because I dreamed that the tips of my nipples had been cut off and put on bottles for them for several weeks and that I was trying to actually breastfeed them with nipples that were trying to grow back and it was painful. When I woke up my nipples were hurting! It was so weird. Maybe it's a good sign! Our minds do crazy things when we're ttc! If I did O, I should have AF soon or a bfp. Or...maybe I didn't O. My body is so out-of-control
Wow! I had totally forgotten that I started a TTC journal! I guess sometime after that last post I stopped coming to this site. At the beginning of June 07 I stopped TTC and went back on the pill. I just got too down emotionally and couldn't deal with it anymore. I had another kidney stone in late June 07 too. Towards the end of 07, I decided that I wanted to TTC again, but God reminded me that I had one more kidney stone that was too big to pass and that I should probably have it blasted before I got pregnant. I had lithotripsy in January 08, and came off the pill in February 08. I got AF on my own on April 15, 2008, so I Oed about the first of April. I went to my new OB several weeks ago and told her I wanted to do Clomid again, and she looked in my chart and saw that we were going to do 150 mg. I waited to make sure I wasn't pregnant, took Provera, had a nine day period, and then took the Clomid. I am currently at day 14. The only side effects I've had are brief hot flashes. I had one today that shocked me since my last pill was 5 days ago. I'm using my Fertility Monitor. Day 6 was low and the other days have been high. I hope that when I take my test in the morning/in a little while that I will get a peak reading. I've never Oed on Clomid, and I hope this dose will work.
Well, today is day 29. I got my last high reading on my fertility monitor Friday (day 24) and then got a low reading on Saturday (day 25). I never got a peak reading, but I still think I may have Oed. On day 22, the lines on the O test stick were the same color, and on day 23, the test line was darker than the control line. I know on the monitor they tell you not to pay attention to the lines, but I can't help but wonder if it was suggesting ovulation but I just didn't have enough of something to show a peak reading on monitor. I also think it would make sense that I Oed since my hormones dropped about two days after those dark lines--cause I think that is what it would do. Anyway, I'm going to the doctor for a progesterone test in the morning because it will have been a week since I think I might have Oed. At least I will know when I get the results. I know I'm not pregnant either way because Joe was having a time Bding for about a week around then. He was going along fine and then suddenly couldn't finish. If I did O, I'll wait another week for AF, and if not, I'll go ahead and start my next round of provera. I hate all of this. I was so hoping the 150 mg would work for me, but God's plan is better than my plan!
I called and got my progesterone results yesterday, and they were a 3.6. So...according to that, I didn't O. I got to thinking and maybe I should have waited another day to do the test since a positive O reading means you O in 24-48 hours. So actually, I could have done the test too early. Either way, I know I'm not pregnant since we weren't BDing then. I started provera today and that should make me start AF about Saturday (Aug. 16th). I really hope it works this cycle because I would be due at the very end of the school year, which would be just perfect.
I'm in a crappy mood right now because all of this just sucks. It doesn't help that my best friend is in a mood too over her single status. I know God gave us each other because we're both struggling with His plan for our families, but it's so hard. It kills me that she's single when she would be the best wife. Thankfully, we have one another. I may or may not be starting AF today/tomorrow. Last cycle, I started spotting three days after taking Provera and had a full AF on day four. Today is five days since my last pill and I've just had the slightest tinge of something pink. Who knows what's going on. Of course, I want to think I'm pregnant just because that's how my mind works. The second day I took Provera I had EWCM and tender boobs, plus we BDed. I know that if I did O I could be pregnant, but I certainly don't want to get my hopes up. I keep thinking of all the people who thought they were getting AF because they were cramping or spotting but turned out to be pregnant. I WANT THAT TO BE ME! Anyway, if AF is coming, I think something more will be happening tomorrow. I know they say it can take up to 10 days to get AF with Provera, but it's never taken me more than 3. I'm going to do one more cycle on clomid and then see if I can get my OB/GYN to prescribe Femara. If not, I'll get a referral to an RE and go to Atlanta. Such is life, and God is in control!
AF did come yesterday. It's being weird though because the spotting lasted longer than usual, and then yesterday, when I had what I would count as first day bleeding, it was really light. Today, it was still light and then suddenly became much heavier. I normally start out heavy and then decrease. All I know now is that I will be starting my last cycle of Clomid this weekend. However, I did schedule an appointment with an RE in Woodstock for September 2nd. That's a huge first step for me, but I really want some answers about my PCOS and infertility that I think will have to come from a specialist. I want to know if I am insulin resistant and if I have the cysts. I also want to try Femara since a coworker took it, it worked the first time, and Clomid never worked for her either.