8dpo
My temp went up a smidge this morning, but I'm still having terrible cramps that feel like AF is going to arrive at any minute. I don't know why I bother getting my hopes up. Then I get so super excited that it crushes me when things start to turn the other way. I'm not giving up all hope yet as I've still got tender tatas and I'm peeing more than normal, but it's hard not to get discouraged when raging PMS cramps are rearing their ugly head :(
9dpo
I tested this morning. I just had to get it out of my system, and it didn't help that I had a dream that I tested and saw 2 dark, beautiful lines. It was only a dream...my test was crystal clear...boo! I did have a temp rise this morning, which is what prompted me to test, but maybe it's just too early. I'm surprisingly not disappointed. I know it's still early in the game and whatever happens, will happen. If I'm not pregnant this cycle, it isn't the end of the world. Everything will work out the way it's supposed to and at least I have an appointment with my OB. So I will eventually be pregnant, it's just a matter of when.
As for symptoms today, I haven't really had any cramps, but I've had gas like it's going out of style. My boobs occassionally hurt, but not like before. I did notice this morning that the stretch marks on them were more visable than before, so maybe that's a good thing too.
My birthday is tomorrow and I actually got the coolest present yesterday. We are going to the David Cook concert and both yesterday and today he is doing phone interviews. My mom emailed the dj who is doing the phone interviews and was able to have David Cook personally wish my sister and I a happy 26 birthday. It was cool :D I have it saved on my phone as a ringer..haha! I'm such a geek. DH also bought me a new laptop since we've been having troubles with our old one. Its nice!!
Alright, I'm off to take a nap!
12 dpo
It's been a busy few days with my birthday and the rummage, but the weekend is over and I've managed to survive ;) The rummage was a hit! We made enough money to buy the girls a nice, wooden swingset, which is all I really wanted. We are going to go to Home Depot tomorrow and pick up the materials and then hopefully Todd will put it together.
As for TTC, my temp took a nasty nosedive today, so I'm expecting :witch: tomorrow. I'm actually ok with it, even though I am disappointed. I really want this, but I also want to figure out what is causing all the spotting between my period and ovulation. Hopefully the doctor will help me figure it out on the 29th, and then we can get a good chance in for an April baby. I am thankful for the fact that besides the spotting my period was somewhat normal and that I ovulated on my own. My LP is still a tad on the shorter side from what it used to be, but 12 days isn't bad at all.
I think that's it for now. Just wanted to quick update after the crazy weekend I had. Hoping that the start of the school brings a special little present in my belly :)
13 dpo
My temp went back up this morning :confused: And my boobs are super sore!! Hmm...
CD4
I'm so frustrated...I wrote out a really long post on Tuesday to add here and then for some reason it deleted it before I posted it. I was too lazy, and too tired to go back and redo it...haha :lol:
Unfortunately AF arrived late Monday night right before bed, but she was right on time. I had a 12 day LP and a 29 day cycle, which is how they were prior to the m/c. I'm thankful for that and the fact that I did ovulate on my own. Now if I can just figure out what's causing all the excess spotting between my period and ovualtion then I'll be happy. My appointment is in less than a week, and I'm a little nervous that she'll tell me there's nothing wrong, but at the same time I'll also be relieved if there's nothing wrong.
DH and I got into a huge argument over the weekend and we're still not really talking. I'm not sure we'll give it a go this month or not....He said some pretty mean and hurtful things while he was intoxicated and I'm just not ready to forgive him yet. He doesn't realize how insensitive he was, and I just can't say, "It's ok," when I'm not really ready to yet. We'll see what happens. I've got a least a week before ovulation, so maybe he'll do something nice to get out of the doghouse :lol:
I've been super busy the last week or so. We had a rummage sale last weekend and it was a big success. We raised enough money to buy the girls a swingset, so we went to Home Depot and bought one on Monday. DH started putting it together last night and is hoping to finish it while I'm at work tonight. I also had a birthday and attended the David Cook concert, which was fabulous!! He's such a handsome fella! I've also been trying to get things ready to go back to school. I think I'm going to go down to my room tomorrow and do some work. I'll hang up posters and see what I still need to get for my room and then go from there.
Alright, I've got one cranky toddler who is yelling at me. I better go check on her and see what she's up too...
CD6
Not a whole lot to report tonight. I'm still having light bleeding from AF, so we'll see what tomorrow brings with that situation. I'll be alright if I'm just spotting, but if I'm still spotting come Monday then I'm going to be super irritated!! Thankfully Wednesday is my appointment, so I guess if I'm going to spot, it's a good week to do it. I did notice some sharp pains on my left side earlier this evening when I was giving the girls a bath. They felt similiar to O pains, but I'm only on CD6, so I don't think that they're related to Oing. I could be wrong, but I'm hoping it is just something that has to do with my period, especially since I'm still bleeding. I'll be sure to bring it up on Wednesday, but until then I can't do much about it, expect note when I get the pains.
Today was a nice day. We were finally able to get the swingset up and the girls just love it!! I had to pry them off of it to come in and eat both lunch and dinner. Lauryn wasn't too fond of the slide at first because it was hot and also because she flew off the end of it. I thought it was hilarious, but I guess if I was the one nose diving into a patch of grass I probably wouldn't have thought it was funny either. I think she'll get used to it the more she goes down it. Addison even flew off the end of it too. I think it's just the layout of the slide :shrug: Who knows...I'm just happy they like it so much!
CD8
Well, surprise, surprise...I woke up to some heavy spotting. I don't know why I'm surprised...I should have known better, but I just keep telling myself that it's all going to work out. My appointment is just 2 days away and hopefully I will get some kind of an answer. I hope so anyway. We began the BDing sessions last night anyway, well, early this morning I guess. The plan is every other day until I get fertile CM or feel any O pains. Hopefully it'll do the trick.
Part of me is thinking that it won't work this cycle. I keep thinking of my pshyic reading from Jenny and she said I'll get pregnant from a cycle that starts in August...so I'm interested to see how that all pans out too. I'm just so anxious. I just wish I had a crystal ball that would tell me when I'd be pregnant and that it won't end in m/c. Then I wouldn't stress so much!
On a happier note, because of how DH has been a poop lately, I told him that I really wanted to name the girl Camryn too...I have been having dreams where we have both genders and each baby is named Camryn/Cameron. I think that's just meant to be our next LOs name...regardless of the gender. He agreed to it, so I'm super excited :yahoo:
CD10
Well, today's the day....I have my appointment to talk about my stupid periods. I'm so nervous...kind of scared to. I don't want to have to go on BC, and I'm really hoping that it's just a hormonal imbalance that can easily be fixed. I don't understand why I'm having all these problems now...I've got 2 beautiful, healthy little girls. I don't get it, but understand that it's all part of his plan for my life. I'll update after my appointment and hopefully it's good news.
Well, that was a f*cking worthless appointment. When she came in I showed her the cards where I've been tracking my cycles and she says, "Well, we'll do an u/s to make sure they got all the tissue from the m/c. You didn't have a D&C, did you?" Umm...HELLO?! I had 2 because they screwed up the first time and I ended up in the freaking ER. I was pissed, and just stared at her. So, they did an u/s and everything "looks normal."
She said I had a couple options and that I could either do 2 months of BC or she could try putting me on Provera for 10 days and seeing if anything changes. I'm already midway through my cycle...what good is it going to do me now? Then she said if I get another period to take it again for 10 more days and I go back in 2 months to see how things are going. Fine...but when I picked up my perscription....there were only enough pills for this month and it said No Refills. WTF?
I'm so pissed, disappointed, and at the end of my rope with her. She doesn't listen to me and never has any answers. And honestly, who doesn't remember a patient who just went through 2 D&Cs because the f*cked up.
CD11
I'm really having a nervous breakdown...I'm so stinking confused and I just want to cry. I've been reading up on Provera and the generic form that I was given this afternoon and I have no idea what to think. It appears that Provera is a drug given to bring on a period for a woman who haven't had one or has irregular cycles. It suggests not taking it if you're pregnant, or trying to get pregnant...well, that's me! I'm trying to get pregnant, so why would she give me a pill that is not to be taken during pregnancy :shrug:
I'm at a loss as to what I should do. All the reading that I've done seems to say that once I stop taking the pills my period will resume 3-7 days later...Well, that would put me at CD23 or so...only a few days after Ovulation. I don't know if I should sit this cycle out or not...should I wait and see what happens to my period after taking the medication? My doctor said that if I were to become pregnant that the medicne wouldn't harm the baby, but all the information online says that it can cause birth defects...I'm so f*cking confused...I don't know what to do, and it's not fair for my emotions to be going all crazy on me. I'm so fed up right now!