I *think* I may have Od on CD17. My temp dipped extremely low...I was super pissed, and I felt like AF was for sure coming. I was so crampy, gassy, and bloated, but then my temp sky-rocketed yesterday....and again today it was quite high. I'm hoping that I get my CHs tomorrow. I am not sure how good of a shot we've got this month. We decided to do the every other day method and so we BD the day before O. I was going to take advantage of DH the day my temp dipped, but I felt terrible. I seriously thought I was getting my period and just wasn't in the mood. We'll see what happens....I think I've got a fair chance, but not a super good one.
I've got a headache the past 2 days....I had one before finding out I was pregnant with Addison, so that makes me get my hopes up a smidge. I don't know why I am though....2dpo is way to freakin' early to have any symptoms. I'm really gassy and bloated too. I swear I look 3 months pregnant I hope the next few weeks go quickly. I WILL NOT TEST EARLY!! I'm holding out until 12 dpo and if my temp is still up I'll test.
I have decided that I absolutely am not getting my hopes up and I am not testing early this month. I have felt like poo for the past week. I have all the major PMS symtoms and my body is making me feel like I have gotten my period. I just feel wet, and every time I go check, there's nothing there...not even any CM on the toilet paper. Grr!! It's going to be a long week, if I make it that long.
My doctor appointment is Monday and I'm really nervous. I have all of my charts printed out and am ready to go. I'm anxious to see what the doctor will have to say. Wish me luck....
Well, I had my doctor's appointment today and I feel like I have some sense of direction for the first time in a long time. It was so nice to walk in and have both the nurse and doctor listen to me and all my concerns. I took my charts with me, and the doctor said that it was very beneficial to him to be able to see what my cycles have been like. We talked about all of my concerns as far as periods with all the excessive bleeding and the short span. I had mentioned that the main reason I temp is because my ovualtion day varies from month to month, and some months I don't ovulate at all. We then got to talking about how the later in your cycle you ovulate, the less healthy the eggs may be. I brought up that the month I got pregnant I Od on CD22, and he said that I may have very well had an unhealthy egg that just wasn't meant to be fertilized.
He drew some blood and he's checking both my Thyroid and Prolactin levels. He said he could tell how much of a toll this was taking on me. We talked about how both girls were so easy to conceive, and this time around I just wasn't having any luck. He said that instead of making me wait 2 more months he would just go ahead and give me Clomid. I feel so much better! I feel like I was listened to and give some sense of direction. I was a little surprised at the Clomid, but he said he wants me to start Oing in the middle of my cycle like I previously was.
He did mention that if I haven't gotten my period after 31 days to test and if it was + then we'd all celebrate and schedule and OB appointment, but if it wa negative, call back and he'd give me another dose. Ahh, I feel like I can finally breathe...
I've been an emotional mess all day...as November 8th gets closer and closer, I find myself having a hard time not being pregnant again. I know when I'm meant to, I'll be blessed again, but I was truly hoping it would be before my due date. I am not sure how I'm going to handle this day...I'm sure I'll be very emotional, and I'm not sure DH will even realize what I'm upset about. I don't want to think about it now. I miss my angel, but there is nothing I can do to change the situation.
I've been doing a lot of reading on Clomid and I'm confused as to whether or not I'm supposed to be monitored. My doctor didn't mention anything about it, but a lot of women here on preg.org have mentioned that they've been monitored and had progesterone checked, etc I talked to a woman at school who went through a lot of fertility treatments. It turns out she goes to the same doctor I do, and she said when she was on Clomid she wasn't monitored. I'm guessing that unless I have to continue to go through this month after month I won't be monitored. I'm just worried. The biggest reason it seems they monitor someone on Clomid is to make sure they don't have any cysts on their ovaries.
I really hope Clomid does the trick. I really got my hopes up high at first this past month, and as this cycle comes to a close I'm starting to get really down. I wanted this more than I realized I can't even begin to describe how I feel knowing that this will be the 11th month of trying for baby #3. With the other 2, all we had to do was look at each other and poof! We were pregnant. I often feel like God is trying to teach me something, but I haven't figured it out. I wonder if when I do then he'll bless me with another bub...
Well, pshyic Jenny was wrong I got my period a day early, but for the most part I'm ok with it. I'm just anxious to get started on the Clomid and see what kind of an effect it will have on my body. I'm really hoping this does the trick for me and I can have the thrill of pregnancy one more time.
I had a huge meltdown last night on the way home from the ISU game. Everywhere I turned there were big ol' pregnant bellies and itty, bitty babies. I held it in for most of the evening, but on the way home I just couldn't hold it in anymore. I bawled like a baby...I think as the edd gets closer and I realize that my LO will not be in my arms, it just gets harder. I really, truly expected to be pregnant again by November, and it may not happen. I'm having a hard time dealing with this....There are days where I'm totally fine, and then waves of saddness just wash over me and I cry like it just happened all over again. Ugh....
I'm trying to relax about TTC this month. I'm not temping. I am using OPKs, and I may temp once I get a positive, just to make sure my temps increase, but other than that I'm not doing it. DH and I just want to relax, and just let it happen. If it's supposed to happen, it will
I've written several long entries over the past few weeks, and my computer keeps freezing before I get them submitted. By the time I get my computer reloaded, I'm too lazy to retype them out
It's been a busy month, which I've been very thankful for. It's helping pass the time quickly. I started taking Clomid this month and I took my pills on CD5-9. I really wasn't sure what to expect, and honestly I didn't have too many side effects. I had a headache the first 2 days I took them and I was also a bit nauseus the first day, too. I had no idea what to expect as far as ovulation goes either, and I think I ovulated yesterday. I typically O on CD17 on my own, so this isn't much earlier, but I could definately feel ovulation going on. I had some serious pains!! I thought I might have Od on CD13 because on Friday my temp skyrocketed. I was home sick though, so on Saturday when my temp dipped back down, I chalked the high one up to a fever. My temp stayed down on Sunday as well, and skyrocketed again today.
I've decided that once I get my CHs, I'm done temping for this month. I did not temp until after I had taken my last Clomid pill, and I don't want the stress of overanalyzing my temps in the 2WW. I'm really trying to stay relaxed and go with the flow, so we'll see how well I do. If, and that's a big if, I am pregnant, my due date would be July 4 My father's birthday was July 4, and although I know most OBs won't do a schedule c-section on that day, I would possibly see if I could pull some strings. It would be a neat thing for this baby to share with his angel grandpa!
Here I am sitting four days past ovulation and as confused as ever. The last 3 times I've gone potty I find watery looking CM when I wipe. Three times!!! What is going on? I don't understand. I took my temp this morning even after I said I wasn't going to and it was up to 97.74. I haven't seen temps that high since I was pregnant with Lauryn. I'm not reading into anything, but it is making me curious. I refuse to get excited about anything. I don't want another broken heart when my period shows up. I've gotten used to seeing her every 29 days.
Part of me wonders if my ovulation day is right. I spent the weekend at a friend's house and it was freezing cold! I had some serious pains that I assume are ovulation, but I had a huge temp jump last Friday. Part of me, a tiny part anyway, thinks maybe I'm 7dpo rather than 4. I'm dying to test, but 4dpo is way to darn early and I am NOT wasting a test. I only have 2 in the house: a FRER and a $Tree one. I'll use the $Tree first when I test on the 23rd, and if I think I see something I'll use the FRER. Hopefully the next week goes by fast!
Ugh....this 2WW is killing. I don't know why it's any different than any of the others ones, but I feel like we had more of a chance this month. We had perfect BDing and I actually felt my ovulation this time. I guess that those things paired with the Clomid are making me hopeful although I should know better.
As for symptoms, both today and yesterday I noticed some twinges in my abdomen....not cramps, but twinges. Normally at this time I feel a lot of PMS cramps, so this is different for me.
I also noticed yesterday that when I sneezed two different types I had these sharp pains in my abdomen. The only other time I felt those types of pains was with my other two pregnancies. With Addison I felt them throughout the pregnancy as I always seemed to have a cold. Every time I would cough or sneeze I'd feel those pains. I felt them again before I knew I was pregnant with Lauryn. I had tested at 9 and 10dpo and both were negative, so I had given up hope. However, on my way home from taking Addison to the doctor I sneezed and felt those same pains. I made a stop at WalMart and boom! I got my BFP. So, it's hard not to get too excited, but I can't help be a little bit!
As for my temps, I had a big temp dip yesterday, and it went back up this morning....implantation? I don't know...but I sure want to!
My temp went up again...this chart looks similiar to the chart I had when I concieved Lauryn, but again, trying not to read into it. It's so hard not to. I'm trying to hold out testing until Friday because I don't want to see a BFN, but I don't know if I can wait that long. Ah!!
I've had that wet feeling all day. No cramps, just the wet feeling like my period started....hmm!
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