TTC is never easy, is it? My temp has risen significantly over the past 2 days, but I'm only on CD12. If my temp stays elevated tomorrow, I know FF will give me CHs and there's no way I ovulated so early...is there? My normal post O temps are in the 97s, so this just doesn't make any sense to me. I'm anxious and nervous to see what tomorrow does. If I did in fact O already, then we're screwed this cycle because we didn't BD close to O day at all I guess we'll keep at it in hopes that FF is wrong. There's not much else I can do, and be hopeful that my temp dips tomorrow for at least a few more days...
Well, I went out and bought some OPKs because I'm really scared that we missed it this month. Thankfully the OPK was negative...I want it that way until at least tomorrow so we can get in some decent BDing. We'll see what happens with my temp tomorrow...
FF gave me CHs this morning :dontknow: I don't buy it, but it appears that FF isn't to sure of itself either since it gave me dotted CHs. I was also reading the information in the ovulation detector box and it said:
"While ovulation has been detected on your chart, the progesterone supplement that you are taking may also be the cause of your thermal shift."
So, I'm hoping it's safe to say that I haven't Od yet?? We'll keep BDing and I'll keep taking those OPKs and hopefully in a few days FF will realize it is wrong and correct itself. Otherwise, I'd have to hope and pray that the BDing we did on CD 8 was close enough. I really think it's wrong though, so it will be interesting to see what happens over the course of the next few days.
Well, it's been a couple days since I wrote in here because I feel like I'm clueless with this cycle. I really have no idea what is going on with my body. I took another OPK on Saturday and it was super light!! I was thinking, great!! Fertility Friend was indeed accurate, and I must have caught the tailend of the surger....but then I took another one on Sunday and it was super dark....I thought it was a positive, so I posted it on the DYSAL board, and most of them thought it was super close, but not quite there yet. Well, I marked it as positve, then had another positive yesterday around 4 PM. When I took another one around 6 PM it was negative, so hopefully we caught the eggie. We BD on Sunday and Monday morning, and we'll do it tonight to just for good meausre! I guess we'll see what my temps do over the next few days...they went up this morning to 97.03 and that is a typical post-O temp...so hopefully we did enough
Well, I Od on Wednesday, like I thought I had. That is reassuring that my O day has been consistent for 2 months. Hopefully it will continue to remain the same. This month I will not obsess over any symptoms. I really have no idea how the Progesterone will affect my cycle and I just don't want to get my heart broken. I don't have any symptoms right now...although I've felt off for 2 days now. Just not feeling well, but I think it's the stress of everything going on around me: getting ready to go back to work, working a part-time job, and stressing about life in general.
I looked back at my pshyic reading from Jenny Renny and she said I will get pregnant from a cycle that starts in August and ends in September with a BFP. We'll see. I hope she's off by a month, but I take those things with a grain of salt anyway. It'll be interesting to see if she's accurate or not though :shrug:
Ugh...I haven't written in here for nearly a week. AF showed up 5 dpo (3 days after I took the last Provera pill), so that cycle was a complete bust! I'm just at the point right now where I feel helpless, defeated, and ready to quit. It doesn't help that another friend of mine just shared the news that she's pregnant. I'm happy for her, but each friend that ends up pregnant pokes at my heart and it's taken as good of a beating as I can handle right now.
The only thing holding me together right now is my girls. I'm so thankful for them, but I want to give them a little brother or sister. I know when I'm meant to that I will, but it just stinks.
School started back up today. I had mostly meetings today, so not much time to work in my room. Tomorrow is mostly a work day though, so I can get a lot of things done I hope I'm excited for the new year to start, but a little nervous too. I'm teaching a subject that I haven't taught in a year, and it's a major subject. Alright, I've got to get back into the habit of going to bed early. I need some sleep...
It's been almost 2 weeks since I've written in here and it's been a crazy few weeks. I got my period yesterday, on CD19 :eek: I think there is something seriously wrong with my body but I haven't been able to get into the doctor. I called the other office in town and the soonest they could get me in was September 21. I have a follow-up appointment with my regular doctor on the 29th, but that's just too far away for me. I want some answers, and I want them now! I looked up the signs of low progesterone again and I have 15+ symptoms. I really think this may be my problem.
I didn't even O with my last cycle. I had + OPKs, but AF showed before I would have actually Od. I am trying to remain positive that this is my month, so we'll see what happens. If, and that's a big IF, I get pregnant I'd be due June 8. I'd have a repeat c-section on June 1, which is Addison's birthday. I think that's a good sign, and part of me can't help thinking about my pshyic reading. She said I'd deliver on June 2...hmm :confused: Interesting! I better head off to bed, but I'm going to try to keep this updated more. It was so much easier during the summer. I forgot how hard it is during the school year to do much of anything!
I'm thinking tonight might be the big O. I thought I had Od yesterday. I had a nice temp jump, but today my temp went back down. I'm hoping is an O dip, so we'll BD tonight and hope for the best. We're trying the every other day method and hoping one of these months something works for us.
This month has been pretty normal for me...as in how my cycles USED to be. I had a normal period I had 4 days of flow and 2 days of spotting. I'm a tad bit crampy right now...feels similiar to AF, but I'm hoping their O cramps. It'll be a long wait over the next few days waiting to see what my temps do. I'm very anxious though. If I am indeed Oing today, I'll be 11 dpo at my doctor's visit. I wonder if they'd do a blood test :confused: Something to think about I guess if I'm feeling pregnant :shrug:
Well, phooey! My temp went down a smidge again...from 96.58 to 96.54 I am starting to wonder if even though I had a normal period I won't O until CD17 like I have been, or if I'm in store for AF. I've got a backache today, and that's usually a good indicator that she's on her way. I guess I'll just have to wait it out and see what happens...but like always the waiting is the hardest. It seems like when you're TTC waiting is all you do. I hope my temps do something good over the next few days....
I *think* I may have Od on CD17. My temp dipped extremely low...I was super pissed, and I felt like AF was for sure coming. I was so crampy, gassy, and bloated, but then my temp sky-rocketed yesterday....and again today it was quite high. I'm hoping that I get my CHs tomorrow. I am not sure how good of a shot we've got this month. We decided to do the every other day method and so we BD the day before O. I was going to take advantage of DH the day my temp dipped, but I felt terrible. I seriously thought I was getting my period and just wasn't in the mood. We'll see what happens....I think I've got a fair chance, but not a super good one.
I've got a headache the past 2 days....I had one before finding out I was pregnant with Addison, so that makes me get my hopes up a smidge. I don't know why I am though....2dpo is way to freakin' early to have any symptoms. I'm really gassy and bloated too. I swear I look 3 months pregnant :eek: I hope the next few weeks go quickly. I WILL NOT TEST EARLY!! I'm holding out until 12 dpo and if my temp is still up I'll test.
I got my CHs this morning!!! My temp is pretty close to the coverline, so I'm hoping it goes up tomorrow and stayes elevated. Now let's hope the next week goes quickly!!
I have decided that I absolutely am not getting my hopes up and I am not testing early this month. I have felt like poo for the past week. I have all the major PMS symtoms and my body is making me feel like I have gotten my period. I just feel wet, and every time I go check, there's nothing there...not even any CM on the toilet paper. Grr!! It's going to be a long week, if I make it that long.
My doctor appointment is Monday and I'm really nervous. I have all of my charts printed out and am ready to go. I'm anxious to see what the doctor will have to say. Wish me luck....
Well, I had my doctor's appointment today and I feel like I have some sense of direction for the first time in a long time. It was so nice to walk in and have both the nurse and doctor listen to me and all my concerns. I took my charts with me, and the doctor said that it was very beneficial to him to be able to see what my cycles have been like. We talked about all of my concerns as far as periods with all the excessive bleeding and the short span. I had mentioned that the main reason I temp is because my ovualtion day varies from month to month, and some months I don't ovulate at all. We then got to talking about how the later in your cycle you ovulate, the less healthy the eggs may be. I brought up that the month I got pregnant I Od on CD22, and he said that I may have very well had an unhealthy egg that just wasn't meant to be fertilized.
He drew some blood and he's checking both my Thyroid and Prolactin levels. He said he could tell how much of a toll this was taking on me. We talked about how both girls were so easy to conceive, and this time around I just wasn't having any luck. He said that instead of making me wait 2 more months he would just go ahead and give me Clomid. I feel so much better! I feel like I was listened to and give some sense of direction. I was a little surprised at the Clomid, but he said he wants me to start Oing in the middle of my cycle like I previously was.
He did mention that if I haven't gotten my period after 31 days to test and if it was + then we'd all celebrate and schedule and OB appointment, but if it wa negative, call back and he'd give me another dose. Ahh, I feel like I can finally breathe...
I've been an emotional mess all day...as November 8th gets closer and closer, I find myself having a hard time not being pregnant again. I know when I'm meant to, I'll be blessed again, but I was truly hoping it would be before my due date. I am not sure how I'm going to handle this day...I'm sure I'll be very emotional, and I'm not sure DH will even realize what I'm upset about. I don't want to think about it now. I miss my angel, but there is nothing I can do to change the situation.
I've been doing a lot of reading on Clomid and I'm confused as to whether or not I'm supposed to be monitored. My doctor didn't mention anything about it, but a lot of women here on preg.org have mentioned that they've been monitored and had progesterone checked, etc :dontknow: I talked to a woman at school who went through a lot of fertility treatments. It turns out she goes to the same doctor I do, and she said when she was on Clomid she wasn't monitored. I'm guessing that unless I have to continue to go through this month after month I won't be monitored. I'm just worried. The biggest reason it seems they monitor someone on Clomid is to make sure they don't have any cysts on their ovaries.
I really hope Clomid does the trick. I really got my hopes up high at first this past month, and as this cycle comes to a close I'm starting to get really down. I wanted this more than I realized I can't even begin to describe how I feel knowing that this will be the 11th month of trying for baby #3. With the other 2, all we had to do was look at each other and poof! We were pregnant. I often feel like God is trying to teach me something, but I haven't figured it out. I wonder if when I do then he'll bless me with another bub...
Well, pshyic Jenny was wrong I got my period a day early, but for the most part I'm ok with it. I'm just anxious to get started on the Clomid and see what kind of an effect it will have on my body. I'm really hoping this does the trick for me and I can have the thrill of pregnancy one more time.
I had a huge meltdown last night on the way home from the ISU game. Everywhere I turned there were big ol' pregnant bellies and itty, bitty babies. I held it in for most of the evening, but on the way home I just couldn't hold it in anymore. I bawled like a baby...I think as the edd gets closer and I realize that my LO will not be in my arms, it just gets harder. I really, truly expected to be pregnant again by November, and it may not happen. I'm having a hard time dealing with this....There are days where I'm totally fine, and then waves of saddness just wash over me and I cry like it just happened all over again. Ugh....
I'm trying to relax about TTC this month. I'm not temping. I am using OPKs, and I may temp once I get a positive, just to make sure my temps increase, but other than that I'm not doing it. DH and I just want to relax, and just let it happen. If it's supposed to happen, it will
I've written several long entries over the past few weeks, and my computer keeps freezing before I get them submitted. By the time I get my computer reloaded, I'm too lazy to retype them out
It's been a busy month, which I've been very thankful for. It's helping pass the time quickly. I started taking Clomid this month and I took my pills on CD5-9. I really wasn't sure what to expect, and honestly I didn't have too many side effects. I had a headache the first 2 days I took them and I was also a bit nauseus the first day, too. I had no idea what to expect as far as ovulation goes either, and I think I ovulated yesterday. I typically O on CD17 on my own, so this isn't much earlier, but I could definately feel ovulation going on. I had some serious pains!! I thought I might have Od on CD13 because on Friday my temp skyrocketed. I was home sick though, so on Saturday when my temp dipped back down, I chalked the high one up to a fever. My temp stayed down on Sunday as well, and skyrocketed again today.
I've decided that once I get my CHs, I'm done temping for this month. I did not temp until after I had taken my last Clomid pill, and I don't want the stress of overanalyzing my temps in the 2WW. I'm really trying to stay relaxed and go with the flow, so we'll see how well I do. If, and that's a big if, I am pregnant, my due date would be July 4 My father's birthday was July 4, and although I know most OBs won't do a schedule c-section on that day, I would possibly see if I could pull some strings. It would be a neat thing for this baby to share with his angel grandpa!
Here I am sitting four days past ovulation and as confused as ever. The last 3 times I've gone potty I find watery looking CM when I wipe. Three times!!! What is going on? I don't understand. I took my temp this morning even after I said I wasn't going to and it was up to 97.74. I haven't seen temps that high since I was pregnant with Lauryn. I'm not reading into anything, but it is making me curious. I refuse to get excited about anything. I don't want another broken heart when my period shows up. I've gotten used to seeing her every 29 days.
Part of me wonders if my ovulation day is right. I spent the weekend at a friend's house and it was freezing cold! I had some serious pains that I assume are ovulation, but I had a huge temp jump last Friday. Part of me, a tiny part anyway, thinks maybe I'm 7dpo rather than 4. I'm dying to test, but 4dpo is way to darn early and I am NOT wasting a test. I only have 2 in the house: a FRER and a $Tree one. I'll use the $Tree first when I test on the 23rd, and if I think I see something I'll use the FRER. Hopefully the next week goes by fast!
Ugh....this 2WW is killing. I don't know why it's any different than any of the others ones, but I feel like we had more of a chance this month. We had perfect BDing and I actually felt my ovulation this time. I guess that those things paired with the Clomid are making me hopeful although I should know better.
As for symptoms, both today and yesterday I noticed some twinges in my abdomen....not cramps, but twinges. Normally at this time I feel a lot of PMS cramps, so this is different for me.
I also noticed yesterday that when I sneezed two different types I had these sharp pains in my abdomen. The only other time I felt those types of pains was with my other two pregnancies. With Addison I felt them throughout the pregnancy as I always seemed to have a cold. Every time I would cough or sneeze I'd feel those pains. I felt them again before I knew I was pregnant with Lauryn. I had tested at 9 and 10dpo and both were negative, so I had given up hope. However, on my way home from taking Addison to the doctor I sneezed and felt those same pains. I made a stop at WalMart and boom! I got my BFP. So, it's hard not to get too excited, but I can't help be a little bit!
As for my temps, I had a big temp dip yesterday, and it went back up this morning....implantation? I don't know...but I sure want to!
My temp went up again...this chart looks similiar to the chart I had when I concieved Lauryn, but again, trying not to read into it. It's so hard not to. I'm trying to hold out testing until Friday because I don't want to see a BFN, but I don't know if I can wait that long. Ah!!
I've had that wet feeling all day. No cramps, just the wet feeling like my period started....hmm!
I tested this morning...I couldn't resist the urge, and it didn't help that I had a dream about twins. Stupid me.....it was crystal clear, although I had to take a double look at it. I thought I saw something at first, but after everything dried, there was nothing there. I keep telling myself, Holly, 8 dpo is WAY TO DAMN early, but part of me can't help but be sad. My temp went down a smidge this morning, so I guess I'll wait and see what happens tomorrow.
I still feel totally different this cycle. Usually by now, I'm having horrible PMS cramps, and haven't really had anything....*knock on wood.* Also the past 2 nights when I've gone to bed, my stomach just growls like I didn't get enough to eat. I don't know what to make of it :dontknow: I noticed this morning that my nips look different too. They are dark brown around the outside and then there's no color around the middle...WTHeck is that about? I guess I just wait until Friday to test like I had planned. Although the only one I have left now is FRER and I don't wanna waste it. I ordered some free OPKs and HPT off the internet, so maybe they'll get here soon. I hope this week flys by!
Feeling defeated as another cycle comes to a close. I have had the worst cramps today....normal PMS cramps and some other weird ones that I can't quite understand. They are in my abdomen and they really hurt. I don't know what to think, but this 2WW stuff is for the birds.
My temp went down today as well. I am expecting my period any day now....just bring it on and get it over with. Grr!
My temp went back up today :confused: I sure am one confused mama, but am really hoping for the best. I woke up this morning to a little bit of nauseus, so I tested and it was negative. However, last night while I was checking papers I had some of the worst cramps I've ever had in my life. They weren't normal PMS cramps...but they hurt!! Part of me got a little excited thinking maybe it was implantation, and if that's the case, I wouldn't have enough hcg to register on a hpt yet, so I'm not giving up just yet....we'll wait and see what happens tomorrow.
Well, the witch found me....and she was even a day early :cry: I think this time it hurts the most because my EDD is in 2 weeks. I never imagined how hard and long this would be to have one more little miracle in our lives. I am so thankful for my girls, as I don't know how I would handle this situation if I did not have them. However, having them also makes this so much more confusing and frustrating. How did I get pregnant with them so easily? I still wonder if there isn't a hormone issue, but what do I know? My temps aren't ever crazily high after Oing, so it makes me wonder if I'm producing enough progesterone, and if I'm not, then can I successfully implant an embreyo? I'm not sure, but it's one the the millions of questions floating around in my head. Ugh...
I did some thinking the other night and I'm really not trying to stress this month. I'm going to not temp, take my chart out of my siggy and just go with the flow. We'll BD whenever and just hope that it works. I am on another dose of Clomid, so hopefully something will happen. I started thinking back to when we first were getting ready to try for baby #3 and I did a pshyic reading on Cafemom. I remember she told me I'd get my BFP in Dec. 2009 and it would be a boy. I thought to myself, golly, that's a long time away. I hope either we don't start trying until later. Otherwise that would mean we had been trying for over a year. Well, here we are....makes me have a little bit of hope again. We'll see what happens I guess. One never knows and we just have to continue on in the hopes that it will happen again some day!
I think this will be my last post for a while. I need to take a break from this site. Every time I log in, there's another BFP announcement somewhere and it's breaking my heart. I should be holding a 10 hour old baby right now and instead I'm left feeling empty and hopeless. I know there is a plan for me and my future, but it's so hard to see it right now. It hurts so much to have something I so badly want constantly evading my grasp. I just need to step away from this site and refocus my mind and my heart. All I seem to feel when I come on here is jealousy, and that is not how I want to feel. I want to be happy. I want to rejoice in others happiness, and I want to be one of those women sharing in the joys of pregnancy. If, and when I get a BFP is questionable, but this break will be good for me. I hope Clomid and relaxation do the trick for me. Please keep me in your thoughts if you read this...I could use all the prayers and support I can get right now.
I find myself lurking on this site every stinking day. I just can't stay away. I have found though that I have a much better attitude about this whole situation. This week was rough for me, I won't lie. My due date was Monday and I found out a friend from HS passed away unexpectedly on Friday. The news of his death really affected me. Here I've been for months and months complaining about what I don't have, when I should really take a look around me and realize how many truly wonderful things I have in my life. My girls and my husband are so important to me. This past week Lauryn has been so affectionate (makes me wonder if she secretly knows, but I know better). It melts my heart when she wants me to pick her up and then wraps her tiny little arms around my neck and gives me the biggest hug her little body can handle. I have a family that cares about me and so many friends that do as well.
I am blessed, and I need to remember what good things I've got going for me. When the time is right, the rest of this puzzle will fall into place. Maybe this is God's way of telling me to get my finances in check, or maybe it's his way of telling me to relax and enjoy the goodness in my life. I'm not sure, but we'll see what happens.
I think today is ovulation day. I haven't been temping this cycle. I did yesterday and today and will tomorrow just to confirm O, but I've been doing OPKs. We also haven't really BD much this month either. DH was sick with strep, so we BD last night when I got my + OPK and will tonight and tomorrow as well. I've decided to try B6 as well to see if I can increase my LP at all. Other than that, we're just relaxing and going with the flow. I did ask my doctor to check my progesterone for me, so on Friday (CD21) the nurse said I can come in and get it tested. That feels like a huge weight off my shoulders. I just want to make sure it's alright. I personally have always thought this was the issue, so maybe it'll prove me wrong. Guess only time will tell...
My girls are in bed and I'm going to put in a movie and enjoy the quietness while I wait for DH to get home. What movie sounds good enough to watch? Hmm...
What a crazy cycle!! I had + OPKs for 5 days in a row?!? What the heck? As for BD, we hit CD15 and 16 and also CD19. FF says that I Od on CD17, so I think we're ok as far as our bases are covered. Now it's just a waiting game.
Yesterday was CD21, and I asked to have my Progesterone checked, just to rule it out that it wasn't my problem. They tested it for me and called back with the results today. I missed the call, so she left a message, and it said, "Your results came back within the normal range, and it appears that you ovulated." I was happy, and let it go, but then realized that it was bugging me. I wanted to know what my exact level was, so I called her back and right when I got her on the line she said, "Holly your results came back at 25.2 and the normal range is between 7.6 and something..." I didn't catch the end of what she said because I was focusing on what my number was. I have no idea if that number is good for 4 dpo, but only time will tell.
As for symptoms, my boobs hurt, but this isn't anything new for me. They always hurt after ovulation, but they've hurt ALL day. That's not normal. I'm not looking into anything, and now that I've got CHs, I'm not temping until next Wednesday. Depending on my temp, I may test, but otherwise I'll wait and see if AF shows or not. I think the next week will go fairly fast. Tomorrow I'm going to the ISU game, Sunday I work, Tuesday I work, and Thursday night is the New Moon premier!! Woot Woot I cannot wait!!!
I am still in shock! After many months of heartache and frustation I've gotten that BFP that has been eluding me for so long! I'm so stinking excited, but I'm scared out of my mind too. I'm nervous as can be, but am really hoping for the best. I hope this one (or two) is a super sticky bean!! So Baby Cam is on his/her way! August 1, here I come!