Remember a couple of posts ago I said I wasn't POAS crazy this cycle? Yeah, you can toss that statement out the window. The insanity has begun.
I don't even know why I tested this morning...there was no rational reason. I am only 11 DPO. But I did it. And nearly passed out when I saw a very faint line.
That's right, a BFP. I even peed on a few more sticks to confirm it. All showed faint lines. Holy cr*p.
So why aren't I jumping around for joy, I ask myself. Because I tested too darn early, that's why! I could kick myself. I am petrified that this will turn into a chemical pregnancy. I should be so ecstatic but instead I am so scared. Should have listened to FF, which told me not to test for another week.
Actually, to be honest, there's another reason I'm not as happy as I should be. My DH is in the military and he just found out yesterday that he's being promoted. This means that we'll be moving this summer and we don't know where yet. I am scared to death that we'll end up somewhere with a doctor shortage, and I'll be pregnant with no doctor. (I currently live in Ontario and it took me 10 months to find a doctor here because of the shortage.) I am freaking out over this possibility.
Well, the current plan of action is that I am going to test tomorrow morning with a different brand of hpt. This morning's were all internet cheapies and I don't trust those 100%. First Response will be used tomorrow! Then, if it also shows BFP I will go to my doctor near the end of next week for a blood test. I think DH and I will feel much more confident in the viability of this pregnancy once we have positive blood test results. As you can tell, neither of us likes to get our hopes up too high!
What a weird mood I am in - I feel guilty for not being happier over the BFP, but I don't want to get my hopes up too high in case it ends up a chemical pregnancy. I am so proud of my DH for his promotion and looking forward to moving, but I'm petrified I won't have a doctor. It's like half of me wants to be dancing in the streets, and the other half is determined to be unhappy!
Oh well, the only thing I can do now is wait and see what happens. I'll keep you posted on test results.
First off, I sincerely apologize for not putting "pg ment" in my journal title yesterday. It completely slipped my mind and I truly hope I did not hurt anyone by posting about my BFP without this advance warning. I am so sorry.
I haven't switched over to a pregnancy journal yet because I'm waiting to get some bloodwork done to confirm my hpt's. I'm a bit of a nervous nellie right now and to be honest, I feel like starting a pregnancy journal might jinx me. Stupid, I know, but I guess I'm just being extra careful right now!
Anyway, I did the First Response test this morning and got another BFP. I'm going to try to get in to my doctor on Monday (originally I thought I'd wait until the end of the week, but who am I kidding - I'm nowhere near that patient).
So, I guess this will be my last post here in the TTC section. I had my doctor's appointment yesterday, which was actually somewhat disappointing. He didn't do any bloodwork, stating that they only did bloodwork if there was any doubt that someone was pregnant. Because I peed on about a million sticks over the weekend and they were all positive, he didn't see the need for bloodwork to confirm the pregnancy.
I initially was concerned because it seems like so much emphasis is placed on HcG levels. But, he wants to see me again in two weeks so I guess that's when I'll have blood work done. After thinking about it, I'm almost glad he didn't test my levels. I don't think I'd want to know if they were low and it looked bad. I'd just worry more. Also, I'm very early into this pregnancy so it makes sense to wait until I'm 6 weeks to start getting into all of that stuff.
I'm going to start a pregnancy journal on preg.org if anyone is interested in reading about my adventures. I'm really hoping that everything goes well.
I wish everyone the best of luck with their efforts and hope you get your BFP's soon! Thanks for reading!