This my first entry and I am just starting another cycle (day 4). I have found this to be exciteing and some what discourageing. With each passing month I am less optamistic about the ease of this process. Though we haven't been at this for long I wonder why we have to wait at all. I am confident that the Lord has a perfect plan for our lives, and that keeps me from becomeing to anxious. However I pray he doesn't make us wait too much longer to reviel that plan. I will be updateing ocassionaly as we do have a toddler that keeps me plenty busy. Reading stories of others who are still trying for a first baby also help me to just be satisfied with the one I have been blessed with. If I am unable to have more I guess I know deep down that I would be happy with the one amazeing gift of life I have been given. Thanks for the oppertunity to voice my trials, fears, hopes and joys. Best wishes to each of you!
p.s. I wish there was spell check sorry for all the typos!
Well here I am only one day later and I feel like I am going to be playing this game forever. I am really tired today and I feel like I couldn't handel having more then one right now. I know that this feeling will probably stick around untill the second baby isn't a baby anmore I hear that it goes away a few weeks after a new addition, and I hope I will someday be posting my own oppinion on that topic in a new journal. Taking the time to put my thoughts down helps me to clear my mind and focus more attentively on the day to day things. I will post again soon as Grayson is now having a fit!
It's the first day of March and I have been feeling really relaxed about the whole TTC thing recently. I just have a new outlook on it, and am more sure now then ever that we will get our next baby at the perfect time. I am having an even easier time with the one I have now, I learn more about him every day and grow more sure of my ability to care for him. I am taking him to the pool tomorrow for his second swim, as our little life gets more organized I some times wonder how long it will take me to get back in the groove with a second one. I won't be able to keep working as much as I do now, but I'll worry about all that when the time comes. I very much enjoy all the stories you ladies have shared and have enjoyed lurking around and learning from your experiences. Thanks for your care, and here's wishing baby dust on all who need some!!
I am very hesitant to put this in writing, but this feels like "it" to me. As we weren't trying last time I don't really know for sure what to watch for. However this moth I feel pregnant and have noticed that I have started produceing colostrum which I havn't done sice I had DS 17 months ago. Anyhow won't bore you with all the other details, just wanted to jot down a little note so I could look back on it. Hope you are all doing well.
Ok I just can't help myself I feel so sure that this is it. I am getting scared that I'm just going to be really disapointed when I get a BFN. I would normally be really excited to test as soon as I was in the time frame, but this time I am wanting to try and wait until I'm late. I have been feeling really tired, even more then usual, and have been having back pain that has been reather uncompfortable for the last few days. Also my face is SO broken out, last month is didn't brake out at all. I'm just really wanting this to be it I'll be back here Thursday, and I am going to try and wait until next Tuesday to test...........but who am I kidding I know I won't make it Anyway you'll all see how long I make it and what the results are as soon as I do! Thanks for reading and baby dust to all!
Ok, it's been a really long time since I updated you all on my situation. As you can see I was prego as I had suspected, but that wasn't the baby that is ment to be next for us. I went through a really hard few days, I cried a lot, and felt all kinds of emotions. I can say now that I am thankfull for the knowledge of the whole situatuion. I am glad that I tested early and told everyone that I did. Because people knew about it I had to come to grips with the reality very quickly, which helped me to recover fast. I have now excepted it totally, and am happy to say that we are actively back at the TTC game. If I could go back and do it all over, I think I would do it the same. This cycle I don't plan to test untill I'm late, if I get there, but I'm not sure if I'll make it. I also don't know if I can be strong if I were to go through that all again. I do know that the Lord has a perfect plan for us and that he won't give me anything I can't handel. He has been faithfull in his promises thus far, and I'm sure he won't let me down. I had always said that I didn't want to have a baby in December, but at this point I would love to have twins in December!! It's funny how much this whole thing has changed my prospective on the miracle of life. If anyone is reading this I just want to remind you that children are truley a MIRACLE! If you have one or some already as I do you are truley blessed. If you are expecting or TTC I pray that you will soon feel the joy that a baby will bring to your heart. I think it's important to keep your focus on the things that you need to control and let the Lord do his job, and if you don't believe in God I still think it's good to remember that you can't make anything happen and when it's your time it's your time, you can't make it happen any sooner. If you read this far thanks for taking the time, and I wish all of you tons of baby dust, and I hope to be starting a Pregnancy Journal soon with the rest of you!
Just a quick note to share how I'm feeling. First off, it's probably good I'm not prego right now because I have been getting the run around about hospital bills from when Grayson was born. Lord willing that is almost over with and we will be getting ready to rack up some come April. I am a little nervous because of what happened last time, but I feel like we don't have long to wait. I really hope to get the best Christmas gift ever! I was born on Dec. 19th, and if we are sucessfull at the TTC game I will be due on the 18th which is also my moms birthday. It's funny to be even considering the thought since I was so sure I didn't want a December baby however now I can't get the idea out of my head! Only time will tell, I better get going DH has DS in the tub and I'm sure they will be screaming for a towel any second now. BABY DUST TO ALL
I'm back here in this 2 week wait land and I am feeling LOTS of symptoms even more then last month. I afraid to let my self feel pregnant because I don't want to be disapointed if AF shows up Sunday. Ok so I got really distracted and have been to lunch and back since I started this. I have had a killer headache since yesterday which is very unusual for me. I have also been feeling a little bit of nausea off and on for the last few days. I'm trying not to get my hopes up because I know that the time will come and I can't make it any faster by worrying about it. I will contine to to pray, and DTD and look forward to seeing what the lord has in store us. Oh and on a side note I have been on a cleaning frenzy all day today because there is evidence that mice have been visiting us here at the office! I HATE mice!!! So off to keep cleaning.
Well I guess I should have been a little more optimistic. We did it again!!! I'm soooo excited and a little nervous. This one feel better, I have tons of symptoms still and have had lots of cramping with out even a spot. I feel the way I did when I was pregnant with DS. I just can't get the idea of twins out of my head. I don't know how I fee about it, I would be really excited, and totally freeked out at the same time. Josh says if it is twins then were done, which I dont' like to hear cause i really thought we would have 4. Anyhow that's besides the point I've decided I am going to go ahead and tell the gals here. I was going to wait till I had been to the doc to get blood drawn, but I can't wait any more and I won't be able to go till at least next week. So I'm off now to get some food....can't get enough of it! And to make my big announcement over on the TTC 2nd time board. Then it's time for a new ticker....and what ever else I decide I have to do. Thanks for reading and I sure hope everyone gets the BFP's really soon. I am due on my mom's birthday Dec. 18th. AHHHHH I just want to scream, I'm so excited, we're not telling very many people because of last months little mishap, but I can't wait to make the big announcement IRL. Best of luck to all of you and I'll spreading baby dust every where I go! Oh and a special thank you to Heidi for the very sparkley name, I love it.