Jessica's Mission For Baby #2!
Well, I've been debating for awhile if I wanted to start one of these journals or not. But I know I'm going to need something to keep me occupied during the torturous 2WW, so I figured this would be a good distraction! :rolleyes:
My name is Jessica and I'm 26 years old. I'm married to a WONDERFUL man named Eric who is also 26. We've been married for 3 1/2 years and have a beautiful little boy named Jackson. He was born in February 2006, so he's a little over two years old, which is SO hard to believe! :eek: I want to know how my baby has transformed into this little boy before my eyes so quickly!
We've been discussing when we wanted to start TTC #2 for a long time.... but it seemed that I always had some sort of excuse. I wanted to lose weight, I wanted to wait until Jackson was a little older, etc etc. It's complicated.... I've had major baby fever for a long time now, but honestly, I've been scared. I had a pretty negative birth experience with Jackson.... after 17 hours of labor, I was coerced into having a c-section, which I did NOT want. I've been very negatively affected by that c-section.... I feel that it was completely unnecessary and I get very sad when I think about his birth. I will be attempting a VBAC (vaginal birth after ceasarean) with the next baby, so I think I've just been scared.
But over the last few months, I have let go of that fear and really worked on working through my emotions over Jackson's birth and now I'm TOTALLY ready for the next kiddo! This month is our first month TTC.... I ovulated yesterday and now we just wait and see if this is the month God has planned for us! If not, I'm not going to stress about it... I know it'll happen when it's supposed to. But of course, I'm keeping my fingers crossed.
So here I am, 1 DPO and wishing these two weeks will just fly by! :)