Lauren's baby makin' adventure!

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Lauren's baby makin' adventure!

Ahoy hoy and welcome to my baby makin' adventure! Right now we're still hanging out in the waiting room, but come January 1, 2009 we officially set sail!! Until then, join me in my preparations for trying to conceive!

I suppose I'll get this party started by giving you way too much information about myself! I'm a rambler and I sometimes lack that little voice inside my head that tells me when I should stop talking (or, in this case, typing).

My name is Lauren and I'm 27 years old. I was born and raised in Northern Illinois (with a short stint in Texas) but I moved to Western Illinois in 1999 to attend college... Well, graduation came and went - but I did not. I'm still here!!! D'oh! DH ( Jeremy/28 ) also moved here in 1999 to attend college. We had been dating for one year at the time. Yeah, he followed me. lol. Currently, we both work for the University here and make a pretty decent living for ourselves. We own a townhouse, a crappy 1999 Toyota Corolla, and a bunch of other junk that I don't feel like listing. We are also the proud furparents to two dogs - a 5 year old bichon frise named Brodie and a 2 year old pekingese-mix named Zuul (yes, from Ghostbusters). They're a complete and total pain in my @ss, but I love them... Except when they pee on the carpet. A lot.

Anyhoo, Jer and I got married on July 31, 2004 and for whatever reason the topic of children never came up. We both knew we wanted kids "someday," but that was the extent of that. We've been going about our lives since then just enjoying each other, I suppose. About six months ago it got me. It got me REAL bad! Y'all know what I'm talking about....... Baby fever! I blame our friends. They adopted the most adorable little boy that just makes your heart melt. It was a few months after that that I'd had enough. I wanted to be a mommy! I didn't know how to talk to Jer about this, since communication is not something I excel at. Well, until I have a bottle of wine in me. lol! Yes, this is when I confronted my dear husband about having a baby - while drunk! :eek: But I got it out and that's the push I needed... The next night we talked about it more seriously (and not drunkenly) and it turns out we're both on the same page! We were just too scared (or something) to talk to each other about it... Being that my husband is one of those people that is easily stressed out and needs everything just perfect before any change can occur, we decided on January 2009 for our TTC date. This way we could save up more money (which would make him feel better) and I could go on a research rampage in order to feel like somehow I had control over this situation. I also wanted to go off of the pill (Yaz) and knew my body would need a few months to snap back into shape.

This all took place almost three months ago. After some research I discovered FAM and immediately went out and bought myself a BBT thermometer and set up an account at FertilityFriend.com. I was still on Yaz for my first month of charting, but I counted it as my practice month in order to train myself to take my temp every morning. I even got Jer on board with this by having him hand me my thermometer every morning... This way I don't move too much and mess up my temp. I'm actually surprised he went along with this, but I guess when I whine enough he'll do anything. Plus he's the only one with a nightstand, so I'd have to lean over him every morning to get my thermometer anyway! lol. I finished up that month of pills and decided not to refill my prescription. Jer seemed weird about this at first, but after I explained that it was going to take my body awhile to adjust and that we'd use condoms in the meantime he seemed okay. It's strange how he's okay with conceiving a baby in January, but the thought of conceiving one a month or two earlier is just too much for him to bear! ha ha ha. That's my DH. Oh, and he was really happy that we were going to save $40 from my pills. Again, that's my DH.

My first cycle off of the pill was surprisingly normal-ish. I ended up with a 30 day cycle, which was only a day longer than my cycle while on the pill. However, I didn't ovulate until day 21 and I only had a 9 day luteal phase! I know that was just because it was my first month off the pill and that it should even out in a few months (or I hope anyway). I'm currently midway through my second cycle off of the pill. It's been a bit wackier this time around, so I'm not sure what to expect when all is said and done... I guess we'll just wait and see! Expect to read all about it here!!

I guess that's as good an introduction as any... I'm super excited to start trying to conceive! My baby fever is SO bad and I'm hoping the next two months fly by and that I am one of the lucky ones that is able to conceive quickly (fingers crossed). I'm ready to be pregnant. I'm ready to be a mom. I'm so insanely happy now that I don't even know how to explain it. I'm sure most of you know what I'm talking about... Thanks for popping in!

Oh, and for a little context here is a goofy picture of Jer and I...

Sorry, we rarely take a serious photo. lol.

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The mystery of the temperature plummet

On average my temperature is 97.something before I ovulate and 98.something afterwards. Obviously, there is some variation on occasion (usually if I drink), but for some reason today it was only 95.38! Isn't that insane?! I took my temp again 20 minutes later after I officially woke up and it was 96.74 - however, this was after I'd been walking around for a minute or so (so I don't count it). Bizarre.

For now I'm calling it a fluke. I didn't sleep any different, I was all covered up, etc. etc. etc. I figure I'll be back to normal tomorrow, and if not, well, then we'll cross that bridge when we come to it.

I had watery CM on Mon and Tues and then it just went away, leading me to believe I was going to ovulate... I dried up, but temps stayed the same... So? And now today I'm getting more watery CM and my sex drive is through the roof. I guess I was just having a practice ovulation before! lol. It's CD 19 right now, so it looks like I still have a late ovulation... It's only my second cycle off the pill, so no worries. And heck, I may always ovulate late and that's okay. I'm more worried about extending my luteal phase... I guess I'll worry about that more in a couple months if it doesn't lengthen out before we TTC.

I'm glad it's Friday. It's been a long week... I got suckered into going to see Saw V with co-workers tonight, despite the fact that a) I hate bloody movies and b) I've never seen any of the other four Saw movies, so I'm going to be totally lost. I want to weasel out of it, but they're being pushy. We're trying to save every last dime right now and I hate the thought of spending $7.50 on something that I don't even want to do! I have one more chance to try and get out of it... I'm so tired after a day full of work and all I want to do is go home and cuddle with DH and the puppies... I know, I'm a total butt.

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Stupid crappy pre-natal

Happy Monday y'all! :rolleyes: Two months and five days to go!

My temps went up a little over the weekend (to almost normal range), but I had a few drinks on Friday and Saturday nights so it could've been from that. Today I'm back down to 96.90 degrees F. I mean, seriously! What's going on here? Is it the weather change? My house isn't any cooler than it was and I'm staying bundled up under the covers at night... I'm also noticing that my hands have been super cold, even if the room is warm. I'm just going to wait it out and see... Maybe I just run cooler than I used to now that my body is adjusting to being off the pill. Maybe it's a fluke. Maybe I have a slight infection that I don't notice, but is having a slight effect on my body. It could be a million different things. Either way, I'm guessing I haven't ovulated yet, even though I had fertile CM, well, kind of. I had watery CM for a couple days, but never got any egg white... Also, n o temp rise and now I'm back to being dry or sticky... It's CD 22 today, btw. Last month I O'd on CD 20 or 21. Just going to wait and see! Month two off of the pill is certainly more confusing than month one was! lol.

Complaint of the day: The pre-natal vitamin I'm taking is from TwinLab and I just found some literature on it saying what a fabulous vitamin it is, except for the fact that is has over three times the recommended amount of Vitamin A for pregnancy! It has 8000 IU and the upper tolerable limit for pregnancy is 2800! Too much Vitamin A has been known to cause birth defects, so why on Earth would they put that much in it???!! Ugh! Guess I'll be switching brands. I'm going to finish up with I have first, though. I'm not even TTC yet, so I'm not worried about it at this time. It just really sucks, I REALLY like this brand otherwise! It's the brand I use for my regular multivitamin... They use high quality ingredients and the pill is in powder form in a capsule, so your body absorbs the vitamins and minerals better. Plus you take two a day instead of one so that you're spacing out how much you pump into your body at once, that way you don't just pee it all out. *sigh* I'm not sure if I'll switch to the prescription ones or the One-a-Day brand, since that brand comes with DHA and I'm planning on taking DHA anyway (I take fish oil at the moment, but will have to switch once we start TTC because of the mercury). I just can't believe this! How has no one brought it up to them? I think I'm going to go to their company web site and send them an e-mail. Gah.

Okay, rant over. At least I found out about it before we started TTC.

I think Jer is getting hit with baby fever lately, or he's at least being extremely tolerable of mine. lol. I wanted to look at baby stuff over the weekend while we were out shopping and he didn't stop me. I figured he'd go look at electronics (we were just at Wal-mart, we don't have many other places to shop), but he came with me! I said I was looking for clearance essential items like onsies and the like because I figure if I can find some basic stuff really really cheap, it'd be in our best interest to get it when the gettins good. lol. Of course, NOTHING was on clearance, but that's okay. I just said I was going to look every so often in case I happened to find anything, and he was okay with it! A few months ago this would've been completely out of the question. Yay! Now........ If I were to try and buy anything full price, well, that's another story! Wink

One a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 8 today!

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Goals

I just wanted to jot down a few goals I plan on completing before January and then some goals to complete from January until our little one is conceived... I'm a to-do list kinda gal and having something to work towards is a great way to keep myself occupied. Smile hee hee... Anyhoo, here we go!

Goals to complete by January 1, 2009:

1) Have at least $7,000 in an Emergency Savings Account (this does not include savings for all the new pipes we just installed in our house, insurance payments, Christmas savings, or vacation savings). We currently have about $5000 set aside just for emergencies, so we have $2,000 more to save in just over two months. I think it's doable, but it'll be tight.

2) Get down to around 140 lbs. I am 5'8" with a large bone frame and currently weigh 149 lbs, so this is totally doable. In fact, I was about 143 a few months ago, but slipped a little bit. Oops! lol.

3) Transition from my current exercise routine to a pregnancy-friendly exercise routine. I used to jog a lot, which my physician doesn't want me doing during pregnancy... So I purchased an elliptical machine and have been using that (which she approved). I use it for 60 minutes 4-5 nights a week, though some days I will use it for a shorter amount of time and then do some pilates or kickboxing or something. I have several pregnancy workout dvd's on my Amazon.com wish list and will be purchasing those once I get a BFP!

4) If Jer gets his new job and we end up staying where we are... Home improvement/nesting!!! Rip out all of the carpets and replace with hardwood flooring (the carpet is in REALLY bad shape). Repaint the spare bedroom (aka: the nursery). Move the office down into the basement and turn the office into the spare bedroom/sewing room. Replace several old sinks, toilets, and faucets that were here when the house was built and are in dire need of replacement... I'm sure there are other home improvement projects to be tackled as well, but those are the biggies. (we'll know about the job sometime soon, I hope, so these "goals" will be started by January 1, but not necessarily completed).

5) Enjoy my last glasses of wine and actually splurge on a bottle of expensive vodka (Ketel One) in November/December so I can indulge in a couple high quality martini's. lol!

Goals to complete after January 1, 2009:

1) Have at least $14,000 in an Emergency Savings Account by January 1, 2010. This means putting aside $500 a month (we currently put in $1,000 a month, but it's REALLY hard to live comfortably while putting so much money aside into savings, which is something we know we won't be able to keep up for too much longer).

2) Start a Baby Fund! Set aside at least $100 a month (and more, whenever possible) for essential baby items, like furniture, clothing, etc. so we aren't hit with all the costs at once once the baby is one the way!

3) Pray for good charts! lol.

4) Enjoy the baby makin' process and help Jer enjoy it as well (he's a stresser-outer, so I know I'm going to need to be good about not demanding sex because "we have to!!" and doing/saying other things that will make him freak out).

I'm sure I have other goals, but these are the ones on my mind right now. I may add more later, or maybe not....... I'm sure I'll have a whole new list of goals once baby is on the way too! Best not get ahead of myself though... lol.

On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at a 7 today!

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I just HAD to post this!

I was complaining to Jer that I keep forgetting to do my kegel exercises, and the next thing I know he's sending me this picture:

:eek: lol! Oh how I miss Futurama!

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Low temps still strong and steady!

CD 24 and I'm still in the low-temp zone. Gar. So must not have ovulated yet and who knows when I will! I've heard from other women that went off the bcp that their second cycle was by far the craziest, so I'm just going to have to deal and work through it... Of course I had a friend insist I was pregnant this morning, so that isn't helping! lol. She knows nothing about FAM or that your temp actually needs to RISE in order for you to be pregnant, but still... I now have that bug in my ear. That little bit of self doubt... "Am I?," "Could I be??" That kind of stuff. I know I'm not. I mean, I obviously haven't ovulated yet this cycle and whenever Jer and I DTD it's always with a condom, so there's no way. But I'll still sit here and wonder anyway because I'm a total freak like that. lol.

I came into this cycle with a clear head. I knew it had a good chance of being messed up and I told myself I wouldn't worry about it. So what do I do? Worry about it! ha ha ha... It doesn't help that my temps have been really low, like 96-ish, and that's just weird. It started getting cold outside, so I'm just chalking it up to that. Gah. Worry, worry, worry...

As long as this is all worked out by January! I gotta think BIG PICTURE here! I have just over two months for my body to cooperate and I'm sure it will. It just needs a month to be like "WTH?!" I can deal.

Phew. Okay. I feel better getting that off my chest..........

No cervical fluid yet today, no signs of ovulation - though I am a little crampy, tired and bloated. Here's hoping O comes soon so I can stop being such a freak! lol.

On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at a 6 today! (I'm tired and too busy to think about it)

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Happy Halloween!

Jer and I handed out candy to trick-or-treaters last night and oh how adorable they were! That really helped the ol' baby fever! :rolleyes: Our friends Kevin and Caryn brought they're adorable little baby boy, Greg, over as well in his little Yoda costume. He was so freakin' cute! He's just over 10 months old now and I've gotta say, he contributes more to my baby fever than anything else! We see him almost every week and it's been amazing being able to watch him grow up. He's like my little training baby. ROFL

Last night Jer and I were discussing baby names. Things actually got a little heated, not in a bad way, just more-so than I ever expected from Jer. I told him I get final say on the name. I'm not saying I get the only say, just final say. Meaning we'll make a list of names together and all that and whittle them down together, BUT if it comes down to two names with him preferring one and me preferring the other, I get the final say. I told him he'd better just accept that. I'm the one delivering this baby, so unless he wants to push it out of HIS vagina, he can deal. lol. I don't think we'll have any issues, though. We're pretty good about discussing these things and coming to conclusions together. However, he REALLY pushed me to name our second dog Zuul and it has just never seemed right to me. There's no way I'm going to let him do that to me with a child. I know it's different with children and dogs, obviously, but Jer has a tendency to get his way most of the time and this is one of those situations where I'm just not going to allow that to happen.

I really think Jer is starting to catch baby fever. There are more little comments here and there and last night he cracked me up... We were lying in bed about to fall asleep and I was rambling on about having to lose these last 10 lbs. before we start TTC... And DH says "from where?" and I grab a handful of belly fat and say "from there, and..." then I grab a handful of fat on my butt and continue "... there." DH looks at me all serious and says "but baby needs that." He was being sarcastic, but it still made me laugh and was totally cute. lol.

Anyhoo... Today is CD 26 and still no signs of ovulation. Still not sure if I already did when I had watery CM or if I just haven't... My temps are at least up in the upper 97's right now, so maybe? I've been dry, though, so I'm just not sure what my body is doing right now. I guess I won't know until I get my period and can look back over the month and figure out what the heck was going on. hee hee. Oh well...

On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at a 10 today! I REALLY want a baby!!!!!!!! NOW NOW NOW!

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Gah!

CD 29... Still nothing. lol. I am suffering from some major cramps today, so either 1) I am ovulating, or 2) I already did ovulate earlier in the month and AF is on her way, or 3) Who the hell knows! lol. My temps have been pretty steady all month, so if I did ovulate I just didn't have a real temp spike to speak of. Is that even possible? Or maybe I just didn't ovulate and I'm going to get AF anyway. Is that possible? Gosh I don't know! I did have a high temp on Sunday morning, but I drank quite a bit on Saturday night and I believe it's from that. Temp was back down today so it must've been. For those who haven't read my earlier posts, I'm not TTC right now so don't worry about the drinking. I don't need anyone being like "WTH!?" thinking that I'm TTC and drinking, which obviously isn't a very good idea... Anyhoo, guess it's just back to the waiting game!

Short post today, but I really don't have anything else to discuss.

On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at a 5 today - my cramps are bad and I'm in a bad mood, so I'm not really thinking about babies at the moment. lol.

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Strange........

I'm experiencing some strange symptoms today, ones I've never experienced, and I'm not sure if they're related to my inner girly parts (ovaries, uterus, etc.) or another part of my body... Just wanted to put them down for future reference in case they are.

Two days ago (Monday, Nov. 3):
-I started getting "major cramps," nothing horrendous. I figured I was about to ovulate/in the midst of ovulating/or AF was on her way. See previous post for more details.

Yesterday (Tuesday, Nov. 4):
-Cramps got worse. I had to urinate more often, not because I had the urge to go, but because my bladder was pushing up against something and if my bladder got too full it'd make my cramps worse.

-Started having more labored breathing. Not difficulty breathing, it just felt like I wasn't able to get enough oxygen - if that makes sense...

-Started feeling a little dizzy when I stood up.

Today (Wednesday, Nov. 5):
-Cramps got progressively worse, but are now centralized to my right lower quadrant. After my lunch break (when I walked the dog, ate, and went to the bathroom) these sharp, shooting pains would come with every step I took. It does not hurt if I physically press on the right lower quadrant of my abdomen (where it feels like the pain is coming from). I started to think "appendicitis?" but if that were the case it'd hurt if I pressed there and I would most likely have a fever, which I don't (97.43 F this morning).

-Dizziness is worse. Every time I stand up I see a few black spots and have to take my time. I'm not horribly dizzy... I'm not going to fall over or pass out or anything like that.

-Still experiencing breathing issues. I just don't feel like I'm getting enough oxygen, so I've been taking more deep breaths.

-Stomach making strange noises. These aren't growls, nor are they digesting noises... I have never heard this kind of noise come from my stomach before.

-I'm a little nauseous. Not about-to-throw-up nauseous, just mildly so.

So there you have it. I have no clue what is going on. This could all be related to my whacked out cycle... Maybe I have an inflamed follicle or a cyst or something along those lines.................... I know that this pain is either coming from my ovaries/uterus/fallopian tubes/etc. OR it's coming from my appendix. If it is my appendix I'll certainly know for sure before too long, otherwise whatever it is is just going to have to work itself out. And yes, I've gone to the bathroom recently so it's not that. Wink

I work with a bunch of doctors and nurses so I'm not too worried. I already talked briefly with one nurse just to make sure this wasn't anything to be immediately worried about. She said just to keep an eye on it and if it keeps getting worse then I'll want to go see my doctor. Odds are whatever it is will work itself out, but I just wanted to post down my symptoms for future reference. Smile

In other-ish news... Today is CD 31. Fertility Friend says I ovulated a few days ago, but I'm not so sure... Maybe. I guess we'll see in the coming week(s) if I did or not. My CM was crazy yesterday, it was different every time I went to the bathroom. It went from creamy to watery to sticky to creamy again. NO clue what to make of that! lol. Could be related to my other symptoms, who knows.

On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at a 3 today - not because I don't want a baby, but because I don't feel so hot and would rather not think about it at the moment. lol.

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Answers

Well, it turns out all my symptoms ARE related to my inner girly parts! The pain finally got bad enough that I went to see my doctor yesterday (and this is huge because I usually just wait things out). First off, she ran a pregnancy test. I knew it'd be negative, but since I was on CD 32 she figured I was experiencing a tubal pregnancy. The test came back negative, so that wasn't it... She did another pap and some other tests and concluded that it was either my appendix (NO!!) or a cyst/follicle on my ovaries. After this I had to go to the hospital to get a couple CT scans and blood work to determine which of these it was. Well, it wasn't my appendix, THANK GOD, so I was left to assume it was a cyst or a follicle issue. After looking at my chart today it appears as though I most likely ovulated on Sunday or Monday, which is exactly when the pain started, so this leads me to believe I have an inflamed or infected follicle and not a cyst. Either way, I just need to wait it out and deal with the pain. I have a high tolerance for pain so I'm okay. Just taking some Tylenol and working through it. Only now instead of just having a sharp pain in my side I also have several ouchies on my arms from where they stuck me with needles, including one blown vein (thanks to the freakin' nurse who couldn't stop talking to her co-worker long enough to focus on putting the needle in my vein). And I also had to have an enema for the CT scan for my appendix since they need to fill your bowels up with water so they'll show up correctly on the scan. That really REALLY sucked! I'm so not wanting to have one of those done EVER again! *shudder* So now I actually feel worse than I did before I went to the doctor and all I was told was to wait it out. Gah! I would've just waited it out in the first place, but since there was a possibility of it being my appendix I just didn't really want to risk it... Oh well.

Well, I suppose that my body just isn't used to ovulating. This is only the second time I've ovulated in what, like 10 years? lol. I guess my body needs a couple run throughs to get it right! :rolleyes:

Today is CD 33. Fertility Friend estimates that AF should show on Monday... We'll see if it's right!

On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at a 5 today.

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Update

I never did get any confirmation from my doctors office one way or the other. I'm left to assume that it is simply a cyst or inflamed follicle. It already feels a hundred times better (though still a little bit sore), so I'm sure that's what it was. If it was something else it would still hurt a lot more...

Fertility Fried readjusted my O date and estimated date for AF to arrive, which I think is probably correct. I had one fluke high temp last week and then they went back down a few days before going back up consistently, so it makes sense. I'm on CD 36 right now and am 6 DPO, meaning I *should* expect AF on Friday. Unless, of course, my luteal phase is short again.

I just finished five free days of the VIP Membership at Fertility Friend, and I gotta say, it's awesome. Part of me wants to go ahead and pay for it, I mean, it's only $45 per year... I dunno... It's still $45. While it's fun, it's not necessary. The free membership still gives me everything I need, just without all the bells and whistles. I'll make my final decision in January when we officially start TTC.

On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at a 7 today.

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To spot or not to spot...

That is the question? Wait, what?

I started spotting on Monday night, which continued through Tuesday morning... Then it stopped. Today it started up again for a little while, but then stopped again. :rolleyes: Of course, now I'm mega crampy so I'm expecting AF to get going at any time now. I guess it looks like another short luteal phase for Lauren!! Still, usually I spot a little for a day and then AF starts the next day, so we can add my erratic spotting schedule to the ever growing list of things that are messed up with this cycle! lol.

I'm going to order some cheapie OPK's and preggy tests online soon. I asked around a little and I think I'll get them from here. I'm just not sure which package to buy. I *think* I'm going to go ahead and buy this package. It's the largest, but you save a LOT of money buying this many. It's only 50 OPK's and 15 preggy tests, so it's not so many that I wouldn't use everything. I'm fairly certain I will, especially considering that I am planning on practicing with the OPK's during my next cycle, even though we'll still be preventing. I figure everything will get used unless we happen to be one of those lucky couples that conceives their first try. Yeah, I doubt that'll happen. But if it happens to, at least everything is individually wrapped and I can just sell it on here or another pregnancy site really cheap. I'm sure someone would jump on that! If not, well, then I'll just save 'em for the next go! lol.

On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 8 today. I've definitely got baby on the brain!! And for some reason I keep looking up recipes for baby food. hee hee hee. Yeah, I plan on making it. Hey! I love to cook so it's not that far of a stretch for me!!

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Finally!

Well, AF finally showed last Friday. It was about time!! My cycle ended up being 39 days long total - I ovulated on day 31, which game me an 8 day Luteal Phase. Crap. I have one more cycle left before we TTC and I'm really hoping that improves! Eight days just ain't gonna cut it! I knew I should've gone off the pill sooner! I should've allowed six or more months for my body to adjust...

Gah. No use crying about it now though. I'm just going to have to pray that come January everything is in order...

Anyway, back to AF... Last month was CRAZY long and heavy and just downright miserable. This month, however, I had one day of heavy flow starting Friday night and ending late morning on Saturday and then it slowed down to a light flow and turned into spotting sometime on Sunday. Weird. Well, not weird - just different. I'm not really doing anything today, maybe a tiny bit of spotting, but basically nothing. That means I had about a 3 day period. huh. Whatever.

I really need to go order those OPK's and preggy tests! I meant to do that last week, but never got around to it. I may not even get them in time to "practice" this month now. Damn me and my procrastination! lol. Oh well...

On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 7 today.

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OPK and away!

Well, I finally ordered my OPK's last week and they were delivered yesterday!!! This morning at work I managed to get my hands on a couple of clean specimen cups from the lab (I work at a health center), so now I'm all set. I decided to test over my lunch break, not because I thought I was even close to ovulating (CD 12 right now), but because I'm weird and really wanted to try it. :rolleyes: I have issues. Plus I was kind of holding out hope that this months cycle was going to be magically perfect, in which case CD 12 wouldn't be that far of a stretch. *sigh* Somehow I don't think I'll be so lucky... I don't even care if I end up with another 39 day cycle! I just want a longer luteal phase!! :help1: I don't want to waste a bunch of OPK's, especially since this month is just practice with the testing and all, but at the same time I don't want to miss my surge. I'm not sure if I should just keep testing once a day until I finally ovulate or what. I got 50 OPK's, so I have quite a few... But even 50 isn't that many if I use 10 or more every month. *sigh* I may at least hold off using the OPK's until my CM starts to look more promising. I had a sticky day yesterday, so at least I'm out of the dry phase for the month. I think if I'm at least creamy I'll definitely test.

Jer and I leave for Northern Illinois tomorrow for Thanksgiving break... I'm a little anxious about bringing the specimen cup and test strips and stuff with. I doubt I'll be found out, but I'm going to have to be sneaky about cleaning my cup. I think I'll mix up a bleach/water solution at home to bring with us so I can just bring it into the bathroom with me and clean the cup in there. The last thing I need is someone catching me with a specimen cup! Can you imagine?! Though it would make for a funny story later on... At least my thermometer can be easily stashed away and doesn't require more than a quick dab of rubbing alcohol to clean it.

I've been thinking......... What if I end up being fertile at the very end of December? If my cycles stay in line it looks as though this is a very real possibility. What do I do? Do I hold off until my first fertile days in January, even if it means waiting til the very end of the month? Or do I beg DH to do the BD at the end of December? I'm not talking December 20th or anything - I'm talking like December 30/31 here. To where I'm literally hours away from January. I don't know what I'd do! Hell, I'm not even sure what I'm going to do when my next fertile days hit THIS cycle! lol! If I'm having one of my crazy baby fever days (like today) then I think I'll end up going insane! However, I find that I'm actually in a bit of a bad mood around ovulation time so I don't tend to have the baby fever as bad. Is that weird? Eh... Maybe I'm in a bad mood because I know I'm ovulating and I'm not allowed to make a baby yet. Dirol Still, just something that's been on my mind. However, my cycles haven't exactly been cooperative here, so I'm probably wasting my time even thinking about it. Gah.

I gotta admit... I'm getting nervous about TTC! Like really nervous. I keep having these weird dreams that we're not timing it right and I have all of these unfounded fears running through my brain. When we first set our TTC it was all cut-and-dry. I wasn't worried, it seemed so easy. Now that I'm off the pill everything is just so wacky with my body and I can't help but be nervous that it isn't going to do what I want it to do. I know I probably sound so stupid to a lot of people reading this right now, just because I haven't even started TTC yet. I have no idea what to expect. I don't know if we'll get pregnant right away or if it'll take us a year. I think it's that whole fear of the unknown aspect, kwim? I just can't believe it's almost already January! I thought it was going to take FOREVER to get here, and yet here I am! One month and one week away. It feels so surreal! We're actually taking this step! I mean, we've been married 4 1/2 years now! More often than not people try to have children sooner than that. I am glad we waited, though. Sure, we've been together for over 10 years now, but we had a lot to learn about each other after we got married. I think having children right away would have been bad for us. It finally feels like we hit our stride with US and now's the time to start our family. I'm just so excited! Totally nervous and about ready to pee my pants, but excited.

On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 9.5 today (I'm allowed to go in increments of 0.5 because I say so). Holy crap I want a baby! lol. An online friend was talking about her two boys fighting and it actually made my baby fever WORSE! What's with that?! Shouldn't it be a deterrent?

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ONE MONTH!!!

OMG I have exactly ONE MONTH until we start TTC! YIPPIE! Of course it could come a little bit sooner or a little bit later, all depending on what my cycle is up to, but on paper we have a month. I can't believe how fast time has been flying! January will be here before I know it! I'm just so excited. I'm pretty sure Jer is too. I like to give him little reminders every so often and he always gets a little smile on his face. Smile

In fact, I can guarantee you that if I asked him to try this month he'd say yes. I don't think I want to, but it's nice knowing that I could. Last night when we dtd he responded to me asking him to get a condom by shrugging his shoulders and saying "if you want." I think he thinks that I want to try now because of how I'm always talking baby, but really I would rather wait til January (or at least the very end of December). There are a few things left for me to do before I go and get myself knocked up - like have that fancy martini, go sledding, and so on... I know that most likely December will not be my last opportunity to do those things since I probably won't get pregnant right away, but just in case... Plus, the holidays are so stressful with all of our traveling and having to stay with family that I just don't want to deal with that while TTC.

Anyway, I've been "practicing" with OPK's for the last few days. Both negative. I'm on CD 18 and don't have any fertile CM, so I didn't think they'd be positive - but you're supposed to start checking this early so I am. I'm pretty sure I'm on route to have another long cycle. I'm not sure whether or not it'll be as long or longer than last months. I guess we'll just have to wait and see. I don't really care how long it is, I just want my luteal phase to lengthen itself! If that means having a 40+ day cycle, so be it. I just want at least 10 days for my luteal phase!

On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 8 today.

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Maybe...

I think I'm getting ready to ovulate, or at least I hope I am. I had a bit of a psych out with ovulating last month when all signs pointed to it, but then I didn't... Hopefully that isn't the case this month. Anyway, yesterday I had watery CM and some mild cramps, then I used an OPK and there was a very faint line after about 9 minutes (you're supposed to wait up to 10 minutes for results). I know that's still a negative for O being 24-48 hrs away, but a faint line still shows that I'm gearing up to do something somewhat soon, doesn't it? Today I have more watery CM, I'm still crampy and hopefully the OPK will show me more color. This is exciting since it's CD 21, which is way earlier than I ovulated last month! Here's hoping that it's coming up soon and my cycles are starting to work themselves out. C'mon EWCM! You know you want to make an appearance! Wink

I bought my bottle of Ketel One the other night. I haven't opened it since it was the middle of the week, but I'm thinking I might pop it open tonight and enjoy a nice martini. Jer didn't even argue me buying it... He's normally pretty cheap, so spending $22 on a bottle of booze isn't exactly something he's happy about me doing - but I think he gets it. He knows it's my favorite and that my days are numbered. lol.

Jer's started asking a lot of little questions about pregnancy lately. It's so cute. I think once we got into December it finally hit him that we're really dang close to TTC! He never used to really bring it up, but now he has at least something to say every day. Small stuff, like last night he was getting our coffee maker set up for the next day and he poked his head out of the kitchen and said "can you have coffee when you're pregnant?" I just smiled because I've already had this conversation with him, but I honestly think that before this month it was all in one ear and out the other. hahaha. So I went into it all again.........

Well, that's where I'm at for now! Keeping my fingers crossed for O and a longer luteal phase!!

On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 8 today.

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Not again!

OMG OMG OMG OMG it huuuuuuurts!!! Well, without a doubt I am ovulating. It's just like last month when I thought my appendix were about to burst, only this month it's on the left side since I must be ovulating out of the left. I cannot believe how painful this is!! I have a high tolerance for pain, so when I say IT HURTS, it really hurts. I've been crampy for a few days, nothing to write home about, but I've started getting those sharp, shooting pains again. What's with me? I know you're supposed to get ovulation pains and all, but this is like someone jabbing hot needles into my uterus or something... Alright, gonna take some Tylenol and work through it. *deep breaths*

I got my first positive OPK test yesterday. It was very exciting. I took a picture, however, my digital camera just died so I was forced to take it with a film camera. I'll post it later if it turns out. I don't plan on taking pictures of these every time, I was just excited since it was my first positive test. hahaha.

Well, I suppose that's it for now. I'll update on the ovulation pains in the next few days. Hopefully they won't be as bad as last month...

On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 7 today. I was more like a 9 until the ovulation pains got intense...

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I have crosshairs!

Fertility Friend gave me crosshairs today! Woo! I'm 3 DPO and am on CD 29. That means I ovulated on CD 26, a full FIVE days earlier than last month! Hey, progress is progress! Now I'm hoping that my luteal phase holds out for more than eight days this month... That's the only place I can see myself having an issue conceiving. I'm not worried about it as of yet, but I'm at least aware that it could potentially be something I need to worry about.

I had a ton of fertile CM this month! Up until now I only had a few days worth, but this cycle I had SEVEN days worth. Mostly watery, but I had two eggwhite days! I'm totally stoked about this. I think part of it is user error, though. I think it hasn't been until this cycle that I truly grasped how to check my CM properly... I also think I'm starting to "get" my cervix. I don't note the changes on Fertility Friend, but I have been paying attention.

Back to my ovulation pains... I wrote my last post when it was painful. Luckily, it was only painful for about half a day. I was SO happy about that! I was afraid I was having a repeat of last months ovulation fiasco and I didn't want to spend the better part of a week in pain.

It was so hard not to DTD unprotected when I knew I was fertile. I'm still a little sad about it... Weird. Not much longer though! In less than a month we'll be giving it our first shot and I am so completely and utterly stoked about it! I am SO SO SO ready for this! C'mon January! Who needs Christmas anyway? lol.

On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 10 today. Heck, it may even be an 11!

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Merry Christmas (early)

I won't be able to post next week since I'll be at my parents and at the in-laws. So......... Merry Christmas!!

My parents don't have Internet, and while my in-laws do, there's no way I'll be visiting this site while I'm there. I clear all the Internet data after I've used their computer (if I go to any sites I would rather they not know about, like Fertility Friend), but on the off chance that I bone up I really don't want them finding this place! It would be horrifying to know that they could be reading this! It's a total TMI zone! lol.

Anyway, I'm on CD 35 and am 9 DPO. Woo hoo! My Luteal Phase is already a day longer than last month! No signs whatsoever of AF coming to visit, so it appears as though I may have a normal Luteal Phase this month! However, I also want this cycle to hurry up already so I can get started on my next cycle, as-in the cycle I get to TTC in! IF I were to start AF today and my cycle was the same as this current cycle (26 days to ovulate), then I would ovulate on January 13, meaning I could be fertile as early as January 8. That's pretty exciting! However, I doubt AF will start today so I probably have a few more days. Basically, I *should* be fertile around mid-January, unless, of course, my cycle shortens itself some more (which would be nice), in which case it could be earlier.

I made the mistake of setting up a season pass to A Baby Story on my Tivo. It has its nice moments and all, but often times I just end up mad at the doctors and/or nurses for using epidurals and picotin and C-sections and all sorts of other stuff (forceps anyone?) without even consulting the parents, or at least fully explaining the pros and cons. Now this may happen off camera or maybe they discussed it earlier, but sometimes it just doesn't seem like it. It's like they just say "this is how it's gonna be..." and do it like it's routine. Okay, I guess it is routine these days - but that bothers me... I don't really know why. I think because I'm so completely involved in my health care and never simply let a doctor tell me what to do w/o researching it for myself first. My doctor actually loves me for this, she loves that I'm involved and don't just want the easy way out if something is wrong with me (prescriptions and what-not). I'd rather live a healthier life style... I know most people aren't like this and that's totally fine. I'm Type A and fully aware of it. I'm not saying I won't go the epidural route either. It could happen. I'd prefer it didn't, but if I'm in so much pain that I just can't take it, then yes, I'll probably ask for one. However, I have a high tolerance for pain and I'm planning on learning some breathing techniques and stuff so that I can avoid the epidural if at all possible. I just don't like the side effects... Plus I hate lying on my back for long periods of time and I know I would go crazy if I couldn't walk around during labor! Sorry, I got side tracked... Back to the show... Well, I guess that's my only issue with the show. I haven't seen that many episodes yet, so I can't give my full evaluation. I do know that I have yet to see a natural birth and I really want to see that!! I want someone in there like me that's totally anal and has a plan in place. Someone that would react like I would. Here's hoping that an episode like that exists! Wink

Jer has been talking baby quite a bit more these days. Last weekend we were in Wisconsin for my family get-together and as we were driving he just went "huh... So by this time next year we *could* have a 3 month old!" He had a little bit of that wide-eyed look of shock going on. lol. I think it hit him at that moment. hahaha. We talked quite a bit more throughout the drive about what we'll do for Christmas next year if I'm pregnant or if we already have a baby and then got to talking about other random stuff. It was nice. Biggrin

Well, I guess that's that. Once again, Merry Christmas!

On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 9 today.

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Merry Christmas... again.

Okay, well, I caved and decided to log in while I'm at the in-laws. I'm just being very cautious about deleting my history and what-not. Hopefully there isn't something else that I'm missing. If so, well, oh well...

Anyhoo, just a quick update! I'm on CD 3 now, meaning AF came and is already winding down... I had a 12 DAY LUTEAL PHASE this month! I'm so flippin' excited about that! That's "normal!" YIPPIE! If I don't O until CD 26 again, like I did last month, then I should O on or around Jan 16, which means I could be fertile around Jan 11! Since my cycles have been getting shorter and shorter I'm hoping that I'll actually O earlier. Impatient much? hahaha...

I can't believe this is it. This is my first cycle TTC! (and hopefully my last, lol).

That said, I'm SO glad we decided to wait until January... I knew December would be a bad month for TTC and boy, was I right. We're staying with our parents this whole week and it's been crazy. We're both stressed out and both snapping left and right. I think our baby fever dropped to a 1 or 2 easily! We go home on Saturday and I'm sure I'll be back up to a 9 or 10 in no time! hahaha.

Well, I suppose that's it for now. Once again, Merry Christmas!

On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 2 today. Freakin' holidays. :rolleyes:

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It's official!

Well guys, it's January 1, 2009. It's a new year and it's finally official! Jeremy and I are now trying to conceive!

Okay, okay... So technically we have been for 11 days since my cycle started 11 days ago, but I'm not even fertile yet so... Yeah, whatever. My point is, we set our officiall TTC date as January 1, 2009 and that's today, so I'm giddy. Yay!

More exciting yet is that I think my body is getting ready to O already! It's only CD 11!!!! I didn't even O until CD 26 last month! I used an OPK for the last three days and I got a faint line yesterday and today, with todays being a little bit darker. I know that isn't a "positive" for ovulation being in the next 24-48 hours since it wasn't as dark as the control line, but it at least shows that my body is gearing up to do something. I'm hoping that I'll get a positive OPK tomorrow or Saturday. I'll also be checking my temperature and CM. However, I'm sick with a really nasty cold at the moment and I took Nyquil last night and will probably take it again tonight, so I am discarding those temps. I just don't trust them with that junk in my system. Therefore, I'm going to be depending more-so on my CM and my OPK results than my temps. At least for a few days...

Jer and I are covering our bases and have been getting in some BDing every other day for a almost a week now, just in case I were to O early. Once I get any signs of O coming up we'll be stepping it up a notch. There is one problem, however... We have Jer's family Christmas party this Saturday (I know it's after Christmas, lol, it's just how they do things). Anyway, there's a good possibility that could be a fertile day, which I wouldn't want to miss, but then that will require us to BD at my in laws house! There's no lock on the door and the walls aren't exactly sound proof. Oh well, we'll just have to get over it. hahaha.

Here's to a baby in 2009! Happy New Year!!

On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 10 today. Oh baby!

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Still waiting to O

I was so optimistic that I was going to O earlier than last cycle, and yet here I am on CD 23 and I still haven't O-ed. I know I'm close, though. My CM is definitely watery, so we're making progress. The only thing that I don't get are my OPK results. The last time I posted (on CD 11) I had a faint line, which I know isn't a positive, but doesn't that at least indicate that things are starting?? I had several faint lines, and then a bunch of nothing for awhile..... And then I started getting faint lines again when my CM turned from creamy to watery, with each one getting a little bit darker. I wonder if my body was trying to gear up to O, but then just couldn't for one reason or another. I was sick, after all. Maybe that's all it took for my body to throw up its arms and be like "screw it!" Who knows. Either way, I'm not really concerned. I just have longer cycles and I have to accept that. My body is still functioning perfectly fine, it's just taking a little bit longer.

I'm not going to lie, this TTC business is exhausting! I've been making sure we BD every other day in order to cover our bases, so to speak. I'd hate to not stick to that and then O earlier than I thought and miss my window. Obviously that is no longer the case this cycle, but I've been keeping on it anyway. Since my CM has been watery for a few days (and more of a watery/EW mix today, but not quite EW) I think I'm going to switch to every day. *sigh* I'm tired! lol.

I can't wait to O so I can have a break! lol. Although then I'm still going to be all paranoid that I misinterpreted my chart and feel like we still have to BD every 2-3 days after I O "just in case." :rolleyes: What can I say, I'm thorough! hahaha. Something tells me DH doesn't mind, though. Wink

Here eggie eggie!!

On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 10 today. I'm so ready to be pregnant!!!

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My crazy @ss chart!

I *think* I ovulated today (or I'm in the midst of ovulating as I type this), but FF now thinks I ovulated 7 days ago! SEVEN! I had two low temps 8 and 9 days ago, which I think threw everything off... And then my watery CM started, but it wasn't real watery until a few days later, and then it turned to EWCM yesterday and today. A LOT today, actually. Biggrin And I've been cramping yesterday and today....... And my cervix was wide open today! Well, this morning/afternoon. Tonight it is closed (good thing we BD-ed over our lunch break today, heh). With those symptoms, *I* think I'm ovulating now and did not seven days ago. I'm not sure if FF will end up being right and I'm just an idiot or if I'm right and FF will adjust itself as my cycle continues (or if it won't and, well, I don't know what I'll do then).

Regardless of any of that, we've BD-ed AT LEAST every other day for weeks now, so we're covered... I'm hoping and praying for a BFP this cycle! I know it's my first cycle, but I'm still praying. This TTC business is ROUGH and I have a new found respect for anyone that's been doing it for more than one cycle. I'm in my first and I'm going crazy here! lol.

That's really it for now... I'm sure I'll update again soon!! Especially once I enter the dreaded 2WW (which, actually, I'm not really dreading at all - for as long as my cycle has been two weeks is nothing! hahaha).

On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 11 today. No, a 15. A 20?? It's BAD!

P.S. Here's a picture of Jeremy and I on New Years Eve. Biggrin

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Welcome to the 2WW!

Well, I'm finally in my first 2WW! I'm on CD 31 and 3DPO. Fertility Friend is saying I'm 4DPO, but I know I'm not. I had a positive OPK two days in a row. On day one it was the same color as the control line... On day two it was easily twice as dark! Plus I got definite O pains on that day as well. I get a really sharp pain on either my right or left side for a couple of hours when I O - it's different than usual cramps so I know it's an O pain and not just my imagination... I know that not everyone feels them, but I most certainly do. Either way, I've definitely ovulated and now I just get to wait to test!

Since my cycles are so freakin' long I've decided to take a control test in the next couple of days, knowing that it won't be positive... That way I'll have a negative test to show my doctor to prove to her that I'm not like 6 weeks pregnant (if I get pregnant). I know that eventually when they do an ultrasound that they'll know how far along I am, but I don't feel like getting into an argument with her about how far along I am, so I figure this would give her proof.

I really hope I'm pregnant! I'm trying not to think about it too much because I know there's a good chance I won't be, but it'd be wonderful if I were! I'm absolutely in awe that there *could* be a life starting to form inside of me right now. Again, trying not to think that way too much.. Wink I know I'll just end up driving myself crazy if I keep this up. hahaha.

I know everyone says to live your life as you regularly would while TTC, but I'm having a hard time doing that. I just can't. I don't want that glass of wine or cup of coffee anymore, just in case. I'm still having either a cup of tea or a Diet Coke, but the caffeine is pretty minimal so that's okay...

The only thing that worries me is that I just got hit with another nasty cold! It literally started the day after I ovulated. I work in a health center, so there are plenty of germs to go around! I hate that I'm always getting sick here! I eat SO healthy, I take my vitamins, I exercise 4-5 days a week for at least an hour, I drink 64-80 fl oz of water every day. I mean, c'mon! But I still always get sick! I know it's because of where I work, but I still feel like I should have a rockin' immune system at this point and I just don't seem to. Argh. I don't know if it'll have any effect on my chances of becoming pregnant or not... I don't think so, it's not like I have a fever or anything... And I'm not taking any cold medicine, just a little extra vitamin C with my prenatal multivitamin and DHA/EPA. Still, the timing couldn't have been worse. Oh well! At least all this sick business has my a little preoccupied and I'm not focusing on this 2WW that much.

On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 8 today. It'd be higher, but I'm sick and that's keeping my brain preoccupied.

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Ouchie!

I have REALLY sensitive (and now sore) nipples today. This is not a normal occurrence for me. In fact, I can't recall even one time I've experienced this. I'm hoping it's a good sign. Biggrin I don't think it's all in my head, either, because I was actually woken up out of a dead sleep this morning when I rolled over onto my stomach and all my weight was on my breasts. That was an interesting experience! lol. Wearing a bra has totally sucked today. This puppy is so getting ripped off the second I walk through the door after work today! hahaha.

I've also had some mild cramps/tenderness in my lower abdomen, but that could be any number of things so I'm not looking at that as a symptom at the moment. Just making note of it (just in case).

Already almost over my cold. A little bit of coughing still, but nothing major. I'm just really tired. At least I got over it quickly!

On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 10 today. Of course.

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Still waiting...

Today is CD 7 or 8, depending on who you go by (me or FF). Either way, just waiting... My nipples continued to get more and more sensitive and then sore as the day went on Thursday. I looked at them when I got home and they were puffy and perky-ish. They just never went in all day. It was really weird! lol. They were still a little bit sensitive yesterday, but not so much that I really noticed. I'm not noticing anything today, but it's not even 9 a.m. yet so it's early. My temp rose a lot today. I'm finally in the 98's! I have a lower temp than most people that chart, I think because I sleep with my mouth open a lot... My temp has been steadily climbing since I O'd, except on CD 6 when I had a dip. Biggrin Today I have the strangest cramp around my cervix/uterus. It's not like anything I've felt before, although I could just be saying that because I've never paid THIS MUCH attention to every little twinge before! hahaha... Anyway, I'm just praying it's a good cramp and not an AF-is-on-her-way type of cramp.

I will be testing for the first time on Tuesday, January 27. I know it's still early (10 DPO), but it's DH's birthday and I'm hoping if I am pregnant that I'll get a BFP. I know it's a long shot so early on, though. If it's a BFN then I'll retest on Friday (13 DPO). I will not be telling DH that I'm testing... I know he wants me to because it's his birthday, but if I test and get a BFN I'll simply insist that it's just too early and there's no way I'll get a positive result... If I DO happen to get a BFP then I'll have to come up with some sort of creative way to tell him. Smile

On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 10 today. Let's just assume that it's always going to be a 10 these days. lol.

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Yes, I'm posting again!

I just can't help it! lol. I was going to wait until tomorrow morning to post again, after I'd taken my first test, but I want to make sure I get all of my "symptoms" down in writing for future reference, so I decided to pop in now!

I'm having a weird day. I'm just feeling weird, not like myself. I don't mean that in a bad way, either. I hope it's a good sign. Though I know it could go either way... Anyhoo, here's what I'm feeling:

- The cramps in my lower abdomen (uterine area) have changed since yesterday. They're not at all like AF cramps... I'm also feeling a bit of cramping around the follicle I ovulated from this month. Not sure what that means... Not O-type cramping, just a general awareness of that area (if that make sense).

- I've been experiencing a little dizziness when I stand up. This doesn't happen every time I stand up, in fact, it hasn't happened to me at all today. It happened a lot yesterday and some on Saturday. It's not crazy, pass-out dizziness either. Just a little...

- Nothing sounds appetizing! Yesterday I went to the fridge no less than five times before finally finding something for lunch that didn't make me want to gag. What did I eat? Homemade sausage gravy mixed with spinach leaves! Who eats that?! EVER! hahaha. While making dinner (curried shrimp in coconut milk) I thought I was going to throw up from the smell. I usually love the smell of this dish (I make it a lot), but I could hardly stand there.

- Since lunch today I've had heartburn. I have no idea what this is about. I NEVER get heartburn! The few times I have it was from drinking too much. Obviously this isn't the case... I didn't eat anything spicy or vinegary, my lunch was pretty neutral (a wrap with ham, cheese, a tiny bit of mayo and lettuce and a dill pickle spear). Hardly grounds for heartburn, especially for someone that doesn't get heartburn. And yes, I've had about 64 oz of water so far today, so it's not that either.

Pregnancy symptoms? I sure hope so!! Or I'm a total nut job and am subconsciously making my body do this to me! lol. I'll post first thing tomorrow morning with the results of my first home pregnancy test!

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Craaaaaaaaaaaap!

Okay, now I'm getting nervous. As expected, the pregnancy test was negative. That's not what's upsetting me. I figured it would be, it's just too early to test.

My problem is my stupid temperature. It took a nosedive this morning! It dipped below the coverline . However, I'm trying not to freak out too much. I woke up with my mouth open and all the covers knocked off of me. It was freezing cold in my bedroom and I was actually shivering when I woke up. I'm hoping that that's why my temperature was lower, but really, it shouldn't have dropped as much as it did, even if I were cold. Still, I'm going to try not think about it much and just wait for tomorrow. If I've learned anything the last few months, it's that my temps are crazy right now. I've had erratic temperatures for awhile now, since going off the ill, though they are starting to stabilize a bit. Therefore I can't put too much stock in them at this time. Still, that was one hell of a drop. *sigh*

I'm just going to wait it out until tomorrow. Hopefully my temps will go back up... If not, well, then DH will be stoked that we get another cycle of "trying." lol. :rolleyes:

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Please, please, please!

My temp skyrocketed today, higher than it's been yet this cycle. I'm hoping and praying that yesterdays low temp was either a fluke or (even better) an implantation dip. I've got all my crossables crossed right now!

I was also overcome with a wave of nausea this morning when I rolled over to turn off the alarm clock, it was the most bizarre experience. It passed rather quickly and then I was fine. I had another small wave of nausea about 30 minutes later when I opened the fridge. I was slapped in the face with this SMELL. I don't know what it was, but I didn't like it. I shut the fridge, walked away, and was fine. I'm really hoping these are good signs and not just proof that I'm going clinically insane. Only time will tell! lol.

I'm getting excited to test again on Friday. I hope 13 DPO is enough time...

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omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg

Well, what do y'all think!????????????????????

THAT'S RIGHT! I'M FREAKIN' PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woo HOO!

I am am shaking like crazy right now! You'd think I would've been prepared, but I totally wasn't. I was in total shock after I saw that faint second line and I almost felt indifferent, like "whatever." Within five minutes my stomach was in knots and I went to go tell Jer (he was in the shower). He asked me for some Tylenol when I walked in, so I left to get that, went back in and handed him the Tylenol... Then I said, "oh, and I have something else that might help your headache" and handed him the test. His response "What's that?" He thought it was an OPK! Lol He couldn't understand why I would've used one of those after ovulation. hahaha. So I'm like "seriously!?" and he goes "Is that a pregnancy test?" and I'm like "yeah," and he's like "a positive one?" and I'm like "YEAH!" and he goes "man that was easy!" Lol

Not much has really been said, we were both pretty quiet. This morning we've been IMing each other back and forth like "really?" "I still can't believe this!" and stuff like that. I just really can't believe it!

I'm going to call my doctor in a bit to set up a blood test. I also plan on taking a test for the next few mornings as well just to make sure they keep getting darker. Thank God for el cheapo internet pregnancy tests!

Holy crap I can't believe this!!!! I'm having a baby!

At least I know now that all my symptoms weren't just in my head. I was starting to worry that I was just crazy enough to make myself nauseous on demand. Lol

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