Ahoy hoy and welcome to my baby makin' adventure! Right now we're still hanging out in the waiting room, but come January 1, 2009 we officially set sail!! Until then, join me in my preparations for trying to conceive!
I suppose I'll get this party started by giving you way too much information about myself! I'm a rambler and I sometimes lack that little voice inside my head that tells me when I should stop talking (or, in this case, typing).
My name is Lauren and I'm 27 years old. I was born and raised in Northern Illinois (with a short stint in Texas) but I moved to Western Illinois in 1999 to attend college... Well, graduation came and went - but I did not. I'm still here!!! D'oh! DH ( Jeremy/28 ) also moved here in 1999 to attend college. We had been dating for one year at the time. Yeah, he followed me. lol. Currently, we both work for the University here and make a pretty decent living for ourselves. We own a townhouse, a crappy 1999 Toyota Corolla, and a bunch of other junk that I don't feel like listing. We are also the proud furparents to two dogs - a 5 year old bichon frise named Brodie and a 2 year old pekingese-mix named Zuul (yes, from Ghostbusters). They're a complete and total pain in my @ss, but I love them... Except when they pee on the carpet. A lot.
Anyhoo, Jer and I got married on July 31, 2004 and for whatever reason the topic of children never came up. We both knew we wanted kids "someday," but that was the extent of that. We've been going about our lives since then just enjoying each other, I suppose. About six months ago it got me. It got me REAL bad! Y'all know what I'm talking about....... Baby fever! I blame our friends. They adopted the most adorable little boy that just makes your heart melt. It was a few months after that that I'd had enough. I wanted to be a mommy! I didn't know how to talk to Jer about this, since communication is not something I excel at. Well, until I have a bottle of wine in me. lol! Yes, this is when I confronted my dear husband about having a baby - while drunk! But I got it out and that's the push I needed... The next night we talked about it more seriously (and not drunkenly) and it turns out we're both on the same page! We were just too scared (or something) to talk to each other about it... Being that my husband is one of those people that is easily stressed out and needs everything just perfect before any change can occur, we decided on January 2009 for our TTC date. This way we could save up more money (which would make him feel better) and I could go on a research rampage in order to feel like somehow I had control over this situation. I also wanted to go off of the pill (Yaz) and knew my body would need a few months to snap back into shape.
This all took place almost three months ago. After some research I discovered FAM and immediately went out and bought myself a BBT thermometer and set up an account at FertilityFriend.com. I was still on Yaz for my first month of charting, but I counted it as my practice month in order to train myself to take my temp every morning. I even got Jer on board with this by having him hand me my thermometer every morning... This way I don't move too much and mess up my temp. I'm actually surprised he went along with this, but I guess when I whine enough he'll do anything. Plus he's the only one with a nightstand, so I'd have to lean over him every morning to get my thermometer anyway! lol. I finished up that month of pills and decided not to refill my prescription. Jer seemed weird about this at first, but after I explained that it was going to take my body awhile to adjust and that we'd use condoms in the meantime he seemed okay. It's strange how he's okay with conceiving a baby in January, but the thought of conceiving one a month or two earlier is just too much for him to bear! ha ha ha. That's my DH. Oh, and he was really happy that we were going to save $40 from my pills. Again, that's my DH.
My first cycle off of the pill was surprisingly normal-ish. I ended up with a 30 day cycle, which was only a day longer than my cycle while on the pill. However, I didn't ovulate until day 21 and I only had a 9 day luteal phase! I know that was just because it was my first month off the pill and that it should even out in a few months (or I hope anyway). I'm currently midway through my second cycle off of the pill. It's been a bit wackier this time around, so I'm not sure what to expect when all is said and done... I guess we'll just wait and see! Expect to read all about it here!!
I guess that's as good an introduction as any... I'm super excited to start trying to conceive! My baby fever is SO bad and I'm hoping the next two months fly by and that I am one of the lucky ones that is able to conceive quickly (fingers crossed). I'm ready to be pregnant. I'm ready to be a mom. I'm so insanely happy now that I don't even know how to explain it. I'm sure most of you know what I'm talking about... Thanks for popping in!
Oh, and for a little context here is a goofy picture of Jer and I...
Sorry, we rarely take a serious photo. lol.
Last edited by freesiangel; 10-24-2008 at 04:32 PM.
On average my temperature is 97.something before I ovulate and 98.something afterwards. Obviously, there is some variation on occasion (usually if I drink), but for some reason today it was only 95.38! Isn't that insane?! I took my temp again 20 minutes later after I officially woke up and it was 96.74 - however, this was after I'd been walking around for a minute or so (so I don't count it). Bizarre.
For now I'm calling it a fluke. I didn't sleep any different, I was all covered up, etc. etc. etc. I figure I'll be back to normal tomorrow, and if not, well, then we'll cross that bridge when we come to it.
I had watery CM on Mon and Tues and then it just went away, leading me to believe I was going to ovulate... I dried up, but temps stayed the same... So? And now today I'm getting more watery CM and my sex drive is through the roof. I guess I was just having a practice ovulation before! lol. It's CD 19 right now, so it looks like I still have a late ovulation... It's only my second cycle off the pill, so no worries. And heck, I may always ovulate late and that's okay. I'm more worried about extending my luteal phase... I guess I'll worry about that more in a couple months if it doesn't lengthen out before we TTC.
I'm glad it's Friday. It's been a long week... I got suckered into going to see Saw V with co-workers tonight, despite the fact that a) I hate bloody movies and b) I've never seen any of the other four Saw movies, so I'm going to be totally lost. I want to weasel out of it, but they're being pushy. We're trying to save every last dime right now and I hate the thought of spending $7.50 on something that I don't even want to do! I have one more chance to try and get out of it... I'm so tired after a day full of work and all I want to do is go home and cuddle with DH and the puppies... I know, I'm a total butt.
Happy Monday y'all! Two months and five days to go!
My temps went up a little over the weekend (to almost normal range), but I had a few drinks on Friday and Saturday nights so it could've been from that. Today I'm back down to 96.90 degrees F. I mean, seriously! What's going on here? Is it the weather change? My house isn't any cooler than it was and I'm staying bundled up under the covers at night... I'm also noticing that my hands have been super cold, even if the room is warm. I'm just going to wait it out and see... Maybe I just run cooler than I used to now that my body is adjusting to being off the pill. Maybe it's a fluke. Maybe I have a slight infection that I don't notice, but is having a slight effect on my body. It could be a million different things. Either way, I'm guessing I haven't ovulated yet, even though I had fertile CM, well, kind of. I had watery CM for a couple days, but never got any egg white... Also, n o temp rise and now I'm back to being dry or sticky... It's CD 22 today, btw. Last month I O'd on CD 20 or 21. Just going to wait and see! Month two off of the pill is certainly more confusing than month one was! lol.
Complaint of the day: The pre-natal vitamin I'm taking is from TwinLab and I just found some literature on it saying what a fabulous vitamin it is, except for the fact that is has over three times the recommended amount of Vitamin A for pregnancy! It has 8000 IU and the upper tolerable limit for pregnancy is 2800! Too much Vitamin A has been known to cause birth defects, so why on Earth would they put that much in it???!! Ugh! Guess I'll be switching brands. I'm going to finish up with I have first, though. I'm not even TTC yet, so I'm not worried about it at this time. It just really sucks, I REALLY like this brand otherwise! It's the brand I use for my regular multivitamin... They use high quality ingredients and the pill is in powder form in a capsule, so your body absorbs the vitamins and minerals better. Plus you take two a day instead of one so that you're spacing out how much you pump into your body at once, that way you don't just pee it all out. *sigh* I'm not sure if I'll switch to the prescription ones or the One-a-Day brand, since that brand comes with DHA and I'm planning on taking DHA anyway (I take fish oil at the moment, but will have to switch once we start TTC because of the mercury). I just can't believe this! How has no one brought it up to them? I think I'm going to go to their company web site and send them an e-mail. Gah.
Okay, rant over. At least I found out about it before we started TTC.
I think Jer is getting hit with baby fever lately, or he's at least being extremely tolerable of mine. lol. I wanted to look at baby stuff over the weekend while we were out shopping and he didn't stop me. I figured he'd go look at electronics (we were just at Wal-mart, we don't have many other places to shop), but he came with me! I said I was looking for clearance essential items like onsies and the like because I figure if I can find some basic stuff really really cheap, it'd be in our best interest to get it when the gettins good. lol. Of course, NOTHING was on clearance, but that's okay. I just said I was going to look every so often in case I happened to find anything, and he was okay with it! A few months ago this would've been completely out of the question. Yay! Now........ If I were to try and buy anything full price, well, that's another story!
One a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 8 today!
I just wanted to jot down a few goals I plan on completing before January and then some goals to complete from January until our little one is conceived... I'm a to-do list kinda gal and having something to work towards is a great way to keep myself occupied. hee hee... Anyhoo, here we go!
Goals to complete by January 1, 2009:
1) Have at least $7,000 in an Emergency Savings Account (this does not include savings for all the new pipes we just installed in our house, insurance payments, Christmas savings, or vacation savings). We currently have about $5000 set aside just for emergencies, so we have $2,000 more to save in just over two months. I think it's doable, but it'll be tight.
2) Get down to around 140 lbs. I am 5'8" with a large bone frame and currently weigh 149 lbs, so this is totally doable. In fact, I was about 143 a few months ago, but slipped a little bit. Oops! lol.
3) Transition from my current exercise routine to a pregnancy-friendly exercise routine. I used to jog a lot, which my physician doesn't want me doing during pregnancy... So I purchased an elliptical machine and have been using that (which she approved). I use it for 60 minutes 4-5 nights a week, though some days I will use it for a shorter amount of time and then do some pilates or kickboxing or something. I have several pregnancy workout dvd's on my Amazon.com wish list and will be purchasing those once I get a BFP!
4) If Jer gets his new job and we end up staying where we are... Home improvement/nesting!!! Rip out all of the carpets and replace with hardwood flooring (the carpet is in REALLY bad shape). Repaint the spare bedroom (aka: the nursery). Move the office down into the basement and turn the office into the spare bedroom/sewing room. Replace several old sinks, toilets, and faucets that were here when the house was built and are in dire need of replacement... I'm sure there are other home improvement projects to be tackled as well, but those are the biggies. (we'll know about the job sometime soon, I hope, so these "goals" will be started by January 1, but not necessarily completed).
5) Enjoy my last glasses of wine and actually splurge on a bottle of expensive vodka (Ketel One) in November/December so I can indulge in a couple high quality martini's. lol!
Goals to complete after January 1, 2009:
1) Have at least $14,000 in an Emergency Savings Account by January 1, 2010. This means putting aside $500 a month (we currently put in $1,000 a month, but it's REALLY hard to live comfortably while putting so much money aside into savings, which is something we know we won't be able to keep up for too much longer).
2) Start a Baby Fund! Set aside at least $100 a month (and more, whenever possible) for essential baby items, like furniture, clothing, etc. so we aren't hit with all the costs at once once the baby is one the way!
3) Pray for good charts! lol.
4) Enjoy the baby makin' process and help Jer enjoy it as well (he's a stresser-outer, so I know I'm going to need to be good about not demanding sex because "we have to!!" and doing/saying other things that will make him freak out).
I'm sure I have other goals, but these are the ones on my mind right now. I may add more later, or maybe not....... I'm sure I'll have a whole new list of goals once baby is on the way too! Best not get ahead of myself though... lol.
On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at a 7 today!
CD 24 and I'm still in the low-temp zone. Gar. So must not have ovulated yet and who knows when I will! I've heard from other women that went off the bcp that their second cycle was by far the craziest, so I'm just going to have to deal and work through it... Of course I had a friend insist I was pregnant this morning, so that isn't helping! lol. She knows nothing about FAM or that your temp actually needs to RISE in order for you to be pregnant, but still... I now have that bug in my ear. That little bit of self doubt... "Am I?," "Could I be??" That kind of stuff. I know I'm not. I mean, I obviously haven't ovulated yet this cycle and whenever Jer and I DTD it's always with a condom, so there's no way. But I'll still sit here and wonder anyway because I'm a total freak like that. lol.
I came into this cycle with a clear head. I knew it had a good chance of being messed up and I told myself I wouldn't worry about it. So what do I do? Worry about it! ha ha ha... It doesn't help that my temps have been really low, like 96-ish, and that's just weird. It started getting cold outside, so I'm just chalking it up to that. Gah. Worry, worry, worry...
As long as this is all worked out by January! I gotta think BIG PICTURE here! I have just over two months for my body to cooperate and I'm sure it will. It just needs a month to be like "WTH?!" I can deal.
Phew. Okay. I feel better getting that off my chest..........
No cervical fluid yet today, no signs of ovulation - though I am a little crampy, tired and bloated. Here's hoping O comes soon so I can stop being such a freak! lol.
On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at a 6 today! (I'm tired and too busy to think about it)
Jer and I handed out candy to trick-or-treaters last night and oh how adorable they were! That really helped the ol' baby fever! Our friends Kevin and Caryn brought they're adorable little baby boy, Greg, over as well in his little Yoda costume. He was so freakin' cute! He's just over 10 months old now and I've gotta say, he contributes more to my baby fever than anything else! We see him almost every week and it's been amazing being able to watch him grow up. He's like my little training baby.
Last night Jer and I were discussing baby names. Things actually got a little heated, not in a bad way, just more-so than I ever expected from Jer. I told him I get final say on the name. I'm not saying I get the only say, just final say. Meaning we'll make a list of names together and all that and whittle them down together, BUT if it comes down to two names with him preferring one and me preferring the other, I get the final say. I told him he'd better just accept that. I'm the one delivering this baby, so unless he wants to push it out of HIS vagina, he can deal. lol. I don't think we'll have any issues, though. We're pretty good about discussing these things and coming to conclusions together. However, he REALLY pushed me to name our second dog Zuul and it has just never seemed right to me. There's no way I'm going to let him do that to me with a child. I know it's different with children and dogs, obviously, but Jer has a tendency to get his way most of the time and this is one of those situations where I'm just not going to allow that to happen.
I really think Jer is starting to catch baby fever. There are more little comments here and there and last night he cracked me up... We were lying in bed about to fall asleep and I was rambling on about having to lose these last 10 lbs. before we start TTC... And DH says "from where?" and I grab a handful of belly fat and say "from there, and..." then I grab a handful of fat on my butt and continue "... there." DH looks at me all serious and says "but baby needs that." He was being sarcastic, but it still made me laugh and was totally cute. lol.
Anyhoo... Today is CD 26 and still no signs of ovulation. Still not sure if I already did when I had watery CM or if I just haven't... My temps are at least up in the upper 97's right now, so maybe? I've been dry, though, so I'm just not sure what my body is doing right now. I guess I won't know until I get my period and can look back over the month and figure out what the heck was going on. hee hee. Oh well...
On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at a 10 today! I REALLY want a baby!!!!!!!! NOW NOW NOW!
CD 29... Still nothing. lol. I am suffering from some major cramps today, so either 1) I am ovulating, or 2) I already did ovulate earlier in the month and AF is on her way, or 3) Who the hell knows! lol. My temps have been pretty steady all month, so if I did ovulate I just didn't have a real temp spike to speak of. Is that even possible? Or maybe I just didn't ovulate and I'm going to get AF anyway. Is that possible? Gosh I don't know! I did have a high temp on Sunday morning, but I drank quite a bit on Saturday night and I believe it's from that. Temp was back down today so it must've been. For those who haven't read my earlier posts, I'm not TTC right now so don't worry about the drinking. I don't need anyone being like "WTH!?" thinking that I'm TTC and drinking, which obviously isn't a very good idea... Anyhoo, guess it's just back to the waiting game!
Short post today, but I really don't have anything else to discuss.
On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at a 5 today - my cramps are bad and I'm in a bad mood, so I'm not really thinking about babies at the moment. lol.
I'm experiencing some strange symptoms today, ones I've never experienced, and I'm not sure if they're related to my inner girly parts (ovaries, uterus, etc.) or another part of my body... Just wanted to put them down for future reference in case they are.
Two days ago (Monday, Nov. 3):
-I started getting "major cramps," nothing horrendous. I figured I was about to ovulate/in the midst of ovulating/or AF was on her way. See previous post for more details.
Yesterday (Tuesday, Nov. 4):
-Cramps got worse. I had to urinate more often, not because I had the urge to go, but because my bladder was pushing up against something and if my bladder got too full it'd make my cramps worse.
-Started having more labored breathing. Not difficulty breathing, it just felt like I wasn't able to get enough oxygen - if that makes sense...
-Started feeling a little dizzy when I stood up.
Today (Wednesday, Nov. 5):
-Cramps got progressively worse, but are now centralized to my right lower quadrant. After my lunch break (when I walked the dog, ate, and went to the bathroom) these sharp, shooting pains would come with every step I took. It does not hurt if I physically press on the right lower quadrant of my abdomen (where it feels like the pain is coming from). I started to think "appendicitis?" but if that were the case it'd hurt if I pressed there and I would most likely have a fever, which I don't (97.43 F this morning).
-Dizziness is worse. Every time I stand up I see a few black spots and have to take my time. I'm not horribly dizzy... I'm not going to fall over or pass out or anything like that.
-Still experiencing breathing issues. I just don't feel like I'm getting enough oxygen, so I've been taking more deep breaths.
-Stomach making strange noises. These aren't growls, nor are they digesting noises... I have never heard this kind of noise come from my stomach before.
-I'm a little nauseous. Not about-to-throw-up nauseous, just mildly so.
So there you have it. I have no clue what is going on. This could all be related to my whacked out cycle... Maybe I have an inflamed follicle or a cyst or something along those lines.................... I know that this pain is either coming from my ovaries/uterus/fallopian tubes/etc. OR it's coming from my appendix. If it is my appendix I'll certainly know for sure before too long, otherwise whatever it is is just going to have to work itself out. And yes, I've gone to the bathroom recently so it's not that.
I work with a bunch of doctors and nurses so I'm not too worried. I already talked briefly with one nurse just to make sure this wasn't anything to be immediately worried about. She said just to keep an eye on it and if it keeps getting worse then I'll want to go see my doctor. Odds are whatever it is will work itself out, but I just wanted to post down my symptoms for future reference.
In other-ish news... Today is CD 31. Fertility Friend says I ovulated a few days ago, but I'm not so sure... Maybe. I guess we'll see in the coming week(s) if I did or not. My CM was crazy yesterday, it was different every time I went to the bathroom. It went from creamy to watery to sticky to creamy again. NO clue what to make of that! lol. Could be related to my other symptoms, who knows.
On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at a 3 today - not because I don't want a baby, but because I don't feel so hot and would rather not think about it at the moment. lol.
Well, it turns out all my symptoms ARE related to my inner girly parts! The pain finally got bad enough that I went to see my doctor yesterday (and this is huge because I usually just wait things out). First off, she ran a pregnancy test. I knew it'd be negative, but since I was on CD 32 she figured I was experiencing a tubal pregnancy. The test came back negative, so that wasn't it... She did another pap and some other tests and concluded that it was either my appendix (NO!!) or a cyst/follicle on my ovaries. After this I had to go to the hospital to get a couple CT scans and blood work to determine which of these it was. Well, it wasn't my appendix, THANK GOD, so I was left to assume it was a cyst or a follicle issue. After looking at my chart today it appears as though I most likely ovulated on Sunday or Monday, which is exactly when the pain started, so this leads me to believe I have an inflamed or infected follicle and not a cyst. Either way, I just need to wait it out and deal with the pain. I have a high tolerance for pain so I'm okay. Just taking some Tylenol and working through it. Only now instead of just having a sharp pain in my side I also have several ouchies on my arms from where they stuck me with needles, including one blown vein (thanks to the freakin' nurse who couldn't stop talking to her co-worker long enough to focus on putting the needle in my vein). And I also had to have an enema for the CT scan for my appendix since they need to fill your bowels up with water so they'll show up correctly on the scan. That really REALLY sucked! I'm so not wanting to have one of those done EVER again! *shudder* So now I actually feel worse than I did before I went to the doctor and all I was told was to wait it out. Gah! I would've just waited it out in the first place, but since there was a possibility of it being my appendix I just didn't really want to risk it... Oh well.
Well, I suppose that my body just isn't used to ovulating. This is only the second time I've ovulated in what, like 10 years? lol. I guess my body needs a couple run throughs to get it right!
Today is CD 33. Fertility Friend estimates that AF should show on Monday... We'll see if it's right!
On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at a 5 today.
Last edited by freesiangel; 11-07-2008 at 02:08 PM.