I never did get any confirmation from my doctors office one way or the other. I'm left to assume that it is simply a cyst or inflamed follicle. It already feels a hundred times better (though still a little bit sore), so I'm sure that's what it was. If it was something else it would still hurt a lot more...
Fertility Fried readjusted my O date and estimated date for AF to arrive, which I think is probably correct. I had one fluke high temp last week and then they went back down a few days before going back up consistently, so it makes sense. I'm on CD 36 right now and am 6 DPO, meaning I *should* expect AF on Friday. Unless, of course, my luteal phase is short again.
I just finished five free days of the VIP Membership at Fertility Friend, and I gotta say, it's awesome. Part of me wants to go ahead and pay for it, I mean, it's only $45 per year... I dunno... It's still $45. While it's fun, it's not necessary. The free membership still gives me everything I need, just without all the bells and whistles. I'll make my final decision in January when we officially start TTC.
On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at a 7 today.
I started spotting on Monday night, which continued through Tuesday morning... Then it stopped. Today it started up again for a little while, but then stopped again. Of course, now I'm mega crampy so I'm expecting AF to get going at any time now. I guess it looks like another short luteal phase for Lauren!! Still, usually I spot a little for a day and then AF starts the next day, so we can add my erratic spotting schedule to the ever growing list of things that are messed up with this cycle! lol.
I'm going to order some cheapie OPK's and preggy tests online soon. I asked around a little and I think I'll get them from here. I'm just not sure which package to buy. I *think* I'm going to go ahead and buy this package. It's the largest, but you save a LOT of money buying this many. It's only 50 OPK's and 15 preggy tests, so it's not so many that I wouldn't use everything. I'm fairly certain I will, especially considering that I am planning on practicing with the OPK's during my next cycle, even though we'll still be preventing. I figure everything will get used unless we happen to be one of those lucky couples that conceives their first try. Yeah, I doubt that'll happen. But if it happens to, at least everything is individually wrapped and I can just sell it on here or another pregnancy site really cheap. I'm sure someone would jump on that! If not, well, then I'll just save 'em for the next go! lol.
On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 8 today. I've definitely got baby on the brain!! And for some reason I keep looking up recipes for baby food. hee hee hee. Yeah, I plan on making it. Hey! I love to cook so it's not that far of a stretch for me!!
Well, AF finally showed last Friday. It was about time!! My cycle ended up being 39 days long total - I ovulated on day 31, which game me an 8 day Luteal Phase. Crap. I have one more cycle left before we TTC and I'm really hoping that improves! Eight days just ain't gonna cut it! I knew I should've gone off the pill sooner! I should've allowed six or more months for my body to adjust...
Gah. No use crying about it now though. I'm just going to have to pray that come January everything is in order...
Anyway, back to AF... Last month was CRAZY long and heavy and just downright miserable. This month, however, I had one day of heavy flow starting Friday night and ending late morning on Saturday and then it slowed down to a light flow and turned into spotting sometime on Sunday. Weird. Well, not weird - just different. I'm not really doing anything today, maybe a tiny bit of spotting, but basically nothing. That means I had about a 3 day period. huh. Whatever.
I really need to go order those OPK's and preggy tests! I meant to do that last week, but never got around to it. I may not even get them in time to "practice" this month now. Damn me and my procrastination! lol. Oh well...
On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 7 today.
Well, I finally ordered my OPK's last week and they were delivered yesterday!!! This morning at work I managed to get my hands on a couple of clean specimen cups from the lab (I work at a health center), so now I'm all set. I decided to test over my lunch break, not because I thought I was even close to ovulating (CD 12 right now), but because I'm weird and really wanted to try it. I have issues. Plus I was kind of holding out hope that this months cycle was going to be magically perfect, in which case CD 12 wouldn't be that far of a stretch. *sigh* Somehow I don't think I'll be so lucky... I don't even care if I end up with another 39 day cycle! I just want a longer luteal phase!! I don't want to waste a bunch of OPK's, especially since this month is just practice with the testing and all, but at the same time I don't want to miss my surge. I'm not sure if I should just keep testing once a day until I finally ovulate or what. I got 50 OPK's, so I have quite a few... But even 50 isn't that many if I use 10 or more every month. *sigh* I may at least hold off using the OPK's until my CM starts to look more promising. I had a sticky day yesterday, so at least I'm out of the dry phase for the month. I think if I'm at least creamy I'll definitely test.
Jer and I leave for Northern Illinois tomorrow for Thanksgiving break... I'm a little anxious about bringing the specimen cup and test strips and stuff with. I doubt I'll be found out, but I'm going to have to be sneaky about cleaning my cup. I think I'll mix up a bleach/water solution at home to bring with us so I can just bring it into the bathroom with me and clean the cup in there. The last thing I need is someone catching me with a specimen cup! Can you imagine?! Though it would make for a funny story later on... At least my thermometer can be easily stashed away and doesn't require more than a quick dab of rubbing alcohol to clean it.
I've been thinking......... What if I end up being fertile at the very end of December? If my cycles stay in line it looks as though this is a very real possibility. What do I do? Do I hold off until my first fertile days in January, even if it means waiting til the very end of the month? Or do I beg DH to do the BD at the end of December? I'm not talking December 20th or anything - I'm talking like December 30/31 here. To where I'm literally hours away from January. I don't know what I'd do! Hell, I'm not even sure what I'm going to do when my next fertile days hit THIS cycle! lol! If I'm having one of my crazy baby fever days (like today) then I think I'll end up going insane! However, I find that I'm actually in a bit of a bad mood around ovulation time so I don't tend to have the baby fever as bad. Is that weird? Eh... Maybe I'm in a bad mood because I know I'm ovulating and I'm not allowed to make a baby yet. Still, just something that's been on my mind. However, my cycles haven't exactly been cooperative here, so I'm probably wasting my time even thinking about it. Gah.
I gotta admit... I'm getting nervous about TTC! Like really nervous. I keep having these weird dreams that we're not timing it right and I have all of these unfounded fears running through my brain. When we first set our TTC it was all cut-and-dry. I wasn't worried, it seemed so easy. Now that I'm off the pill everything is just so wacky with my body and I can't help but be nervous that it isn't going to do what I want it to do. I know I probably sound so stupid to a lot of people reading this right now, just because I haven't even started TTC yet. I have no idea what to expect. I don't know if we'll get pregnant right away or if it'll take us a year. I think it's that whole fear of the unknown aspect, kwim? I just can't believe it's almost already January! I thought it was going to take FOREVER to get here, and yet here I am! One month and one week away. It feels so surreal! We're actually taking this step! I mean, we've been married 4 1/2 years now! More often than not people try to have children sooner than that. I am glad we waited, though. Sure, we've been together for over 10 years now, but we had a lot to learn about each other after we got married. I think having children right away would have been bad for us. It finally feels like we hit our stride with US and now's the time to start our family. I'm just so excited! Totally nervous and about ready to pee my pants, but excited.
On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 9.5 today (I'm allowed to go in increments of 0.5 because I say so). Holy crap I want a baby! lol. An online friend was talking about her two boys fighting and it actually made my baby fever WORSE! What's with that?! Shouldn't it be a deterrent?
OMG I have exactly ONE MONTH until we start TTC! YIPPIE! Of course it could come a little bit sooner or a little bit later, all depending on what my cycle is up to, but on paper we have a month. I can't believe how fast time has been flying! January will be here before I know it! I'm just so excited. I'm pretty sure Jer is too. I like to give him little reminders every so often and he always gets a little smile on his face.
In fact, I can guarantee you that if I asked him to try this month he'd say yes. I don't think I want to, but it's nice knowing that I could. Last night when we dtd he responded to me asking him to get a condom by shrugging his shoulders and saying "if you want." I think he thinks that I want to try now because of how I'm always talking baby, but really I would rather wait til January (or at least the very end of December). There are a few things left for me to do before I go and get myself knocked up - like have that fancy martini, go sledding, and so on... I know that most likely December will not be my last opportunity to do those things since I probably won't get pregnant right away, but just in case... Plus, the holidays are so stressful with all of our traveling and having to stay with family that I just don't want to deal with that while TTC.
Anyway, I've been "practicing" with OPK's for the last few days. Both negative. I'm on CD 18 and don't have any fertile CM, so I didn't think they'd be positive - but you're supposed to start checking this early so I am. I'm pretty sure I'm on route to have another long cycle. I'm not sure whether or not it'll be as long or longer than last months. I guess we'll just have to wait and see. I don't really care how long it is, I just want my luteal phase to lengthen itself! If that means having a 40+ day cycle, so be it. I just want at least 10 days for my luteal phase!
On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 8 today.
I think I'm getting ready to ovulate, or at least I hope I am. I had a bit of a psych out with ovulating last month when all signs pointed to it, but then I didn't... Hopefully that isn't the case this month. Anyway, yesterday I had watery CM and some mild cramps, then I used an OPK and there was a very faint line after about 9 minutes (you're supposed to wait up to 10 minutes for results). I know that's still a negative for O being 24-48 hrs away, but a faint line still shows that I'm gearing up to do something somewhat soon, doesn't it? Today I have more watery CM, I'm still crampy and hopefully the OPK will show me more color. This is exciting since it's CD 21, which is way earlier than I ovulated last month! Here's hoping that it's coming up soon and my cycles are starting to work themselves out. C'mon EWCM! You know you want to make an appearance!
I bought my bottle of Ketel One the other night. I haven't opened it since it was the middle of the week, but I'm thinking I might pop it open tonight and enjoy a nice martini. Jer didn't even argue me buying it... He's normally pretty cheap, so spending $22 on a bottle of booze isn't exactly something he's happy about me doing - but I think he gets it. He knows it's my favorite and that my days are numbered. lol.
Jer's started asking a lot of little questions about pregnancy lately. It's so cute. I think once we got into December it finally hit him that we're really dang close to TTC! He never used to really bring it up, but now he has at least something to say every day. Small stuff, like last night he was getting our coffee maker set up for the next day and he poked his head out of the kitchen and said "can you have coffee when you're pregnant?" I just smiled because I've already had this conversation with him, but I honestly think that before this month it was all in one ear and out the other. hahaha. So I went into it all again.........
Well, that's where I'm at for now! Keeping my fingers crossed for O and a longer luteal phase!!
On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 8 today.
OMG OMG OMG OMG it huuuuuuurts!!! Well, without a doubt I am ovulating. It's just like last month when I thought my appendix were about to burst, only this month it's on the left side since I must be ovulating out of the left. I cannot believe how painful this is!! I have a high tolerance for pain, so when I say IT HURTS, it really hurts. I've been crampy for a few days, nothing to write home about, but I've started getting those sharp, shooting pains again. What's with me? I know you're supposed to get ovulation pains and all, but this is like someone jabbing hot needles into my uterus or something... Alright, gonna take some Tylenol and work through it. *deep breaths*
I got my first positive OPK test yesterday. It was very exciting. I took a picture, however, my digital camera just died so I was forced to take it with a film camera. I'll post it later if it turns out. I don't plan on taking pictures of these every time, I was just excited since it was my first positive test. hahaha.
Well, I suppose that's it for now. I'll update on the ovulation pains in the next few days. Hopefully they won't be as bad as last month...
On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 7 today. I was more like a 9 until the ovulation pains got intense...
Fertility Friend gave me crosshairs today! Woo! I'm 3 DPO and am on CD 29. That means I ovulated on CD 26, a full FIVE days earlier than last month! Hey, progress is progress! Now I'm hoping that my luteal phase holds out for more than eight days this month... That's the only place I can see myself having an issue conceiving. I'm not worried about it as of yet, but I'm at least aware that it could potentially be something I need to worry about.
I had a ton of fertile CM this month! Up until now I only had a few days worth, but this cycle I had SEVEN days worth. Mostly watery, but I had two eggwhite days! I'm totally stoked about this. I think part of it is user error, though. I think it hasn't been until this cycle that I truly grasped how to check my CM properly... I also think I'm starting to "get" my cervix. I don't note the changes on Fertility Friend, but I have been paying attention.
Back to my ovulation pains... I wrote my last post when it was painful. Luckily, it was only painful for about half a day. I was SO happy about that! I was afraid I was having a repeat of last months ovulation fiasco and I didn't want to spend the better part of a week in pain.
It was so hard not to DTD unprotected when I knew I was fertile. I'm still a little sad about it... Weird. Not much longer though! In less than a month we'll be giving it our first shot and I am so completely and utterly stoked about it! I am SO SO SO ready for this! C'mon January! Who needs Christmas anyway? lol.
On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 10 today. Heck, it may even be an 11!
I won't be able to post next week since I'll be at my parents and at the in-laws. So......... Merry Christmas!!
My parents don't have Internet, and while my in-laws do, there's no way I'll be visiting this site while I'm there. I clear all the Internet data after I've used their computer (if I go to any sites I would rather they not know about, like Fertility Friend), but on the off chance that I bone up I really don't want them finding this place! It would be horrifying to know that they could be reading this! It's a total TMI zone! lol.
Anyway, I'm on CD 35 and am 9 DPO. Woo hoo! My Luteal Phase is already a day longer than last month! No signs whatsoever of AF coming to visit, so it appears as though I may have a normal Luteal Phase this month! However, I also want this cycle to hurry up already so I can get started on my next cycle, as-in the cycle I get to TTC in! IF I were to start AF today and my cycle was the same as this current cycle (26 days to ovulate), then I would ovulate on January 13, meaning I could be fertile as early as January 8. That's pretty exciting! However, I doubt AF will start today so I probably have a few more days. Basically, I *should* be fertile around mid-January, unless, of course, my cycle shortens itself some more (which would be nice), in which case it could be earlier.
I made the mistake of setting up a season pass to A Baby Story on my Tivo. It has its nice moments and all, but often times I just end up mad at the doctors and/or nurses for using epidurals and picotin and C-sections and all sorts of other stuff (forceps anyone?) without even consulting the parents, or at least fully explaining the pros and cons. Now this may happen off camera or maybe they discussed it earlier, but sometimes it just doesn't seem like it. It's like they just say "this is how it's gonna be..." and do it like it's routine. Okay, I guess it is routine these days - but that bothers me... I don't really know why. I think because I'm so completely involved in my health care and never simply let a doctor tell me what to do w/o researching it for myself first. My doctor actually loves me for this, she loves that I'm involved and don't just want the easy way out if something is wrong with me (prescriptions and what-not). I'd rather live a healthier life style... I know most people aren't like this and that's totally fine. I'm Type A and fully aware of it. I'm not saying I won't go the epidural route either. It could happen. I'd prefer it didn't, but if I'm in so much pain that I just can't take it, then yes, I'll probably ask for one. However, I have a high tolerance for pain and I'm planning on learning some breathing techniques and stuff so that I can avoid the epidural if at all possible. I just don't like the side effects... Plus I hate lying on my back for long periods of time and I know I would go crazy if I couldn't walk around during labor! Sorry, I got side tracked... Back to the show... Well, I guess that's my only issue with the show. I haven't seen that many episodes yet, so I can't give my full evaluation. I do know that I have yet to see a natural birth and I really want to see that!! I want someone in there like me that's totally anal and has a plan in place. Someone that would react like I would. Here's hoping that an episode like that exists!
Jer has been talking baby quite a bit more these days. Last weekend we were in Wisconsin for my family get-together and as we were driving he just went "huh... So by this time next year we *could* have a 3 month old!" He had a little bit of that wide-eyed look of shock going on. lol. I think it hit him at that moment. hahaha. We talked quite a bit more throughout the drive about what we'll do for Christmas next year if I'm pregnant or if we already have a baby and then got to talking about other random stuff. It was nice.
Well, I guess that's that. Once again, Merry Christmas!
On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 9 today.
Okay, well, I caved and decided to log in while I'm at the in-laws. I'm just being very cautious about deleting my history and what-not. Hopefully there isn't something else that I'm missing. If so, well, oh well...
Anyhoo, just a quick update! I'm on CD 3 now, meaning AF came and is already winding down... I had a 12 DAY LUTEAL PHASE this month! I'm so flippin' excited about that! That's "normal!" YIPPIE! If I don't O until CD 26 again, like I did last month, then I should O on or around Jan 16, which means I could be fertile around Jan 11! Since my cycles have been getting shorter and shorter I'm hoping that I'll actually O earlier. Impatient much? hahaha...
I can't believe this is it. This is my first cycle TTC! (and hopefully my last, lol).
That said, I'm SO glad we decided to wait until January... I knew December would be a bad month for TTC and boy, was I right. We're staying with our parents this whole week and it's been crazy. We're both stressed out and both snapping left and right. I think our baby fever dropped to a 1 or 2 easily! We go home on Saturday and I'm sure I'll be back up to a 9 or 10 in no time! hahaha.
Well, I suppose that's it for now. Once again, Merry Christmas!
On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 2 today. Freakin' holidays.