Well guys, it's January 1, 2009. It's a new year and it's finally official! Jeremy and I are now trying to conceive!
Okay, okay... So technically we have been for 11 days since my cycle started 11 days ago, but I'm not even fertile yet so... Yeah, whatever. My point is, we set our officiall TTC date as January 1, 2009 and that's today, so I'm giddy. Yay!
More exciting yet is that I think my body is getting ready to O already! It's only CD 11!!!! I didn't even O until CD 26 last month! I used an OPK for the last three days and I got a faint line yesterday and today, with todays being a little bit darker. I know that isn't a "positive" for ovulation being in the next 24-48 hours since it wasn't as dark as the control line, but it at least shows that my body is gearing up to do something. I'm hoping that I'll get a positive OPK tomorrow or Saturday. I'll also be checking my temperature and CM. However, I'm sick with a really nasty cold at the moment and I took Nyquil last night and will probably take it again tonight, so I am discarding those temps. I just don't trust them with that junk in my system. Therefore, I'm going to be depending more-so on my CM and my OPK results than my temps. At least for a few days...
Jer and I are covering our bases and have been getting in some BDing every other day for a almost a week now, just in case I were to O early. Once I get any signs of O coming up we'll be stepping it up a notch. There is one problem, however... We have Jer's family Christmas party this Saturday (I know it's after Christmas, lol, it's just how they do things). Anyway, there's a good possibility that could be a fertile day, which I wouldn't want to miss, but then that will require us to BD at my in laws house! There's no lock on the door and the walls aren't exactly sound proof. Oh well, we'll just have to get over it. hahaha.
Here's to a baby in 2009! Happy New Year!!
On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 10 today. Oh baby!
I was so optimistic that I was going to O earlier than last cycle, and yet here I am on CD 23 and I still haven't O-ed. I know I'm close, though. My CM is definitely watery, so we're making progress. The only thing that I don't get are my OPK results. The last time I posted (on CD 11) I had a faint line, which I know isn't a positive, but doesn't that at least indicate that things are starting?? I had several faint lines, and then a bunch of nothing for awhile..... And then I started getting faint lines again when my CM turned from creamy to watery, with each one getting a little bit darker. I wonder if my body was trying to gear up to O, but then just couldn't for one reason or another. I was sick, after all. Maybe that's all it took for my body to throw up its arms and be like "screw it!" Who knows. Either way, I'm not really concerned. I just have longer cycles and I have to accept that. My body is still functioning perfectly fine, it's just taking a little bit longer.
I'm not going to lie, this TTC business is exhausting! I've been making sure we BD every other day in order to cover our bases, so to speak. I'd hate to not stick to that and then O earlier than I thought and miss my window. Obviously that is no longer the case this cycle, but I've been keeping on it anyway. Since my CM has been watery for a few days (and more of a watery/EW mix today, but not quite EW) I think I'm going to switch to every day. *sigh* I'm tired! lol.
I can't wait to O so I can have a break! lol. Although then I'm still going to be all paranoid that I misinterpreted my chart and feel like we still have to BD every 2-3 days after I O "just in case." What can I say, I'm thorough! hahaha. Something tells me DH doesn't mind, though.
Here eggie eggie!!
On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 10 today. I'm so ready to be pregnant!!!
I *think* I ovulated today (or I'm in the midst of ovulating as I type this), but FF now thinks I ovulated 7 days ago! SEVEN! I had two low temps 8 and 9 days ago, which I think threw everything off... And then my watery CM started, but it wasn't real watery until a few days later, and then it turned to EWCM yesterday and today. A LOT today, actually. And I've been cramping yesterday and today....... And my cervix was wide open today! Well, this morning/afternoon. Tonight it is closed (good thing we BD-ed over our lunch break today, heh). With those symptoms, *I* think I'm ovulating now and did not seven days ago. I'm not sure if FF will end up being right and I'm just an idiot or if I'm right and FF will adjust itself as my cycle continues (or if it won't and, well, I don't know what I'll do then).
Regardless of any of that, we've BD-ed AT LEAST every other day for weeks now, so we're covered... I'm hoping and praying for a BFP this cycle! I know it's my first cycle, but I'm still praying. This TTC business is ROUGH and I have a new found respect for anyone that's been doing it for more than one cycle. I'm in my first and I'm going crazy here! lol.
That's really it for now... I'm sure I'll update again soon!! Especially once I enter the dreaded 2WW (which, actually, I'm not really dreading at all - for as long as my cycle has been two weeks is nothing! hahaha).
On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 11 today. No, a 15. A 20?? It's BAD!
P.S. Here's a picture of Jeremy and I on New Years Eve.
Well, I'm finally in my first 2WW! I'm on CD 31 and 3DPO. Fertility Friend is saying I'm 4DPO, but I know I'm not. I had a positive OPK two days in a row. On day one it was the same color as the control line... On day two it was easily twice as dark! Plus I got definite O pains on that day as well. I get a really sharp pain on either my right or left side for a couple of hours when I O - it's different than usual cramps so I know it's an O pain and not just my imagination... I know that not everyone feels them, but I most certainly do. Either way, I've definitely ovulated and now I just get to wait to test!
Since my cycles are so freakin' long I've decided to take a control test in the next couple of days, knowing that it won't be positive... That way I'll have a negative test to show my doctor to prove to her that I'm not like 6 weeks pregnant (if I get pregnant). I know that eventually when they do an ultrasound that they'll know how far along I am, but I don't feel like getting into an argument with her about how far along I am, so I figure this would give her proof.
I really hope I'm pregnant! I'm trying not to think about it too much because I know there's a good chance I won't be, but it'd be wonderful if I were! I'm absolutely in awe that there *could* be a life starting to form inside of me right now. Again, trying not to think that way too much.. I know I'll just end up driving myself crazy if I keep this up. hahaha.
I know everyone says to live your life as you regularly would while TTC, but I'm having a hard time doing that. I just can't. I don't want that glass of wine or cup of coffee anymore, just in case. I'm still having either a cup of tea or a Diet Coke, but the caffeine is pretty minimal so that's okay...
The only thing that worries me is that I just got hit with another nasty cold! It literally started the day after I ovulated. I work in a health center, so there are plenty of germs to go around! I hate that I'm always getting sick here! I eat SO healthy, I take my vitamins, I exercise 4-5 days a week for at least an hour, I drink 64-80 fl oz of water every day. I mean, c'mon! But I still always get sick! I know it's because of where I work, but I still feel like I should have a rockin' immune system at this point and I just don't seem to. Argh. I don't know if it'll have any effect on my chances of becoming pregnant or not... I don't think so, it's not like I have a fever or anything... And I'm not taking any cold medicine, just a little extra vitamin C with my prenatal multivitamin and DHA/EPA. Still, the timing couldn't have been worse. Oh well! At least all this sick business has my a little preoccupied and I'm not focusing on this 2WW that much.
On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 8 today. It'd be higher, but I'm sick and that's keeping my brain preoccupied.
I have REALLY sensitive (and now sore) nipples today. This is not a normal occurrence for me. In fact, I can't recall even one time I've experienced this. I'm hoping it's a good sign. I don't think it's all in my head, either, because I was actually woken up out of a dead sleep this morning when I rolled over onto my stomach and all my weight was on my breasts. That was an interesting experience! lol. Wearing a bra has totally sucked today. This puppy is so getting ripped off the second I walk through the door after work today! hahaha.
I've also had some mild cramps/tenderness in my lower abdomen, but that could be any number of things so I'm not looking at that as a symptom at the moment. Just making note of it (just in case).
Already almost over my cold. A little bit of coughing still, but nothing major. I'm just really tired. At least I got over it quickly!
On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 10 today. Of course.
Today is CD 7 or 8, depending on who you go by (me or FF). Either way, just waiting... My nipples continued to get more and more sensitive and then sore as the day went on Thursday. I looked at them when I got home and they were puffy and perky-ish. They just never went in all day. It was really weird! lol. They were still a little bit sensitive yesterday, but not so much that I really noticed. I'm not noticing anything today, but it's not even 9 a.m. yet so it's early. My temp rose a lot today. I'm finally in the 98's! I have a lower temp than most people that chart, I think because I sleep with my mouth open a lot... My temp has been steadily climbing since I O'd, except on CD 6 when I had a dip. Today I have the strangest cramp around my cervix/uterus. It's not like anything I've felt before, although I could just be saying that because I've never paid THIS MUCH attention to every little twinge before! hahaha... Anyway, I'm just praying it's a good cramp and not an AF-is-on-her-way type of cramp.
I will be testing for the first time on Tuesday, January 27. I know it's still early (10 DPO), but it's DH's birthday and I'm hoping if I am pregnant that I'll get a BFP. I know it's a long shot so early on, though. If it's a BFN then I'll retest on Friday (13 DPO). I will not be telling DH that I'm testing... I know he wants me to because it's his birthday, but if I test and get a BFN I'll simply insist that it's just too early and there's no way I'll get a positive result... If I DO happen to get a BFP then I'll have to come up with some sort of creative way to tell him.
On a scale of 1 to 10 my baby fever rates at an 10 today. Let's just assume that it's always going to be a 10 these days. lol.
I just can't help it! lol. I was going to wait until tomorrow morning to post again, after I'd taken my first test, but I want to make sure I get all of my "symptoms" down in writing for future reference, so I decided to pop in now!
I'm having a weird day. I'm just feeling weird, not like myself. I don't mean that in a bad way, either. I hope it's a good sign. Though I know it could go either way... Anyhoo, here's what I'm feeling:
- The cramps in my lower abdomen (uterine area) have changed since yesterday. They're not at all like AF cramps... I'm also feeling a bit of cramping around the follicle I ovulated from this month. Not sure what that means... Not O-type cramping, just a general awareness of that area (if that make sense).
- I've been experiencing a little dizziness when I stand up. This doesn't happen every time I stand up, in fact, it hasn't happened to me at all today. It happened a lot yesterday and some on Saturday. It's not crazy, pass-out dizziness either. Just a little...
- Nothing sounds appetizing! Yesterday I went to the fridge no less than five times before finally finding something for lunch that didn't make me want to gag. What did I eat? Homemade sausage gravy mixed with spinach leaves! Who eats that?! EVER! hahaha. While making dinner (curried shrimp in coconut milk) I thought I was going to throw up from the smell. I usually love the smell of this dish (I make it a lot), but I could hardly stand there.
- Since lunch today I've had heartburn. I have no idea what this is about. I NEVER get heartburn! The few times I have it was from drinking too much. Obviously this isn't the case... I didn't eat anything spicy or vinegary, my lunch was pretty neutral (a wrap with ham, cheese, a tiny bit of mayo and lettuce and a dill pickle spear). Hardly grounds for heartburn, especially for someone that doesn't get heartburn. And yes, I've had about 64 oz of water so far today, so it's not that either.
Pregnancy symptoms? I sure hope so!! Or I'm a total nut job and am subconsciously making my body do this to me! lol. I'll post first thing tomorrow morning with the results of my first home pregnancy test!
Okay, now I'm getting nervous. As expected, the pregnancy test was negative. That's not what's upsetting me. I figured it would be, it's just too early to test.
My problem is my stupid temperature. It took a nosedive this morning! It dipped below the coverline . However, I'm trying not to freak out too much. I woke up with my mouth open and all the covers knocked off of me. It was freezing cold in my bedroom and I was actually shivering when I woke up. I'm hoping that that's why my temperature was lower, but really, it shouldn't have dropped as much as it did, even if I were cold. Still, I'm going to try not think about it much and just wait for tomorrow. If I've learned anything the last few months, it's that my temps are crazy right now. I've had erratic temperatures for awhile now, since going off the ill, though they are starting to stabilize a bit. Therefore I can't put too much stock in them at this time. Still, that was one hell of a drop. *sigh*
I'm just going to wait it out until tomorrow. Hopefully my temps will go back up... If not, well, then DH will be stoked that we get another cycle of "trying." lol.
My temp skyrocketed today, higher than it's been yet this cycle. I'm hoping and praying that yesterdays low temp was either a fluke or (even better) an implantation dip. I've got all my crossables crossed right now!
I was also overcome with a wave of nausea this morning when I rolled over to turn off the alarm clock, it was the most bizarre experience. It passed rather quickly and then I was fine. I had another small wave of nausea about 30 minutes later when I opened the fridge. I was slapped in the face with this SMELL. I don't know what it was, but I didn't like it. I shut the fridge, walked away, and was fine. I'm really hoping these are good signs and not just proof that I'm going clinically insane. Only time will tell! lol.
I'm getting excited to test again on Friday. I hope 13 DPO is enough time...
I am am shaking like crazy right now! You'd think I would've been prepared, but I totally wasn't. I was in total shock after I saw that faint second line and I almost felt indifferent, like "whatever." Within five minutes my stomach was in knots and I went to go tell Jer (he was in the shower). He asked me for some Tylenol when I walked in, so I left to get that, went back in and handed him the Tylenol... Then I said, "oh, and I have something else that might help your headache" and handed him the test. His response "What's that?" He thought it was an OPK! He couldn't understand why I would've used one of those after ovulation. hahaha. So I'm like "seriously!?" and he goes "Is that a pregnancy test?" and I'm like "yeah," and he's like "a positive one?" and I'm like "YEAH!" and he goes "man that was easy!"
Not much has really been said, we were both pretty quiet. This morning we've been IMing each other back and forth like "really?" "I still can't believe this!" and stuff like that. I just really can't believe it!
I'm going to call my doctor in a bit to set up a blood test. I also plan on taking a test for the next few mornings as well just to make sure they keep getting darker. Thank God for el cheapo internet pregnancy tests!
Holy crap I can't believe this!!!! I'm having a baby!
At least I know now that all my symptoms weren't just in my head. I was starting to worry that I was just crazy enough to make myself nauseous on demand.