The long hard road to baby B

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The long hard road to baby B

Seems like a fitting title. My dh and I had worked so hard to convince everyone else that we only wanted Emily and had no desire to have another. I personally knew I was lying about it to everyone, including myself. But I never imagined that he was lying as well!
So low and behold the cat came out of his bag, then mine, then Emily's and together as a family we have decided to slowly enter the wonderful world of modern medicine~as we step gently into in-vitro fertilization.
Here is to praying for a miracle! And to the start of a journal I never thought I would have! Wink

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Last night was so much fun. Mom begged us not to tell Dad but everyone else that knows thought it would be better if he knew. First because he would get his feelings hurt if everyone knew but him and secondly because when the day (hopefully) comes to announce we are pregnant he would totally freak out with worry. We wanted to make sure that he knew that we went through all the testing and doctors consultations and have all of my specialists, especially the transplant team's, best wishes to go forward with this.
So who would tell Daddy. I begged dh to but he was a little scared. So the guys were upstairs in the man room after dinner watching football. My sister and best friend, Diana, told me I had to go up there and tell Daddy and couldn't come out until I did. Then they sent my sister up there to guard the door. I finally told him. He was very excited once I explained it would be okay for me. Then since the man room is Em's old room and she has the downstairs two bedrooms to herself now, Daddy turned to Chris and said "this doesn't mean we are going to loose our hangout to a nursery now does it". Chris quickly replied "nope, your grandaughter is loosing her den". Dad said "phew, good deal because we need our escape especially if there is going to be another baby or two", ROFL Too cute!
Dh also held a baby for the first time ever last night! Diana and her dh, Greg, have an almost 2 month old son that I got to witness enter the world. They also have a dd 18 months older (and a whole foot taller) than Em. Big Greg handed baby Greg to Chris when C was off guard. The pictures are priceless and now C can't wait to hold him again! Here are a couple of pictures of my dh's first infant handling experience, and to make it even better baby G was so sleepy and fussy!
Enjoy, because we all have!

As it stands right now we are only telling the closest of our couple friends (which includes dh's cousin and wife) and my entire family. We don't feel like sharing with his mother and father or his brother and sister in law because they would just wear us out the entire time. If some of you remember his mother has been hounding me about having "his" baby since we've been together and refers to Em as her "stepgrandaughter" like she is some second hand kid, and that in itself pisses C off because he IS her father! Not to mention how after the transplant she kept on and on about "maybe you can get your tubes untied and have a baby". So no need for undue stress at the moment. I told dh we rarely see them (even though they live 20 minutes away and next to dh's cousin we are friends with) and that maybe we could just call one day and be like "hey, we just had a baby" ROFL

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How funny that people who can't pick up the phone to call you say, um ever, seem to check your family website everyday. And how they can get so much out of so little. So needless to say the ttc cat is out of the bag! Oh well, atleast said person doesn't know the in laws, lol. But I'm willing to bet she suddenly turns up pregnant, even after they swore off another, just that type of couple to "out do" everyone around them.

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I did something today I never thought I would do. I registered Em for the local public school, at her request. I am so nervous, she is so excited. She has decided to start after Christmas break. This is something she has asked for the past two years. It will allow her the opportunity to go to LA more often for classes because our county has the 8 weeks on 2 weeks off school year.
She is so excited about her school clothes, too. I mean sure they have a strict dress code of solid polos that they can choose to wear a solid hoodie or sweater over and non torn or decorated jeans and khakis, but come on the kid has sported a plaid skirt and nasty old "bucks" for 7 years now! And she can wear jewelry and makeup! I actually shopped online for everything today and think I have enough for this year and the beginning of next year.
So, that is one thing that has been used to pass my time until my appointment with the best specialist in TN on December 19th. Oh, and I finished all my Christmas shopping today, all online (gotta love it) except the Hallmark ornaments. Now what in the hell am I going to do until the 19th to keep from going crazy with anxiousness and nervousness?
Oh how I wish we could just get on with it all already.

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Wow, I will do anything to pass the time until we can truely get started.
Friday Chris was off so he joined me at the hematologist for my final visit. She, too, had nothing but good things to say about our choice to do ivf. After that we rode past the construction site for the dealership then went to lunch. After lunch I asked to go to Porter Paints and of course, we did. I got paint for our bedroom-anything to pass the time. I painted our olive green walls a lovely shade of silver-gray with a beautiful blue accent wall. I also did the bathroom with a few accent walls of the blue-above the tub and shower, the entire outside of the "potty closet" and the wall across from the door in the "potty closet". It looks so pretty. Tomorrow I will get new curtains. All I could think of the whole time was how lovely a cradle would look in our newly painted room. Dh said if we were to be blessed with twins I could have a craddle on my side and he would take one on his.
I just really pray to God for just one more miracle in our life! The kidney was truely a miracle and we feel that for all of the bad luck and suffering we have been through if we could just have this one more blessing of joy, we would never want for another thing again.

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I have got to stop shopping. I ended up at Pier 1 yesterday and bought green toned cushions and pillows for the two accent chairs in the den. Now I will have two sets to change out. It does look nice with the green and the Christmas decorations. I have baby G right now, he is napping. He is so precious. When he saw me this morning he started to laugh and kick his feet with excitement. He really brings about a joy in all of us that is unexplainable.
Chris and I finished reading the Couples Guide to IVF. What a great book. He is getting a little nervous about giving me shots but that is only because he knows that I am really good at administering IM injections and that I can spend a whole day doing just that because I get requested to start iv's and give IMs by patients. Because it doesn't "hurt" when I do it. I told him no pressure I don't care if it hurts like hell as long as it gets done.
It is so interesting how dreams for the future can change overnight. When I finished my schooling I wanted one position at one hospital. Of course without years of experience the chances were slim that I would get it, hence my work for DCI and Donor Services. Well low and behold, I received a call this morning about said position. I explained that it wouldn't be fair for me at this point to accept an interview because we were in the early stages of beginning in-vitro.
I called dh, shed a few tears while telling him, but not tears of sorrow, tears of joy. I just never thought that would have been an interview I would have ever turned down. But doing so, for this reason, was the best feeling I have had in a long time.

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I was having such a wonderful day today. We all went to Em's special liturgy at Church, her last one ever as today was her last day in Catholic school. She was a bit weepy in mass, when I saw her tears I lost it. Thank God Diana was in the cry room with Greg because I was able to run away and have someone to cry with. When I picked her up at 10 she was bawling. She said she did okay until the teacher made the announcement and everyone started hugging her and crying, then she said she lost it. But she did tell them all that she was excited to make the change but just a little scared. After school we did some retail therapy and when we got home she FINALLY cleaned out her wardrobe including her shoes.
Sadly, I lost a friend today. I found out about 30 minutes after it happened. Irene was killed in a car accident on her way to work, mom and I are devestated as we loved her so much. She had just had her iud removed and her and mom would pray everyday for us to both have our babies together. She made such a beautiful bracelet for Mol for her bday and was going to make Em one for her bday in Jan as well. I am devestated for her son, husband, mother, sister and most of all her brother, who was riding into work with her and is in very bad shape. Please if you are reading this and pray, say a little prayer for my friend and her family. If there was ever a person who was genuine, it was Irene.

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Silly kitty, loves for Em to tote her around in anything, especially her "hoodies" though. She climbs right in. Today it was Em's new tote bag she got for school.

I want so badly to see her "toting" around a little brother or sister soon. She will be a great big sister and is so excited to help!

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I am so damn down today. I guess with the mass today and all I just can't help but think of everything else.
We want another child or two so badly. We have everything to offer another child and then some. I am just so scared that ivf won't work and we will be empty nesters at such a young age. I don't know that I am ready to be 38 and not have someone depending on me. I see so many people who have so many children in this state that can't even put their kids in a car seat and here I am today at the dealership looking into all the options I will have if I am blessed enough for two car seats because the bimmer can't hold two seats and Emily in the back and I refused to let her upfront, even if she will be 12 at the time.
I know if this doesn't work we will get on fine, in time. God I hope ivf works for us..........

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Maternal Fetal Group had to cancel our appointment for tomorrow. I was so bummed out but then in the next breath she said "I do have your appointment for Center For Reproductive Health that the doc said I could go ahead and give you". That just made my day. We go back to the ob on January 2nd now and our intake appointment with the RE is on January 24th at 2pm. We are beside ourselves today because now it seems so real and official.

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I sold my car to get the equity out of it so we won't have to mess with any of the taxes that come with taking money out of the mutual funds. I picked up a Freestyle today to give it a try. I like it, especially the seating. The bimmer is still waiting on the wholesaler to pick it up. Gosh darn it he better have gotten it tonight because it is killing me seeing it there.
Em is staying at her friend's house tonight. C is upstairs playing PS3 and I am off to go shower and fix my hair. I got 11+ inches cut off today and want to fix it myself. They never do it right.
I hope all of the people ttc know that we keep you all in our prayers. We enjoy reading your journals.
Nadine, if you are reading this.......what can I say but you are my hero.
And Bobbie, I hope you are doing well, been thinking about you!

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Christmas Eve and Christmas Day have come and gone!
Once again I survived Christmas Eve brunch at my house with the in laws. One more year of how I never see my nephew (only see those kids on Christmas) and all the blah blah blah that comes with most il's.
Christmas Day was so relaxing for a change. As opposed to rushing out of the house to get with his family somewhere we stayed home, x'ing his fam deal, and let Emily organize her gifts into her room. We went to mom and dad's for dinner. Were back home by 9!
Looking forward to tomorrow night. Instead of doing the Hotel event this year we will be staying here with D&G and the kids, a couple of other friends, good food and fun!
I talked to the high risk ob office yesterday going over some medical records stuff. I can't believe our first hopefully of many appointments there is on Tuesday. And exactly one month from today we see the RE for our first appointment! We have started to fill out the packet for that already. They sure do want to know everything. I don't think the questions before transplant and being listed with UNOS was that deep.

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Our year has certainly started off with a bang. I feel like I have lived at appointments. But finally all systems are go for ivf. We will have our second appointment for my hsg, trial embryo transfer, blood work and C's fish test (as he puts it) either late next week or early the following, depending on when I get my period, which is due today! I'm ususally so regular, I hope stressing out so much isn't throwing my body off because that would suck right now.
After our second appointment and class we will start the injections. I'm excited, it really feels real now and oddly enough my anxiety seems to be disapating.

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Michele, I'm so damn excited for you! You're gonna have some twins, I just know it! Biggrin

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Lol, Bobbie. I would love that so would Chris. Not too sure how the high risk ob would feel, hee hee. We are so excited for you guys.

Chris just got off the phone with his mom doing the whole history thing. I can see that. But why do they need to know not only my college gpa but my high school gpa. What does that mean, if you aren't "smart enough" do you get denied?
The hard part was the what do you want to do with extra embryos if: you die, your spouse dies, you divorce? Chris said if he died he wanted me to keep the embryos and if I want to have another baby without him......weird but good to have in writing. For the most part if something happens, especially divorce, the embryos will go to stem cell research. I mean, if we divorced there is no way in hell I would want another woman carrying my child-whatever!

Now we can get started. They said that if all goes well they think we can have our first retrevial around March 8th.
Oh, and Bobbie I think if it is boy/girl twins we should name them either: Chris and Michele (hee hee) or Jack and Jill, how about Hanzel and Gretel? Something like that from us probably wouldn't surprise many, Lol

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Hanzel and Gretel? ROFL

No no, Lars and Inga! Biggrin

I'll be checking in on you lots here. I can't wait for your BFP!

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Today has been an aweful day. Just one crap on after another. The high risk obs will only deliver at one hospital-the one that my insurance doesn't cover.
Then because the ivf clinic ordered the wrong test when they called to fix it they tell me that we will just have to wait until my next cycle to do the prereqs.
Now my husband is wondering if we shouldn't just try the tubal reversal.
So I went and joined Gold's Gym and put a resume in at one of the dialysis corporations down by Meharry.
ALL I WANT IS ANOTHER CHILD. Why does it have to be so damn hard. And to make matters worse now we may have to pay for a c-section delivery not to mention NICU? What did I ever do to deserve any of this shit? Poor Emily has cried all day at the thought that we may just not be able to do this. Like I haven't? Sure we have the money for ivf but holy crap the delivery of a pre-term baby, there is no way we could pay for that!
I'm going to the gym now because I don't even want to be here when Chris gets home............

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Oh Michele! (((((Hugs)))))

You guys are in our prayers, many many high hopes that this will work out.

Chims

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I feel a little better today.
Chris and I talked last night about maybe trying a round of ivf, then if it doesn't work reversing my tubal and trying that for 6 months, then going back to ivf.
As far as the high risk ob is concerned, I refuse to deliver a baby at Vanderbilt with any of their doctors so it looks like we may just have to pay for it. I can't imagine how much a csection delivery of a pre-term baby will be but we will do what we have to. Even if it means selling our house and buying a lesser house. I guess in a sense we are lucky because we can make it work.
I met my sister, Merri, at the gym this afternoon. We did cardio in the movie room and watched The Breakup. I used to belong to the Y and man, even after only 2 days at Golds for the money the Y is crapola. It would be almost $20 more a month for just me and isn't a quarter as nice as Golds-I mean the place has a theater, lol. I invited Mer for dinner so I stopped by the store on the way home and while I was there I picked up some cute little Valentine's cards with pixie stix for Em-only to come home and get "awe, thanks but I don't think you do that stuff in the 5th grade". She said she'd make them for her friends. That made me so sad. And it made me realize that I am not ready for childhood to be over in this house. Even if it means selling this house, I'm willing, ready and able to do whatever it takes.

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I still can't believe that this cycle was wasted. It makes me so angry at the scheduling lady at the clinic. But on a good not dh found out that there is another insurance plan under the same company through work that our doctor will take as will the hospital! Whew, that is a relief. Now I don't have to worry about selling my house although Chris seems to think that I say that because I want new cabinets, hee hee.
I'm keeping baby g tomorrow and that always cheers me up. I'm going to meet Mer at the gym tonight at 8 because she had to work early today. So I have pretty much done nothing but one load of Em's wash all day. She cracks me up. Now that she doesn't wear the uniform it has become our nightly ritual to pick out her outfit and jewelry for the next day. So fun.
I read in a parenting magazine that at this age when they talk to you about their crush you should share stories of your first love. Funny I bought the magazine to try to figure out how to answer my friend's toddlers' never ending "whys" but realized that even though Em is 11 they still have advice in there for moms of older kids, too.

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I've got the baby today. He is swinging taking his nap. His "Jelly" cat from oompa toys is clutched tightly in his right arm, and its 2 feet of tail is just swinging away. Greg is smiling. I wonder what he is dreaming of? Is it the umpteen ounces of milk he will consume when he gets up or is it memories of playing in his exersaucer? Whatever it is makes me realize that even though this process has been so stressful to us, the reward is so great and in the end this will all just be a memory of a time when we worried over nothing. Atleast, I hope that is how it turns out. I'm pretty sure if this doesn't work I will be in a lock-down unit somewhere for a little while suffering a nervous breakdown.

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Yep, it was the umpteen ounces of milk that must of had him smiling because when he woke up he drank 6 ounces, played in his exersaucer for a little bit then took................8 MORE ounces.
And we wonder why at 14 weeks the boy weighs 20+ pounds. Can't wait for his next appointment. Uncle Chris calls him the little linebacker-for sure!!!

After I left the baby's house I went to Target to get my oh so big girl a peguin humidifier. So funny how we are so mature sometimes but still have that tad bit of baby in us all.

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Why can't we just get a sign, to make everything clear? I can't stop having anxiety attacks. I cry.....all of the time. Last night was the worst, I lay my head in my best friend's lap and cried-people must of thought I was nuts considering we were at a freakin motocross race. I cry running on the treadmil at the gym when the diaper commercial comes on.
I want another person so bad it hurts, and the fear of God has set into my brain, and well that hurts, too. Not to mention it doesn't help when other people voice their concerns. Yes, I've seen Steel Magnolias-MOVIE and she had type 1 diabetes and died because of a diabetic coma not from renal failure. Yes, I have weighed the risks, what in the fuck do you people think keeps me up at night?
No matter what we do, the fear will not go away until a baby arrives safely into our arms. Then again, if it isn't going to arrive safely I hope ivf doesn't work at all. While I know it sounds a bit off to most, if something happens to our baby it will be documented in some round about way as MY fault. They will add it to the medications' statistics, they will put it in the books as my fault. I mean, how could it not be? And I will never be able to forgive myself.
Sometimes I wonder if I am being selfish. But the hole in my heart, the void we both feel for another child is so overwhelming-how can we not react to trying to make our family feel whole?
We have been blessed in so many ways. We have an amazing daughter, I have been given the gift of life from a total stranger, we have such a beautiful home, amazing friends and family, a very liberal work schedule allowing both of us to be at home if the need were to arise, we travel, we have a thriving business............but we still feel empty. It amazes me on a daily basis how people think money makes everything better. Money doesn't buy health or happiness. I'd give every penny in the world to any doctor who could just promise me that in the end everything will be just fine and we will have that healthy little baby to complete our family and fill the void that not only Chris and I hold in our hearts but our precious child Emily's void for a sibling, too.
Why does it have to be so hard?
I know I shouldn't complain because there are so many people trying to have their first child who are struggling so bad, and that makes me feel guilty for even putting this here, but this is my safe place. It is the only place where I can put down how I really feel without the critisism. So I apologize if anyone is bothered by this. I'm just so sad.......and confused...and worried and scared, etc, etc.....

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Heading down to South Beach and can not wait. Not even bringing my cell phone. A whole week of warmth sounds pretty good right now. I have the best husband in the world. Ready to go and try to not worry about anything going on here at home.

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Leaving on a jet plane!!! Woo hoo. My plane leaves at 6 tomorrow morning. Dh is going to join me and I have so many special in room services planned for everyday and night. I am anxiously awaiting Sunday night where they will come and run the infinity edge tub and fill it with exotic flowers and oils. They also bring up strawberries with 4 different sauces and whip cream. Fun fun.
I have been running around like crazy shopping. Now I need to get off my tail and pack.
I'm so excited. We have made a pact to not discuss anything reguarding the baby process. Although I do believe we have come to a first step conclusion-I do believe we are certain that we would feel safer trying the tubal reversal first with clomid. The thought of developing ovarian hyperstimualation scares the shit out of me. They pretty much bluntly said that I would end up in the icu even with a mild case not only fighting for my kidney but for my life. I appreciate when doctors are blunt because they know I know the truth so why sugar coat it.
I have some resumes out and that made me feel good as well. My transplant doctor put me on 10mg of valium tid. I haven't taken it more than once a day let alone three times.
I haven't been on here in a while but I am so glad I decided to make a journal entry before skipping town because my precious Nadine safely delivered her babies today. Nadine-you will be an amazing mommy, just look at Monty. I am so truely happy for you.
I may try to pop on from the hotel to see if pictures of the beauties get posted!!!!
Hotel Victor here we come!!!! I'll take some pictures and post them here when I get home.
Hope all of my ttc friends have a great week. And all of my pregnant friends stay healthy and Nadine, I can't wait to meet your new little darlings.

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Just got home from South Beach and I must say I am so glad we went. We had the most amazing time ever had down there because of all the superbowl events. We met so many players and our concierge got us into the Motorola Kick off party. Which was so fun. I got my nasty ass peace sign covered up while we were there with a ny Giants helmet and am so happy to be rid of the peace sign. The hotel was amazing as usual, this year C booked the Very Victor Ocean Suite, instead of the regular room and oh my god I didn't want to leave.........the view was amazing. We didn't talk baby at all. I shopped quite a bit but only ended up getting Victorias Secret sweatsuits and a few tops from Just Cavalli. Chris bought me the most amazing necklace as a surprise and I also had two 90 minute sessions at the spa getting all of my tension worked out.
Came home to my child having been out of school for two days now because of snow. Which according to mother we didn't even get yesterday and this morning maybe an inch but the roads are fine. Monday I will schedule our appointment with the high risk ob to discuss tubal reversal.
Sunday we are having a SuperBowl party and also celebrating my father's promotion.
Here are a few pictures from our trip. Can't wait to go back.
Relaxing after our flight (or should I say all the free cocktails on the flight)

Caught off guard by the freezing surf:

The room with the most amazing view:
the bathroom



the pool

the hotel


Hotel Victor's mascot, the jelly fish tank:

Sunrise view from bed:

my new tatoo

Chris and me at the Motorola Mile Kick off event

The ESPN radio show

ESPN Sports Center live


Party at Versace Mansion (right next door to our hotel)-too bad we couldn't take pictures once inside because the place is freaking amazing!

At the Motorola Mile Italian dinner party:

My surprise gift:

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UGH, damn it I knew we should not have told some certain people we were ttc!! My mother in law just called, and after viewing our pictures on our family website from our trip she asked if I was preggo. Said I look three months and was wondering if we would be making an announcement on Sunday! :roll: WOW-I know I still need to lose a good 15 but geez do I look that freaking big? :cry:

Then I get an email from that "friend" you know the one who can't pick up the phone and call or ever invite us to any of their events yet stalks my family website and blog. After 20 years of friendship she only speaks to me via email. This email was asking me to update my blog, when our next ivf appointment was and to tell me just how nice it must be to have money :roll: and be able to travel, considering we were just in Mexico in November (on Ford Motor Co thank you) :roll: and how I live every American woman's dream life and don't even have to work. Well, lord up above knows that I would trade the "American Woman's Dream Life" in for perfect health and the ability to get pregnant without any intervention in a New York minute. :evil: Why does what others have bother other people so much. I thought friends were supposed to be happy for one another-maybe that is why we really aren't friends anymore? I know that I am always happy when my friends do well, and I am the type that has friends from all walks of life. Some have more than me, many have less-why does it bother this one chick so much. 20 years, wasted imo.

If it wasn't Super Bowl on Sunday and I could get a room I would be on the first flight out tomorrow morning back to Miami! Obviously getting away is wonderful, until you come home.

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I talked to Jenn today and can't believe that she is already 13 weeks. And it is amazing because everything is perfect so far. By this point with Joshua she was already on bedrest and struggling so hard to stay pregnant. I'm so happy that it is going so well. Yet so jealous because I really wanted to go through pregnancy with her!!!! I can't wait to see what the high risk ob says about the reversal. Then I have my moments where I just want to do the ivf, Chris calls me fickle. I do know one thing for certain we want another child. Someone asked me if by considering the tubal reversal did that mean we were having second thoughts all together. NO way. We still want another child and we seem to want it worse and worse with every passing day.

Jenn finds out the sex of the baby in 7 weeks. I am thinking of making the drive to VA to see her when Em is on spring break. Since she gets two weeks we may also go visit family in nyc or florida. I want to get all of our visiting done with hopes that pregnancy is right around the corner.
Tomorrow I have to go to the lab to have my prograf levels checked. They were a little on the low side. Which would mean upping the dose, but the good news was I had lost some weight so here is to hoping the level will be right again tomorrow.

Lisa, we are praying for you and are so hoping that tomorrow you get that bfp.

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I am so excited! Not only am I happy because I got picked to sit on the board the night before last with Donor Services, but I am also flying to la to work with an OPO out there to stop the non-sense. I mean seriously if breast cancer treatment was portrayed in the wrong light lord knows someone would be all over it.
Also I resigned our lease yesterday at N'ville Shores Yacht Club. And we are moving to a patio, right next to our friend Ty. Can't wait. I have hit that freaking boat trailer 3 times now trying to back out of the garage! As if the scar on my leg from falling under the boat isn't bad enough my black car is "scarred" from the trailer, sheesh. Chris said we will put it back in the water March 1st. By next year we will have the tall garage to put it in during winter. I am just so against dry storage because of all the bug yucks that get all over it.

I also applied for a opo position with dci. Fingers crossed I get it.

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Because it is so cold here I thought it would help cheer me to post some old summer shots. I am so anxious to get the boat back to the club, can't you tell. I ordered a new bathing suit and it has a really flowing top in hopes that maybe just maybe I will be preggo at some point this summer. I remember the first day we got her it was so exciting. We named her ~SoBe It~ because we love South Beach and our life is really just like that and because it was a brand new boat we got to do the christening and all that. It was so much fun!
Her first trip to NSYC:

Me (ugh must go to gym asap after seeing this) and Meredith (her first time in the lake) in beautiful Priest:

Headin out:

Chilling in sailboat cove:

Me and my chica watching the Notre Dame game:

Is it March 1st yet????

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Oh and I forgot to mention I GOT THE JOB. On call prn but that is exactly what I asked for woo hoo!!!!

I'm so happy.
Now all we need is to be pregnant. When I went into Starbucks this morning the manager was announcing to everyone that his wife poas last night and they are pregnant. Now I am in this Starbucks atleast once a day (they gave me my coffee free yesterday just because I'm so loyal) so I was honestly excited for him. I did tell him I was so jealous, he asked why and I told him. Em was with me (home with a virus cold deal and we had just left the doc's office). She said "my mom and dad have to try so hard, just pray tonight and thank god for your baby". It was so sweet he promised her he would and then gave her a rose out of the flower arrangement someone had brought it (to advertise of course) when he handed it to her he thanked her for reminding him just how special this time was and how it really is a miracle, then he asked her if it would be okay if he prayed for her to become a big sister soon. She said "oh please do because God is the only one that make me a big sister it is just like that". I wanted to cry.
He told me Emily was an angel and he hoped that his child had half the humanity she appears to have.
I told her I did too, because my daughter is the most amazing young lady I have ever met. She prays daily for everyone on this website. Those pregnant to have a healthy pregnancy delivery and baby, those trying to become pregnant and those ill to find peace and health. She also prays that God watch over all people and animals everywhere so that they can stay warm and fed.
What did I do to deserve such an angel? And I hope whatever I did our next child is half the person that Emily is!

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What a day, too tired right now to post not to mention Craig, Kate and Pep are here for a visit from Chat. The game was fun although dad swears Kate and I caused them to lose, our dear friend is leaving for Iraq. Amber Lee picked out a beautiful wedding dress. Emily and Molls are still so sick, ugh...................................................Is it bedtime yet.......Nope, looks like it's only halftime on the Ny vs. Titans PS3 game.