I think I'm having a pretty bad week it all started last Saturday when DH slipped and fell on the ice and hit his head then DS getting sick. While caring for them my sister called to say they had an u/s and her baby is not well she has something wrong with her intestines and possibly her heart but for sure she will have to have surgery on her intestines. Then came Friday my MIL call to tell us that my SIL who is 11 weeks preggo had her first Dr appointment in Hong Kong and they did an u/s and no heartbeat when they measured the baby it was only about 8-9 weeks in size so today they did a d&c. This week SUCKED!! The thing about these pregnancies is that after all of my jealously and the guilt for not being happy for them. Now I feel terrible for feeling like that, that I couldn't be happy for them and now I feel so bad for them. I would not wish this kind of heartache on my worst enemy. The only redeeming thing is that I got AF so I called my Dr and they put me on the BC patch for a week then I can start a new cycle with femera.
So I'm an idiot I didn't think about the fact that the day after you put on a patch you aren't fully protected. So after I went to the Dr and he said I still had 6 follies I started to think that maybe we should have kept using protection but we didn't so here we are. I also didn't think about the possibilty of being pregnant so I just kept changing my patch now I am starting to wonder if I am preggo because for the past week I have had very full and tender breast and feeling nausea off and on but every test I take is neg. So i don't know should I call my Dr or just wait it out to see if AF comes or I get a pos. I'm supposed to go to the Dr next week anyway after AF to see how my ovaries look any cysts or what not before we start femera next cycle. I guess patience is a virtue and I should use it and stop obsessing about it all. If I am I am, If I'm not I'm not. that's just the way it is.
So I'm not preggo but thats ok now we can start our femara cycle and that is going ok so far I realized that it's been 5 months since we've had a cycle we could use so I'm really hoping I don't get over stimulated again and we can at least have a chance. I f we get 2-4 follicles we can go ahead with the IUI and hopefully that will be all we need to get preggo. This TTC road has been too long I really didn't think that it would take this long to get #2 underway it's been almost a full year since we started trying. I know the first time it took us 4 1/2 years but we were not aggressive as we have been this time so I didn't think this time it would take this long. I'm just so impatient I can't even stand myself.