I've decided to start a public ttc journal as another way to distract myself as I wait and wait and wait to get pregnant.
I have to say that I'm slightly glad that this is taking some time to actually happen. We've been trying for five months now. The process has brought Danny and I closer together. We've had many conversations about our plans for raising a baby together and how things will be during my pregnancy. I feel like my ideas about my own life and the way I want it to be have evolved during this experience. I think our baby will benefit from
I'm not exactly sure how the pregnancy and baby are going to affect my career. I'm a mathematician with a tenure track job that I've just started. That means I'm supposed to be devoting every waking minute to my research for the next six years -- not trying to have a baby. But I've decided that I have to live in the moment. For me that means not putting off a family any longer. I've made a lot of sacrifices for my career and I'm now ready to just live my life. I'm hoping that means I'll do enough math to keep my job.
I expect to ovulate this week sometime between the 28th and the 30th. I'm planning to use an OPK this time.
I look forward to writing in this journal. Bye for now.
I think I've just started the 2WW. I can't help but feel optimistic. My big fantasy this month is that I can tell DH that I'm pregnant for his birthday present. Danny's family is going to visit us as a surprise for his birthday. I picture wrapping up a t-shirt or something with the word "Daddy" on it and then he'll unrap it in front of every body. That would be soooooooooooooooooooooooo fun.
We're still in Malibu visiting family for the holiday. We leave tomorrow to go back to Philly. I am so excited about unpacking our things -- we just moved to a house that we've been renovating for the last few months. My goal is to distract myself during the 2WW by completely unpacking and organizing our lives. I guess I'm nesting.