I never really thought I'd do one of these things. I'm not really much of a writer, but I really need a place to vent.
Hi, my name is Lisa. That's a good start, don't ya think??
I've been married to my wonderful, amazing, loving husband Steve for almost 8 years now. We are college sweethearts. We are both 33 and the proud parents of Carter. Carter will be 2 this Thursday. Holy Cow!!! My little man is growing up!!
It took us 18 months to get pregnant with Carter. We went to an RE and had all the normal tests. They couldn't find anything wrong with us. Unexplained infertility is so damn frustrating!! Anyway, we were all ready to try a few IUIs. As luck would have it, we got pregnant naturally the same cycle as the HSG. Carter is definitely our little miracle.
As soon as I had Carter, I knew that I wanted to get started right away on TTC number 2. Let's face it, I'm not getting any younger, and Carter really needs a sibling.
At my 6 weeks post partum appointment, the doc gave me a script for birthcontrol. I'll let you guess, do you think I filled the presciption??
We tried naturally for about 6 months before I made another appointment with my RE. I wasn't wasting anymore time. We went through all the preliminary testing again and started with IUIs...
and did IUI after IUI after IUI. This summer was all one big blur of doctor appointments, shots, and disappointments. After all was said and done we did 4 IUIs, 1 with clomid and 3 with Gonal-F. We finally decided that 4 was enough and it was time to move on to bigger things... IVF. My credit cards can't handle much more of this- stupid ahole insurance companies that think it is AOK to pay for testing to figure out why you can't get pregnant, but OH NO, they can't pay for treatment!!! Sorry, that was just a little crazy rant that could potentially go on and on, YKWIM?
Anyway, we decided we would be better off taking out a loan to try an IVF cycle. The success rate is higher and we are still on the young side. It's nice to have a few checks on the plus side, am I right??
So where am I today??? Lets see, CD 24 of a natural "rest" cycle. We used OPKs this cycle, but no charting. I am just burned out from temping. I still have a glimmer of hope that we accomplished operation "big brother Carter" this month. Only time will tell, and man will this be one short TTC journal
I need to have one more test next month, if AF shows her face. It is called a mock embryo transfer. They check out the uterus before the real deal so they know ahead of time exactly where to put the little guys during the transfer. Then I have to wait out the rest of next cycle. They won't let me get started with the stim drugs the same cycle as the mock. I'm not sure why, but I guess if that is the way they want it, I'll just have to be patient. October is a good month to get pregnant, isn't it??
Here is a quote I found in a fortune cookie just before I found out I was pregnant with Carter: "Patience is the best remedy for every trouble." Isn't that great? I still have that little piece of paper.
I think tomorrow is going to be CD1. I starting spotting today...
I was hoping this month would do it. Steve is leaving for Ohio in 2 weeks, so that eliminates any chance of getting a natural BFP next month. I guess all systems are go for IVF. I'm excited about the IVF since it gives me hope, but really sad that things had to come to this.
Today is definitely CD1. I am not as disappointed this cycle as I have been previously. I think it is because we did not do an IUI this month, so I didn't get my hope up too high. I think I am also excited because we are one step closer to IVF.
I was able to call and schedule my mock for next Tuesday.
I think I'm going to do acupuncture along with the IVF. I spoke with a woman on the phone about it tonight and it really sounds neat. It is suposed to increase bloodflow, balance hormones, relax you, and improve your response to the stims. I guess it can't hurt. It almost sounds like pampering, something I could really use about now, so I think the IVF is a great excuse to try it
Carter had a great B-Day today. My man is officially 2. He LOVED his barney doll. He took it to bed tonight and didn't even request bear-bear. I think bear-bear has been demoted. I had his pictures taken today. He really didn't want to get behind the camera until we bribed him with a toy truck.
Today I had my mock embryo transfer. It went really well. My uterus looks great!!! It only took about 5 minutes. I think I waited in the waiting room longer than the procedure. It was very simiar to an IUI, except they put saline into your uterus and then look at it with the ultrasound. They want to look for fibroids or any other abnormalities. I also got the call that I can go ahead and pick up my medication from the pharmacy. I am so excited to get started!!!
I am also bummed. Steve is leaving for Ohio tomorrow
That is what I picked up today at the pharmacy. I'm a little freaked out because of the IM injetions. Somehow I managed to make it through 4 IUIs with injectibles, and I only had to do subQ. I'm nervous because Steve won't be here to help. Today I picked up progestone in oil, HCG trigger, and azithromycin for before the retrieval. I still need to pick up some baby aspirin. I will get the follistim my first day of stimulation at the clinic because I am participating in a research study. Just call me "Lisa the Lab Rat." Actually being able to participate in this study is an amazing opportunity. The only difference between the study group and the control group is whether you get a long acting FSH or the normal FSH for the first 7 days. After that, the protocol is identical. I was super excited to only pay $28 dollars for meds. The stims are included as part of the study. The global fee for the study is $4000. Much cheaper than a normal IVF cycle. We are taking out a loan for this. We are not planning on doing it again, so I really hope it works. Fingers crossed!!
I got my protocol!! It may be off a day or two, it depends on when I get AF.
10/12 Start AF
10/13 Office visit for b/w, u/s, exam, vitals, weight
10/13 Stimulation Day 1
10/17 Stim Day 5- Office visit b/w, u/s and begin Ganirelix
10/20 Stim Day 8- Office visit b/w, u/s
10/21 Stim Day 9 (if needed) b/w and u/s
10/24 Egg Retrieval
We want to go for a Day 5 transfer, we will have to wait and see what happens.
Pregnancy Test 14 days from transfer
I took the week of October 23 off from work and I am not working mornings on the 18 and the 20. I hope that will help make things a little easier. It is going to be a challenge finding someone to watch Carter if my babysitter is unavailable.
Today I am about mid cycle, probably several days before O'ing. It is so weird with Steve away. At this point we would be planning our BD sessions to optimize our chances for a natural conception. We've been at it for over a year now. Wow, time sure flies when you are having fun. Theoretically I should be less stressed this month since it will be impossible for me to end up with a BFP
I sometimes get bummed out when I think about all my friends who have recently had babies. We are still TTC, and in the same timeframe they managed to get pregnant and actually have the babies. I should have a baby that is several months old by now. GRRR
I got a little stressed out tonight talking to Steve on the phone. His parents are going to come help me after the retrieval, since Steve will need to leave town afterwards to go back to work. He keeps asking for a date to give them. I keep trying to explain that I won't know exactly until I get AF. I may not need them prior to the retrieval if I can arrange for a babysitter for Carter when I need to go to my monitoring appointments. I also need to arrange babysitting for my acupuncture appointments. I also need to juggle work. Calgon- take me away!!