It looks like ER will be on Tuesday! We are still looking at about 4 follicles. The doc was thinking that if my E2 numbers went down or leveled off, we would do ER on Monday. I haven't had a call, so my E2 numbers must have went up, which would put is on target for Tuesday. I am a bit annoyed because he thought it would be Wednesday at my last scan. Of course I already asked for the day off, so now I have to rearrange my schedule again... We may transfer either Thursday or Friday, depending on the number of embies we get. I am so excited to be almost done with belly shots, I am getting quite sore. It will be a relief to switch to the PIO shots in the rump.
We are doing dinner and firepit here tonight for Mother's Day. It should be fun, the weather is awesome!!! Anything to take my mind off of IVF for a while is just fine by me!!
Tomorrow is ER day!!! I rearranged my schedule again today, so that is taken care of. I am just going to call off sick on Friday (it is much easier and much less stressful). I am feeling bloated and ready to get these eggies out So if I call off on Friday, I will have only missed one day of work for this IVF cycle. I think that is pretty good (I only work 3 days a week, but all in all, not bad). I'm nervous, but excited. I will probably sleep all day tomorrow after we get home. MY SIL is taking Carter for the day. I am planning on working on Wednesday. I hope I am home for the fertilization report phone call. Today was cool, no SHOTS!!
Back from ER! We got 6 eggies!! I think a few may not be mature because the follicles looked a little small, but I feel happy and encouraged. I am sitting here on my bed with the laptop like a princess. This ER was much better than last time. I've never met this particular doctor before, but he was hilarious. He wasn't as rough as my doc either. I really didn't bleed that much as compared to the blood bath my last ER was. I still feel a little queasy with Major cotton mouth, but all in all, I am feeling good. I hope this is a sign of good things to come!! The ET should be Friday. I am an pins and needles waiting to hear how they fertilized. It is very weird thinking that my future offspring are in a lab right now.
I got the call. Of the 6 eggs that were retrieved, 3 were mature and all 3 of them fertilized. We are going to do a day 2 transfer tomorrow and will probably transfer all 3. I forget to ask about quality, so I guess I'll find out tomorrow.
Everyone is all tucked in!! We put all 3 embies back. #1 was a 4 cell grade 4 (not really good quality), #2 was a 2 cell grade 1, and #3 was a 2 cell grade 2. I am telling them to get comfy for a while. We had a really neat conversation with the embryologist and the doctor and learned all kinds of neat things about embies! Now I am officially in the 2ww!!
I am almost done with the bed rest phase. I really feel like a slug and can't wait to get back to normal/light activity. I am trying really really hard to stay on the couch, it is just hard when there are so many other things I could be doing. I think my back is actually sore from being on it so much!! (get your mind out of the gutter... you know who you are ) Here is the question... Should I cheat and test ahead of time?? I'm thinking YES- last time I held out and it didn't work, so I am thinking, let's just go for it this time. I was thinking about doing it over Memorial Day weekend. It may be a big mistake if it is a BFN because we are going camping with family, so I am going to have to think about it a little more.
Had my progesterone checked today and it was 47.8. They are happy with that, anything above 15 is good, and I am to contine with the same dosage of PIO. I am now in the 1ww. I am getting so nervous. Luckily time should fly because of the long Memorial Day weekend. Nothing significant to report as far as symptoms go, I just feel "heavy" in the belly area.
I got the call, BFN on the beta. I am so upset right now. This year has just SUCKED with 4 failed IUIs and 2 failed IVFs. I just need a break from this whole TTC thing. I am just tired of doctor visits, shots, calendars, probing, needle sticks, not being able to have a beer or drink caffeine, gaining weight, being afraid to exercise, tracking my cycle... I just want my life back for a while. Maybe I have one more IVF in me for the future, but not in the near future. I have one wonderful dear little boy that I want to enjoy. I know that is more that some people struggling with infertility have. I just need some time to grieve. I am going to take a little break from PO for a while, I need to stop obsessing. I wish everyone good luck and thanks for reading. I'm sure I'll be back some day, but for now I need a break. I just wish this had a happy ending...
I'm closing this journal and we are moving in another direction. We have decided to get off the infertililty rollercoaster!! YAY!! I am so excited to be done with that chapter. I feel so free! It is amazing how peacefull I feel after we actually made the decision to stop. It is so easy to get wrapped up in "just one more try." I am so grateful that Steve has helped me to see that we don't need to keep doing this. We are now going to pursue adoption. Thank you for reading this journal and feel free to continue reading about our journey in the adoption journals.