Melissa's TTC #1 Journal ( Pregnant with #1 )

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Melissa's TTC #1 Journal ( Pregnant with #1 )

I told myself that if i wasn't pregnant by cycle 6 I would start a TTC journal but honestly I never thought I would get here.

My name is Melissa 24 and DH Chris is 27 we will be together 8 years on June 11th and were married on July 22nd, 2006 so we are coming up on our 1 year anniversary.

Our original plans were to start trying right away whenever we got married but we had to put things on hold where I was being diagnosed for depression and was scared the drugs may do something to a baby. So November of 2006 we decided it was was time I would be taken off of anti depressants within that month so we decided to go for it as no time would ever be right for a baby.

Here we are 6 months later and without DH support I don't know if I would be able to handle the ups and downs. Some people say they fight so much during TTC but I think it has actually brought DH and I closer.

So here we are at cycle 6 I have a doctors appointment planned for May 1st to go in and discuss a few things with my doctor. I seems every month my cycle is getting longer and O is later every month so I will have to wait and see what he says then.

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I had my Doctors appointment yesturday which was a complete waste of time. My Doctor is not concerned that my cycles are getting longer and says that it is normal WTF?

So for this month I've come up with my own plan.
1. BD every second day until a clear O shows up
2. I'm going to try vitex depending on what the person at the store tells me
3.Green Tea up until O

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OK so our plan for this month has changed a bit we decided to just let it happen this month but if it doesn't we will try Vitex.

So far we have been keeping to our BDing pattern of every second day and drinking Green Tea. It seems like I am going to O when I normally would I have been having an increase in CM but so far no rise in temps or o pain I guess we will just have to wait it out and see what happens.

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So I put my temp in this mprning and FF gave me crosshairs on cd 16 which is early for me I don't agree with them I think it was cd 20 but I will have to wait and see.

I did put the temp I discarded back in but after FF saying I o'd early last month and didn't I don't really trust it.

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I'm starting to think FF may have been right on my O date my Cm has been dry since about 2 days after cd 16 and the creamy CM before that I wasn't sure if it was actually creamy.

So right now I am 6 dpo and I work at an ice cream shop and never before have the ice creams made me sick by the smell and now certain ones do is this a good sign I'll have to wait and see.

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I was right FF moved my crosshairs today and I didn't O until cd20 which is what I thought but its still early so we shall see if something good comes of it.

This month if I am not pregnant I am seriously thinking about taking a break I am back to work not and I don't need the added stress. Maybe taking some time off and working at getting my cycles back is just what I need.

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This month has been so much less stressful than previous months and just when i think that is the best thing bam my SIL stresses me to the limit.

I am pretty sure her and her DH and planning on TTC after her telling me time and again not for 5 years grrrrrr... She is the type of person that has to get ahead of everyone else and it wouldn't surprise me if she is doing this just so DH and my children to not get all the attention from DH's parents.

Well thats my vent for now... On the bright side DH and I are going to see the local High School musical tonight I can't wait.

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I woke up this morning to a temp of 36.8 and my temp has never gone this high. I am only 4dpo but is it possible that the lower temp yesturday day was an implantation dip? I've read that it can happen earlier but I have my doubts i'm thinking it is just because the temps outside getting warmer. I guess I'll have to wait and see what the next couple days brings.

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Over the last couple of days my temps have drooped down to just above the coverline??? I have no idea what is going on my body is just crazy I guess.

I have no idea what my temp was this morning because after only about 2 or 3 hours of sleep i didn't think it would be very accurate.

Also I have been having extremely bad lower back pain to the point where I can barely walk it usually gets like this before AF but not at 5dpo and I haven't done anything to hurt it that i know of so I am really hoping it is a pregancy sign.

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According to FF I am 10 dpo O I'm very uncertain weather FF is right or not after my late O last month I don't even think I have O'd. I guess if AF shows in 3 more days I will know I O'd for sure.

As for testing I'm not even thinking about it. I have no pregnancy tests and have no urge to buy any. I am going to wait until at least cd 40 unless I see a temp that actually comfirms that I have O'd.

Also with DH's dad in the hospital I have no time to even think about testing but if I was to test and get a BFP how great it would be to tell him.

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As I said before I was a little worried that FF has my O date wrong so I looked through the prego charts on FF and found one that is very similar to the way mine is going which gives me so much hope

Here it is

http://www.fertilityfriend.com/ChartGallery/68302.html

you can find mine by clicking on my ticker

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My temp rose a little more this morning but I am still not getting my hopes up. But it is really starting to look like the chart in my previous entry so maybe I am getting my hope up a little. I guess only time will tell Smile

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all day I have really intense lower back pain and a pulling/ heavy feeling in my lower stomach plus I am really tired to day I don't want to get my hopes up but I think I am starting to.

Also I just have a feelingthis month they say when some people are pregnant that they just know well I don't know if that is what it is or what but I have absolutely no desire to test either hmmmmm...

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Well I am 12dpo today and still have no desire to test I think I am scared to I just don't know if I could take seeing a BFN right now after everything that has happened this week maybe the first of next week would be better.

This morning so I almost felt like I had a very mild AF cramp but it disappeared almost a min later and didn't come back.

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13 dpo today and still have not tested I planning on tomorrow it is a holiday here and DH will be home with me so he will be here for suport.

Also a few symptoms are creeping up...

- lower back pain
- fatigue
and sore bbs

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well when i got up this morning my temp was still high so i tested and...

It was a BFP...