Well I'm starting this kinda late cause I didn't even know these were here, but better late then never. Okay, here we go...
My name is Michelle and I am 31 years old. My husbands name is Mark and he is 30. We got married on May 6, 2006 and decided to start trying for baby #1 right away. I have psoriatic arthritis and before TTC I had to go of some of my medication, so just before the wedding, i went off the biggy, and i had to be off of it for 1 month, so we made the decision to start trying on May 21st, but that was in the middle of a cycle so i was hoping for my period to come really fast so that we could get to trying.....and of course, because if i didn't have bad luck, i wouldn't have any luck at all, I ended up having the longest cycle of my life at 76 days, which brought us to August 5th, so that is when I officially started trying.
I am now in my 9th cycle and 10th month of trying and no BFP so far.
This month we are going to try preseed this month and see how that goes, and if nothing happens than I am going to take my dr up on her offer and go see a RE and have some tests done. Mark has not been tested yet either so I think that will be the first thing we do.
So now I am on day 12 of my 9th cycle and I am hoping for good things for this one,.....i guess we will see.
well not much to report today, day 13 and no signs of O. I have done 2 OPK's and nothing so far, I think I only have 2 or 3 more of them, so I have a feeling i am not going to catch it on those. I am still just hoping I ovlulate this month.
So I have a vent for the day. There is this woman in my office that is really irritating me lately. She askes me almost everyday if I am pregnant. I feel like saying, "Lady, even if i was pregnant, i wouldn't tell you". She is such a busy body. And then she has the nerve to ask me if I want to borrow her husband, I couldn't believe she said that, like impying that my husband is broken or something....Can you imagine. She has asked me this about 4 times now, I think the next time I will competely lose it on her. This has taught me a very valuable lesson though. The next time (assuming i will get pregnant this time and have the chance to have a second child) I won't be telling anyone that I am trying. I made the big mistake of telling everyone this time because I was so excited when we first started trying, but now I know why they say to keep it to yourself. Most people have been okay, but this one lady is just friggen rude.
so I can't sleep because I am in a lot of pain right now, also I took a nap when i came home so i'm not super tired. My pain is getting really bad right now and it kind of scares me, cause I was very confident that when I finally got my BFP i would be able to handle the pain, but if its bad before i get preggers, what is it going to be like when i am preggers. Thank god I have a wonderful hubby who does so much for me. I don't know what I would do without him. Like tonight, he knew I was tired when I came home from work, so he told to me lay down, knowing full well that i would fall asleep, and then let me sleep for a while instead of making dinner, which i do most nights. Then when i woke up he said lets go out and get dinner cause i know you don't feel like cooking. He seems to be able to sense my pain or discomfort without me even having to tell him.
So i haven't O'd yet, waiting patiently....okay, who am i kidding, not so patiently, hopfully it will be soon. I started using preseed tonight, it was really good, I hope this helps my chances this month, since i never seem to get any EWCM.
well my eyes are starting to burn as i am writing so i am off to bed. Hopefully to wake to blazing high temps!!!!!!
So i just got a phone call, it was from Isis Fertility Clinic, apparently my doctor referred me after my last visit to her. So my appointment is on July 16th. I'm so excited to see what they have to say. Hopefully something good will come out of this and i will soon be holding my baby in my arms,....OMG it gives me chills. So right now i am using preseed and by the time i see the RE this cycle should be over, and if it doesn't result in a BFP then I am putting my hopes and dreams into the hands of the good people at Isis.
My mom is coming over in a bit, I haven't seen her in a little while so that should be nice. Mark is running a relay race for cancer research, and it goes from 8 pm to 8 am, so i am on my own for the night, I hate being alone so hopefully my mom will stay late...hee hee, i am such a baby.
well thanks for reading, talk to you soon.
So last night Mark and I were watching a movie and I started to get really hot, so i took my temp and it was 98.6, and even though it was at night, it was very odd for me to have a temp that high at night before O, and I started to have some watery CM, so i made sure we BD'd last night, and the night before too. So I woke up this morning and my temp was 97.88, which is pretty good, i'm really hoping i O'd yesterday, which would be CD16. Then I can start the dreaded 2WW. I am so mad at myself though, it was late last night when we BD'd and I completely forgot to use the Preseed that was in my bathroom... I did have some watery CM though, so hopefully if I did O, it will take.
So my neck and my back are still killing me. I took work off on Friday, and probably should have again today, but i didn't. I don't know what I am going to do to get rid of this pain, i need to buy a heating pad i think. Hopefully it will go away soon.
I got alot packed this weekend, packing up the den first so that we can store all the packed boxes in there from the rest of the place. I can't wait till we move. I will feel so much better about bring a baby home in the house as opposed to the condo. Only 19 more days till we move....
yay, i got my crosshairs today, 16dpo, so early for me which really makes me happy. My BD timing was really good too, FF gave me "high" for my chances this month....I really hope that is true.
I am still packing like crazy, I am home sick right now because of my neck and back, but i am trying to pack while i am home, which probably isn't helping my problem. Oh well, it has to get done...
well FF changed my O, now its at 18dpo, so my potential due date would be March 18th. I had a lot of EWCM this time, which I NEVER have, and I also used preseed, so I am really hoping that this time is it......so if AF doesn't show, I will be testing on July 13, and if its BFN, then its off the the RE on July 16th. I really hope I don't have to go that route, but if I do so be it.
I seem to be in good spirits lately, except for my back and neck pain i am feeling pretty good. I have to say though, I am getting a little tired of seeing pregnancies and babies all around me right now, its not really bothered me that much before, but for some reason, i am having a hard time with it now. I work at a civic centre which has a day care, and when i am sitting out on my break everyday, they are bringing the kids out for a walk....they are do darn cute, but it makes me so darn sad....
Well enough moping around for today....I have to stay positive...ya...thats right....anyone know how to do that???? lol
so as you can probably tell, AF came and so i was out for March. So on July 16th I went for an appointment with the fertility specialist. It went really well, she thinks there is a chance that i have PCOS, so next cycle she will start doing test, i have to start with the CD3 test and go from there. DH is also going to get tested.
So i decided to relax this month and not stress out so much with temping and BD timing and such, and it really has been a much more relaxing month, except for when the yeast infection came out of no where, it was the worst one ever, its gone now, but i think i may have missed my O time, so there goes this month. I just can't catch a break.
My good friend told me that she is pregnant with her second child today, and i am so happy for her, but i just wanted to have my first before she had her second, well i guess its not going to work out that way.
oh well i guess i will just have to go for the test and hopefully the doctors can get me preggers.
wow, its been a long time since i wrote in here. Okay, i will try to pick up from where i left off....
So after we went to the RE and talked to the doctor, we had to wait to get all the tests done until my next AF came. Well because I was only on CD5 when i went, i knew i had a while, so i figured i would just take it easy for that month since i knew someone was going to be looking at me now and getting to the bottom of it. Well that cycle was only 24 days with no O, and really bad timing, DH's grandmother died the day before and we were making all the arrangements for the funeral and such. So all the days i could do the fertility testing (2-4) i was at visitations or a funeral. So we had to wait another whole month. So again, i tried to take it easy, but this month I had major O pains and 2 +OPKs so i decided that this might be the month cause everything was going so well. So we bd'd like crazy over O time, and FF actually gave me "HIGH" for my preg. chance. I was so excited. Well that was short lived...AF came on Sept 7....so off to the clinic we went for our tests.
Our test date was Sept 10, it was wierd. Poking and proding and 21 viles of blood...yeah, thats right...21. DH was so sweet though...he went and did his thing and didn't complain once.
So I called back to make a follow up appt. and they gave me Oct. 2, so we went to this appt just a few days ago. The RE told me that all my test came back fine except my thyroid was a little underactive, so she wanted to run it again. and DH was fine too, she said his morphology was a tiny bit low, but not alarmingly, and his count and motility were great. So she said she would put me on Clomid to regulate my cycles and we would go from there.....so yesterday I started my first round of clomid. I'm really hoping this cycle brings good things....I guess we will just have to wait and see.
Sorry this is so long, if you made it this far, thanks for reading....
so far my this cycle is going pretty good. I ovulated yesterday, 2 eggs, one from each side. One was 2.1cm and the other was 1.9cm They gave me an HCG shot to make them fall, and then told me to bd the next night and the night after that, but when i got home the clinic had called and said that i was already having a surge on my own and that we would have to start bding earlier. So, i went yesterday for my ultrasound and they said they both fell. Yay. I am so happy, but trying not to get too excited though cause i don't want to set myself up for a huge disappointment. DH and I also talked about the possibility of having twins, and we have both decided that would be awesome if that is what happens. Two is better than none. It would also be better for me too because of my arthritis, it will be hard for me to go through a whole nine months with no meds, but i am so willing to do that for a baby, but if we had twins, we would have our family done, and i wouldn't have to do the 9 months again. (i totally will though if i only have one). Look at me talking like i am already pregnant....lol I'm just happy and DH and I are on the same page with whatever happens. So now i have to wait for the dreaded 2 weeks, i hate the 2WW.....i go back on November 8th for a beta. Cross you fingers for me......