Mika's Journal - TTC 1st Baby at 40!

CYCLE DAY 1

This is my first post so I haven't had a chance to learn the abbreviations yet.

Well, long story short......met the man of my dreams July 2002. Engaged July 2004. Turned 40 in June 2006. Married July 2006. DH is 33. Started TTC on our honeymoon. We started charting upon our return 2 wks later.

I was a day late yesterday and we were very excited but I started my cycle later that afternoon. I know we've only been charting for a short time but we were very disapointed none the less. I am sitting up cramping at 3:00 in the morning feeling a little overwhelmed by all I've read on the Web regarding women TTC at 40. I can't sleep now. I was just looking for charts and such but instead ended up getting a rude awakening. It's so strange because everything I read tells me that being 40 is so life changing, but I don't feel any different inside. If I had to guess an age I'd say I still feel 20 something! I still do cartwheels and handsprings when I play with my dogs outside. (Makes them crazy.) I still dance around the house like a fool when I hear my favorite songs. I still get school girl silly when I get together with my friends and they talk about things that make me blush. :oops: Yes, I even still blush. I'm just as active as I've always been and I still look forward to my birthdays and loved my 40th just like all the others! Logically I know how I feel may not have much to do with mother nature's time clock but it was still shocking to read the percentages among other things I don't care to go into this late/early. Funny, regardless of what I've heard all my life about getting older it's never seemed to effect me in any way, but it did last night. I suppose I'm feeling this way because it is the first time in my life my age has ever been an obstacle for me. Wow, what a eye opener.

Anyway, as unaware as I have been regarding any changes my body has supposedly gone thru from 35 and up I'm just hoping that my reproductive organs are as oblivious to these "changes" as I seem to be. :D

That being said I'm still very optimistic for October. DH has a birthday coming up next month and I'm hoping I will have a wonderful surprise for him :binkybabe: ....for me too!

Positive Point: I found this site while reading all the stats on women 35 and older TTC. Very happy about that!

Cycle Day 6

Due to a personal family matter my wonderful, beautiful, loving, DH & I have decided not to TTC this month. We will not be using any type of birth control either so it's really, as it always is, in God's hands. So, I will be spending this time concentrating on my health in general & maintaining a good healthy weight to do my part in preparing my body for our little miracle that I believe will be on it's way in good time. :preggo:

Postitive Point: I have more time to enjoy the anticipation of my child to be!