I just woke up from a beautiful nap. How I love to sleep. I'm going to be so sad when ds stops taking an afternoon nap. DH just said the strangest thing to me. He's never not been supportive of getting pg, but he has been pretty quiet about it. That's just how he deals with things. I just sat down on the sofa with a bowl of cereal and out of the blue he said, I think you're pregnant. Now wouldn't that be nice. Tomorrow is the progesterone blood work. I should know by lunchtime. I'm also off 1/2 day, but only because of a dentist appt. Hope for good news!!
Another day closer to knowing. I've never been so happy for Monday. I know that sounds crazy, but I needed the weekend to be over. Now I'm in the countdown until Saturday. That's 13 days past the IUI and the same day I got AF last time after the IUI. I'm going to be at the beach this time with dh and his family. Yikes. Not exactly where I'd want to be, but oh well. If the HPT is positive, I'll be in a glorious mood. If its negative, I'll probably drink too much at dinner and feel awful for the ride home. Let the official countdown begin...5 days until Saturday!!
I am so happy right now. I don't even know what to do with myself. I really think this is the happiest I've been in months. I got the results back from my progesterone and it was 54.5!!!!! Last month, it was 12 and before that 9. Finally.....
I feel like a commercial for teenage acne. There's barely a spot on my body that doesn't have a pimple on it. That isn't really good for self esteem, but amazingly enough I just don't care. I even went shopping today to try and find some tshirts and shorts to bring to FL and nothing fit. Again, I didn't care. This week has been a good week for me. It's spring break on campus which means its quiet. My boss gave me a $50 Amex gift card as a reward for doing a good job at work. My progesterone was great. Plus, the weather is beautiful. Can you tell that the s/e of clomid have worn off? LOL.
Pimples be gone....pleeeeaaaassse. My face hasn't looked like this in ages. My skin has never been perfect, but its been the best its been in a while. DH actually said he thought I was pg the other day. He actually remembered my face being broken out while I was pg with ds.
I'm tempted to test tomorrow, but I can't decide if I want to or not. If its negative, I'll be very bummed out and will have a 3.5 hour drive to think about it. I hate to wait until Saturday though. I don't think I'll be able to make it.
Thank goodness Friday was a quiet day at work. The University was shut down for spring break and there were only a handful of us on campus. No one could truly hear my sobbing. I really don't think I've ever cried that hard. I could feel my heart breaking. Then of course, I went through the "why me" stage. I'm not sure if I'm over that stage yet.
Luckily enough, we went out of town this weekend with dh, ds and our niece. It forced me to get it out of my system and have fun which is exactly what I did.
We went to the beach on Saturday and it was beautiful. Plus, I had some beers on Sat night. Yummy, I forgot how good those can taste.
Sunday came way too fast and of course Monday. And the water works have started up again. I was so good at taking my mind off of things this weekend, but it seems as if I've just postponed the thoughts until today. My hormones must still be in action because I can't talk about it without crying. I feel like such a baby.
The result of my tears has been the decision to take a break this month and let it go. I know, easier said than done, but I'm going to try my best. I'm heading to FL on Thurs to see my family which will definitely help. I'll get a break from work and bask in the sun.
I called my drs office and they were wonderful about it. She even suggesting trying to get into pilates or yoga to help with the anxiety and I think I'm going to give it a try. At this point, I'm willing to do just about anything.
I better get back to reality. Work is beckoning me.
I feel so relaxed. I don't think I've felt this way in ages. I don't have to worry about taking medicine, I don't feel like I'm going to attack at any minute and I don't feel comfortable one minute and dripping sweat the next. Don't get me wrong, there is a small side of me that misses those feelings, but only because its getting me closer to having a baby. For now, this is how I need to feel. I'm taking ds to visit my grandparents in FL tomorrow and I won't be back until Tuesday. I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!
DH is going, but I'm hoping he's going to work on our kitchen this weekend. It's in desperate need of help. Gotta love an old home.
GL to everyone who is waiting to test. I hope to see some fun news when I get back!
I'm back and completely relaxed. I even got a little sun tan. I had so much fun with my family. I got to see my grandparents, parents and my sister and her kids. It got a little hairy at points with 4 kids under the age of 8, but not too bad.
I got back last night and was wonderfully seduced by dh last night and this morning. I felt like a newlywed.
I am doing my best not to track anything. No OPK and no medicine. I feel the need to let go of everything. I'm so tempted though because my body is showing signs of O, but it would be way earlier than normal. I wonder if I'm still reaping the benefits of the medicine. Who knows?
I can't believe its almost been a week. It's been crazy since I got back from FL. We went downtown on Thurs and listened to bluegrass and had a few beers. We went with our friends who have a little girl born 3 weeks before Nate. Plus, they go to daycare together. They had so much fun dancing together.
So I had huge plans to clean this past weekend. My body must have known I was dreading it because I woke up Sat morning sick as a dog. I don't think I was awake more than 4 hours and that's not like me. I was miserable which was a bummer because I didn't get anything I needed to get done for Easter.
Easter was chilly so we didn't really do a major egg hunt. It was just the three of this this easter. Dh's family is kind of weird when it comes to get togethers. I was brought up that you celebrate holidays with your family. I know that everyone is different, but I thought it was strange that his sister and husband declined coming over for Easter. They wanted to do their own thing. Oh well...their loss.
Then, mil pulled her normal antics and blew us off at the last minute. No shock there.
Then back to reality today. Nothing new on the ttc end. Trying hard not to track things, but you know I couldn't resist. I've been feeling like I'm going to o for almost a week know. Is it possible that I can't tell without POAS?