Hi everyone. My first post. I haven't lurked long but I thought this might be a more healthy way to channel my ttc anxiety than scrutinizing every twinge in my body over and over again. Every five minutes I decide I'm pretty sure I'm preggers, then I change my mind, then I burp and change my mind back. Not the best way to spend two weeks.
A little about me. DH and I are both 32. We've been "trying" since December 2006. That is in quotes because we sort of fell into the TWW the first time. We were, in fact, not "trying" -- we just didn't have, how do you say....the right equipment for not "trying." And I -- not having "tried" before -- knew just about nothing about O'ing. It was about one week after my last AF, and I figured that was WAY too soon to be concerned about babies. I was wrong -- I think. After some bizarre behavior on the part of my body (LOTs of bloating/gas, bionic sense of smell, huge globs of CM), I started to suspect. Some quick research suggested these were classic early preggo symptoms. So, with my entire world turned around in the course of a week, I started to adapt to (and love) the idea of having a tiny little addition to our family. We had thought about starting to "try" sometime in mid-2007 anyway.
Well, I didn't have to get used to the idea too much. I had severe cramps about 1.5 weeks after I O'd. Then two days later -- and a little bit early -- AF arrived in full force. I was devastated. Amazingly. I didn't expect to be quite that devastated. But then again -- I never quite imagined I would find myself getting used to the idea of a baby only to have the bottom drop out on me.
My next two cycles were exceptionally long -- 34 days each. I'm usually 28 days like clockwork. We continued to BD at what I guessed were my O days. In retrospect, I suspect I may not even have done so. Perhaps my body was adjusting back from that first month.
Last month, my cycle went back to normal -- 28 days. We did a lot of BDing. But we also took a trip to Italy (thinking it would help the baby-making venture) right around the time I expected to O. Ironically, the travel might actually have messed the O dates up. In any event, no dice last month. So I got serious. I bought a basal thermometer, a ferning microscope, the "Ov-watch" and researched the HECK out of baby-making.
That is where we find ourselves now, dear reader. Armed with all this, I set out to make CYCLE #5 the cycle to remember. It started on April 25. According to the Ov-Watch, I O'd n May 10 (CD 16). We BD'd every other day from CD 8 to CD 11 and then every day from CD 12 to CD 16. Poor DH. I bet, when he was younger, he never imagined there would be a day he would be begging not to BD! Moral of the story -- all the teenage boys out there should be careful what they wish for.
Anyway, today is CD 21 and -- according to Ov-Watch -- 5 dpo. To be honest, I ain't feeling much. Some really slight, dull achiness in the lower abdomen. It could be anything. The spicy food my Mom cooked when she came to visit this weekend. Very late exercise soreness (though I haven't worked out in over a week). Gas. Ulcers. The list could go on. Anything but pregnancy. But I'm really, really keeping my fingers crossed. I don't want to complain because I know there are tons of women who've been through a lot more than me, but I am gettting a little frustrated with the whole process. At this rate, it seems a miracle to me that the human species is able to propogate at all.
Well, that is it for now. Still cramping a little and hoping it continues onto to a BFP. Fingers crossed.
Nothing much to report today. Crampiness got pretty bad yesterday. I went to the bathroom (#2) A LOT. It wasn't diarrhea like some ladies have reported. Just frequent urges to go I guess. Last night, my nipples hurt (especially the left one) and the cramping continued. But, this morning, the cramping seems to have died down and I don't really have any other symptoms.
If symptoms were absolutely necessary for a BFP, I'd say that things don't look so great for this cycle. But I'm heartened by all the ladies who have reported a BFP after little or no symptoms.
I'm just trying to keep the attitude as healthy as possible. Cycle 6 is not the worst place to be. It takes a while for lots of people. Nothing to worry about. Fingers still crossed, though. Really, really crossed.
Just wanted to add that I just found a glob (mediumish size) of yellow CM. Not sure whether it was yellow because it was yellow or it had been tinted by the multivitamins I take. But, either way, that is what I found. Sorry if TMI but them's the breaks.
Just checking to see if my ticker works.
I really wish I knew what was going on with my body. I have almost no cramps. My nipples still hurt. Not the whole boob, just the nipple and the areola (sp?). That is about it in terms of symptoms.
Actually, I'm pretty gassy as well. But I having trouble separating cause and effect with that. I feel like I get hungry very quickly and then get REALLY hungry (I can feel the acid dropping into my stomach as the hunger deepens). I think the gas may result when I don't eat immediately.
I'm tired too. Not dead tired but worn out feeling. Which is odd because I'm in the middle of an excellent lull at work after almost 6 months of HELL. How to explain, eh?
I don't know.
I'm completely overexamining.
I'm even starting to think maybe I imagined the cramps over the last two days. I wish I temped because that would give me something to do and look at every day during the TWW. I just can't get my act together to do it. Waking up every morning AT THE SAME TIME. Hmm, wonder what that says about my ability to get up every two hours a night for feedings. (hopefully its one of those you-get-used-to-it-when-you-have-no-choice things).
Maybe there are perfectly normal explanations for everything. Maybe these symptoms occur every month but I don't notice because I'm not obsessing over every little tick and twitch. Who knows, who knows. COME ON CD 29. That is when I've decided to test (assuming that AF doesn't come to visit before then, of course).
Well, I'm not feeling great today, which is good I guess from a baby-making perspective. Nipples still hurt when I took a shower this morning (e.g. when I lathered up). In fact I can feel sort of a tingling, sensitivity (if that makes sense) even when nothing is touching them.
I had a dull headache when I woke up, sort of like I'm about to get a cold. Could be allergies, I guess. The pollen count is high at this time. But it could also be something else.
I still have some lower abdominal cramping but that could be because I decided to eat some really spicy food last night. Or gas. Could always be gas.
And the bionic sense of smell is back. Today on the metro, I swore I could smell the herbal undertones of a body cream or something that the woman next to me was wearing and it was overwhelming. I'm pretty sure this woman -- a nice elderly lady -- did not put anything that was really that strong. I think it was me. Or maybe my imagination....
Anyway, other than that, everything is more or less the same.
Today, I felt pretty deflated. I woke up and felt perfectly normal. My nipples were still a little sore but not much. My stomach felt pretty normal. Everything felt completely BLAH. I know you are not supposed to judge whether or not this is "the month" based on sxs alone but.....I can't help it.
I wish I was one of those women who just "knew" she was pregnant after O'ing (and was right).
I'm still pretty tired though. That could be the crappy weather outside. It has been so very cold in the last two days (after 80 degree weather before that). I hate when it bounces around this way. But it makes me want to knit more, which is good, because I have a stash that can only be described as monstrous -- more yarn than I expect to be able to knit in this lifetime. So much, in fact, I've had to store it in different rooms in the house (including the guest room which is now devoted almost entirely to yarn).
Maybe the kid is dragging its feet because it knows the multitude of woolen garments that are store if it decides to take the plunge. But come on....when else can you dress your kid in handmade hats that make it look like its sprouting a tomato on its head?
I've been sneezing a lot and have a runny nose as well but, as I mentioned, the weather has been really up and down. That could easily be causing those sxs, as could the awful tree and flower pollen situation here.
That is about it for today.